Idk who needs to hear this, but there’s nothing wrong with you
And I don’t say this to encourage you to stay in a state that’s killing you up from the inside. Self-improvement is always a win when it’s born from self-love and self-respect, not a panicked scramble to fix yourself like a broken machine.
You don’t need to change anything about yourself to shift. Or to manifest. Not your depression, not your doubts, not your neurodivergence, nothing. All you need is to recognize your power. But you love to be told you’re wrong. That it’s your fault.
“You check the 3D too much,” so you crave someone to tell you, that’s why you’re not shifting, you did this to yourself.
You want someone to point a finger and say, “You’re not shifting because you keep doubting.”
“You’re not shifting because you don’t believe enough.”
“You’re not shifting because you’re wavering.”
“You’re not shifting because you’re too attached to the outcome.”
“You’re not shifting because you’re not disciplined enough with your methods.”
“You’re not shifting because you think you’re shifting wrong, so now you are.”
“You’re not shifting because you haven’t let go yet.”
“You’re not shifting because you haven’t decided to yet.”
“You’re not shifting because you’re doing too many methods, or not enough, or the wrong ones, or the right ones in the wrong way.”
“You’re not shifting because you’re not applying XYZ law.”
“You’re not shifting because you’re not trying hard enough.”
“You’re not shifting because you’re trying too hard.”
You want someone to tell you it’s your fault, because if it’s your fault, it means you can fix it. That if you just contort yourself enough, if you just get the formula perfect enough, if you just align perfectly enough, then reality will crack open and give you what you want.
And so you stay trapped in the punishment. You stay in the loop of “I must be wrong, I must be broken, I must be flawed,” because it feels safer than accepting that shifting is your natural state, that your awareness is the engine, that you’ve never failed to shift, that you’ve never been separate from your DR, that you never needed fixing in the first place.
Because if that’s true, then there’s no excuse left. If that’s true, then you have to admit that the only thing between you and what you want is you realizing you already have it.
And that’s terrifying. Because if you’re not broken, if you’re not wrong, if you’re not waiting for someone to save you with the “right” method, then you are free.
And it’s in that freedom that you end up making peace with yourself, right here, right now. You don’t have to. No one’s holding you to it. Peace is never necessary to get your desires. But it will happen naturally at some point
Because you are awareness, and you will have this awareness forever. But you hate yourself. You think you’re powerless when you aren’t.
You let methods, laws, bloggers, desires, all of it—be powerful for you. You let them decide your worth, your readiness, your ability, your timing.
You are the constant here, and yet you keep kneeling to the ever-changing. You let a shifting method tell you if you’re worthy of your DR. You let a Tumblr post decide if you’re “doing it right.” You let your desires become your gods, and your gods become your jailers.
The door was always unlocked, but you’d rather argue about the lock than touch the handle. Because if you open it, it’s just you.
You, the awareness that’s been here since the beginning, forever capable, forever deciding, forever free. And that’s terrifying, isn’t it?
In my opinion (me) (mine) (Clover) (my own opinion), sometimes the blockages you think are stopping you from shifting are actually your key to shifting and manifesting.
You’ve lived your entire life with the way your mind naturally focuses, wanders, resists, obsesses. And then you find shifting spaces telling you:
“You have to ignore your CR.” But maybe the way you see past the illusion is to stare directly at your CR, acknowledge it as a mirage, and claim your power as a master shifter here. Maybe for you, seeing the illusion is how you step into your DR.
“Don’t daydream too much.” But maybe the way your mind drifts and creates entire realities in your head, is exactly how you focus.
“Don’t waver.” But maybe your doubts, your spirals, your racing thoughts are not chains but fuel. Maybe the reason you spiral is because your mind is so powerful, it’s already showing you exactly what to clear out on your way through worlds.
“Don’t overcomplicate it.” But maybe you need your charts, your logic maps, your wordy breakdowns, your layers of understanding before you can let go. Overthinking is only a curse if you believe it is; otherwise, it’s your tool for piercing illusion.
“Don’t script too much.” But maybe scripting is your ritual. Maybe your endless pages of stories, your color-coded Notion spreadsheets, your carefully chosen fonts are your gateway.
“Stop checking for results.” But maybe checking for results and not seeing them is the first step to you realizing how impossible it is that you “don’t have them yet.”
“Just act as if it’s already yours.” But maybe you can’t do that yet, and it’s okay. Because you can still observe that you are the kind of person who gets what they want, who shifts, who manifests, who always figures it out, even if you don’t “have it yet.” And that is, in itself, not acting but realizing that it’s already yours.
“Don’t use methods, just decide.” But maybe you like methods. They help you focus, give you a sense of ritual, make it fun, and the fun is the key.
“You need to fully believe.” But maybe you’re allowed to not fully believe. Maybe belief grows in the soil of testing it out, letting your actions prove your mind wrong, again and again.
“Don’t try too hard.” But maybe you’re a try-hard by nature. Maybe your fire, your desperation, your want is what cracks reality open, not what holds it shut.
You get told your mind is the problem—too loud, too soft, too imaginative, too skeptical. You get told your blockages are the reason you’re stuck. But what if they’re not?
What if your “blockages” are breadcrumbs your awareness leaves for you to follow, back to the door you’ve been searching for?
What if your way—the way you naturally are—is the map you’ve been seeking?
Shifting is not about crushing yourself into someone else’s mold, playing by someone else’s rules, or suffocating your instincts in the name of “discipline.”
It’s about becoming more yourself than you’ve ever been. So maybe don’t change yourself, but change the way you view that person. Because you’re powerful. You always have been.
I don’t guarantee my words or methods will make you shift. I don’t guarantee they’ll resonate with you. But this is what I wish someone told me way back when I started manifesting, not even shifting yet.
So, as a firm believer in “one man’s trash is another man’s gold,” someone out there needs to hear this.
