Amethystic DecoyZ

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New video finally, posting it here cause twitter doesn't like videos that praise art

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"March Forward"

this is the doc oc of my spider-sonas universe.

in this universe Octavius fought against the tendrils more then usual and the arms simply decided it would be easier to.. deal with him.

Fun Facts:

Doc Oc is still alive :)

the arms themselves speaks through Octavius' body

he's missing an arm for a reason :)

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@emeraldgal17 I wanna see your spider-sonas villains, I wanna see how you interprest someone like green goblin or doc oc

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"Itsy Bitsy Spider..."

This is Blazing Spiders version of the green goblin, a beast that hides amongst the shadows, something so horrifying only fools speak its name.

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Chapter 0: The Hole

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My spider-sona.

"Blazing Spider"

her design fluctuates between a few different types.

Main differences:

-Weaker grip/wallcrawling -Weaker Spider-Sense -Not as experienced +Pyrokinesis +Kinetic Energy Manipulation +Hyper Mobile +Very light psychic powers.

She's hanging out with @emeraldgal17's spider-sona in the second picture

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Hello Void.

I'm back again.

I do not wish to bother you with my complaints of life or struggle again, old friend.

But there is something on my mind, something I cannot escape.

Will I ever be happy? Will work ever feel like a joy? Will my life feel meaningful?

of course Void, I know your tone. "Create for your sake, don't atone".

But Void.. don't you see? When I make things, I wish for others to see!

I want countless people to sit and to praise my work, to find love and meaning in my words and pictures, to inspire and influence, to breathe life and love into the world!

and yet.. when they look upon my work, when they stare deep into my soul as i stand upon the naked stage.. why do I feel so.. alone?

Why do I hate the attention if I crave it so? Don't you see Void? my life is a mess!

If i make things, I feel anxious and under duress.

If I quit.. If i escape the countless eyes upon me, I feel alone and cold.. and without a reason to continue.

I wish to be a star, but I would vanish upon the first night I lay in the sky.

Don't you see.. Void, you are not I.

I want to inspire and generate joy.

but this world is ROTTEN and I can't help but feel like a broken toy.

I can't walk well void.. I can't dance anymore.. I lay in bed upon days as my family assures.. "You're just lazy" they say, "Get out of bed" I tell them I have issues and yet they pretend they don't hear what I've said..

I don't have the drive.. the OOMPH, the FLASH! the thing everyone seems to have.. I don't have the energy to keep lugging my soul around.. oh Void.. why wont you let me drown?

I don't wish to be here!! Not anymore! If I succeed or fail, IM ALWAYS THE FLAW!

If I shine bright, I'll be hated, even when loved!

If I fade, I'll be cold and useless from above!

I don't see the purpose... "life is hard" they say. Well I didn't sign up for this place.. so WHY SHOULD I STAY!?

If life is so hard, then let me QUIT. I didn't sign up for this horrible shit.

I didn't sign up to be bullied for my skin, I didn't sign up to be beaten by my kin! So WHY should I stay? If my work means naught

If I barely brushed a dozen souls, why stay? why fight?

I've been doing this for half a dozen years now Void.. and yet I'm still down.. im not happy.. or bright..

So much work.. so much fight.. if I keep going.. I'll break.. if I stop.. if I rest.. my mind will sink into the abyss..

SO WHATS THE POINT OF THIS POEM!? WHATS THE POINT OF THIS LIFE!?

IF I WIN OR LOSE, IM BEING STABBED WITH A KNIFE!

If I succeed and create! If I am BORN to be a star! Then why do I hate it so.. when people judge me from afar..?

If I fail.. and fade, I feel too cold.. I feel like stone.. sitting alone..

so what's the answer... "oh just do what you like"

but what if.. nothing.. is to my taste, void...

what if I do not enjoy drawing or writing or being alive? What if the pain i feel.. is because im simply alive?

This poem.. is too long.. and no one will read it..

I know Void.. I know I should beat it.. I should stop complaining, stop saying my woes

no one cares

and that's.. okay, in a way.

Not to me, I feel abandoned by humanity.

But to others.. who'll forget this poem in minutes.. in hours.. in days...

and soon.. the pain.. the light I once shone.. will be forgotten, like an old blaze..

And maybe that's okay.. for others I mean.. because they wont have to keep up with my countless schemes.. my ideas that fail.. my countless complaints..

they have their own lives

their own voids

their own ideas of escape..

So I leave you with this.. anyone who reads.. Goodbye, I think.. maybe.. who knows..

for if I quit now.. and tell you I will never return.. that would be a lie

because this poem has said, again and again.. that when i give up.. i feel like collapsing in...

and when i work.. to create something new? I feel a fraud.. I feel obtuse.. I feel so weak, my hands can't reach the pen.. so even if I wanted to create something.. It'll never happen.. not now or then..

I know Void.. you're tired of my words

tired of my countless repeating complaints

so I shall leave.. and maybe return..

or maybe not.. maybe rest in an urn..

do not worry, old friend.

for one day, maybe soon.

I'll join you...

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I got really ill recently, but im finally back in action (sort of) and so i can announce that i have finished the art for Chapter 1 of Escaping Neon and have finished the art for Episode 5 of SCP:UC! so a lot of things are happening.

Escaping Neon will be using a more comic book/manga style, while SCP:UC will continue with its own art style.

my throat is still a little fucked from the sickness so idk when i'll be able to voice act the entirety of both casts.. but eventually i'll be able to!

for those few who are reading this, i thank ya

been going through some tough parts of my life recently, and creating is the only thing that's been keeping me going.. even if its not for a big audience, I thank ya all

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ESCAPING NEON

"When a boy looks out at the night sky.. and hears the chirps of birds, he breaks from the cage his parents keep him in and leave home.. travelling through the hypercity called Neon. the last remnant of humanity alive.. yet he doesn't care. All he cares about.. is escaping this wretched place by any. means. necessary."

will be my new show which i will be releasing on Youtube starting next month

Be sure to follow my youtube to see chapter by chapter updates on the web shows:

DecoyZ

Hey! My name is DecoyZ! i make videos! or do i? yes i do but do i? yes but do i? yes, yes i do but? yes

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Uh Oh: Monsters

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Souls are an important currency don't you know?

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Something is gonna be announced prettyyyy soon

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looks like something is about to go down

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Thank you to @emeraldgal17 for helping me with the new episode of SCP:UC

I hope we can work together more with my future projects