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Too many fandoms. she/her. level 25. 🇲🇽🇺🇸 https://archiveofourown.org/users/ComplicatedSquishy101

[pinketine]

When the topic becomes about racism between children you very quickly realise children of colour aren't seen as children but as some other thing that should just take the abuse and then forgive the Real White Children because they didn't know better. They don't understand it but children of colour can and will very early in their youth.

[complicatedsquishy]

I don't think I realized just how big this fandom was until right now. I was looking at recently updated fics and guys of JUST today. June 2nd, 2026. At 2 pm PST. 200+ fics have posted under the Shane/Ilya tag on Ao3.

[azaablue]

the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be a part of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.

[vigilskept]

really i think the most insidious part of white supremacy is the way it will convince white people everything is actually About Them. being called out isn’t about you. poc expressing frustration at your behaviour isn’t about you. it’s about how you are affecting others. step one is literally just de-centre yourself from the conversation. anyone who’s not white has already had to learn this lesson the hard way and it gets tiring waiting for the rest of you to catch up

[beatricemeganblood]

its devastating when someone, in good faith, draw a trans woman who looks like me: tall, scruffy facial hair, wide shoulders, far apart boobs, big nose and then the trans community dog piles them in the comments saying its evil to depict such a negative stereotype like that.

like actually fuck off fuck off fuck off FUCK OFF FUCK OFF!!!!! and then theyll fight me when i reply with my pov! like christ lets all just chill the math out please for the christ of love

[theghostofashton]

eternal optimist

pairing: shane/ilya rating: t wordcount: 5.6k

It was important, his mom had told him. Kids would be looking up to him. He didn’t know who all he was reaching, but he did know that he’d be one of the only people that looked like him they would see. There still aren’t that many Asian players in the league. Whatever he’s done, his whole career has been about setting an example. About making sure he’s someone people can point to fifteen, twenty years from now and herald as an example of a successful Japanese-Canadian hockey player. A story to tell little Japanese-Canadian kids and something concrete for the naysayers. Proof that people who look like him have talent, have the ability to succeed. Proof that they’re worthy of being in the rooms. It’s a lot. Some days, Shane wishes he didn’t have to be bigger than himself. But events like this still mean something, even if they stopped meaning much to him years ago. It’s a good thing for him to show up. If the photos reach even one kid, that’s one kid who maybe feels less alone, less hopeless about their future. or, shane attends an event for asian professional athletes

read on ao3!

[complicatedsquishy]

Ugh at this point its pissing me off hot hot Hudson and Conner are

[complicatedsquishy]

I have three fanfic ideas fighting for dominance in my head rn but yes of course we should go to dinner tonight.

[complicatedsquishy]

Was pregnant with my baby for two months and she was finally born today 🎉

[complicatedsquishy]

Happened again except this time the pregnancy happened over the course of a day 🤯

[complicatedsquishy]

Was writing a crack fic as a warm up today and then I kept writing the crack fic until eight hours later its done and published on ao3

https://archiveofourown.org/works/85837861

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

#know your fandom history

[writingdose]

“I want to write a fic about this but I don’t think anybody will be interested in it” ummm hello excuse me ma’am what do you mean you don’t think anybody will be interested in it??? YOU. YOU ARE INTERESTED IN IT???? write it because YOU are interested in it and YOU want to write about it. fanfic writing should always be first and foremost about YOUR enjoyment, not other people’s.

[beaswellgirl]

yep, pretty much

[complicatedsquishy]

I like to think that when Shane is feeling super hypercritical of himself he doomscrolls criticism of his game play and technique on reddit.

In comparison I think Ilya doomscrolls on twitter but instead of looking himself up he looks up Shane. And like scrolls through his personal updates, spotting, any romantic links. Like reminding himself that Shane has a life that he can never be apart of.

When he wants to ragebait himself he looks at Shayden rpf.

[complicatedsquishy]

Was pregnant with my baby for two months and she was finally born today 🎉

[cookiedough77]

write that self indulgent fic, you would be insanely surprised how many people are waiting for THAT Fic™

[berlynn-wohl]

the number of times I have posted a fic that I'd written just to stop being haunted by some extremely specific demon from my distant past, and then got comments like "this meant so much to me, thank you for this, it really resonated, screaming crying throwing up etc"

it's almost like we all have feelings we keep to ourselves out of embarrassment but we do in fact all have them, so WRITE THE FIC

[complicatedsquishy]

I finally get the idea of building your own prison. For I too am trying to leave the house while adding another brick to its foundation