~Life Update~
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Hereās an update on life..animal job didnāt work out it didnāt help the depressive slump Iāve been in. The way they trained wasnāt great and itās the fact that there was no actual manager just a bunch of young ppl working there. For learning some things my type of brain half ass training doesnāt work for me I need hands on learning or might need a little extra to learn something but once I learn whatever sometimes I exceed expectations and try to be perfectionist. So losing job was a real let down for me. I sometimes wonder if I shouldāve mentioned the ADHD thing but would it really hurt or help me and sometimes I wonder if I should get a letter or something from my doctor that could protect me from being let go or certain treatment at work. So that job ended in March/February. It wasnāt till December I decided to give another job a chance I actually was hired on the spot it was another shoe store I was so excited but everything wasnāt as it seemed I was supposed to be hired as full time and then apparently it turned it I wasnāt. They are weird about taking breaks sometimes like most places Iāve worked you are required to take a 30 min lunch and a 10/ 15 min small break if you work 5 or more hours even working just 4 gets you 10/15 mins. If itās really busy some managers prefer you to eat while working. Like no sorry sometimes ppl need to sit down like we ac right now either. This company the way things are ran is more competitive and just different from the last shoe store I worked at We got a new store manager just seems colder more old school. It just makes me miss my old shoe store even moreā¦
My old shoe store job had closed during covid. We all never officially everyone never said goodbye to each other and It was at a new location I had been at for about 6 months and didnāt accomplish everything I wanted to/ dealing with mean girl type of drama & as still processing the fact that I lost my original store I started out at I originally didnāt want to relocate and stop being the assistant manager. We lost another store manager ( losing the first one was real hard for me too ) so they thought it was best to move me to a more heavy volume store to be a sales lead manager. I felt like my time was cut short as an ASM and I felt like I wasnāt always taken seriously and their communication sucked at the end and tbh when I look back on it I was younger I couldāve used a little more training with some things but still their communication couldāve been better talking goes both ways. Iāll talk more about it another time.
After the shoe store company closed my little fun nameless part time job became my main job.. I fought through bs to became a supervisor at a new high volume location I knew store manager for a long time worked with him at multiple locations I even once called him my friend. Working there turned into a nightmare toxic work environment bc the assistant manager has it out for me but tbh she ends up having a problem with everyone there was always something wrong.. Then there was other stuff but more of that later.. yes I told my store manager after holidays that I wanted to be done but I was upset I thought he was my friend is that no reason to ever call or text an employee when they took a leave of absence when they get sick with covid ? No one ever reached out to me to see how I was doing so I thought they didnāt want me to come back so I never went back and a few months later my store manager who I thought was my friend blocked me on Snapchat. Iām still trying to live with my decision that I never reached out and still debating if I ever willā¦ I wonder if I was put as fired and not rehire able.. i was great at my job I really loved the job itself just not the location in the end.. then sometimes I do miss my friendā¦ who was my store manager..this was the first ever place to really inspire to be a manager run a place have a business this was the first place I wanted to be a manager at. For months I thought about texting him but I couldnāt do it I donāt know why or how I became this way but it got to a point at work where I stopped texting my manager every time there was a problem it just got tiring.
So itās been a rocky road with work places every job has its negatives and not every job will have bad management. So all that is kinda what lead to my slump along with at the beginning of it all I had a condition that acting up again but I deal with it the best I can with diet and supplements. Itās called IC/PBS ( interstitial Cystitis / painful bladder syndrome ) on top that I think have OAB š
So here am I figuring out what to do next no health insurance might be diabetic
Right after leaving nameless job I got back into gaming started giving streaming a try and start making gaming content Iām still doing it but it can only distract me so much now and bring me so happiness but Iāll keep doing it bc I know there are ppl that enjoy my content and if it brings somebody some sort of joy that that makes me happy too. Who knows maybe one of my videos will blow up someday one of them once got 50k views. At one point I was streaming everyday Iāll possibly get back to that weāll see. Also trying to get back into writing and blogging more check out my ADHD Soul blogs on Tumblr and Reddit . Also enjoy photography and started wire wrapping crystals thinking about possibly selling some. Check out my Instagram to see @crystalwitch_22 Weāll see. Thanks for reading.
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