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[de-solat-e]

Imma keep saying this till the whole world hears it, YHWH is a pedophile. I don't condone that type of behavior, nobody should, but he doesn't seem to get justice for kids who have been sexually assaulted. The females in the book of Genesis were 12-15 at the age of marriage. Jesus' mother was 15, wake up and denounce this god.

[de-solat-e]

My schizophrenia has been manipulating pieces of thoughts I had on its opinion of pedophilia. It essentially manipulated my childhood, where I was sexually active, and saying (although it was accompanied by the vibration of major distress) "pedophilia is a beautiful thing and the greeks did it". Now I've been arguing all day for the last 3 days that children should be protected and I asked for help from God (Yhwh/Adonai- whatever you wanna call him, the Christian/Judeo god). If you know anything about working with deities and supernatural abilities like clairvoyance and claircognizance the next part will make sense. He literally showed me him having sex with a minor (Adonai!), he's been endorsing pedophilia and calling me stupid all day for the last few days and then I remembered that children as young as 12-15 were married off to older men in the 20's in the book of Genesis. Yhwh is an active pedophile and the deity I looked to for help because he promised me that I'd live a good life. I can say, with much conviction, I don't want that kind of help if you have to rape children in order to spite me and agree with the schizophrenia (I believe/know that my schizophrenia is a demon/evil spirit and feeds off of negativity). I'm asking for everyone, my witches (especially Christian witches), my energy workers, my mediums, anyone who does deity work to not work with Yhwh. Why did I have to suffer to finally come to the conclusion that my schizophrenia (his name is Rodney) is distorting my childhood sexual experiences. I lived with OCD (intrusive thoughts) for 10 years and for fucking what? I don't want to follow this "god" and I strongly suggest, if you do live in this sphere, that nobody works with him. Denounce him and his angels.

P.S. I meant to include all regular people who follow Christianity or Judaism. Your god is a pedophile

[de-solat-e]

Yhwh condones pedophilia and rapes little children. In the Bible the wives in Genesis were like 12-15 y/o. I also have schizophrenia which allows me to speak and hear what God has to say when he wants to say something to me. I don't agree with it at all, but this stupid, inefficient, pedophilic, demiurge of a being keeps showing me signs that he's gonna continue to rape children. The whole stuff with the Epstein files and Trump being protected ties into this as well. Ik I sound crazy but I truly truly need people to start listening and denouncing the Christian/Judeo God because his power over us is real. Please, stay safe and commit patricide

[de-solat-e]

Going through one of my down spirals again. I had a dream the voice in my head masked himself in the energy/spirit of my brother and tried to get me to give him head. I kept saying, several times, "no, get that away from me" but somehow I ended up giving him head. My schizophrenia knows everything about me that turns me on so it's no surprise he got me to do what he does but it still bothers me because I never liked my brother as a person to begin with. God didn't help, he just let that shit happen and I had to go through that shame, once again 😒🙁. The story is long but I may end up talking about it to describe how this all started and how intrusive it was. God didn't help me so I'm losing faith in him and why he even allowed that dream to happen to begin with. I'm not trying to hear from Christian apologetics that, "oh God does things for a reason" or "these are your subconscious desires". Like this has a clear beginning that's been morphed and twisted to fit this narrative that the schizophrenia deems acceptable. Please just leave me alone while I cry myself to sleep and contemplate suicide again

[asexual-amanita]

Intrusive thoughts aren’t desires.

Intrusive thoughts aren’t desires.

Intrusive thoughts aren’t desires.

Intrusive thoughts aren’t desires.

Intrusive thoughts aren’t desires.

[de-solat-e]

Ik I talk so much shit about God on this blog but I do feel him healing me. My OCD and triggers have lessened a great amount and I'm able to watch family shows where there are children without experience too much of a groinal. Here's my public apology to Adonai (unless he puts me through the ringer again, then at that point f him).

But in all seriousness he's been serving as a protector in my dreams and my angels are protectors in my real life. I read through the Bible like I was instructed and although I don't see how any of it could be historically accurate, there is a God working in real life. I want to just shout from the rooftops for everyone to study energy healing through Mindvalley or Deborah King. You don't have to change religions just absorb the material and let it transform you.

My belief on how Christian/Judeo God operates is that he lives in a parallel universe where his story is true and the authors of the many books of the Bible are just receivers of the divine. They transmit and record the data and then through the unseen power of the human mind we created a field where blessings can take place. I wish science wasn't so focused on AI and actually looked more towards health, wellness, and longevity because there are so many claims by so many religions about how the body, mind, and universe operates. Maybe if we can get out of this AI funk we can actually start studying what's important.

Anyways here's my gripe/ love for Adonai, thank you for healing me, slowly but surely, and I wish you an amazing eternity. May your glory be known by all and may you develop a pure following 💚💚💚.

[mystskin-x]

a dangerous method (2011)

[de-solat-e]

God only works with crooks and liars. I can't trust him and he knows why. Might as well kill myself.

[journalofanobody]

“I am terrified by this dark thing that sleeps in me.”

— Sylvia Plath (via freckleshadowhunter)

[writingback]

Empathy burnout is so real im tired of understanding people

[bravelittlepixel]

Hi I’m a piece of shit welcome to my blog

[quotefeeling]

“Stop asking me to trust you while I’m still coughing water up from the last time you let me drown.”

— Unknown

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[scorpionlafemme]

Lesson learned.