Rex-Myers

Enby; he//they. Mentally ill vent account.

[parentless-suggestions]

No child should have to grow up suicidal and depressed. Look at what you’ve done.

[ptsdeer]

Fun lil’ childhood trauma things!

Being angry at your younger self for not disclosing the trauma

Fantasizing about going back in time and telling someone

Petty jealousy towards kids that did disclose and got help

All the self-blame all the time!

Did that happen or is it just a bitterly twisted false memory?

Random anger at adults around you for NOT NOTICING WHEN IT WAS SO FUCKING OBVIOUS 

Feel free to add your personal faves to this list!

[boy-repressed-deactivated202005]

•daydreaming how your life would be different if you would have told

•daydreaming you being a young child again telling an adult and having them hug you and reassure you

•crying bc you’ll never have a normal relationship with your parents

•being confused as fuck when people say their dad/mom is their best friend

[woah90skid]

[brwnskned]

what my depressive episodes consist of

binge watching netflix tv shows

passive suicidal ideations

sleep for majority of the day

insomnia at night and have to take anxiety meds just to go to sleep

eat pretty much everything or dont eat at all

mentally preparing myself for impending existential crisis at night

making playlists on spotify then delete them later

listening to sad music

doesnt respond to texts until 2 hrs later

getting anxiety looking at social media and how everyone is enjoying their life

procrastinating 

[animalbody]

depressed kids in the media: I don’t wanna go to therapy! I don’t need help! I’m not some specimen for you to dissect!

me, rollin up to my therapist’s office and collapsing in relief: what is UP my homeboy I fuckin missed you,, hope ur ready to hear some Bull Shit that fuckin happened to me this week

[gay-jesus-probably]

families of depressed kids in media: okay sweetie we’ve researched depression for ten hours straight and signed you up for therapy and re-arranged your school schedule to be less stressful

actual parents of depressed kids: look i get you’re sad but someones gotta do the goddamn dishes stop being lazy get up. why didn’t you go to school today, what’s wrong with you, you’re such a burden on this family.

[hoidiza]

[dark-0tter-blog]

My mums going to try to get me an emergency psychiatrist appointment tomorrow because things are very very bad right now. I haven’t been this hopeless in a very long time.

[heavensghost]

Delilah, Florence and the machine

[dark-0tter-blog]

Self destructing. Self destructing. Self destructing.

[nbdykeexpress]

Ive been completely losing contact with reality so heres some shitty vent art! Feel free to rb! terfs and art thieves dont interact. 

[praisethetrees]

do u ever just feel Ready To Die™

[zoruaptsd]

“why can’t you remember anything?” i’m sorry i dissociate 80% of the fucking time and my memory is awful lol

[dirkfucker]

reblog if you:

- flinch away when someone touches you.

- panic when you accidentally break an object.

- get scared when someone walks behind you.

- feel your heart rate increase at every sudden noise.

- are easily panicked by slightly-louder-than-normal sounds.

- stare apprehensively at your bedroom doorway for hours at night.

- have trouble making eye contact with people.

- always feel either too mature or too immature for your age.

- simultaneously crave and be terrified of physical contact.

because i do all of these

[opheliabpd]

Being mentally ill and traumatised as a child simultaneously made me stay young and grow up faster. I’ve been able to deal with very difficult things from a very young age, but in some ways I am emotionally still a child. 

[extihnction]

[dark-0tter-blog]

I’ve had enough of feeling fragile. I want to be so full of anger that nothing can hurt me. I’m sick and tired of feeling like this. I want to be numb, because being better is something I’ll never be able to be.

Jae Myers.

[memestashhash]