I use prefer He/They and associated pronouns / referrals.
You can call me Cotton, Bun, Bunny, and other pet-names if you want, though sometimes I also go by Leo.
I *am* over 18, but I don't feel comfortable sharing my exact age (:
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This is my general blog, I don't really know what I'm doing, I yap, sometimes I write, sometimes I quote fics, so everything gets dumped onto here. I'm in several fandoms, and rotate through them, but I also tend to read more fanfic / content than I engage in the original, so my knowledge is probably Wrong.
I'm sorry in advance.
I am a kinky, very friendly, though somewhat sensitive bun. If you're mean/rude/etc in a way I didn't [usually] literally ask for, me and the block button can very quickly become best buds. Aditionally, I'm not heartless- I just can't spare money for strangers over the internet. My heart is with y'all who are struggling, but I can't help others if I myself am not stable. Thanks for understanding.
Things I condemn:
general jerk-ery, with specifications
actual non-consensual situations
spam
genuine incest
transphobia
homophobia
things of the like
"mEntAl HeaLtH isN'T ReaL"
Things i condone:
Making friends with me!
Sending me asks, about pretty much anything!
Prompts!
This will probably edited, and eventually I'll sit down and tag all my weirdness. I highkey wish there was a mass post editor.. (T~T)
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Hawks
Aizawa
MAH SHY POTATO BOY, I GOT A KEYCHAIN !!
Von Lycaon (just.. don't ask (: )
Neuville
bun's spice : anything sexy/bdsm/etc
bun writes : I wrote this ! Usually fan stuff
bun yaps : my original posts
bun reblogs : what it says on the tin
bun edits : stuff I plan on editing
bun agrees : stuff I hard agree on, sometimes political but i try to keep that stuff away
everytime a nonbinary person realizes they don't have to be transfem or transmasc an angel gains its wings. like, there's sooo much more. you could be both, transneutral, transandrogynous, transnull, transxenine, transxenoine, transoutherine, or maybe all of them or none of them.
One of the best ones I saw was a thing noting that every single one of the few survivors of suicide jumps off of the Golden Gate Bridge realized, on the way down, that the problems they were killing themselves over actually were fixable or could be worked through...except for the now - extremely unfixable - problem of gravity.
Went to the Holocaust Museum in DC once. There was a video interview of an Auschwitz survivor who said he and some other prisoners stayed up all night with a man who wanted to kill himself. The man didn’t kill himself and survived to liberation.
In the video the survivor said “Never seek a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And they’re all temporary problems.”
Hearing that from a guy who survived the Holocaust rewired my brain a little bit.
I think something a lot of people don't understand is that depression is not suicidality, and suicidality is not depression.
People can, and are, depressed without being suicidal, and sometimes suicidality peaks as people are emerging from depression.
Suicidality is a wave, and the trick is to allow that wave to crest and subside WITHOUT acting on it.
Whatever it takes to ride it out. For some people that's distraction, like watching television. For others it's calling a friend -- not to talk about the suicidality, but just to talk. For others it could be as simple as going to sit in a coffee shop or library, because the presence of other people is a huge diminisher of suicide risk.
That's what suicide safety planning is about. It's like having any other type of emergency plan, like a plan for fire or evacuation. It's making a plan when you are in the frame of mind to do so, so that you can just DO the plan without having to think about it when the occasion arises.
When you're in the midst of suicidal ideation, or even intent, you're not in a problem-solving mood. So knowing past!you, with the help of a therapist hopefully, came up with the plan and all you have to do is follow up until the wave crests and subsides, is what allows you to see another day.
ETA: Here's a link to a safety plan. https://www.samhsa.gov/sites/default/files/988-safety-plan.pdf
There’s a really compassionate and well-written paper/book/thing called Suicide: The Forever Decision that’s written specifically for people who are currently suicidal. The letter to the reader at the beginning is wonderful and deeply understands how to talk to someone who’s suicidal without preaching or talking down to them.
It’s very honest. It’s very clear. It’s very kind. It presents you with a lot of information and a lot of understanding and lets you take it all in like the autonomous human you are, and make decisions from an informed place. It goes over the reality of suicide attempts, pain involved, likelihoods of survival, after effects of attempts, and how to get help if you want it after reading all of that and learning about the reality of suicide attempts.
You can read it for free here: https://qprinstitute.com/pdfs/Forever_Decision.pdf
No one can ever stop you if you’re really determined. Only you can stop yourself. If you’re suicidal and there’s ANY tiny part of you that wants a chance to not go down that route, but can’t convince the rest of you yet, give this short book a try. Or share it with anyone you know who might need it.
one of the things that kinda helped me out when i was suicidal is one of my older friends and I talked a little- we didn't properly *talk* talk about it, but-- one of the things they said was 'For the people you haven't met yet.'
in the spirit of the panty anon. something for you to consider (obv you do not have to draw it if you don't want to) but. grace in lingerie. like garters and the whole deal.
I used to be *good* at search. It was a whole thing - I found people's "lost songs" or their unknown-source childhood stuffed toy or whatever from Google.
Now, you can't search for the exact brand/design name of something and get accurate answers. It drives me spare on Amazon - if I search for XYZ and you don't have any, or you only have 2, tell me that.
I wouldn't mind if it said "Here are 2 XYZ. Shoppers also searched for..." Instead it'll just throw a random, barely-linked pile of results and you have to wade through every single one to see if the thing you want exists.
THIS. For ages I used to say that I had "high Google-Fu". I could find *anything* because I knew how to use strings to enhance searches. The string commands haven't even worked for well over a year or more, far before they put in this infernal (and often wrong!) AI BS on top.
I used to be able to search for recipes and easily eliminate unwanted ingredients with a -. For example I'd look for low-carb desserts but without the zillions that use peanut butter simply by searching for something like:
low carb chocolate dessert recipe -peanut
And I'd get a slew of on-point suggestions. For some time now if you do -peanut Google ignores the - and assumes you want recipes stuffed with peanuts.
Where it's even worse now is now you get directed to sites full of bogus AI recipes that don't even make sense. But they have peanuts in them.
I used to be able to use reverse image searches to find out who made that awesome art so I could give credit in my share. They've removed that ability entirely and replaced it with Lens, which is AI BS just showing you more like what you looked for. (Rebecca Watson complained about this in her recent video about JD Vance jizz cup rumours and I apologise for that sentence but...yeah. Watson is great, go find her on Youtube and subscribe because she went into detail about how Google has become less and less useful for debunking.)
This isn't just about Google inserting shopping ads instead of what you wanted to learn about. That's bad. But the results now are just *broken*. The tools we used to have to make searches better have been removed. Google no longer wants us to find the answers we seek, but the answers they want us to have, and that's super creepy and dangerous.
And the alternatives are either using Google in the back end or have other significant barriers to use.