I am afraid I haven’t been very lucky lately.
First, our landowner (we had been renting an apartment for many years) forced us to buy it without warning, basically robbing us of almost all the money we had.
Then, we were ACTUALLY robbed of a giant sum of money, which we NEEDED for that apartment (risking being homeless, in a fucking PANDEMIC!).
We had to take a lot of emergency loans, some of them a bit…questionable.
But now, for the worst news of all…Because of the legwork connected to the above, robbery especially, I suspect me and mom may have the coronavirus. I also have to say that we both are very sick people, her with sick lungs and me with weak heart (I had a heart attack in 2019, despite being quite young).
Basically, this robbery risks to kill us. And I also want to say that we are a small family with not many connections because my dad is a monster who wishes us both death. And we are also living far from homeland, being foreigners here on top of everything.
If I die, I die hopelessly, in a foreign land which treated me quite cruelly all my life and my mom most likely dies too. We don’t have any friends so I don’t even know who will read our wills if something happens. I don’t know who will know that I don’t want to be buried, or that I was polish, or how I identified. No one will know that I spoke english or what I wrote to you. There will be just another grave on a slavic orthodox cemetery, together with people who never really cared for me, the guys who tortured my grandfather during Soviet times.
Believe me, I have always wanted to be just like you, to do many things. I have yet one important project that I’ve tried to finish at all costs. I was one of you. I still am. I wanted to give you the world, I really wanted to.
I don’t know what to say. Perhaps I am going to tell you my life story so at least a couple of people knows who I was. Also, I don’t intend to let my projects to go down the drain. If you are interested in helping me make it, send me a message. If situation worsens, I want to know that someone will help me to finish THE ONLY THING that tells the world about who I was.
Please don’t deny me the last honor, okay? Thank you for your attention.
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