Meow

i have like 69 bazillion themes sorry not sorry

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INTRO

I have graced you all with my presence☆

you can call me Niku! (You didn't see me change my name a few times)

you maaaay know me from my past incarnation... but that's in the past, I didn't create a new account because I need the attention and it's a pain to gain it.

I'm 18! I go by she/her

I'm taken! I have a separate blog where i post about my love!!

I like crk, project sekai, genshin impact, fatal frame games, homicipher, drawing, nine sols, milgram, i listen to music almost 24/7 (yes even when I sleep) and fashion.

I'll just block if I feel uncomfortable

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That can't happen? WRONG!! I decided it will happen so it shall happen

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I was assaulted as a child but I don't remember the act itself, just this fear and disgust

I didn't know that it happened until recently and thought I was so fucked up for no reason

I wonder if it's even valid if I don't remember it

Maybe all my problems aren't explained by it and I'm just a disgusting person, maybe i'm really so fucked up for no reason

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Oh, how I long to be someone's favourite poster on here one day... (╥﹏╥)

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New torture method: shove a tampon down someone's throat

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I can smell your fear, father. or that might be weed, idk

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I'm either shitposting or having a mental breakdown, sometimes both at the same time

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Spinning my beloved in my head and suddenly he flies off like team rocket

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Yeah fuck everything i'm turning this back into a jirai blog I do NOT want to be healthy

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Unblocked them. I am a pathetic idiot who can't set boundaries and keeps getting hurt I'm going to kms why am I so stupid

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Changed my username to my old one cuz I think it's safe now

They don't really care about my blog anymore so doubt they'll start searching again

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People really don't care about you when you try to get better

Do I need to keep on suffering for anyone to notice me?

I should have expected this

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Me rn

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I keep on switching between wanting get better and wanting to be worse

Recovery is hard aghhhh

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I got out of bed like an hour ago and i'm already tired and want to go to sleep why am i like thisssss

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Can these mood swings STOP

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