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Dehumanizing criminals are a favored tactic among authoritarians.

A society that has already demonized criminals and are stripping them of rights need only criminalize political dissent for opposition to be practically impossible.

firebirdscratches

“They’re not sending their best, they’re sending drug dealers, they’re sending rapists…” -A Racist Piece of Shit Using This Exact Slimy Tactic

leupagus

“They had it coming” or “if they didn’t want X punishment they shouldn’t have done Y” is a very fucking slippery slope. Please be aware of that when listening to leaders, listening to peers, and listening to your own thoughts

shhtheresreptile

You say all the suicidal people are just in the phase,

No one of them is depressed or going through a stress.

And I don’t know when you would ever understand

That you’re just ignorant and don’t want to comprehend.

If i said I am one of them would you even care

Or would you repeat all the words from above there?

If i said I’m suicidal would you say im in denial

And my sad mood can’t be serious because you don’t see this?

I really want to change your mind and open up your ears

But even if i do so would it change a thing? Because i feel like it won’t.

Though i know you love me but can you say it once at least

Or is this issue that I, too, will be dealing with?

d.a.

Compiling a list of pros and cons of moving back home now that my life is in shambles

#i'm so tired #the strugge is real #life sucks

Now that you know everything. Everything I've held deep inside me for years. Will I lose you? I'm afraid I will. That my feelings will be over bearing. You said something that changed everything for me in this life and i don't know what to do. A part of me wants to hope that maybe one day after I'm better. You will finally realize you love me too. I know you won't and I'm learning to be okay with that. Because your happiness is more important then my feelings for you. I'm not sure I ever will love anyone else the way I love you. I'm okay with that. Thank you for being my friend and thank you for listening and caring. Even if it was just once. I'm glad I was able to say I love you out loud to you. Because i do love you. And I know you love me too. Not romantically but that's okay. Thank you for being you. I love you.

banditthewriter

What do you mean that I have to physically write a fic in order for it to be written? This is some bullshit.

darnwafflessideblog

Why don’t I just re-imagine it in my head with increasingly more detail as I lie in my bed and stare at the ceiling. Also if I get one detail wrong I have to start from square one

banditthewriter

I know I’m the op but #mood

omfgiamsofuckedup

I wanna talk to you, but I don’t want to be annoying.

selfhxtredkid

depressed-girlxoxo

Reblog if you have self harm scars.

thatadhdmood

I asked my friend whether she has a constant inner dialougue going on, and she said no.

And I’m like?????? How can you not??

Are peoples heads silent most of the time????

Are they not constantly singing and talking and wondering and imagining bullshit in their heads 24/7

So then I asked around, to some other people and they all agreed!!!

No nonstop inner talking!!

They said for them, it was more pictures or not fully formed sentences then full speech.

So now I’m just trying to figure out if this is an adhd thing???? Because no one is an individual in their actions due to probability and stuff so I can’t be the only one.

I’ve tried researching it, and in psychology its called ‘inner speech’!!

Theres a lot of text and I’m getting bored of reading about this,,..,.,

So instead I wanted to ask, what any of your experiences with inner speech are?

Because I’m curious about other peoples first hand experiences with it!

intrepid-inattentive

I have 2 songs, movie dialogue, a story I’m writing, and at least one conversation on the go at all times. It’s no wonder people with adhd are prone to substance abuse. I can see how appealing it would be to use something that would just make it all quiet

the-adhd-society

……….. I didn’t know silence was an option lmao.

teckmonky

My brain never shuts up, constantly either bombarding me with Drawing ideas, story ideas,or songs/movies

I wish it would at least shut up when I try to sleep

trite-propaganda-deactivated201

Bitch my brain as obnoxious as a YA MC opening chapter inner monologue

emeraldmercury

My brain is like having 20 tabs open in your browser and all of them are mp3s or youtube videos.

milfkarlmarx-deactivated2021081

My inner voice is literally samuel l jackson narrating everything that happens to me and also three green day songs and mr brightside are playing at all times

shitposting-hobbits-to-gallifrey

Wait this is an adhd thing? Normal people don’t do that?

soda-soda-pop-deactivated202005

what??? you guys dont make stories??? think out alternate universes?? talk to yourselves????

your head,,,is silent??? all the time??????

powerfulweak

Honestly this is why Yoga and meditation never worked for me.

“Now turn off your mind.”

Me: The Fuck you say???

sealie-seolh

Yo @missslothy @narkito @ariestaurus21 @bgharison @thekristen999 @lavvyan everyone

are your minds quiet – I don’t mean 100% of the time 80% of the time? You’re not doing music, dialogue, stories, imagining, figuring out what to say to person A+B, that event which went horribly wrong ten years ago…?

lavvyan

When I’m at home, I play video games or read or watch stuff on Netflix. When I do some cleaning or cooking or even just take a bathroom break, the mp3-player provides podfic or an audiobook. Music in my car, the news on my phone during breaks at work, a different mp3-player, dedicated to music, when I go for a walk.

I can’t deal with the racket my brain makes without distractions, so I avoid having to do that at all costs.

darklightluna

In 7th grade, my teacher told me my math had to be off because no one could listen to that much music per day. My mom had to send a note that said yes, I do basically have the radio on every single waking moment when I’m not in school.

The other day, i found out that my mom doesn’t have a constant running dialogue in her head and I’m honestly kind of baffled.

But yeah, it’s also why meditation and yoga don’t work for me very well. I have found that for meditation, a podcast or calm video while I cross-stitch works wonders. For yoga, since I do it for bendiness and not calming reasons, it doesn’t really matter.

unsuspectingfish

I legit thought that was normal…

doofnoof

@ekdeans

whatevercomestomymind

It IS NORMAL. For people with ADHD. All the Normies are just BORING.

heir-of-the-founders

Dunno if i have adhd (prob not) but i have a single constant dialogue. I can shut it off, but only if i concentrate. I dunno mans

concerningwolves

Yoga person on YT: now let your mind go blank

Me in downward dog, internally: wow this whole quieting your inner speech thing is so interesting I wonder if i c NOT THROWIN AWAY MY hmmm maybe this would be a good AU idea prawns for dinner? Prawns?? I can’t help but pull the earth around me to MAKE my b ed [starts formulating Tumblr post] fucjinn like, can’t believe the merlin fandom is still going strong OH THAT REMINDS ME of that IDEA and —

ouch. I’ve been in downward dog for ten minutes maybe I should get up

bootsandcleats82

Yeah i didn’t realize it wasn’t normal til recently…like my parents were always like “you don’t need music to do the dishes”…lol yeah and leave me alone with my thoughts?

Like it takes a LOT of energy to narrow down the focus to one thing…even at counselling, my therapist is like “you’re moving too fast, you need to slow down…it’s making it hard for you to bond with people”

Like i’ll totally listen, but i also have a list of plans and story ideas and goals and past jokes running through my head ALL the time

I think the only times i can shut it off is when i’m working out or playing sports cause my focus is me right there, or during a last minute cram session and the exam until idk what i’m doing any more…then it’s a minute of awkward silence til everything kicks back in

crystalrosecw

My mind is like a toddler that is constantly asking questions or talking about random stuff. Or like a dog that is super focused on something then sees a squirrel. There are very few moments where I'm not thinking about nothing. And even then it's only cuz I'm focusing on music or telling myself to breathe in and out just so I'm not thinking about anything else. Also one of the things I do is I'll tell myself a story or make believe in my head when I'm going to sleep. Because If I don't I think about life and dont sleep at all.

saintzacharie

Been listening to this on repeat

depression-healthy-carrier

Depression makes no sense. For a while you think you have it contained but THEN IT BREAKS LOOSE AND IT’S EVERYWHERE AND IT’S BROUGHT MATES

I'm tired and I don't know how much longer I can keep it up

wingkink

Therapists are just…. Common sense filters

wingkink

Me: yeah so I just don’t have the energy to get up and make myself a sandwich or wait for something to cook so I just. Don’t

Her: why don’t you just eat the sandwich components without putting them together

Me:

Her: you can just eat a handful of cheese and some sandwich meat. You don’t have to make a sandwich.

Me:

Me: what

cyanoticfallacy-deactivated2018

Therapists finding loopholes for mental illness things is one of my favorite things about dealing with mental illness because it really helps me understand that just because a reaction is Common doesn’t mean it’s Right. Does doing dishes stress you out a lot? Buy paper plates. Do your obsessive thoughts make you worry about leaving your curling iron on so you drive home from work to check? Just put the curling iron in your purse and bring it to work with you while we work on tackling where this worry comes from. Symptom management doesn’t have to look like drudgery.

ziggyplayedd

i used to go days without showering because seeing my body was so upsetting that i would end up spiraling and then i realized i could simply turn the lights out. it took some getting used to but i’ve been showering with the lights off for years and it’s now one of my favorite parts of my day.

do whatever you want nothing is real and there’s no need to inflict unnecessary suffering on yourself just to try to seem “normal”

biyaself

I love this post

jettestblack

Hmmm

petrichorepoch

These kinds of loopholes make life so. Much. Better.

fuckyeahasexual

One of my favorite stories is this lady had extremely bad OCD. Every day she’d be late to work because she was convinced that her hair dryer was going to burn down the house so would always have to turn around and check it. Multiple times a day even. A bunch of doctors tied to “fix” her of that fear, until one day she got a doctor that suggested she bring the hair dryer with her. Other doctors were annoyed, saying that wasn’t a the correct way to help, but she gave it a go. When she had that fear, she’d look over and see the hair dryer unplugged in the seat next to her and was able to carry on. I think it’s such a perfect example of actually helping someone instead of forcing them into a neurotypical standard.

eclecticpersonswondersland

That story helped me stop repeatedly checking if my front door was locked. Instead of checking that the door was locked over and over I would check my security system app. If it’s on it will alert me if the front door opens.