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Eyo, we’re the Controlled Chaos Collective,(perviously known as the bee hive system) we’re a multigenic collective of 100ish known members (system reset set our number waaay back) and we grow pretty frequently! our collective pronouns are ze/zir/zirself, and we all respond to Niv or Nivison ! (pls ignore the varying typing styles, we’re soupy) Please read below for our DNI, more info, request info, and our tagging system!

Request Status: Closed

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hey, just letting y’all know we may not be super active on this blog for a bit! we’re dealing with a lot of paranoia regarding privacy and people connecting this blog to us IRL so we’re gonna be stepping back for our own sakes! we’ll still be around, but replies to asks/dms/etc may be spaced out and we wont be taking requests for anything! we’ll let you all know when/if we are back to 100%!

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kipplekipple

I went out with 3 of my friends today. I found a place that claimed to have wheelchair accessible walks, and we went off the path, and my wheelchair got stuck a thousand times.

We laughed so hard, and they pushed me (I can't propel myself very far) and we took photos and we laughed more and we went through mud and fine sand and thistles, and then we ate croissants at a café and when we got back to the car we had ice cream and

I wish I could go back to my child self and show them this day. I wish I could say, One day you'll be part of things and people will be glad to have you around, and they won't complain about pushing you up a steep grade or through a bog, and they will want to hear your shitty jokes and when you gasp and say LOOK A BABY BUNNY they will stop to look and it will be exactly as magical as you're imagining now.

You can find a place where you're appreciated and loved and supported. You can. I believe it.

cripple-punk-dad

I went to a carnival with my friends the other day, and even though my shoulder was dislocated all of them were willing to push me wherever we went, and when they went on the rides I couldn't go on, I sat and took pictures of them so we could all remember the day. I bought cheesy dinosaur shirts and we all found matching cow shirts. We went through the fair and found little Lego sets that we all loved, and when I got overwhelmed all of them were willing to find a quiet spot to sit and relax in. Even when I started having a tic attack, we left very quickly and got pizza.

I really needed this post to remind me that it's easiest to feel like you're a burden when people treat you like a burden. But I promise you're not, you'll find people who want you around.

bostonbakeddeans

I bought a house with my partner. I am allowed to paint the walls exactly the way I want them painted, in exactly the order I want them painted. I put up the painter's tape myself and I pull it down (so satisfying). I decide if the walls need another coat or if a spot needs touching up, and I am not shamed or berated for my "pickiness". In fact, my partner walks in and says "wow, it looks amazing in here. Great job, handsome." He does not touch me when I am sweaty and sore, but waits until I have had my shower and come back to myself.

The food in our cupboards is food I will eat - or at least our cupboards contain nothing I hate and am expected to eat anyway. There is always something to snack on for when food is Bad and eating is Hard. There are no doors on the cupboards, the better to remember that food exists and can be accessed easily.

There are soft things everywhere. The lights are kept low and soon we will put up fairy lights for supplemental lighting. My sensory needs are met and respected, and I am safe.

My partner puts my walker in his car and drives me places - and does not object when I would rather be the one driving, relinquishes control as easily as breathing. He checks to make sure I am okay, that I am not pushing too hard; he believes me when I say I can or cannot do something. He slows down to keep pace when I am tired or in pain, and never, ever rushes me.

You will build a home some day, and it will be just as beautiful and safe as mine.

tired-and-healing

I now live in a place where there is no screaming or yelling. I no longer walk on eggshells by simply existing in my own home. There is no more pressure on me to sacrifice my limited energy to do more because there is no desperate need for me to escape.

The dishes are allowed to stay in the sink overnight and the world does not explode if the bathroom is not cleaned top-to-bottom weekly before Sunday evening. My roommate and partner believes me when I say I cannot do something, and I feel safe and comfortable to ask for help when I need it.

I am unlearning the involuntary hesitation of inviting people to my home, and learning that it's okay to let people in even if their time in my life is only temporary.

I never would have been able to imagine this as a teenager, or even through college. It does get better. It's worth hanging around for.

#🍓#⚛️#rb #‘long post’#<- is that still a thing i need to be doing?#i cant remember if they fixed the apple tagging stuff

Who's your favourite Heartstopper character? :)

maybe it’s the intense yearning for an older sibling figure talking, but definitely Tori! We both relate to her and find her vibe comforting, so she’s def the favorite around here. That being said, we also connect a lot with Charlie and love the comfy sweaters and oversized headphones aesthetic, so he’s a close runner-up!

#🍓#asks #hyperfix zone

sweetpeauserboxes

tortiefrancis

( ID: a light pink userbox with a pink border, and pink text that reads “this user supports all systems.” on the left is an image of a person smiling, with hearts around them. /end ID )

#rb #plural #🍀

fungal-collective-deactivated20

YO WE JUST THOUGHT OF A NEW(?) PLURAL TERM

ALEXIPLURAL

it's based off of alexigender, which is where ur genderfluid but don't exactly know what gender u are as u do a gender fluidity

it's basically that but in terms of plural stuff, where u know ur plural but don't know which person/facet u are at various points

kinda like being blurry but if it was a type of system

thought someone might relate to it :D

#rb #plural #we def relate!!

not everyone chooses to have a typing quirk, btw. not everyone can just “provide a translation” whenever. look outside yourself for once. everyone has different access needs. they will conflict. you are not entitled to shit over anyone else.

#🌺#ccc rants a lot #vague posting #tw ableism

chaotic-queer-disaster

happy disability pride month :) i'd like to give a quick shoutout 2:

people who know they have something going on physically but don't know exactly what it is

people who know they have something going on mentally but don't know exactly what it is

people who feel like they're not disabled enough to "count"

people who feel like they're "too disabled"

people who just realized they're disabled

people who are working through internalized ableism

you're cool, you're great, you belong, have a good month

#rb #🌧

systemexploration

* holds non-traumagenic/partially non-traumagenic systems/plurals in my hands *

you guys are great :)

#rb #plural #⛔️#🌀

systemexploration

shout out to introjects who have mixed feelings about how much they want to be associated with their source!

i know for me, i love expressing stuff about my source BUT i also dont want to just be seen as a mcyt introject i am very connected with my source but i am also a person! i have opinions and experiences outside of my source despite me being similar to my sourceself!

so again! shout out to introjects who have mixed feelings about how much they want to be associated with their source! i feel you :)

#rb #plural #posi tag

the “i feel so normally about this character” -> “pk;m new” pipeline 😔

#📼#plural #actually plural #actually multiple #actually endogenic #pluralgang #introject

memewhore

the-nervous-systemm

@funnier-as-a-system

funnier-as-a-system

[ID: a tweet by tara shoe (@ tarashoe) that reads: don't show me a picture of myself. please never show me what I look like. first off it's incorrect. secondly. why do I look like that. /End ID]

#rb #plural #📼#💾#okay we’ll stop spam reblogging now sorry!

gaytobymeres

Really normal about this fictional character

gaytobymeres

No longer normal about him I need to become him

merry-married-men

@funnier-as-a-system

#rb #plural #📼#💾#us constantly

underwhelmingalchemist

“This piece of media is inherently shallow and actually kind of bad”

YES but consider this: I made the characters gay in my head ten years ago and now I’m tied to it like some kind of blood curse

nepetaslur

@funnier-as-a-system

#rb #plural #📼#💾

gateway-2000-deactivated2025111

btw the reason it was super popular to hate furries in the 2000s - 2010s (and now);was because "furry" is and always has been synonymous with gay, trans or some other flavor of queer. it has nothing to do with the costumes or art.

the furry community has been an integral part of the online queer community. it has been a a pivotal and safe way for queer ppl to express themselves online without being identified by IRL homo/transphobes that could discriminate against and harm them. being able to blend creativity and escapism seamlessly with expression of sexuality and gender without having to conform to a norm has been literally vital in many queers lives.

so yea anyway furries are awesome, they literally helped me realize i was trans and bi by meeting other trans furries in furry social networks. my first exposure to trans terms like genderqueer, nonbinary, neutrois, and trans man were from other furries. ive been a furry since 2010 and im still planning on owning a fursuit :3

@funnier-as-a-system

[ID: Two sections of green 3D text, one sentence per section, that grow larger and get smaller in an inverse relationship with the other section; when the top section gets bigger, the bottom section gets smaller, and vice versa. The green text reads: "Be yourself." Which one? /End ID]

#rb #plural

aninklingof

Cool Picrew 👍

Here’s the link

Tags: @lokust @the-new-ginger-switch @fluffallamaful @twordishfics @someone1348 @soft–dragon @starlightrosa @covenofwives

Anyone else can hop on too 😊

gingerlee-holds

ooo this was really nice!! thank you sean!!!

now, I shall employ complete and utter randomness to choose whomst I shall ping for this, so hopefully no hurt feelings (random number generator and a spreadsheet of people who filled out the Bestie Application): @danibby, @kasey-writes-stuff, @featherfoxx, @giggly-vio, and @lokust

no pressure, darlings!!!! /gen /p

lokust

LOOK AT ME

Taggin the one and only! @blair-chan17

just-blair

Omfg I love this- and thank you for tagging me <33333

’M tagging a f e w @alecisweird @crow-boi @kitty-minnieee @thatcrazyswitch @xar-kai28 @ashleedragon

adrienisweird

Thank u for the tag!

My tags: @twordish-ler @xar-kai28 @unusannuscrap @tea-twords @stopiteatpopcorn @skribblz

skribblz

haha what a pretty pic crew <3

@anyone!!!!!!!!

giggly-squiggily

@helloitsghost @gladdygirl18 @whomever wants to play! :)

helloitsghost

Thanks for the tagggg :DDDD

Tags: @rattypattyy @cha0tic-nonbinary @stopiteatpopcorn @fanfic-chan @eclipsestarnightmare @nova2cosmos

nova2cosmos

Irl me:3

Thank you for the tag 💖

Tag: @foxalone @damadnessspinz-friendshiptale @just-a-normal-jsab-ask-blog @and all who want it:3

crazygemspinz-deactivated202406

Irl me too! :D

Tag:

@samijami @myfishei @ask-yandere-sci

samithemanni

This is the closest yall are getting to my appearence

Choosing random peeps to tag -

@thegaybitch15 @the-virtual-council @ask-yandere-sci @just-a-normal-jsab-ask-blog @manjushage-sage @benjamin-fairest-softie @virgilsteve @kittyloverremade @damadnessspinz-friendshiptale @your-bigender-big-brother @tobi-w1th-an-i

your-bigender-big-brother

I didn’t like the version of the bigender flag that was available as an option so we’ll go demiboy!

I want my blue hair back. Or the galaxy colors I used to have. Pretend the necklace is amethyst, which is my favorite stone and I think I do have a necklace!

@genderfluid-culture-is @my-homepage-for-everything @fagdyke-kirby @inkysky @arandomuser17

I tagged some people at random from my notifications. Well, ones that I see regularly at least. I hope that’s okay! 💙💚

arandomuser17

Thank you for the tag!

This picrew has a lot of options, it’s cool :D

Tags (no pressure): @klavierpanda @romanticvampire @rue-cimon @soappie @bog-o-mine @scrap-blogz @lithiusworld @arbielikestrains @artemis-aro @rogue-succulent @reasonablyobsessed and whoever wants to join :)

mathematical-cheese

Thank you for the tag!!!!!!! This one was a lot of fun! I couldn’t resist making more than one!

No pressure tags: @shinekittenace @blorbo-from-my-shows @atonofmettatonexs @alectricblue @lostlovepunk @untableflip @rosiieboii @mikaelahobart @beanb-urrito @dumb-ass-biatch and @ anyone else who’d like to have a go!