DeeMayVary

do you see me?

[stuckinapril]

“Do it scared” “do it badly” it’s time to drop the guide for do it alone

[stuckinapril]

Doing it scared and doing it badly is one thing, but no one seems to talk about doing it alone. When you feel so isolated from your friends and your family but you have shit to do and you have to get it done no matter what. When your support system really is only you. For any myriad of reasons. We do not talk enough about doing it alone.

[housemousecooking]

Want guides? I do Guides.

💪 Doing It Alone

💪 Doing It Alone When You Don’t Have a Support System, This Is for You 🧠 1. Mental Anchors to Remember You are not broken because you don’t

Other things? Job, Food, Car, Home, Health, Money. Plus a request form.

[daysleftofsecondterm]

Doing it alone the next 1,282 days

[dalishious]

God I don't care what anyone else says, Dragon Age: Origins is a masterwork of a video game and I still love it in the year of our lord satan 2025

[deemayvary]

[mushroominawaterbottle]

petplay but youre a slug so i just stare at you for 3 and a half hours while you eat 1 piece of carrot

[deemayvary]

I absolutely love gamedev but working as a solo dev for a project that isn't a prototype is method acting for a Sisyphus role and the bolder is just my own desires and sometimes when life slaps you across the face you realize you're Tantalus instead and you never actually touched anything

[tidectrl]

Method GameDevin'

[pipplepantslovescartoons]

I woke up with an idea

for lineart

I like it allot :)

[theendingofthewordsisalmsivi]

[sillyboghan]

dagoth ur is lowkey extremely hot something about the voice

[deemayvary]

For me it's the literal undying devotion to his former lord. I have something for obsessed bitches. Ofc when he goes "Oh, PLEASE, Nerevar, spaaare me!~" I giggle and kick my feet in the air but that's unrelated. I think. I want it to be unrelated.

[fluffydancer618]

None of you understand how normal I am about this game

[vieramars]

So like, ignoring the first half of this tag cause it's just petty, again we're confusing Lila's philosophy with the philosophy of the game. Lila's philosophy is garbage and that's the POINT. She's regurgitating what she learned from the Lawrence fraternity about how the mind doesn't really exist etc and using it to weaken William's sense of self. She's debating with Yu to keep him guessing and keep her mystery alive. This is NOT garage heathen telling you that you should believe all this stuff or that they personally believe it.

To find the actual philosophy of who's lila, I think we should turn to this moment instead.

THIS is the core philosophy, the heart of who's lila. Will doesn't need empathy to connect with Tanya, he doesn't need to understand her completely and feel what she's feeling, all he needs is his kindness and compassion. To quote flaw peacock's wonderful analysis,

"if presence and love is not sufficient for you, then something as honestly banal as knowledge won't be either."

This is part of why this game is so important to me. This theme is fucking beautiful and something I think a lot of people need to hear from their loved ones.

[theendingofthewordsisalmsivi]

There's plenty of criticism to be had about morrowind's guild questlines but one of the most impressive parts of them is the indirect storytelling. The imperial guilds are all horribly corrupt, but this isn't necessarily enunciated so much as just, presented without commentary.

The mages guild steward in Balmora is sending you to execute gang hits on competition and personal vendettas on past colleagues. The steward in Ald-Ruhn is paying you to steal from the guild and shake down less respected stewards (read: racialized). There's two argonians in the whole guild, and one is stuck in a Telvanni dominated backwater with limited resources and no backing for his genuinely admirable research. The guildmaster is an idiot who was promoted out of Cyrodiil out of convenience to get him out of his superior's hair.

The fighters guild is similarly fucked up, because Eydis Fire-Eye and Sjoring Hard-Heart are in the pocket of the Camonna Tong and are having you do extortions, racketeering, and straight up gang hits on thieves guild members or their associates, random civilian business owners, and great house agents. The former guildmaster is acting as a double agent against the corrupt current guildmaster to help you usurp his authority once you prove you're honorable enough not to do extra-judicial murder for the man.

And like this is obviously The Point to some degree, the imperial guilds are corrupt and incompetent because they're disconnected from the heart of the empire and are left too much to their own devices in a nation that is fraught with conflicting political forces with heavy amounts of money being traded between large numbers of hands. But this isn't like, a direct line of dialogue that someone just says to you. If this were a weaker written game someone would just lay out the Moral Of The Story. To some extent it makes the whole of the game stronger that you're shown the corruption and inefficiency and allowed to conclude personally that oh shit the empire is really not a stabilizing force in this region and a lot of what it imports is graft and vice while purporting to bring peace and culture and democracy wait sorry this is Cyrodiil not the United States.

In your last conversation with Caius Cosades during the main quest he says he thinks the empire is going to crumble soon. When Uriel Septim dies all hell is gonna break loose. Thinking about it from his perspective as a buried deep imperial agent, if this is the sort of system he has to work under day in and day out on the underbelly of Vvardenfell society, I can't say I'd disagree with him.

[8a8y]

[deemayvary]

Ain't that a kick in the head?

[cabaretbrainrot]

[deemayvary]

When I see Alan I feel like a repressed homosexual man from the 19th century who has always ignored his feelings for men but he's now just caught sight of his hot childhood friend fiddling with a gun on a hunting trip and oh no his bicep just flexed through his tight white shirt and I'm so so so so so fucked

[noeticdysmorphosis]

"But there should be an end somewhere. You can't wander around forever. What do you think?" 🥛

[Image ID: Two screenshots from the "Phone" ending of Milk outside a bag of milk outside a bag of milk. The screenshots read, "Anyway! There's so much space in my head that could be put to good use. So every thought would make a senseless and merciless circle in my head, destined to go back to where it started." End ID]

[zingring]

I overheard my 14-yo say (while petting her cat), "you raw piece of corn. You unplugged toaster. The plate is spinning, but the light isn't on."

[deemayvary]

I'm not even going to say anything clever. Just look at her. I want to hug her and take out the static-y milk cartons that you can't click on in the sequel out of her room and write "N-T P-IS-N" on every single pill tab of her meds in her favorite color.