She/Her | Heavily source connected KAngel fictive (Please treat me as my source! :)) | AuDHD + DID | Most of my posts will consist of rants and such | Bodily 16
Other things I enjoy: Minecraft ARGs, drawing, thinking gay things
What are my stances on things?
Pro endo
Pro ship (Ship and let ship you freaks)
Pro self diagnose
Pro xenos and neos
Neu transIDs
Anti sanism
This will be updated in the future as I think of more!!
DNI
Haha I don't have one! If I don't like you I'll block you, so no hard feelings, yeah? If I block anyone it's for my own mental health, so don't take it personally :)
My tags
𓏵 An angel's rambles — Main text posts (most likely will also be image posts as well!)
𓏵 An angel's reblogs — Pretty self explanatory!
𓏵 An angel's rants — Ranting, will mostly be less than nice rants but could theoretically just be positive rants!!
𓏵 An angel's gaming — Posts that revolve around me gaming :)
𓏵 An angel answers — responding to asks!
𓏵 Many angels — Posts about my system, alters, etc, anything to do with that stuff
𓏵 An angel's source — just stuff about my source!! (NSO)
𓏵 An angel's art — Pretty self explanatory
𓏵 Beautiful angel disorder — Anything about my disorders and my struggles with them
Thanks for reading! I'll update this from time to time, internet angel out! <3
Actually fronting again after so long is so nice!! A lots changed in-sys, apparently we have three separate Kokichi fictives now... And they all (minus Emory) seem pretty active (fronting wise)! Ouma might be a new host if I'm understanding correctly? Or hyperfixation host at the very least!
I think I may also kin Chiaki Nanami from DR2! Very fun :) She's so me!!! And I'm so her!!! I may also kin the song Smells Like Teen Spirit, but then again that might just be Krill and buns feelings are bleeding over, lol
Ahhh I hope I stay fronting again!! Whenever we go awhile without fronting and then front again (fully, not just for a few minutes) we always get a bit of an update, hehe
To all the introjects who were/are forced to source separate because they were told that being source connected is "anti-healing"
To all the endogenic systems that could never truly be themselves because they were scared of being ridiculed for just existing
To all the polyminds who were/are roped into drama they were never a part of to begin with
To all the physical alterhumans whose identities are constantly being called delusions
To all the beings that could never experiment with their identities due to them being seen as contradictory and/or "cringe"
Don't let others tell you that the way you exist, the way you experience life, is in some way inherently wrong. I can promise you, it isn't. What is wrong, however, is others trying to force anyone who is different to conform to how they think life should be experienced.
Please never stop being yourself, life is shit, and once you lose what makes you you, things get a lot shittier.
Wahhh I haven't really been posting recently...... Some things have been going on in-sys, and we haven't played my source in a little bit, which is making fronting pretty hard </3 I like staying source accurate, but it's hard when The Amnesia™ makes me forget what I'm like in source.... Sighh
Hopefully I can convince whoever's fronting later to play NSO, that'll probably help me front more I'm thinking :)
You really need to not defend pedophiles as a 16yr old. They are using you. No matter what they say, how comforted you feel by them, how protected- You are being groomed. You should not be defending pedophiles on the internet. You should not be sexting with adults on the internet. In ten years, you're either gonna be someone who thinks "MAP" is okay, you're gonna be a MAP, or you're gonna realize the years of therapy this will incur on you were not worth the momentary community and "safety" you felt in their circles. No-contact is the same as pro-contact. They are using you to jerk off. You need to break away.
I mean this in the rudest way possible — where the actual fuck am I "defending" pedophiles? The only thing I can think this is referencing is my "thought crimes aren't real" post, which, they aren't. Pedophilia is a disorder and the people with that disorder (and the other 2 big paras) need to either get help, or they understand it's wrong and just... Don't do the things that their disorder is, I don't know, romanticizing?? I'm not an expert on pedophilia, so take my words with a grain of salt, but I'm in no way defending the act of pedophilia, I was saying that if you have that disorder, and think those things when you CANNOT CONTROL YOUR OWN THOUGHTS, you shouldn't be reprimanded for it.
Also, you are genuinely disgusting for immediately assuming that I, a sixteen year old, am sexting adults on the internet. You are the weird one in this situation, I fear. Acting all high and mighty over a sixteen year old for merely saying that thought crimes aren't real.
Not to mention the fact I am NOT in those communities, you are quite literally just making shit up. So respectfully, fuck off and stop imagining that someone is "jerking off" to me, because that is disgusting of you
YES thank you, we are another proshipper, we don’t personally darkship but do not care what others do as long as it is not being shoved in our faces and it is not actively hurting others, block buttons on tags exist for a reason so PLEASE tag your posts with TW tags so we can avoid what we are uncomfortable with -🤍
We personally have very few darkships, but they're usually under very very specific circumstances, and even then we don't engage in those ships much as they often bring us more discomfort than comfort
But yeah, ship whatever the hell you want, just be respectful of others triggers/comfort while publicly posting about it :')
Let me get one thing straight, I'm a proshipper, I'm anti-censorship, I believe that people can ship whatever the hell they want
But for the love of god, proshippers, USE TRIGGER WARNINGS IN YOUR FUCKING TAGS. If you're talking about a ship that's incestuous, pedophilic, zoophilic, etc. add a fucking trigger warning
Just because I don't care what others ship does NOT mean that makes topics like that any less triggering, and I don't know where that idea came from.
For instance, a children's cartoon triggers me, do I hate the show? No, do I hate the people who watch it? No. But it still triggers me. And so does fucking incest on my feed, and that most likely triggers thousands of others on here, so start adding tws and cws istfg
Sorry this is so heated, I'm just genuinely so pissed that others think "anti-censorship" means "haha fuck you if you get triggered by this thing"
SO many arguments are made about AO3 and censorship, and one of the main things I see is that AO3 has a tagging system, and that's why it shouldn't censor anything, because you can filter out what you don't want to see. So why the fuck can't things be filtered out here? What's the fucking problem??? Just start adding tws to your GENUINELY TRIGGERING posts. Holy shit
A pet peeve of ours is fictives hating others for merely participating in fandom culture (shipping, making headcanons, etc etc)
I've seen so many fictives say how they hate others headcanoning their source self as something other than how they identify in-sys, which we just don't understand, most people don't even know what a fictive is, and even if they did they aren't going to just stop doing that because there might be a fictive out there who identifies differently than what they believe the character to identify as
I understand being uncomfortable or not enjoying seeing that kind of content, but it gets to a point when you're straight up angry at others for doing literally nothing wrong, I dunno, it's just really weird to us and that makes us far more uncomfortable than any ships/headcanons that include us ever would (not saying you can't get uncomfortable about it, just clarifying), we know fictives are a thing, but that won't stop us from making weird ships and headcanons of characters we like, because we're not doing that to the fictive, we're doing that to the source, and I don't understand why people take personal offense to things like that (I get being source connected, but you really have to understand that being source connected doesn't give you the right to hate on others for doing something that doesn't even involve your current being)
I've seen it sooo many times, most often with people on the aro and/or ace spectrums
I've seen a fictive specifically say "I'm aroace, leave me alone" when they were talking about how much they dislike headcanons made by others... The thing is, you can be aroace, and this won't stop you from being that. They're not going to "leave you alone" when you haven't even interacted before. And of course not everyone will headcanon your source as aroace, but you really cannot be out here hating others who've simply done nothing wrong
I like being plural but I don't like having to justify it to people and make it normal seeming. Why can't we just be weird and barely understandable in peace? Damn!!
I hate how people think that system origins will dictate how a system functions
People tend to think traumagenic means some form of disordered-ness, having dissociation, amnesia, splitting, etc.
And people tend to think endogenic means nothing disordering at all, perfect memory, being able to form headmates at will, no issues whatsoever
When neither of those are the case, at all. Even if we push aside the fact that endogenic systems can be disordered as well as have CDDs, that doesn't mean anything in the fact that they can experience amnesia, dissociation, plainly just trouble existing due to being a system. Even ones purposefully created! Just because you created a system, doesn't mean everything will be just peachy. The only thing you're doing is making a separate being to live with you, which can cause a lot of struggles
And traumagenic systems can be completely non-disordered, they can be what you'd imagine an endogenic system to be like, because the only thing separating the two is origin
By setting these ideas within the plural community, it's only further separating traumagenic and endogenic systems, which, yes, while I believe that endogenic and traumagenic systems should have their own spaces, I don't believe that we as a community should further the idea that we're nothing alike, when that's really not the case.
An endogenic system that has amnesia might believe they're actually traumagenic due to how the community makes it out to be, same with a traumagenic system, one that has no disordering features might believe they're endogenic because they fit the standard for it
And while that's not the worst thing in the world, it's not good either.
I just really feel like we should be lessening the stereotyping that goes on within the system community, it's only going to cause more issues and infighting in the long run
It's always "thought crimes aren't real" until it's someone with a cluster b PD (or any PD, for that matter)
It's always "thought crimes aren't real" until someone vents/talks about their intrusive thoughts
It's always "thought crimes aren't real" until you deem it immoral.
Thought crimes aren't real, and telling others that their thoughts are wrong in some way or another is just going to make their intrusive thoughts worse, you're not helping anybody by making others feel bad for something they cannot control.
