R.I.P 2 MY YOUTH !

A GIRL A GUN / AND BETWEEN THE TWO WAS THERE EVER ANY DIFFERENCE? Ind. horror OC. As told by Gabbi.

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I just love using anger as a coping mechanism instead of letting myself feel sad cause thats Pathetic™

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Sorry for the headcanon spam, I just wanted people to be able to see them in case they were curious!

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HEADCANON // FEELINGS TOWARD MEN.

I think it’s important to note that yes, Jo hates men. She’s never really had a reason to trust them, the one man she should’ve been able to trust ( her FATHER ), who should’ve kept her safe; did nothing but neglect her at best and abuse her at worst. And even aside from that, she’s literally never found any real reason to trust a man since then either. 

Most of her kills are either men who mistreat women or men that simply remind her of her dad—it can also be both. But she won’t hurt women, unless you count getting into fights. Because she’ll get into fights with pretty much anyone.

Jo’s hate is rooted in distrust and anger. She’s been angry her entire life and very often feels out of control. And violence is one few ways for her to feel in control, of herself, and of anything.

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HEADCANON // MENTAL HEALTH.

Jo has undiagnosed bipolar disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder. 

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HEADCANON // COPING MECHANISMS.

Due to Jo’s severe & undiagnosed mental illnesses, over the years she has developed rather poor coping mechanisms. The biggest ones being self harm and reckless behaviors.

 When Jo was a bit younger (probably 15-17) she used to occasionally burn herself with a lighter or even with the tip of her cigarette. It was a habit likely formed from times when she felt numb or symptoms of disassociation as a means of feeling something. It also often came out when her emotions were running high and/or she felt out of control. Times like this often came after fights with her father, in some ways it was also a subconscious way of punishing herself.

She doesn’t do this as often now but it’s still a habit that resurfaces every now and then, especially when stress runs high or she’s particularly triggered in regards to her past.

Jo consistently drinks heavily / partakes in various kinds of drug use. This ties into the reckless behaviors I mentioned but also displays a severe lack of regard / caring for her well being and therefore is also a symptom of self harm.

Jo is very hypersexual and often uses physical connection in that way to sort of fill an emptiness inside of her. However, she seldom let’s herself get close or attached to her partner and she usually sticks to one night stands.

Besides her more intense violent tendencies, Jo will get violent urges and intense bouts of anger that she doesn’t really know how to deal with. She’s prone to getting into fight,  even fights she knows she won’t win.

 It all ties into trying to gain some semblance of control & trying to shake the numbness and emptiness inside her that sometimes surfaces.

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FLUSTER👏MY👏MUSE👏👏

Do everything in your power, hug them, compliment them, flirt with them. Anything goes!

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° • ? ( QUESTION SENTENCE STARTERS.

❛ What are you doing? ❜ ❛ Where are you going? ❜ ❛ Where are you taking me? ❜ ❛ How is that working out for you? ❜ ❛ Is everything okay? ❜ ❛ Why are you acting like this? ❜ ❛ You think I would lie to you? ❜ ❛ Are you telling the truth? ❜ ❛ Are you sure you want to do this? ❜ ❛ This is your bright idea of a plan? ❜ ❛ What else do you want me to do? ❜ ❛ What else can I do? ❜ ❛ What do you think I should do? ❜ ❛ What makes you think that? ❜ ❛ Who told you that? ❜ ❛ Who are you? ❜ ❛ Why are you here? ❜ ❛ Who invited you? ❜ ❛ How come you ever asked me? ❜ ❛ Did you really mean all those things you said? ❜ ❛ Why did you have to go? Why did you have to leave? ❜ ❛ Why is it so hard for you to see that? ❜ ❛ Why don’t you understand? ❜ ❛ What don’t you understand? ❜ ❛ Are you joking? ❜ ❛ Did I miss anything? ❜ ❛ You don’t remember? ❜ ❛ Did you really say all that stuff about me? ❜ ❛ Did you think I would forget? ❜ ❛ How can you sit there and say that? ❜ ❛ How do you even sleep at night? ❜ ❛ Are you coming or not? ❜ ❛ Am I the only one freaked out right now? ❜ ❛ Are you laughing or crying? ❜ ❛ Who did this to you? ❜ ❛ Did someone hurt you? ❜ ❛ Is it just me or are you, like, ignoring me? ❜ ❛ You want me to apologize for something you did? ❜ ❛ Are you going to kiss me or not? ❜ ❛ Aren’t you the one who said it though? ❜ ❛ So, you don’t like me like that? ❜ ❛ Where do we go from here? ❜ ❛ Are you being serious right now? ❜ ❛ How was I supposed to know that? ❜ ❛ Oh, is that a challenge? ❜ ❛ Are you flirting with me? ❜ ❛ Are you going to let me go now? ❜ ❛ Are we done now? ❜ ❛ Why didn’t just ask me? ❜ ❛ You’re going to believe them over me? ❜ ❛ How can possibly think that? ❜ ❛ Did you even miss me? ❜ ❛ Did anyone even notice that I was gone? ❜ ❛ Why do you go around and kiss everyone? ❜ ❛ Did you kill them? ❜ ❛ Who’s blood is that? Is that your blood? ❜ ❛ Do you think this is a game? ❜ ❛ Are you having doubts? ❜ ❛ Why haven’t you been at school/work? ❜ ❛ Is there something going on that you need to tell me? ❜ ❛ You said you wanted to talk? ❜ ❛ What am I supposed to do? ❜ ❛ What did you expect to happen? ❜ ❛ How long you think you can keep this act up? ❜ ❛ You don’t like me? Do you? Like in a more than a friend way? ❜ ❛ Is that what everyone is saying now? ❜ ❛ Who do I remind you of? ❜ ❛ Are you hungry? Want to go get something to et? ❜ ❛ Are you drunk? ❜ ❛ Are you lost? ❜ ❛ What’s so great about any of that anyway? ❜ ❛ Are you even listening to yourself? ❜ ❛ What are you going to do about it, huh? ❜ ❛ What are you staring at? ❜ ❛ What are you doing out here? ❜ ❛ Why did you call the police? ❜ ❛ Wait, do you hear that? ❜ ❛ Why don’t you tell me anything? ❜ ❛ Hey, did you get me anything? ❜ ❛ Why didn’t you come over last night? ❜ ❛ What did you find out? ❜ ❛ Can I stay here for the night? ❜ ❛ Are you throwing rocks at my window? ❜ ❛ Are you crying? ❜ ❛ What are you laughing at me? ❜ ❛ Are you laughing at me? ❜ ❛ Do you not understand the word no? ❜ ❛ Is that it? Is that all? ❜ ❛ Are you in some kind of trouble? ❜ ❛ Yeah, but, you have me. So why bother? ❜ ❛ What’s love got to do with it? ❜ ❛ This is where we kiss, right? ❜ ❛ Do you ever not just only think about yourself? ❜ ❛ Are going to leave me again? ❜ ❛ What’s wrong with that? ❜ ❛ Do you have anything you need to say to me? ❜ ❛ I think I’m going to puke. Is there a trash can in here? ❜ ❛ You really don’t know why I’m mad at you? ❜ ❛ Why do you treat me like I’m not important to you? ❜ ❛ Why are you telling me this? ❛ Are you ready? ❜ ❛ What’s with all the questions? ❜ ❛ I thought this is what you wanted? ❜ ❛ Where do you think you’re going with this? ❜ ❛ You’re just going to leave? ❜ ❛ Do you trust me? ❜ ❛ You love me? Or you think you love me? ❜ ❛ When will it ever stop? ❜ ❛ Do you think it’ll ever go away? ❜ ❛ What are you doing this weekend? ❜ ❛ You called for back up? ❜ ❛ What did I just witness? ❜ ❛ How do you cope when the one you love is with somebody else? ❜ ❛ Have you ever thought it? ❜ ❛ Are you wearing a wire? ❜ ❛ Is there something wrong? ❜ ❛ Is it something I said or something I did? ❜ ❛ What’s wrong? I thought that it was okay? ❜ ❛ Are you going to hold that against me forever? ❜ ❛ So, tell me, what else is new? ❜ ❛ You never actually cared, did you? ❜ ❛ You went to a party without me? ❜ ❛ Why wasn’t I invited? ❜ ❛ Do you think that’s a little fucked up? ❜ ❛ Oh, so you do speak? ❜ ❛ Do you think it’s really worth it in the end? ❜ ❛ How many more times do I have to tell you? ❜ ❛ You didn’t think that it would bother me? ❜

[thegazingabyss666]

Name a more iconic duo than my fear of abandonment and instinct to self isolate, I’ll wait.

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little  icon  giveaway   !    this  is  open  to  all  roleplay  blogs,   even  you  rph  blogs .   personals  do  not  reblog  or  ivy  will  whip  you  with  a  vine  .    we  don’t  have  to  be  mutuals ,  although  if  you  wanna  give  me  a  cheeky  follow  i’ll  reward  you  with  my  undying  love .     YOU  WILL  WIN  :   an  undefined  amount  of  icons ,  it’ll  be  over  200  but  i  usually  get  carried  away ,  so  we  could  be  talking  3000 .  who  knows  with  me .   i  may  even  throw  in  a  dash  icon   &   header  !     IF  THERE  IS  A  PSD  YOU  LIKE  IN  THE  TAG   &   YOU  WANT  ME  TO  BUY  IT ,   i  will .   once  the  icons  are  made  i  will  send  you  the  psd  too  !    love  vega .   reblog  /  like  to  enter  ! 

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This is my end of the year list of mutuals whom I will follow to the ends of the Earth. ⚡ Whoosh!

My Main Loves: 

@astresque - THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. Seriously, I love you so much and I can’t wait to move in with you. You’re one of the most talented writers I know, and I’m lucky to have you in my life. You’re sweet and we know each other so well that we’re nearly the same person. You’re the best, kiss kiss!

@timefought - I initially forgot what your name was on here and couldn’t find it, but I finally did come across it. You’re amazing and I love you to death. I have such a good time roleplaying with you and talking to you in general, and you’ve become someone extremely important to me over the years. A wonderful, wonderful person.

@thedepxrted - You’re one of my best friends of all time. We’ve known each other for nearly six years now! We do go a bit without talking sometimes, but that doesn’t lessen the fact that I adore you. You’re one of the kindest people I’ve ever met. 

@xfxdedstxr - I’m happy to have become friends with you in the past couple of months. You’re a really great person, and you’re a great writer. We can share a lot of things with each other and talk about how our days have been, and I hope we’ll write together more very soon!

@cheaphopes - We need to talk and plot some more, but you’re super cool. I enjoy our conversations and it seems we have a lot in common. It’s nice to be able to vent with you. I look forward to talking to you some more in the future.

@foundgold - You’re a bouncy, bubbly ball of awesome and you’re so super great. We’re new friends but I’ve appreciated you so much so far and I know we still have a lot to talk about and we’re working on that three-person thread with astresque. Hearts for you!

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Super Cool Babes List: (including those I admire from afar)

@derrypcet, @ciinque, @mistersfame, @cruelgirled, @petiteballerina, @dcfctive, @moonsworn, @80sroids, @galasymph, @mindlikeadiamcnd, @drtbcg

And every last one of my followers and mutuals, especially the ones who deserve to be on here but that I’ve blanked out about. Thank you all!

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dcllparted:

“Anyone ever teach ya not t’touch what isnt yours, mm? Whatsamatta with you?” fingers snatch at the lighter without even really looking at it && it’s stuffed into her jacket pocket. “who the fuck does that? your weak ass can’t handle a little jack && you go snatchin’ lighters.” all it said through a bit a drunken slur, but dare point that out, and she’ll have your neck. “you got a name, sticky fingers?”

❝It’s a fucking LIGHTER,❞ she says. Emphasis on ‘ lighter ‘ --- as if it’ll make the other see just how ridiculous this conversation was. ❝Unless your grandfather or whoever got it in the war, I don’t really see why you’re so pissed.❞ Truth be told, it’s fairly obvious that they were BOTH insanely wasted. Which somehow only serves to make this particular argument even more absurd. ❝It’s Jo, my name is Jo.❞    

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‘ so tell me about yourself, ‘ the blonde was on her second drink and the only seemingly nice person here is the bartender who was serving her. 

@cruelgirled liked for a starter

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She chuckles, ❝the only thing you need to know about me---is that I wish that I was the one sitting at the bar drinking.❞ This wasn’t the first time someone tried to make conversation with her on a shift; but something seemed more inherently earnest about this particular costumer. ❝What about you? You just here for fun or are you looking to drown your sorrows? ❞

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@brassbuilt​:

       @cruelgirled // dark alleyway

               “there better be a really good explanation,” he says, his gun drawn and pointed at her. the body beneath her looked gruesome; it reminded him of the first body regan had shown him. she had called in a panic after killing that first person, but this woman seemed a bit calm. “keep your hands where i can see them.”

The knife slips out of her blood stained hands, as she raises them in surrender. There’s an armory of excuses ready to roll out of her mouth and off her tongue, ❝I just did what I HAD to,❞ she says instead. After all, the world wouldn’t stop turning being short ONE scumbag. Even so, she’s almost certain he won’t feel the same.

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Continued from Here / @cruelgirled

Clenching her fists by her sides, Kailee stared at the girl before huffing and deciding against slapping her. “You’re lucky I’m too nice to hit you. But you keep your mouth shut if all it’s gonna do is spill bullshit.” She said in return. “You said you’d give me a ride home once the bar closed, now it’s closed. You cannot abandon me here..” She said, a worried look in her eyes now. 

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There’s a subsequent eye roll as she slips on her coat, ❝You really got a pair on you,❞ she’ll say with a scoff. ❝I’ll spill all the ‘ bullshit ’ I feel like. Now you’re lucky I’m feeling nice---otherwise I WOULD leave you stranded in this shit hole.❞ Jo didn’t take too kindly to being bossed around. Still, she pulls out her keys, even dangles them a bit. ❝I guess I did ask for a little bit of BITE though, so whatever. Let’s get your ass home.❞

[bluesmemethings]

various starters

❛  you’re a weapon and weapons don’t weep.  ❜

❛  hurt me once, I’ll kill you twice.  ❜

❛  never trust a survivor until you learn what they did to stay alive.  ❜

❛  death is the only god that comes when you call.  ❜

❛  I am teeth. I am royal. you are nothing to me.  ❜

❛  the sun will rise and we will try again.  ❜

❛  we’re just kids. we aren’t supposed to be heroes.  ❜

❛  I like my women like I like my Absinthe: bitter and intoxicating.  ❜

❛  what doesn’t kill me better run.  ❜

❛  she wasn’t looking for a knight. she was looking for a sword.  ❜

❛  don’t dehumanize bad people, because it’s their humanity which makes what they’ve done so terrifying.  ❜

❛  she isn’t just pretty. she is otherworldly and vaguely threatening.  ❜

❛  magic is not good or evil. is a knife evil? only if the wielder is.  ❜

❛  I don’t want your crown. see, I’ve come to burn your kingdom down.  ❜

❛  they broke my wings. they forgot I have claws.  ❜

❛  all that blood was never beautiful, it was just red.  ❜

❛  what do you do when there’s no hero in the story? simple. you kill the monster and crown yourself.  ❜

❛  how terrible it is, to love something that death can touch.  ❜

❛  you may not be interested in war, but it is interested in you.  ❜

❛  I feel divinity in my bones like aching. like fire.  ❜

❛  you make me feel and I don’t like it. I want it to stop. now.  ❜

❛  you are losing my interest and that is very dangerous.  ❜

❛  she will burn your kingdoms down, herself with it, if it means your ruin.  ❜

❛  it’s okay to be scared. it means your about to do something brave.  ❜

❛  she looks like divine absolution.  ❜

❛  I will not be another flower, picked for my beauty and left to die. I will be wild, difficult to find and impossible to forget.  ❜

❛  be careful with words. they can be forgive, but never forgotten.  ❜

❛  you not wanting me was the beginning of me wanting myself.  ❜

❛  I’m tired of fighting. for once, I want to be fought for.  ❜

❛  never run back to what broke you.  ❜

❛  I was quite, but not blind.  ❜

❛  your gut knows what’s up. trust that bitch.  ❜

❛  we all eat lies when our hearts are hungry.  ❜

❛  do not judge my story by the chapter you walked in on.  ❜

❛  I’m just a girl, standing in front of a salad, wishing it was a donut.  ❜

❛  you can miss something but not want it back.  ❜

❛  you can’t save people, you can only love them.  ❜

❛  I came, I saw, I made it awkward.  ❜

❛  we buy shite we don’t need, with money we don’t have, to impress people we don’t like.  ❜

❛  you’re always one decision away from a different life.  ❜

❛  my brain has too many tabs open.  ❜

❛  I’m not saying I hate you, just that you’re like the Monday of people.  ❜

❛  there’s no ‘we’ in fries.  ❜

❛  apology accepted, trust denied.  ❜

❛  death and I have been scandalously intimate for some time now.  ❜

❛  life happens. coffee helps.  ❜

❛  I am mine before I am ever anyone else’s.  ❜

❛  I rely a bit too heavily on alcohol and irony.  ❜

❛  very early in my life it was already too late.  ❜

❛  is that a threat or are you flirting with me.  ❜

❛  was the use of force necessary in completing your objectives?  ❜

❛  I’ll let you drag me to hell if it means you’ll hold my hand.  ❜

❛  I do bad things, and I do them very well.  ❜

❛  you drink too much, you cuss too much and you have questionable morals. you’re everything I ever wanted.  ❜

❛  they will kill you, but first they will have to catch you.  ❜

❛  drugs might kill you but they’ll never break your heart.  ❜

❛  good girls are just bad girls that haven’t been caught.  ❜

❛  a pretty face doesn’t guarantee a pretty heart.  ❜

❛  no airbag, we die like men.  ❜

❛  true evil is, above all, seductive.  ❜

❛  it takes more courage to suffer than to die.  ❜

❛  you must be lucky to avoid the wolf every time. but the wolf? he only needs enough luck to catch you once.  ❜

❛  justice is vengeance in prettier packaging.  ❜

[vhsmeme]

* soft angst starters

‘ stay with me tonight? ’

‘ don’t talk. save your strength. ’

‘ hey, i’ve got you. it’s okay. ’

‘ i’ll be right here. don’t worry. ’

‘ i think we’re done. ’

‘ hold my hand. ’

‘ it’s all been a lie, hasn’t it? ’

‘ we’re out of time. ’

‘ you’ll always be a friend. ’

‘ just hold me. ’

‘ i have to leave you behind. i’m sorry. ’

‘ don’t do that. it’ll only hurt. ’

‘ go on, cry. ’

‘ keep your eyes open. ’

‘ can i hug you? ’

‘ i trusted you. ’

‘ do you remember? ’

‘ i loved you. ’ 

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and when the dust of your rage settles you’re left in the dark palms pressed into your eyes wondering why you weren’t good enough

i blame myself. -jg (via blackwatch-guardian)