Crazy Pages

He/him, bi-ace, early 30s. I originally started this blog over a decade ago to vent in a safe environment about some mental health issues. Then along the way got clocked upside the head with the realization that I was way less socially aware than I thought I was, and decided to stay for the social justice education, the positivity, and the friends I made.

[crazy-pages]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

The Friendly Necromancer

-A Pokemon Fanfiction

Banette is a pokemon that exists to give meaning to abandoned and discarded things. Typically they do this by possessing abandoned dolls when they evolve from their first form Shuppet. But when an ill-treated boy dies alone a friendly Shuppet he named Diya takes it upon itself to give his life meaning. Diya possesses and revives his body, becoming a Banette, and sets out to make the boy's dream of becoming a pokemon trainer come true.

Along the way Diya makes friends, fights some pokemon, finds a deep and abiding love of scarves, blurs the line between living and dead, accidentally becomes a necromancer, and to everyone's surprise even finds the time to accomplish its original goal and catch a pokemon or three.

[This lovely fanart is by Large_Egg, posted on their account here. Go give them a comment if you like it.]

Hello, this is my pokemon fanfic! I linked it off-handedly on another post a while back, and apparently enough people followed it that I got multiple commenters saying they found it from Tumblr (and liked it! it'll never stop being amazing to me when people like stuff I've written). So I figured I ought to make a formal tumblr post about it.

I'd had this kernel of a story idea in my head for a while, of a Banette possessing an isolated person's corpse rather than an abandoned doll. But it was never a story I wanted to write. The places that story might go were dark and full of hurt, and my life was frankly full of enough of that.

That changed when I started thinking more about what it was I loved about pokemon. When I was young, pokemon was a story about amazing monsters and exciting adventures. But as I grew older, it was the quieter parts of its world I started to appreciate the most.

I admired the pokemon centers, where shelter, medical care, food, information, and assistance are always available for free to anyone who asks, even in the smallest towns. I wanted to tinker with the juxtaposition of a world which is inhabited by great and terrible monsters and yet made safe enough for children to leave home and wander from town to town as a coming of age rite. I loved the families the characters found for themselves on the road. And I found myself thinking more about the lives of the casual trainers who had teams of all bugs or all fancy-looking pokemon than about what ultimate team composition looked like.

So I decided to write this story about that. It could start from a place of tragedy and loss, and all the painful things I hadn't wanted to write a story about. But then it could get better. Because the pokemon world is a place where people get support and help, and can go on a journey where they find family. So I took that kernel of a story which was so filled with hurt and pain, and I turned it into this.

A story where when someone decided to draw fanart of it, they drew was a smile so bright you can see it even hidden behind a scarf.

[crazy-pages]

Also, here's some inside-book-cover reviews comments, if you want something other than just the author's word to recommend this.

Sengachi writes death and life's little everyday events with equal reverence. -Guile

I really hope this story takes off cause I've never read anything like it and by God do I want to keep reading it. -Tech Priest Gemm

This story is magical. The first chapter made me cry like a waterfall but Diya is so optimistic and happy about the world I cant help but feel the same. -Bloodalchemy

I love this chapter, not only because of the joy and wonder as Diya explores this world through a new perspective, but also, on a sort of meta level, how it mirrors starting up a new game and immersing yourself in that world feels. There's the same kind of curiosity and wonder ... I probably felt something a lot like that when I first played pokemon Diamond! -polaris_writes

[calvin-arium]

It’s here !! The guide for two-legged people who don’t know how to draw wheelchairs !!! 7 pages of infodump ! Disclaimer : I don’t know everything, I have one (1) experience of wheelchair user who used both bad and good chairs, and I share what I learned.

Image description :

1) Calvin in his wheelchair saying “yo” under a huge title “how to draw manual wheelchairs properly by Calvin Arium, a wheelchair user comic artist”.

2) A character says “my character self propels in a chair that was outdated in 1970 lol” Calvin says “so it looks like you two legged people don’t know the difference between an hospital chair and a chair made to be independant” an arrow point the crapppy chair, saying “we never want to see this again”

a bubble says “the hospital chair is extremely unpractical, tough considering it’s cheaper than a good custom chair a lot of us have only this”

3) a character hurt himself trying to reach the wheels of the hospital chair. Several arrows point why the chair is unpractical : “high backrest restrain shoulders movement” “huge armrest restrains wheel access” “separated footrest : amovible, cheap, bulky” “x structure, foldable but heavy” “huge front casters for stability” “heavy wheels”

4) Several arrows point an active wheelchair (the KSL by Küshall) : “usually no armrest” “a low backrest allow more movement” “light, design, ferning expersive” “special cushion to avoind injuries” “knee angle is usually 90°” “one single piece of frame, sometimes entirely welded” “weight : from 4 to 10kg” “often rigid” “center of the wheel is the center of gravity” “higher quality wheels : less spikes”

5) A hand grab different parts of the wheel, pushing harder in the second half. Bubbles says “some have gloves, some don’t. The hand must grab the biggest area possible. Less movement = more energy. This is a common but not only way to push.Calvin is on his back wheels, rolling on grass and dirt bubble says “popping a wheelie is when a wheelchair user rolls on their back wheels to roll on every complicated surface.

6) several drawings illustrate the folding frame, the ergonomic but rigid and expensive backrest, the separated footrest (only for folding frame), the handles, the folding handles, athe amovibles handles, or no handles, the cool fancy loopwheels, the pretty custom colors 

7) More Features ! The fancy rigid-foldable frame, the anti tippers (sometimes used by beginners), the motorization (wheels, smart drive) when propelling yourself is difficult Calvin says “and now vroom vroom motherfuckers”

Consider also supporting me by buying me a coffee on ko-fi : ko-fi.com/calvinarium 

Thanks !

EDIT : Here is a youtube playlist about choosing, cleaning and using active manual wheelchairs in the public space, I learned a lot from those videos when I was a wheelie newbie. (Not sure they’re all captionned tho) https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3j9XB2x5HYmZqgLakRCNt_fjsVZjDAkJ

[this-is-me19]

Sharing

[necronatural]

Compiled some basic information I know about drawing fat characters for beginners since I've been seeing more talk about absence of really basic traits in a lot of art lately.

Morpho Fat and Skin Folds on Archive.org (for free!)

[she-ramen]

the she-ra reboot makes this video relevant again which means we are in the best timeline

[she-ramen]

the kids these days dont know this masterpiece…they will learn

[logan-exe]

the Masters of the Universe remake makes this video relevant again which means we are in the best timeline

[maddie-grove]

I really like this website because somebody will be like “there’s nothing wrong with darting out from behind a parked car into traffic, bootlicker” and you can be like okay this clearly evolved from a valid point about how the US is too car-centric. But something happened to it.

[jamiemccrimmon]

[serial-unaliver-deactivated2024]

[boopsloop656]

[sapient-simian]

Light Pollution: The Overuse & Misuse of Artificial Light at Night

Light Pollution: The Overuse & Misuse of Artificial Light at Night

[fazedlight-deactivated20251111]

The Dark Site Finder map lets you get a good sense of where near you might be good for stargazing.

[theunvanquishedzims]

[tapir]

what would you do if you were a scientist

work in a lab with a white coat blue latex gloves goggles etc

examine vials full of mysterious green liquid

blow somehing up accidentally and when the smoke clears my hair is in spikes

write stuff down on a clipboard

say things like “Fascinating…” and “Miraculous!” when i make discoveries

dissect a frog

Remaining time: 17 hours 9 minutes

[crazy-pages]

I *am* a scientist and I do say "Fascinating..." when I notice weird stuff during my experiments. I also sometimes light things on fire or melt things though, so the third one also speaks to me. It's almost always on purpose, but sometimes on accident.

I also often work with nitrile gloves and dark goggles on, sometimes with a full nearly black face mask. Rarely a lab coat, but sometimes. I also wear a black face mask to work and sometimes wear a big headset for noise canceling/listening to podcasts, so sometimes I look like a big looming figure without a face and accidentally scare the shit out of the cleaning staff when I stay late.

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

If you're comfortable accusing anyone of faking disability, you're not a real ally to disabled people

[teaboot]

One time when I was a kid a group of girls and I had to treat another student for hypothermia by ourselves because she had so many invisible health issues that the adults we asked for help didn't believe us. The student in question was actively hallucinating. When I finally ran for help the people I grabbed were slow as shit to respond, casually joking about how "dramatic" the person in question was.

The kid was picked up by an ambulance 30 minutes later.

Now as an adult working in security I get SO MANY folks- upper-middle aged mostly- coming to me to 'rat out' people they think are faking it.

I was once sent into a bathroom because a client demanded that the "fucker won't get out, so go drag them out"- I was NEVER going to do that, so I did a wellness check instead. You know who it was? A person recently released from the hospital after a car accident. They had a hole in their skull and major hearing loss. They couldn't answer the owner because they couldn't HEAR the owner.

Another time about a homeless man who got around town by kicking the ground from his wheelchair. "You know he doesn't actually need that thing, his legs work fine, it's just for pity points"- Oh, so he's not paralyzed, his wheelchair is performative? Funny story Dale, I actually know that guy, he was backed over by a truck and has chronic pain from his shattered pelvis. But sure, let's make him stand up and walk everywhere so nobody feels too bad for him and tries to help him or something.

"She doesn't need that scooter, I've seen her get out of it."

"Look how fat he is, because he just rides around and refuses to get up."

"She doesn't really need that cane- she comes here without it all the time"

Sincerely, truly, from the bottom of my heart- as someone who isn't physically disabled but hears this shit all the time- fuck off

[the-quasar-hero]

Very generally speaking, when you see a black man in a piece of media, be it tv show, movie, video game, etc. there’s something you often see a lot of writers do. To go against the stereotype of black men (and black people in general) being dumb and lazy, you’ll see this black male character being smart and an achiever. 

The Black Nerd. A common character type, the nerd will always be very interested in all things nerdy: science, video games, mathematics, etc. In an continued effort to combat stereotypes, the Black Nerd will be lack athleticism, probably being asthmatic (the nerdiest of conditions). The Black Nerd will dress smartly, suspenders and bow ties. They’ll always talk smart too, using proper English with complex words.

Now, I don’t have a problem with a black character being a nerd, indeed black people are a people; we aren’t all the same and we all have varying personalities. The problem I have is that too often we see a distinct disconnect between Blackness and the Black Nerd. The Black Nerd doesn’t listen to hip hop or rap, only classical music. The Black Nerd only has white friends, the only other black characters are into not nerdy stuff. The Black Nerd never ever uses AAVE at any time in any context.

And again I must say that Black people, not being a monolith, there are no hard fast rules to being Black. I’m more than sure there are Black people like what I’ve described above, I’m not saying it’s impossible; what I’m getting at is that the only Black Nerd we see. There are Black Nerds that play basketball, that bump Kendrick Lamar, and use AAVE since it’s an ever changing dialect. I’m just saying there’s no one way of being a nerd and no one way of being Black.

[the-quasar-hero]

Well @dumbey, seems we’re in similar boats

[the-quasar-hero]

This ain’t about him, this is about Black/Asian solidarity. Focus.

[welcometothehole]

this trend of shitting on peer-reviewed academic studies in favor of tweeting “we already knew this was happening” is so soul-crushing. not to be an elitist cunt, but we have got to open the schools again. people genuinely seem to have forgotten that their personal lived experience isn’t indicative of the larger population, AND IF IT IS…… then you need researchers to support these assertions from a relevant data pool instead of a blog post from 2013 💀

[isuggestrevolution]

i have a suggestion

[crazy-pages]

I'll be honest I don't think this one needs a revolution, I think this one needs long term cultural shift and structural work on the education system.

[apatheticfluorescence]

some hyper famous artists like Van Gogh transcend overratedness and become underrated because they're so normalized. Like I'll look at a van Gogh and I'm like wait this really is amazing you guys don't get it

[headspace-hotel]

Shakespeare is like this

[insufferablepirate]

Every time I see a Van Gogh that’s not one of his better known pieces it absolutely blows me away

Have you seen this shit my liege? smh unreal

[quidam-sirenae]

[genderkoolaid]

Transmasc person here (and fully coming from a place of ignorance here), regarding your addendum to the really sweet post about how the world gets richer with transmen folks, what do you mean by amab transmen? I’m hoping this question doesn’t come off as rude, I’m just generally confused by what that means.

Not rude at all!

“trans men assigned male” can cover a few difference experiences:

Many intersex people have a complicated relationship both assigned sex and gender; there are men who were technically assigned male at some point, but then have that maleness denied throughout their life; for example, someone might be assigned male at birth, only to then be re-assigned female when it is decided that would be the “easier” assignment, forced to undergo IGM (intersex genital mutilation)* such as a clitorectomy/penectomy, and then raised as a girl. Alternatively, a man might be assigned male and raised as a boy, but goes through estrogenic puberty, grows breasts and develops hips, and thus experiences life as a man who is forcibly feminized and denied his gender identity as a man, and so feels his gender is more trans than cis.

Otherwise, many people who identify that way are nonbinary, genderqueer, and gender-non-conforming men who feel their manhood is trans, while also having been assigned male. This can be for a lot of reasons. I can say that I myself was raised as a “girl” (technically) but am multigender, have always felt any womanhood I possessed was inherently trans, and after having gone on testosterone HRT “trans woman” increasingly just made sense on every level. I am sexed by random strangers as male or female depending on the day and my presentation, and I am frequently read as a trans woman assigned male in public. My womanhood exists within the context of me also being a man, and agender and neutrois and maverique, and my body which has been reshaped by testosterone, and so there really is no context where my womanhood is cis (I am also intersex but it doesn’t play as big a role in my womanhood as it may for others). Trans men assigned male can have similar experiences, although they can have many others! Some are be plural, some are be former trans women who now feel “man, but trans” better captures their identity, some are nonbinary people who are more “man-adjacent” or have some connection to manhood (such as being gay men) while still being very much a nonbinary/genderqueer individual, etc etc.

Notably, if someone says “I am a trans man who was assigned male because xyz,” that doesn’t mean they think that being a trans man assigned female requires xyz. When I point to my multigenderedness or my androgynous body as part of my identity as a trans woman, I am not saying “being a trans woman is defined by being partially male or physically androgynous.” Rather, I am a woman who has a trans body and a trans identity, and I am also transfeminized regularly in public, so on both a personal and social level it is something that makes sense to apply to myself, although I don’t talk about it often because people have not historically been the chillest about it. But its gotten a lot more discussed as of late, and people have even started pushing away from using AGAB entirely, so I’ve decided to be a bit more open about it.

Anyways! That’s why I wanted to shout out trans men assigned male <3 I love my brothers in not being defined by what people thought of our genitals at birth, I love my brothers in transsexuality and genuinely for real changing your sex, I love my brothers in nonbinarity and genderqueerness and the experience of being binary in a nonbinary way, I love my brothers in being denied validity in the very category you were forced into because you were a weird little queer from childhood.

*AGAB language was originally coined for use in nonconsensual surgeries on intersex children, pioneered by notable monster John Money. so if this is surprising to anyone, It Really Should Not Be.

[the-haiku-bot]

“trans men assigned male”

can cover a few difference

experiences:

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[crazy-pages]

I’m a perisex man, assigned male at birth, who is currently seeking bottom surgery because that’s what feels right. No hormone replacement or other transition, just that. I sometimes joke that makes me a trans man, just the other kind of trans man. Trans(exual) rather than trans(gender).

[genderkoolaid]

Good for you!! I hope you get the surgery you want and it goes well :)

[gutsygills]

mold pisses me off so much

oh you have to eat your produce the moment it leaves the store or the fuckin Hungering Dust will get it. and. poison your food

[tobiasdrake]

I ran into this post years ago and to be honest, it has completely reoriented the way I engage with food.

Like. I’ve always sorta understood that things grow moldy or stale or sour or such if left out, but I never really internalized it in a meaningful way.

But now I’m just like.

Yeah. The hungering dust. There exists omnivorous dust in the air that will eat my food if I don’t.

Those bagels have been sitting there for a week. Are we going to eat them soon or are we leaving them for the hungering dust?

Pizza’s been sitting out on the counter for an hour. Everyone’s enjoying the pizza, but if we don’t want “everyone” to include the hungering dust then we should probably put it away soon.

That’s just. That’s how food works to me now. There exists an invisible predator in the air that hungers for your yummies, and it will not hesitate to eat your food if you don’t make the effort to protect and preserve it. And eat what can’t be preserved before the dust can.

Life-changing.

[the-missing-number]

food doesn’t actually “go bad”, it just gets eaten by something else first

[the-haiku-bot]

food doesn’t actually

“go bad”, it just gets eaten

by something else first

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[crazy-pages]

Science fiction talks a lot about nanobot grey goo consuming the earth and not enough about how it would probably get its ass kicked by the already extremely optimized hungering dusts that cover our planet.

[garashir]

hey friends where is that picture of boromir with the gondor flag except its a pride flag?

[lesbiansforboromir]

Couldn’t find it so I made another because you’re right that it’s a crime and it’s definitely my duty to remedy it

[pollsforadults]

Spin the wheel. Now, imagine you're on a first date with someone who says they`re a [result]. How does this affect the odds of a second date?

100% guarantee I'll want a second date

It's significantly more likely

The odds don't change

It's significantly less likely

There wont be a second date. Absolutely not

Remaining time: 5 days 15 hours

Picker Wheel - Spin the Wheel to Decide a Random Choice

Picker Wheel is a wheel spinner for a random picker. Various functions & customization. Enter choices or names, spin the wheel to decide a r

(anon submission)

[marisatomay]

Sometimes in a professional setting you’ll come across someone in their 60s who just cannot open a PDF in their email. And the thing is. They’re lowkey not old enough to be acting like that. You guys were in your early 30s at the latest when email took off. You’ve actually been doing this for longer than I have. Get real and click on the damn attachment.

[genderkoolaid]

Transmasc person here (and fully coming from a place of ignorance here), regarding your addendum to the really sweet post about how the world gets richer with transmen folks, what do you mean by amab transmen? I’m hoping this question doesn’t come off as rude, I’m just generally confused by what that means.

Not rude at all!

“trans men assigned male” can cover a few difference experiences:

Many intersex people have a complicated relationship both assigned sex and gender; there are men who were technically assigned male at some point, but then have that maleness denied throughout their life; for example, someone might be assigned male at birth, only to then be re-assigned female when it is decided that would be the “easier” assignment, forced to undergo IGM (intersex genital mutilation)* such as a clitorectomy/penectomy, and then raised as a girl. Alternatively, a man might be assigned male and raised as a boy, but goes through estrogenic puberty, grows breasts and develops hips, and thus experiences life as a man who is forcibly feminized and denied his gender identity as a man, and so feels his gender is more trans than cis.

Otherwise, many people who identify that way are nonbinary, genderqueer, and gender-non-conforming men who feel their manhood is trans, while also having been assigned male. This can be for a lot of reasons. I can say that I myself was raised as a “girl” (technically) but am multigender, have always felt any womanhood I possessed was inherently trans, and after having gone on testosterone HRT “trans woman” increasingly just made sense on every level. I am sexed by random strangers as male or female depending on the day and my presentation, and I am frequently read as a trans woman assigned male in public. My womanhood exists within the context of me also being a man, and agender and neutrois and maverique, and my body which has been reshaped by testosterone, and so there really is no context where my womanhood is cis (I am also intersex but it doesn’t play as big a role in my womanhood as it may for others). Trans men assigned male can have similar experiences, although they can have many others! Some are be plural, some are be former trans women who now feel “man, but trans” better captures their identity, some are nonbinary people who are more “man-adjacent” or have some connection to manhood (such as being gay men) while still being very much a nonbinary/genderqueer individual, etc etc.

Notably, if someone says “I am a trans man who was assigned male because xyz,” that doesn’t mean they think that being a trans man assigned female requires xyz. When I point to my multigenderedness or my androgynous body as part of my identity as a trans woman, I am not saying “being a trans woman is defined by being partially male or physically androgynous.” Rather, I am a woman who has a trans body and a trans identity, and I am also transfeminized regularly in public, so on both a personal and social level it is something that makes sense to apply to myself, although I don’t talk about it often because people have not historically been the chillest about it. But its gotten a lot more discussed as of late, and people have even started pushing away from using AGAB entirely, so I’ve decided to be a bit more open about it.

Anyways! That’s why I wanted to shout out trans men assigned male <3 I love my brothers in not being defined by what people thought of our genitals at birth, I love my brothers in transsexuality and genuinely for real changing your sex, I love my brothers in nonbinarity and genderqueerness and the experience of being binary in a nonbinary way, I love my brothers in being denied validity in the very category you were forced into because you were a weird little queer from childhood.

*AGAB language was originally coined for use in nonconsensual surgeries on intersex children, pioneered by notable monster John Money. so if this is surprising to anyone, It Really Should Not Be.

[the-haiku-bot]

“trans men assigned male”

can cover a few difference

experiences:

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[crazy-pages]

I'm a perisex man, assigned male at birth, who is currently seeking bottom surgery because that's what feels right. No hormone replacement or other transition, just that. I sometimes joke that makes me a trans man, just the other kind of trans man. Trans(exual) rather than trans(gender).