In a different place

28/f/pansexual || silly little clown|| Aaron DNI

[wesandresons]

shia labeouf DIE. brad pitt DIE. chris brown DIE. johnny depp DIE. cristiano ronaldo DIE. conor mcgregor DIE. die die die die die die die DIE. every single abuser DIE. if you support them DIE TWICE!

[thatgirlwritingficsatnight]

Hiiii me again, I want to pick your brain about mayuri so bad, it’s so hard to find someone who writes him perfectly on the line of obsession and also scientific fixation. Also I hope your weekend was good!!!!

Hi! Thank you for reaching out again! My weekend was actually spent on beefing with Byakuya bc he is a stubborn character that doesn't want to work with me on the accidental confession fic. I think I've rewritten and added and got rid of so much when working on this fic and I'm still not satisfied... but nevermind that, my frustration with Captain Kuchiki isn't really the topic here, haha. (I HOPE HE GOES BALD OR SMTH THOUGH BC MAN I'M STRUGGLING WITH HIM, POSH ASSHOLE)

As for Mayuri I actually was constantly rereading my work and asking myself if it still reads as him - if he isn't too soft or totally out of character. Part of this process was me getting rid of like 5 or so pages of standardised text bc I felt like I went overboard with his character and he was too romantic or it didn't fit the whole story. Usually when I write the characters I also read manga panels with them or watch my favorite scenes with them, I try to listen to their themes if they have one as well, I try to capture how their voices sound in the anime (for Mayuri it was screeching and hissing hahaha). Some characters (usually those I love and I'm obsessed with like my Lord and Saviour Aizen) are easier for me to write and capture their essence. Sometimes I check their MBTI and that helps with deciding on how that character would act in certain situations. With Captain Kurotsuchi it was probably also helpful that my fiance is a scientist getting his PHD in neurobiology/pharmacology so I can listen to his stories about lab work and working with people who lack brainpower hahahah.

I hope my small yapping session here shed light on your question and was actually interesting and coherent enough to read! 💖

[corruptedterrarium]

First: thank you!!!

Second: I work in the medical field so it was especially refreshing to see a beautiful cohabitation of clinical sterility and what is clearly romantic feelings. Mayuri absolutely would not recognize romantic feelings and instead interpret them to be scientific infatuation. An itch he cannot scratch. I can feel the effort and work you put into your writing and I adore it. The ryuken fic had me at the edge of my seat the whole time, like it really was perfect and the way you painted the reader insert to be damn near his complete opposite was STELLAR. Way too often have I seen people writing the reader insert as a carbon copy of the character they’re being paired with and it does get stale for an opposites attract kind of person (me !). Mayuri and reader are similar in their profession and mildly personality but the clashing aspects is what kept me glued to the screen omg. I hope I don’t sound absolutely INSANE about this 😭.

Also I am in love with your writing process, it’s an amazing method for writing that I never even considered!!! I might have to give it a try for a fic I’m stuck on.

Third: byakuya is a complex character to write sometimes because his pride is a massive wall blocking people. You have to dance around his pride until it complies and yes, he deserves to go bald for this ❤️. Do not give up on your fight against byakuya, I believe in you!!!!

(If my spelling is a little off, I’m on my phone)

[sabrebash]

Is That Allowed

[sabrebash]

Boy am i glad that the con has a facebook page so i can post this photo:

[tlirsgender]

Things people hate hearing:

You are capable of harm

You have some level of power and agency

Ergo it is your responsibility to communicate your needs and boundaries

If you lie to someone about something being okay when it isn't, that is on you

Something being a trauma response doesn't exempt it from harming your relationships and the other people in them

Enabling your trauma responses will not make them go away, and it is your responsibility to work on yourself for your own wellbeing as well as the people around you

Being A Victim cannot be a pillar of your identity forever, and being victimized does not make you incapable of harming other people (see above)

You are not a mouse in a jean jacket you are an eel with a gun / adult human being who can use your words even if it's Scary

Having a personality disorder doesn't make you evil but you have got to get off of Personality Disorder Tumblr (see above, re: enabling)

[tlirsgender]

Deep sigh. You want me to ~be compassionate~ here's the compassionate answer: your trauma will tell you you're a helpless child forever and you need to Not Think This Way for yourself (living under the assumption you're still in danger whether you actually are or not) and everyone else who has to tiptoe around your Sensitivity. That's how you break the cycle and you can only do this by accepting responsibility for your actions. And it seems like a small semantic thing but imo step one is calling yourself a survivor instead of a victim. Self identifying with your victimhood helps No One. You lived, now get up

[sparklebog]

Didn't realize they made emergency thermal blankets for babies

[sparklebog]

It's scary to think about babies in an emergency but I guess it's a crazy world out there

Emergency baby

[fuckblast]

[Francisco de Goya]

[dogpuppy]

[rubbertplant]

in the vein of my 2014 post…

☆ MEMEORY LANE 2015 ☆

[crabussy]

small tips for Enjoying Being Alive from someone who went from wanting to die to genuinely loving life. these won't fix your life but they'll make it a lot easier to want to live day by day. I promise.

tell yourself things you do not believe. it feels stupid at first but I've done this for years and now I believe it when I say "I'm good at this" or "I love myself" or "I deserve good shit!"

make a note of every mundane good thing that happens to you. mental or literal notes! could be as little as "the sky is a nice shade of grey, it's calming" or "I ate a piece of fruit today, I'm looking after myself" or "I talked to a friend". again, feels stupid at first, but I genuinely believe this is part of why I have so many "good days". trick your brain into storing things in your long-term memory that you wouldn't otherwise remember.

diet deficiencies can make you properly miserable. your physical health impacts your mental health more than you'd think. get some vitamins, some omega-3s and so on. whether from food or supplements. they can make quite a difference! your brain is responsible for a LOT of the way you feel, and giving it the fatty acids it needs to function at its best can go a long way.

[crabussy]

I know these all sound like stupid junk people who have never wanted to die tell you. I know they sound like dumb "self-help" tips written by people who have suffered mild anxiety at worst.

they're coming from someone who had multiple daily panic attacks for half a decade. someone who genuinely felt like he did not deserve to live. someone who hated himself so much he convinced himself he was irredeemably evil. someone who loves being alive these days, even though it's difficult sometimes.

you truly don't have to follow any of this advice. but just read through. store it in the back of your mind. come back to it when you want. best of luck. [:

[nedzira]

These are genuinely great! If I can add a small comment it would be to try to change scenery every now and then, take a different route home and go for walks. And make appointments to meet your friends!

[crabussy]

ABSOLUTELY. anytime I feel myself descending into a slump where everything feels wrong and bad and gross and hard, I go on a Weird Walk. I choose a familiar destination (the dairy, the beach, a specific hill) and intentionally choose a route I've never tried before. it's crazy but it makes me feel better almost instantly, even if the new walk is worse than my usual route. your brain CRAVES new stimulation! you are a member of a species with one of the most active brains in the animal kingdom. please try not to live like a hamster.

[advosart]

Riolu-to-Riolu communication (100% packet loss)

(reposted to fix some stuff)

[sandersstudies]

I am OBSESSED with people telling me how they met the love of their life. Just found out my director met his wife through a misdirected email - that’s fate right there.

[sandersstudies]

“I saw her last name was Jewish - and I’m Jewish, so when I corrected the email I told her Shabbat Shalom with a smiley face — this was the very beginning of the emoticon era, you understand. She had a watermark of a dog rescue at the bottom of her email, and I love dogs, so I found her website and there she was — all these videos of her rehabilitating dogs and talking about the organization. I fell in love with her just from those videos.”

😭😭😭

[sandersstudies]

“I asked if we could meet for coffee, told her I was looking for volunteer opportunities — which was halfway a lie — and she said ‘okay, but just so you know I have a boyfriend, so this is strictly business,’ and I was so disappointed, but I did want to meet her. We sat in that coffeeshop until they turned the lights out on us, and she broke up with her boyfriend the next day.”

[sandersstudies]

MULTIPLE people in the notes have told me how important these tags are to them so here’s to keeping it in the main post.

[pineappical]

genuinely sooo obsessed with @nakakabaliw's h!rocky design that i just had to draw him but i also love a good swap au too so. eridian grace 🥹

[dankxsinatra]

[greeds]

[libetsdelae]

Idk how I feel about adding the pizazz or not. I feel like I go overboard like when using glitter LOL.

[grimnaru]

“ᴡᴀᴋᴇ ᴜᴘ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ᴄᴏɴᴄᴜʙɪɴᴇ.”

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This artwork is mine. Do not repost it somewhere, or claim it as your own. Reblogs are appreciated!

[gundamlfrith-remade]

severely underrated gag imo is the one where a character turns very slowly and the sounds of stone grinding against stone is superimposed over it

[slutdge]

whenever i post stupid shit that gets a lot of notes on here that i regret i take comfort in knowing that theres no real repercussions from that because this website is going to be tanked and shutdown within, at the most, 3 years

[slutdge]