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Any Pronouns, I warn you that this is where I repost ALL of my things from ALL of my fandoms, and I repost a LOT.

[cursivebobcat89]

W E L C O M E

This is my *everything* blog, where all of the *everything* goes. There is no order. Only chaos. Want to find something? Me too. Wish I’d tagged it. I don’t.

Possible random TWs abound, including but not limited to:

-Gore, insects, spooky architecture, eyestrain, and general horror themes.

I do not tag my stuff! This is important!

Other than that this is a very chill almost all reposts blog, have fun :3

(My own posts are tagged Rambles)

[poupon]

Wow thanks for the ingot man let me just inspect the quality real quick

Dude come on

[ieatratsyummy]

They could never make me hate you, complex female character whose reaction to trauma was not pretty and digestible like how people think it should be.

[transmortifried]

idk why people are still trying to do "hear me out"s on tumblr

you could talk about wanting to fuck the space needle on here and people would still call you a poser for insisting on fucking "conventionally attractive architecture" as if that's a coherent, easily-recognizable category

[charlesoberonn]

I want to fuck Antoni Gaudi's unbuilt Hotel Attraction skyscraper design

[anatomizer]

"hear me out" and it's a picture of the most fuckable building you've ever seen. c'mon now.

[gambitgambino]

I'm back in my batman era

My Riddler design (inspired in various versions of the character) and ofc my own Query and Echo interpretations (very cabaret inspired)

For dessert, riddlebird in collaboration with @cenzi04 who designed her own penguin

[sharkfiinn]

rocky fix.

[philcollinsenjoyer]

a lot of stories are about the fantasy of someone going to find you when u disappear from a group function

[willgrahamscock]

Oh here we go. What new fucking gender is that flag in your bio

THE HUNGARIAN FLAG???

[willgrahamscock]

happy pride hungary

[annabelle--cane]

I think the core difference between the book and movie versions of ryland grace is that, while both are desperately afraid of taking action, book!grace's fear stems from the fact that he doesn't want to be hurt, whereas as for movie!grace it's that he genuinely thinks he's incapable of doing anything meaningful.

compare how they react to remembering they were forced onto the ship:

in the book, he stands around in numb ashamed shock at his cowardice for a minute before deciding, against rocky's better judgement, that they should voluntarily subject the hail mary to a six g force again to get the lab equipment up and running instead of just waiting eleven days to get back to the blip-A, and it hurts him a lot and he ends up passing out from it. he locates the problem in his memory as being that he was too caught up in concern for his own wellbeing, so he tries to counterbalance it by opting to do something bizarrely personally risky so they can get back to work more quickly. his refrain in his memories is "I don't want to die."

in the film, he remembers it all and then he's back to his old self when saying his farewells to rocky. his emotional vulnerability is gone, his walls are back up, he tries to leave without saying a real goodbye before rocky continues the conversation, and he rejects being called "brave." all his weeks of learning to do the scary thing so he can care for someone and be cared about are just gone. he locates the problem in his memory as being that he as a person is simply not brave; he lacks the gene for it and isn't capable of real accomplishment; he'd thought he could grow and change and he was wrong. his refrain in his memories is "I can't do it."

[gossamer-green]

i love this and i'd like to share some related thoughts on movie!grace specifically (mostly because i'm much more familiar with him than with book!grace)

it did seem to me like the movie!grace we see who's so so unsure of himself must be pretty different from the him further in the past, a guy we know called out prominent scientists in his field by name to insult them and even declared one a staggering waste of carbon—at a conference, so presumbaly face-to-face, and in front of a crowd. i've been of the belief that the fallout from all that, combined with his already being in a bad place mentally when it happened, ended up just totally shattering his self-esteem/self-confidence.

he says at the meeting after the explosion: "some people are failures," and he was surely thinking about how his stance on non-water-based life forms (and his actions in defense of it) led to his disgraced exit from academia AND seemed to be proven wrong by astrophage, which had seemed to have all the makings of a lifeform that would finally prove him right.

but what i think is extra interesting (especially in relation to this post) is his next line: "some people don't rise to the challenge." i do wonder if he's still thinking a bit about his life in academia there, sitting underneath the obvious and current challenge of giving up his life.

in the book, stratt berates grace for always fleeing from risk, like leaving academia when he was met with backlash and opting instead to be the "cool teacher" who's adored by his young students. if things in the past went that way for movie!grace, then i think it adds an interesting layer to him in that he's already aware and ashamed of his risk aversion, and that shameful aversion cyclically feeds into and is fed by his belief that he isn't a capable person.

[annabelle--cane]

aw yeah now you're speaking my language. I said a few things about book!grace's response to being ousted from academia in another addition I made to this post, but to expand, I think the subtly altered dialogue in the two versions of his first scene with stratt convey that the two iterations of the character took slightly different things away from the same experience. the in-person "staggering waste of carbon" incident is a movie-only inclusion, and you're right, that's not a very "unsure of himself" thing to do, and whatsmore it's a super mean thing to say (which doesn't seem all that like him) and also simply an innovatively stupid move. like, if he wanted to precisely calculate the best way to explode his career, that would be it. in the book, he says of that paper that he "had enough of the research world and that was sort of a ‘kiss-my-butt’ goodbye," meaning it was knowingly incendiary, but we don't get a similar line in the film.

movie!grace has a few moments were we see him express anger externally: something crosses a line and ticks him off and he screams and hits inanimate objects about it. important to note, I think, that he's never screaming at anyone, the objects he smacks around are mostly his own, and that the one time he does it in front of other people and in someone else's space that he keeps the physical stuff confined to a trash bin and cools down a little before taking to anyone and apologizes afterwards, broadly showing that he's not trying to be aggressive and genuinely does just have a short fuse. combined with the lack of any "I was on my way out of the field and wanted to leave with a bang" lines, it reads to me like he just lost his temper in a really bad way in a public professional setting. he wasn't looking for an opportunity to get out, he had a visible acute breakdown and lost his job. and he remembers that whole episode as "I was fired for standing by what I wrote" instead of something like "I was fired for making a scene at a conference and severing all my professional connections," locating the problem as being that he stood up for himself in the first place.

what I think is particularly interesting is that his conclusion of "I'm a failure, I can't rise to the challenge" looks completely rational from his pov. he cussed out the leading scholar in his field in front of an audience and got fired about it (yeah that'll happen if you do that) and then his big bold idea got roundly disproven (so maybe they were all right to treat him like he didn't matter regardless of how much he believed in the work). "I can't handle the pressure, I'm not skilled enough, I'm wrong about my strongest convictions and I'll suffer pointlessly if I actually try to give it my all" is a reasonable takeaway to have from that sequence of events. he conducted himself poorly and was legitimately wrong, the narrative doesn't validate that he was secretly right to do any of that, it just says that he shouldn't have let it ruin his self-image.

[ratantics]

I needed to see this today.

[ottoillustrates]

today i just (remembers to maintain privacy online) did something really cool. you have to trust me

[fforsythiaaa]

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.

[chromaticrainarts]

I think this ship (spaceship) is really funny

[viaalterego]

[trishacollins]

Actually, my therapist has told me this is a healthy way of processing things. Because you can get the trauma out of your head And you can write the ending you wish it had. The trusted person rescue, the catharsis of getting to kill the one who hurt you.

It's good for your brain. It's healthier than bottling it up. Fiction is where we go for emotional release. That can be true with trauma too.

[erelierraceala]

so what you're saying is

character: NO

therapist: YES

[vmures]

Adding @dear-massacre's tags because they are so true:

#this is why it's important to remember that fictional characters are fake #they have no agency. they're made up #it hurts no one to make any character go through the horrors #it is healthy and cathartic

[yeahokayillreblogthat]

yeah okay ill reblog that

[hanavesinauttija]

[calebwittebane]

[brawltogethernow]

Discovered: equation that screams in agony at its own existence

[earhartsease]

fucking dialup modem equation

[nordreys]

james ortiz provided some of his own personal rocky backstory on the sag aftra podcast, transcribed by me because we all have to be miserable about it together.

link to the podcast, this section below is from timestamp 24.35

“andy weir provided a packet to the creature shop that was like a packet of eridian biology and stuff but there wasn’t much about eridian culture or eridian sociology and i made a bunch of choices going in because i just needed to have like a ‘who am i?’ right? 

[…] and i made a decision that rocky’s species, that eridians are really social animals that in fact are like a beehive or a pod of dolphins - it’s a unique and really integrated ecosystem of everybody doing their [specific] part. and the fact that rocky had to fly that ship for about 45 years - longer than grace has been alive, i wanna point that out - he’s been alone on that ship, having to run that by himself and- ryan and i would talk about that, one day we sat down and he was like “so what’s the movie from rocky’s perspective?” and i was like “oh it’s like ‘alien’, […] like he’s in a ‘contagion’ movie by himself and he has no idea what’s going on.”

he’s basically in castaway by himself which of course ryan is too but like, one reason why we never cut to the past of rocky is like, i think it was really horrifying! i don’t think rocky has slept in however many years and so a thing i was really struggling with is this idea of like “rocky must watch sleep” because how do you make that a need as opposed to like, a cute idea? and i just had to make the decision that […] he has a lot of unprocessed trauma around the things that he doesn’t understand and how much he is blaming himself because he’s the guy who fixes, he’s the guy who fixes and there was something really freeing about deciding that rocky was a deeply emotional, deeply anxious, deeply horrified person - being - that is trying to move through that in some way and how that affects the early scenes with him until there’s a point in the story where you can see we’ve physically softened rocky’s behaviour, because he’s finally feeling more safe and ok but all of that lore, all of that information [was essential].

i also decided, this is just a small nerdy thing, that there was actually some of his family, was on that ship too.”

[lethotep]

It's important to have at least two blorbos that fit into specific roles in your life

The blorbo you can look to in hard times, and ask yourself what they would do in a situation, and draw motivation from them on how to be better and stronger!

The blorbo you can look to in hard times, and remind yourself that no matter what happens, you probably aren't going to fuck your shit up as much as they did even if you actively tried