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SW: 65kg CW: 59.3kg GW: 50kg

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

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TW: This page contains talk about food issues and weight. I also love medical/ bio aesthetic (idk the word) and zombie/ horror imagery, which could gross people out, so please proceed with caution Hi there,

I've been stuck in this body forever. Trying to lose the weight and never getting there. This July has been different. Something is working for me. So, I decided to catalogue this journey on this blog

Started July 8th 2026 SW: 65KG CW: 59.9KG GW1: 55KG (end of October) GW2: 50kg (I'd be happy here) UGW: 45KG She/Her, 21 years old, 148cm I will be eating according to my BMR daily, trying to stay at or below said BMR. I will try to update daily with my weight, BMR, and calories consumed and burned. *I do not have a food scale; most of my calories are estimates based on nutrition labels and eyeing my portions, but I tend to overestimate just in case

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

31.97.2026

Weight: 59.3kg

BMR: 1,247

French toast - 200kcal

Dumpling soup - 300kcal

Dumpling soup - 197kcal

10k steps in 2 hours - 400kcal

Total kcal = 297kcal

(Deficite 950)

Hit 10k steps today yayyy. I'm going for a mates house warming tomorrow, so I'm gonna be drinking, and none of the calories are gonna count because I'm pure of heart.

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

30.07.2026

Weight: 59.9kg

BMR: 1,253

Shin ramyun- 800kcal

French toast - 300kcal

Dumpling soup - 197kcal

Total kcal = 1297kcal

(Over by 44)

I forgot to do this last night I'm so sorry ToT

Anyway, I was stuck at 59.3kg and 59.4kg, so I tried another metabolism day. I went over by 44kcal, but I did go for a walk. I'm trying to go for more walks and slowly increase my steps per day.

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

Living in a girl apartment means the whole place smells like French toast it's delightful

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

29.07.2026

Weight: 59.4kg

BMR: 1,248

Dumpling soup - 197

Chipotle mayonnaise mini sandwich - 75

Dumpling soup - 197

Total kcal = 469kcal

(Deficite 779)

Changing up how I post my daily calories cause I really don't have to post photos cause I eat the same thing everyday.

Anyways, it was kind of a binge day today. I'm still at a Deficite, but the food thoughts won today, so I opted just to have a bunch of soup and low calorie dumplings to make sure I'm not getting too many calories consumed.

I hate my fat fucking chud life. I can't let the thought that I'll be this way forever win. Locking in starting now.

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

28.07.2026

Just had the dumpling soup today. It's so filling. I love you, aldis pork dumplings, I love love love you.

Watched the invitation at a cinema with a friend today, so I got some steps in. I liked it! Seth Rogen, let me hitttuuuhhhhh 🙏🏽🙏🏽

This has been the lowest deficite. Those damn meat sticks from yesterday has made me feel like a beast with the energy I'm getting. Totally don't regret them now.

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

New meanspo scenario just dropped

My skinny sister got me to sit on her desk chair to adjust it cause she's too light. She was also on video call with a mutual friend, and they both laughed, repeating "what the hell" when it worked when i sat on it.

I don't care, by the end of this year, that fucking chair is not gonna move an inch when I sit on it.

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

27.07.2026

Finally escaped that 59.8/, 59.7 hell!! Decided to up my calories today from some sound advice given during my yellow wallpaper moment from the last post. I'm not too concerned about gaining here cause I've consumed a lot more calories than I usually would, but hey, 50g of protein isn't too bad. Gave me a shocking amount of energy today.

I completely forgot to snap a pic of the dumplings soup. I will say, whoever made the pork dumplings from aldis 185kcal for 6 DUMPLINGS needs their ass ate. 200kcal total, and I was stuffed, mmm yummy. Also, I am not buying those meat sticks again. Ate the whole thing. Genuinely can't control myself when it comes to snacks, so I wrote that off as a meal. Those sticks are lucky today was a metabolism day.

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

Fuck meanspo, I need passive-aggressive-spo. "Aphrodite's body btw, do flowers bloom where you walk" FUCCCKKKK OFFF

[boredfee]

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

26.07.2026

Yeah, so the weigh-ins aren't looking very good. I have no clue why I've been bouncing between 59.7 kg and 59.8kg. I'm starting to think my scale is broken cause I'm hydrated and have not been building muscle either. Plus, I haven't gone over 400kcal for the past 3 days. It's very odd, but that's just the number on the scale. I'm still feeling good about eating around 300kcal in a day.

Today was just another Indo mee (can you tell I'm running out of groceries).

[carinadiary]

THE GOAL is Megan Fox’s 2000’s body

but i need tips on how to achieve it.

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

25.07.2026

It's getting late, so no long rant from me, but I'm reaching a plateau, so I'm gonna have to start brainstorming what else to do. Of course I can eat 300kcal and not drop weight. That's so me!!!

Anyways, egg drop soup is actually such a cheat code. It makes me so full, and it's only 100kcal. Love her deeply

(Also if my egg drop soup looks off to y'all, I increased the water to egg ratio to fill me up and didn't add cornflour/starch)

[draculast33th]

clawdeen is my motivation

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

I know a lot of people on here talk about being unlovable because you're fat, but I've yet to see anyone talk about how guys hit on you as a last resort when you're fat. Like they know they can't score with your skinny, attractive friends, and they just assume you're easy and will just be grateful they're even talking to you. That's gotta be top 10 worst feelings ever. I want to be unattainable, not the "anything" when people say "guys will do anything"

Literally had a conversation with a friend who used to "have feelings" for me, and he admitted he only confessed to me because he was desperate and lonely. Now he's dating a skinny girl with a six-pack! Yay!

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

24.07.2026

So I woke up today, and I went back up in weight. went from 59.6kg to 59.8kg. Granted, it's not by a lot, but it definitely still sucks to see that number go up. I see a lot of people saying not to weigh yourself every day because the number isn't well represented and can affect your mood, but weighing myself first thing in the morning is honestly what I look forward to. Whether the number goes up or down, I gain some sort of motivation. Like today, I saw the number go up, and it actually motivated me to restrict more than usual. That's why I have consumed probably the lowest I have consumed this month (besides fasting) at 306kcal. I could wake up tomorrow, and the number could go up, but hey, that just means I'm probably gonna eat less and even start working out.

Speaking about working out. My new addition for August is gonna be light workouts. Cause I'm overweight, I don't necessarily need to work out too much to lose a small amount of weight; a calorie deficit has been working so far, but I know that as I start losing weight I'll need to burn more calories (plights of being short), so I want to be able to do a good workout by that point. Also, having a lower body fat percentage, and in turn more muscle, burns more calories, I believe. So, gonna get some light weights and start doing some at-home exercises

Anyways, 306kcal today and another cup noodle, I've just been working on my thesis today, so I needed a convenient meal.

[d3ath0fs0crat3s]

My best friend in high school just texted me asking to meet up when I go back home. I was her fat friend throughout high school, and she vaguely alluded to having an ed years ago and is so proud of how skinny she is. She was treated so well for it too. I need to be 50kg when we meet. I can't show up after all these years still being the fat, unremarkable friend that she remembers. I wanna be on her level. I want to be one of the pretty girls she hangs out with.