Still Alive

even if you choose to hate this burden of a heart is it worth giving up everything to end back at the start? { Kyouko Sakura, affiliated with AoD } { SHSL Lancer } { Room #217 } { Deaths: 2 | Kills: 1 }

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誓いの口付け | イチハルネ＊お仕事募集中 [pixiv] 

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Don't Dwell On It {Kyouko & Kaworu}

[thenagisakaworu]

Recently, much has run amok within the walls of Hope’s Peak. It seemed the crime rate was certainly heightening, though Kaworu was still relatively new to the school so this could just be the usual behavior. Even so, it was distressing to see all the students suffering and he was powerless to prevent it most of the time. 

Thinking through this, his mind wandered back to Mondo’s infamous trial. Kaworu had been so determined to avenge his friend without realizing the other side of the story, practically pushing the red head to her death. It seemed his efforts to substitute himself seemed futile. No matter how much he insisted his own execution occur, the red head met her death all too quickly.

Luckily for her, the students would be revived. Even so, it should never occur. He was hoping she had returned by now and was recovering. He was hoping she could find solace of some sort, happiness to ease her through. Maybe in this new lifetime Kaworu could protect her more efficiently. 

In the midst of his thoughts, who better to arrive on the scene then the very subject herself? She was enjoying a hearty snack and obviously trying to avoid the angel, that much evident by her light shove. Kaworu’s face brightened at the sight of her. She seemed well, obviously healthy and vigorous.  Perhaps this was a sign? Kaworu did truly want to make amends for the trial incident. She seemed like a perfectly lovely Lilin, maybe he could even befriend her? Why not? Kaworu was one to take chances anyway, so he openly reached out and gently grasped her wrist in an effort to bring her to a halt.

"I’m so happy that you are doing well now. You look fantastic." Instantaneously he commented, his features melding into a loving, caring expression. "I was hoping we could speak. We started out on the wrong foot. I would love to learn more about the true Kyouko-san."

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His hopes were misplaced.

Well, they were hopes easily dashed, so to speak. No, solace? Happiness? Those things didn't- couldn't- exist, not behind these walls. The last time her face had bore a true smile was in the distant past, during a childhood that had gone far from according to plan. It was all a waste of time, emotions. There were a lot of things that seemed to waste her time nowadays. She wasn't much to bank hopes on.

Sure, her body's healed, but there's far beyond outward appearances. Kyouko really had no idea what he would have to gain from her, but she didn't care to explaining anything to him. When she felt the slight pressure on her wrist, she'd been expecting it; even so, her shoulders tensed, and she ripped her wrist away from his grip as quickly as it had come.

"A-huh. Absolutely fantastic," Kyouko murmurs, not yet bothering to turn around. This guy is a fool. If she was doing fantastic, then he might as well be king of the world. She grabbed another snag of the apple, turning on a heel with eyes sharp like knives. Her lips curled up to one side, offering a smirk without anything behind it.

"I don't think ya should bother with me. I mean, ya saw everything yerself. Ya don't wanna end up like your buddy Mondo, now do ya?" Just stating the name was another stab. The words held no promises, and they were nothing more than empty threats. Maybe it was an intimidation factor she thought that she possessed? Perhaps people would leave her to her own devices now that they knew what she was capable of. Just as quickly as it had come, that mocking smile slipped away.

"The true me ain't anythin' good to anybody. 'Swhy you should leave me alone."

[cremedesake]

by 赤い液体

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Don't Dwell On It {Kyouko & Kaworu}

Once again, back to the start. There wasn't really any point in changing, or advancing, or moving forward. But hey, there was one ideal she had left in tact- live for yourself, because no one else matters in the end. It was true, wasn't it? Everyone else had been able to condemn her without a second thought, some just glad for the trial to be over so they could get back to their own lives. Maybe, fleetingly, she'd hoped that someone might mourn over her death, but she didn't blame them if they didn't. Hell, she wouldn't have mourned herself! Murderers don't deserve the courtesy, whether it's their fault or not.

Still, she remembers someone that had fought for her safety, and offered his own life in exchange for hers. It was funny, because he'd been the primary reason she'd been found guilty. Back during the moment, she'd thought him an idiot for trying to act in her stead, but now she almost felt... grateful. She didn't even know him, but he seemed to care. Still, she tried to convince herself that that was just plain stupid. That kind of kindness does nothing for anyone.

Kyouko was on one of her daily food trips, strolling out of the cafeteria and crunching an apple in hand. Her routine was all the same, and there wasn't a point in avoiding the cafeteria anymore. Sticking to the past would just be a waste of whatever time she had.

And here that guy was, speak of the devil. Kyouko couldn't really remember his name if she'd ever heard it at all, but either way she lowered her head, allowing her hair to sweep across her features. Her headstrong will was clashing with the rest of her.

"Out of my way," she grumbled, placing a palm on his chest and moving him slightly aside. No, she didn't want to be questioned about anything, but if anyone would, it would probably be him.

[izayalogy-blog]

☣ AOD MEME SUNDAY! ☣

☢Headcanons - Send a word and the mun will write our a response of how it relates to their character. ☢Truth or Dare - We all know how this one works, don’t just overrun it with dares! There’s a truth part to it y’know! ☢Ask My Character/Mun - Ask the character anything, they are even allowed to break the fourth wall. Even send questions to the mun, this can help to know them better! ☢Drabbles - Give the muse a prompt and they may write a short drabble on it. ☢Pumpkin - What sort of costume are you going to wear on Halloween? ☢Cheap Candy - What is the scariest thing you can think of? ☢Fairy Princess - How do you feel about the school?  ☢Power Ranger - What are your opinions on magic? ☢Ghost - If you could go to someone else’s homeland, whose would it be? Why? ☢Candle - If you could be a monster, what sort of monster would you be? ☢Loaf - What is your favorite quote? Why? ☢Spook a boo - Free Question

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With Every Annoyance {Kyouko & Gareki}

Alright, so Kyouko so far has failed to make any true friends. It wasn’t like she wanted to make friends in the slightest, since being the lone wolf was what she had her mind set on. However, making enemies also seemed to be her specialty, and that proved to be quite taxing on her magic what with the constant getting into fights. Only now did she realize how careless she was being. Kyouko was propped up against a hallway wall, twiddling her one overly-used Grief Seed on her fingers.

Was a Witch gonna hatch out of the thing sometime? Shouldn’t it have by now? Or was it waiting to prey on the school until the right moment? Either way, it practically pulsated with despair, and there was no Kyubey to get rid of it. What should she do? Crush it under her boot? Could she do that? Hell, why hadn't she become a Witch and where were the new Soul Gems coming from? So many questions that would probably never have proper answers.

Well, if it wasn’t going to hatch yet, it wasn’t currently a problem. It’ll become a problem when it does, but for right now the redhead didn’t care about it one way or another. The Gem cleanser was once again tucked away into her pocket, acknowledging that flaunting magic was probably a rather harmful thing to do. Regardless, she still strolled past the dorms, an ice bar she’d managed to find jammed in her mouth. Even if conflict was even more troublesome now, she wasn't going to just bow down. If someone happened along her way, and it was someone she'd squared off with, then whatever, she'll fight then.

Oh look, here's one of those pests. Well, not squared off with. It was moreso a passive arguement that lasted a total of two or three tweets before she was bored. Even if she'd been humbled a little by the trial, there was a lot of personality that this modesty had yet to touch base with. Hey, why not continue that little conversation face to face?

"…Yer pretty damn annoying yerself, ya know that, guy?”

[crimsonstainedmagic]

Was it not your sin trapped the unicorn?

"…"

"What in the ever-lovin’ fuck are you talkin’ about."

[crimsonstainedmagic]

☢Cheap Candy

☢Cheap Candy - What is the scariest thing you can think of?

"Scary? Tch. Why would anything scare me? Hell, if I’m scared of anythin’, it’s myself."

[izayalogy-blog]

➟ How is my driving?

[izayalogy-blog]

☣ AOD MEME SUNDAY! ☣

☢Headcanons - Send a word and the mun will write our a response of how it relates to their character. ☢Truth or Dare - We all know how this one works, don’t just overrun it with dares! There’s a truth part to it y’know! ☢Ask My Character/Mun - Ask the character anything, they are even allowed to break the fourth wall. Even send questions to the mun, this can help to know them better! ☢Drabbles - Give the muse a prompt and they may write a short drabble on it. ☢Pumpkin - What sort of costume are you going to wear on Halloween? ☢Cheap Candy - What is the scariest thing you can think of? ☢Fairy Princess - How do you feel about the school?  ☢Power Ranger - What are your opinions on magic? ☢Ghost - If you could go to someone else’s homeland, whose would it be? Why? ☢Candle - If you could be a monster, what sort of monster would you be? ☢Loaf - What is your favorite quote? Why? ☢Spook a boo - Free Question

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Back to Where We Came From {Kyouko & Mami}

[musketribbons]

There has to be a way out, Mami thought. If she got herself into this place, she could get herself out, even if she had forgotten the reason why she is here. Moping around won’t help much, so she decided to investigate the school some more. Who knows, there could be a way out of this prison of a school.

She went outside her room, and began to investigate the school. It wasn’t against the rules to do so, if she recalled correctly. It seemed to be quite late, since not much students were out at this time. There was no way to tell the time from outside, since all the windows have been fixed with steel plates and bolts. As she was about to check her new monomessenger to check the exact time, she heard someone dropping something. She looked towards the red-head in curiosity, finding that this person was someone very familiar.

"Kyouko?" Mami was surprised to see Kyouko. It’s been a very long time since she had last seen her. Mami felt relieved, but felt slightly anxious at the same time. Kyouko is, or at least was, Mami’s friend. Sadly, everything changed after that incident.

Mami approached Kyouko, just to make sure it was her. From the huge number of students in the school, she could be mistaken.

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Without much though, Kyouko mimicked the movement, retreating away from her. No, she couldn't look the other in the eye, now that it had all processed in her mind. Their ideals were far too different now, and this place had only intensified her belief. There was no redemption for her; it was impossible to save people, and impossible to be saved. Everyone here was fated to play out misery, like marionettes fitting into the mastermind's grand scheme of things. Mami was too kind, too foolish to survive in a place like this, and it made her sick to realize. But now, all she could do was act like she didn't care. To be honest, she couldn't.

"Don't come any closer," the redhead hissed, her hands clenching into fists. Her food that now lie in disarray on the ground was carelessly kicked away by her boot. Everything, every ideal she'd ever known, was gone. None of that meant anything. She wouldn't allow it.

"Are ya... are ya fuckin' kidding me? How the hell did you end up in here?" It was like a fuse had been lit, but she was hopelessly trying to suppress herself.

"Why did ya let yerself get caught in here? Are you a goddamn idiot? Even I didn't think ya could go this far!"

[superalicat]

[yoshikamiyafuji-deactivated2014]

＋＋＋ | シノアサ

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Back to Where We Came From {Kyouko & Mami}

You know those days, where everything is so melancholic without explanation? Well, maybe there's kind of an explanation, but it's beyond her right now. She's still really torn and behaving abnormally neurotic, but she's been doing better about avoiding people and scavenging food from wherever she could. She's not starving now, and she's at least trying to make attempts at feeding herself rather than lock herself away for a week. Guess where she's been recently? The Monobear Store. What did she get there? A shit ton of this off-brand Monocky. Yep, she still has the Monobear Coins from all the way back on that slaughterfest of a camping trip. It's crazy to think that that was months ago now. She'd been here for months, and she'd probably continue to be here. Nothing she could do about it.

So far, everything is safe. As long as she's not bothered, she can manage to block out the more gruesome spectrum of thoughts that had been following her since she'd revived for her third go at living. No one was approaching her directly, but sometimes interactions weren't stunted by a single possibility. Chance meetings were meant to happen sometimes.

Along her path through the dorm hall, on her way returning to room 217, this chick has the gall to just happen to be in the same place at the same time.

No, but this is different- this was someone she'd never except to end up trapped in Hell on Earth. She was the one with the ideals of justice that she'd come to despise, but also the one who'd lifted her up when there was nothing left for her. The one she'd betrayed, the one she had been avoiding like an ex you don't want to have to look in the face when you walk down the sidewalk. Someone she'd thought of as her senpai, as her sister, some time that felt so long ago she questioned if those events ever actually occurred.

They had to have. If they hadn't, she wouldn't react this way. Gaping at the newcomer before her, her hand froze, the box slipping away from her grasp and crashing onto the floor, scattering the treats. Fuck. The pocky currently between her fangs snapped under the pressure, and with a raspy and harsh tone, she muttered,

"Mami... Th' fuck are you doin' here."

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Do you like food?

She can't hear you. She's busy.

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hey homes;; like for a starter from good ol’ kyouko!! first two or three sounds good yeah

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☢Silver

☢Silver - What is your current long term goal?

Kyouko takes a long, empty pause before she’s able to properly offer up an answer.

 "…What’s the point in havin’ goals here? Exactly, there’s no point. We’re trapped. We are damned to die here, over and over and over. There’s nowhere left to go, and there’s nothin’ to gain. So why should I waste my time with something so fuckin’ stupid as a goal?”