bones or bust

Pro-recovery, 5", 21 yo, (They, them) Sw:275lbs Cw:163lbs Gw: 150lbs Ugw:85 lbs

[minkbeans]

I want to shrink and shrink and shrink until there is nothing of me left.

Will he cradle my rotting flesh and brittle bones and tell me I look beautiful?

[scremm]

You know it gets bad again when you result into going back on tumblr 💀

[crimson-collarbones]

Forever called out by this I'm 22. I'm too old for this shit. Still not even good at it. All this fucking suffering can I at least be skinny

[radiolightning]

In case anyone is having a bad night:

Here is the fudgiest brownie in a mug recipe I’ve found

Here are some fun sites

Here is a master post of Adventure Time episodes and comics

Here is a master post of movies including Disney and Studio Ghibli

Here is a master post of other master posts to TV shows and movies

*tucks you in with fuzzy blanket* *pats your head*

You’ll be okay, friend <3

[meanwolfs-remade-deactivated201]

i will reblog this everytime it shows up because any of my followers could have a bad night right now

[becausewhatiam-iswhatimnot]

All these links, besides the first, are broken. So here’s some more.

Here’s an emergency compliment

Here you can play 2048

Here’s a playlist of Bob ross

Here’s a website to watch movie’s and shows for free

Here’s a website to watch documentaries for free

Here you can to nothing for two minutes

Here you can break something. It’s good for anger

Here’s a button to press to make everything okay

Here’s a site to cut something up (TRIGGER WARNING)

Here’s a site that makes you a website depending on a song you choose

Here’s a gay comic. It’s adorable

Here you can spend Bill Gate’s money

Here you can draw your own island

Here you can learn about patterns website’s use

Here you can get your life stats

Here you can listen to the Tucker Zone (Headphones needed)

Here you can see how fast you’re moving

Here you can see the progress of time

Here you can see the future of the universe 

[becausewhatiam-iswhatimnot]

Want some more? 

Here’s the butterfly project

Here’s a snickerdoodle mug cake

Here’s a link to some free audiobooks

Here’s something to read when you feel like a burden

Here’s a secret

Here’s my playlist of some sea shanties 

Here’s another secret

Here’s a link to some cool websites 

Here’s a blog that gives you recipes for when you’re low on spoons

Here’s some Brony Headcanon’s

[becausewhatiam-iswhatimnot]

Some more? I’ve got plenty

Here’s 100,000 stars

Here you can control the weather (TW FLASHING IMAGES)

Here you can weave silk

Here you can make a castle of your own

Here you can make a kaleidoscope drawing

Here you can explore recursion

Here you can play a jelly block game

[becausewhatiam-iswhatimnot]

I’m back with some more! 

Here you can draw with pasta

Here you can draw logo’s from memory

Here you can play this is sand, here you draw cool sand designs

Here you can play The Organ Trail

Here’s a customizable white noise website

Here you can simulate gravity

Here you can create your own guardian of the galaxy

Here you can make your own galaxy

Here’s a website you can get some support at.

[becausewhatiam-iswhatimnot]

to find later

[crimson-collarbones]

Just lost my boyfriend of 5 years.

Oh well. Ya know what that means.

Spiraling into thoughts about how maybe if I wasn't a fat pig he'd still love me.

Leading toooooooooo

💕 A relapse darling 💕

[godisahuman]

Every once in a while I think “why do I have all these mental disorders, surely my childhood wasn’t that bad” and then I have an interaction with my mother and I understand.

[crimson-collarbones]

You know what? shout out to my parents!

Who I vividly remember at age 15 when I spent hours a day marching on the band field in the hot sun. Ate according to how hungry I was after practicing for sometimes 5 hours a day. And they intervened to tell me I should loose weight.

Shout out to them.

Here I am age 20. This account and tags tell everything ya need to know about how thats going.

[dreamyandotherworldly]

TW: ED VENT ART

[notsickenoughx-deactivated20220]

great news! I'm having mc donalds today which means I'm cured, can't believe it's that easy /j

[thisxisbananas]

Please reblog if you‘re over 20 and have an ed. I need people to follow ❤️

[crimson-collarbones]

Turning 20 in less then a month now. Still fat and ugly tho

[b0ttl3d-up-st4rs]

Trauma Moods

-The emotions are too overwhelming

-I only feel numbness

-I hate my abuser with a burning passion

-Maybe I don't hate my abuser.

-I want to get hurt again

-I literally cannot function or do work. Like at all.

-Wtf is wrong with me

-I can't sleep so I stare into the void feeling like a cryptid

-I should text my abuser

-The overwhelming urge to drown the pain with alcohol or drugs

-I just want to hit myself to a bloody pulp

-Why can't I just die?

-*has a dream that reminds me of trauma which bothers me the rest of the day*

-Wait that actually happened?

-What happened wasn't that bad. Others had it way worse. I'm making a big deal out of nothing.

-Am I a sex symbol?

-I can't comprehend what happened

-Irritability at everyone and everything

-*escapes into my fantasy land*

-"Maybe I'll go to sleep and then wake up in the fictional world with all my comfort characters"

-This is fine. (It's not fine)

-Cognitive Dissonance

-Who am I?

-Pain

[ziggyplayedd]

things that made me stop wanting to die that require no effort whatsoever

change the color used to highlight text on your laptop

move the pictures on your wall

stack whatever clutter is in your room into piles even if you don’t have time to clean it all

slightly vary your commute, even just by one street

change where you sit and scroll aimlessly on your phone even if it’s only to the chair in your room instead of your bed

drink water or juice out of a wine glass in the morning because nothing is real

shower with the lights off, without music

buy $3 flowers at trader joe’s—they look bad next to the more expensive ones but they look so good in your room

start typing things you don’t post into your notes. your thoughts can be worth documenting even if you don’t deem them worth sharing

wake up super early just once. you don’t have to make it a habit it’s just extra satisfying to go to bed that night

listen to the entirety of your favorite album from 2015

[sandersstudies]

Almost all of these are about variety. Humans need stimulation! We need enrichment! We literally cannot do the same thing every day!

The other day I was feeling miserable, so I hopped on a bus and rode it all the way back to where I’d started, and my brain, which had finally had some proper stimulation via new environments, was suddenly ready to go again!

This is why taking walks/drives and trying new hobbies are good for you! Don’t turn yourself into a sad zoo animal! You need some pumpkins to roll around in your enclosure!

[yippeeepenid]

ITS BACK!!!!!

god i fucking love the quote “dont turn yourself into a sad zoo animal” it has really inspired me!

[st4rving-for-kicks-deactivated2]

2014 EDblr: I didn’t eat for three days so I could be lovely

2021 EDblr: I haven’t shit in three days and I sure don’t feel lovely

[lost-in-my-body-again]

I saved this years ago and I have no idea from where, but I look at it so often it hurts

[crimson-collarbones]

I feel bad for all the young people that get the wrong idea that starving is somehow

poetic

Like lol RIP 💀

[so-you-think-im-sk1nnyyyy]

Some cute little more safe ones <33 I’m literally obsessed with them :))

[weightless-boness]

these are so cute! + there are higher and lower options i love that

[starvingstonedandskinny]

aw I absolutely love these

[sweatersandcalories]

“No offense but you look more than 100lbs.” “120 pounds?! That’s how much i weigh and I’m a guy!” “Honey maybe you should have a salad instead.” “Oh you should come workout with me!” “You’re going to lose weight and be healthy? Thats a laugh!” “Oh my gosh your cousin is so thin, shes always been so pretty.” “Hey, what’s your friends number?” “Did you gain weight?” “Are you going to eat all that?” “I don’t think that dress would fit you.” “Wait if you have an eating disorder why aren’t you..thin?” “I would let you borrow it, but i just don’t want it to get stretched out.” “We don’t carry your, sizes here.” “Maybe you could try a sport.” “You look fat.”

To never have to hear these.

[lilbunix]

the fact that ive heard these, throughout my 21 years, even as a child, makes me feel so large and disgusting.

[crimson-collarbones]

"You're pretty for a Big Girl"

[skele-hope-deactivated20190702]

ugw is cancelled, it’s now called my final form