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Homeless in a month
Well due to getting fucked over awhile ago and losing my motorcycle and not able to find a job due to having no vehicle or money I was forced to move. Lived in a small town in Maine and was forced to move in with family in Mass. Now my Nana is selling the place and end of August I am forced to move again. My only option really is being homeless but I have a plan but am probably gonna move back down to Orlando, Florida since I know how to get around down there and a lot of 24 hour places. Will update this as time goes on but this is the newest shit in my crazy life.
Crazy decision
just posting this and gonna update it as time goes on. I am gonna be leaving the state of maine and going back to florida with barely anything and making a life there again next month. Going down with a backpack of clothes and some necessary items. planning on sleeping in the woods near a place i used to live where noone goes around. Not sure really how this is gonna turn out but im hoping after a month I get established. I am known for making crazy decisions like this and part of me does it because I like to live a interesting life even if things go wrong.
Dated A Sociopath
I found out after dating a girl online after two months moved to wisconsin for her that she was a sociopath. She faked multiple personalities and pretended she was being abused and said people were abusing her when they weren’t. She pretended to have multiple personalities really good that I really thought at first she had it. It started out with the first time i skyped with her. She had a scared look on her face and when she heard someone would throw pillows at the screen. She also wouldnt talk. The very next day all of a sudden she acted completly normal almost completly different. One day she said pretending to be a guy texting me thay she was indisposed at the moment and said her family pays to screw with her head or some crazy shit. She would act normal hours later and not recall anything. At night though she said her family stabs a needle in her and said she would start feeling numb and really cold. She also would pass out and wake up acting different. One time she said she wanted to kill her family and acted evil. I cant remember everything that happened but one time she said she was put in a room and forced to kill people. I was thinking she was delusional and schizofrenic but as time went on i got curious and asked what her name was and was given a different name. I cant remember all the names but the main ones were hex, sora, nadia, and haruki. ill add more info to this soon but the stuff I went through was not normal at all.
Updated part of it
I started suspecting she was shizophrenic because she would tell me really bizarre shit. I then started noticing really weird shit she would act like a complete different person and told me her family stabs her with a needle and then she goes completly numb and gets extremlly cold. Then one day she talks to me talking about killing her family and talking about killing everyone and out of curiousity because I study psychology and she acted like different people so I decided to ask for her name and she gives me a name leviathon and another one was hex which were the names of evil alters I eventually started calling them. For days it got crazy and I started suspecting multiple personality disorder because it was crazy. One personality said he was a guy personality and that he looks after the other personalities or some shit and that they all love me I guess. She at times told me bizare shit like she was locked in a room and forced to kill people. She also would suddenly act like shes being raped telling me and everything saying shes in a room and everything. She one time said she was being tied up and pretended to be a guy texting me saying she disprected him and he was gonna teach her. She went silent after that and hours later im freaking out and she told me and said nothing happened that shes going to the movies and im like wtf are you talking about you told me you were tied up or some shit like that. Then anoither day a personality is asking me to pick a personality I like best and all the others will go away and said that the main personality doesnt come out much that i need to hurry up and go up there to get her. which I eventually did go up which ill explain but I told that personality that i Love all of them because they are all part of her. My head was so fucked up at this point and I was too involved. Another personality that was out the most was named sora who was the personality that was always cold and feeling numb. I eventually couldnt take it and sold my xbox one to get myself a plane ticket to fly up there. Days before that I couldn't get ahold of her and when I finally did she gave me a completely different name and said she didnt know who I was. Oh she also would skype with me at times and go away come back looking differently and then hung up on me looking evil at me and didnt hear back for hours. Also other personalities i found out one tried talking to other guys on the site we were on and i confronted her and she gave me another name and then I started talking to her. Another personality was talking to me completely normal then got up went to bathroom came back with a kitchen knife and put it against her through t and to get her to stop I did something to get her to switch because of what i read and that apparently worked and then acted confused on why she had a knife.
Ok now the part of what happened when I actually met her
I took a flight from Fl to Wisconsin with only a backpack full of clothes and $100 and a tent. I ended up stranded that night because i couldnt get a taxi to the small town which I didnt expect. I stayed outside the whole night in the cold and then a guy right out of prison started talking to me for awhile and we had good conversation then we found a gas station we could stay at and I ended up falling asleep and every few hours someone would wake me up asking if i am ok. Then my gf told her parents about me and they ended up freaking but eventually picked me up and let me stay with them which really surprised me I must add. Ok ill add more to this later still have a lot more shit that happened that eventually led me to believe she made everything up all in a way to fuck with my head and play with my emotions and came to find out that she is more likely a sociopath. .
My Screwed up story of the last 10 years until now
To begin I have had a lot of things happen I grew up without a mother that died when I was 8 months old. I grew up with a father who is really damaged and suicidal. I have been betrayed by my own family and had my grandmoither throw me and my father out for no reason and I had a month to find a place to live. It led me down to florida where I left all my friends and just vanished. For first year aor two I had major depression and I had a lot go wrong until I met a girl which I fell in love with but then I for some reason became crazy and dillusional and just a complete mess and would breakdown and throw up because of my thoughts. Eventually it ended which led to me drinking until I blacked out. I became manic when I didnt know I was bipolar and started clubbing nightly. For about 2 months all I did was go out and party and get as drunk as possible. Eventually it stopped and I became more normal and eventrually started on new med that I rather not mention. I started going to a buddhist temple and I started doing good I was making friends and just having a great time volunteering and helping there. Eventually though I lost my only vehicle and decided to stop going. This is when a life changer happened and I ended up falling in love with a really fucked up person. In short she pretended to have multiple personalities and tell me she was being abused when she wasnt and a whole list of crazy and fucked up things. I ended up moving to another state to be with her because I thought she had MPD and was being abused and the way I am I wanted to be the rescuer. Little did I know the whole time she was toying with my head I believe by pretending to be all these other personalities. When I moved in with her and her parents it was good for about a week. Being with her was amazing I never felt so drawn to a girl like i did with her. What was weird is She would for some reason pass out anytime we were kissing and other really weird things like saying people were after us and note acting normal. She also would at times completely change and look at me with evil in her eyes and she would ignore me. Eventually she called the cops after breaking up with me she said was because her sister was goinna try to destroy my life and I wanted to tell her it was ok. I never expected but she called the cops on me and they said to stop talking to her. She told me she didnt call and said she loved me then the very next day said to stay away from her. Luckily When i was thrown out some friends I made let me stay with them . They did more for me then they know because my head became so fucked up if I was alone I probably would of killed myself. after awhile I had to move back to fl due to problems with them . After I moved I was depressed but started to bnike and exercise to make me feel better I then ended up meeting another girl. Things were good for the first month or two then not so great then one day I find out she attempted suicide and ended up in a psych ward for a couple days. This completely fucked my head up and when she got out she wouldnt make much time for us to be together and she was acting weird and she ended up staying in ny for awhile She then attempted suicide again and I got a text from her phone by her aunt saying she was only consciouse enough to say my name. I completely broke down and was devastated. She then had to go to a mental hospital for at least 2 months and she would sometimes be able to talk to me I missed her a lot. What devasted me after all the waiting I did for her was when she broke up with me right when she got out which she got out earlier than she made it seem so she was lying to me. I was planning on marrying this girl and even bought a ring and was gonna propose to her at this beautiful lake but then I got a text her breaking up with me and I later learned through a text she sent me saying she broke up with me because she was marrying her ex. This completely fucked my head up and led me on a darker path. I became full on manic after 2 days of wanting to kill myself by crashing my motorcycle full speed. I met a girl and let her move in my place day one. She was extremely beautiful and i fell for her quickly because she was staying with me. The issue is she didnt want a relationship even though we pretty much acted like we were. We argued a good amount because she would blame me for shit missing that I didnt touch. Other thing I hated was she would do private stripping and other things to make money. I hated her doing that shit and because I cared for her I would ride my motorcycle with her to these places and stay nearby incase something bad happened. Her and I also started using drugs together which I never thought I would touch meth. One day one of these times her doing what she did to make money took over 6 hours and i waited the whole time and I was freaking out worrying and when she got out she wouldnt tell me what happened which led to a big argument that night but the next day I used drugs for three days in a row because I didnt need to sleep, eat or even really drink anything. At nighttime on the third night was amazing with the girl I never had such amazing sex we were smoking meth, drinking alchohol and blasting music and having sex. It felt so amazing that night though went from amazing to horrible I ended up having convulsions for 6 hours my body has never gone through something like I did and I had times I could barely breath and would gasp for air. After 6 hours or so I still wasnt breathing good and I couldnt stop shaking and was getting worried and ended up calling an ambulance where when I was inside I had a bad panic attack and could barely stay still and when I got in the hospital I felt like I was crazy and I became so paranoid and think I hallucinated a little after the meds they gave me. I was told that I had extreme dyhydration at dangerous levels I believe because they had to give me a iv.
Story is still in writing and ill write more detail about some of the things that happened like the sociopath I dated i am writing a story about every little fucked up thing that happened which is a lot.
Dated A Sociopath
I found out after dating a girl online after two months moved to wisconsin for her that she was a sociopath. She faked multiple personalities and pretended she was being abused and said people were abusing her when they weren’t. She pretended to have multiple personalities really good that I really thought at first she had it. It started out with the first time i skyped with her. She had a scared look on her face and when she heard someone would throw pillows at the screen. She also wouldnt talk. The very next day all of a sudden she acted completly normal almost completly different. One day she said pretending to be a guy texting me thay she was indisposed at the moment and said her family pays to screw with her head or some crazy shit. She would act normal hours later and not recall anything. At night though she said her family stabs a needle in her and said she would start feeling numb and really cold. She also would pass out and wake up acting different. One time she said she wanted to kill her family and acted evil. I cant remember everything that happened but one time she said she was put in a room and forced to kill people. I was thinking she was delusional and schizofrenic but as time went on i got curious and asked what her name was and was given a different name. I cant remember all the names but the main ones were hex, sora, nadia, and haruki. ill add more info to this soon but the stuff I went through was not normal at all.
My ex
Found out two days ago from my ex that she's getting married soon. She broke up with me over a month ago so she was cheating on me the entire time. She made me deal with her suicide attempts and mental hospital stays. She made me break down many times from it and it hurt she never tried to talk to me about it. It all makes sense now which really hurts that she was with someone and now marrying that person.
Roomate left
Had a girl move in with me two months ago when I didn't even know her which was crazy. I blacked out woke up late in the day and she took all her shit and left. We were in a way kinda in a relationship she was very confusing and difficult at times. She got me to try hard drugs and i ended up in the er from it. Idk what exactly I said to make her leave although she said she looked through my texts for some reason. She said she liked me and another guy which was bothering me.