Cinema Saved My Life

I'm Dro. She/Her. 30s.

[farewell-to-lorien]

“Dionysus, like life itself, merging and consuming and recycling matter, loves to get involved. He behaves like his symbolic vine; he twines and entangles and embraces. He is a foliage of faces, a network of connections, rather than one fixed, monotheistic identity.”

— Sophie Strand, The Flowering Wand: Rewilding the Sacred Masculine, p. 39

[sweatermuppet]

[planetarytransformation]

so many of the transfems i know spent their time pre-transition performing a kind of lifelong exercise in self-deprivation. the goal, for them, was to find out exactly how little a person needed to live. they starved themselves, dressed carelessly, shunned friends, and hollowed themselves out so as not to be burdens on anyone but themselves.

i see it now, too, in the girls around me. i'll ask if they want care – a home-cooked meal, relaxed company, sex without the expectation of reciprocation – and they say no, no, thank you, i don't need it; what would you like, what do you want, because in their head they're still doing that awful calculus, still training themselves to disappear in the eyes of the people around them.

i don't think i'd have died without transition – not in the conventional sense, at least – but to take that leap, i had to stop thinking of myself as a human experiment in fuel-efficient living and start nurturing the anemic, atrophied flame of desire in my heart. i had to learn to eat well, to exercise, to style myself beautiful, but harder than that, i had to learn to ask the people around me to work on my behalf in order to enrich my life and give me the things i wanted.

and i did it; i learned. and it was agony, but courage is a muscle you can train, and every day i get better at accepting gifts with the hungry gratitude i never learned in my years and years as a sad, scared, lonely boy.

so be patient with the trans girls in your life. better than that: be proactive, attentive, generous; be forceful, if you have to, and learn to distinguish real discomfort from the terrified reflex of self-deprivation that so many of us learned to rely on.

and if you are so lucky as to love a trans girl, you must insist upon her. you must insist upon her happiness, her comfort, her pleasure, and her rest, because she may still not yet know how to make those demands for herself. if you can devote any amount of energy to becoming an engine that nurtures the flame of even a single tgirl then there is a place for you in trans heaven, which as far as i'm concerned is the only one worth going to

[melynnwaters]

I needed this today, thank you.

[lesbiantahani]

Jenny Slate, Stage Fright (2019)

[ryebreadgf]

Ugly, Bitter, and True by Suzanne Rivecca

[homemade-ghosts]

John Mulaney on The Late Show with Stephen Colbert (2020)

[eugeniedanglars]

“Robin Williams and Why Funny People Kill Themselves” by David Wong

[seravph]

letters from Medea, salma deera

[spinfader]

I would like to file a report. I’m in multiple posts and I do not like it.

[valtsv]

if you try to run me through with your blade i'll just pull it in deeper until we're face to face and kiss you on the mouth. with tongue.

[v-wind]

first appearance

[matilda-aseo-deactivated2025043]

Were you listening to me, Neo? Or were you looking at the femboy in the red dress?

[powerburial]

yeah man its dostoyevskian. because there was a weird guy

[bowserwife]

Shaking the suicidal little boy inside me by the neck saying we are not lost we are not too late happiness is possible for us it is it is it is

[fruityfinch]

Of course! Enophthalmos!!

These ladies in action:

[gardengnosticator]

““Let us free Ireland,” says the patriot who won’t touch Socialism. Let us all join together and crush the brutal Saxon. Let us all join together, says he, all classes and creeds. And, says the town worker, after we have crushed the Saxon and freed Ireland, what will we do? Oh, then you can go back to your slums, same as before. Whoop it up for liberty! And, says the agricultural workers, after we have freed Ireland, what then? Oh, then you can go scraping around for the landlord’s rent or the money-lenders’ interest same as before. Whoop it up for liberty! After Ireland is free, says the patriot who won’t touch socialism, we will protect all classes, and if you won’t pay your rent you will be evicted same as now. But the evicting party, under command of the sheriff, will wear green uniforms and the Harp without the Crown, and the warrant turning you out on the roadside will be stamped with the arms of the Irish Republic. Now, isn’t that worth fighting for? And when you cannot find employment, and, giving up the struggle of life in despair, enter the poorhouse, the band of the nearest regiment of the Irish army will escort you to the poorhouse door to the tune of St. Patrick’s Day. Oh! It will be nice to live in those days! “With the Green Flag floating o’er us” and an ever-increasing army of unemployed workers walking about under the Green Flag, wishing they had something to eat. Same as now! Whoop it up for liberty!”

— James Connolly, Let Us Free Ireland! (1899)

[drumlincountry]

[lostverdania-moving]

“If you remove the English army to-morrow and hoist the green flag over Dublin Castle, unless you set about the organisation of the Socialist Republic your efforts would be in vain. England would still rule you. She would rule you through her capitalists, through her landlords, through her financiers, through the whole array of commercial and individualist institutions she has planted in this country and watered with the tears of our mothers and the blood of our martyrs.”

— James Connolly, Socialism and Nationalism (1897)

[wizard0rb]

there was a florida trucker god forgot about

[kinuko]

I was put on this earth to be mid and then die

[ohevoyev]

stage and film portrayals of joan of arc

condola rashad (saint joan, 2018) / renée jeanne falconetti (the passion of joan of arc, 1928) / jean seberg (saint joan, 1957) / ingrid bergman (joan of arc, 1948) / milla jovovich (the story of joan of arc, 1999) / diana sands (saint joan, 1967)

[lycanthology]

i think one of the most important things you learn about making connections with others is that a significant portion of the time people just do not know theyre doing what theyre doing

[lycanthology]

sometimes someone is acting selfish because they just didnt think you had any interest in what theyre hogging. sometimes you dont get invited to the movies because your friend could have sworn that you said no. sometimes you think someone is mad at you because theyre bad at hiding how little sleep they got. we are all like little worlds that briefly crash into one another from time to time and we just arent physically capable of seeing the whole picture at once in those moments. and learning that really changed everything!

[rontology]

thinkin thoughts! this one’s called “niche market”

[rontology]

seeing everyone’s tags on this over the years makes me so emotional. I made this when I was 22 and just starting hrt, and I was so worried I’d be single forever because I wasn’t an easy fit. I’m happily married now and very glad I am who I am. sending endless love to all the other basement ska shows

[konoko]