Color on the Walls

My name is Lizzy and I have a problem with this thing called a chronic illness....which lead to some emotional health problems and well I am just me, and that is all I can be.

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Freedom or Fear

I don't want to die....but I am terrified to live. You get used to a thought process. You get used to no answers being your answer. So when the answer changes And the change is the best thing The thing that you never thought would happen What do you do? When your fantasy becomes your reality? When your reality is full of possibility? How do you shift? From one frame of mind To the opposite. How do you deal with great change? When your limits are suddenly limitless... Do you rise to the occasion? Do you dive in head first? Or do you dip your toe in the water? When things change, you need trust. You need to trust in the circumstances The circumstances that fell out from under you. The circumstances that stole your trust. When the circumstances are suddenly good When the bad is even better than it was What do you do? How do you respond? One should be joyous and hopeful They should be empowered and excited. But I...I stand here empty and anxious. Had the world made me too cautious? Have I lost too much to try again? Is it the thought of failing to gain what I desire Or the thought of gaining what I desire and losing it That terrifies me the most? All I know is I don't want to die... But my new life is scary. It is just what it is...new. New is scary. Can new be trusted? How do you move through the change? Do you fight or fly away? Do you remain caged in the old reality Or do you embrace the change with open arms? So that is where I am. Choosing between freedom and a cage Freedom that is scary, and new, and unknown Or a cage that is uncomfortable but familiar? What do I do...and where should I go? Who am I? Who are We? And...Why are we doing this? So freedom or captivity.... Joy or fear, emptiness or a chance at wholeness? Do I gain what I can and accept the risk of a great loss? Or do I remain where I am. Where it is safe...and at least I will have never gained it, so I can never lose it? What do you do? Original Free Verse - delightfully-dizzy-lizzy 3:52 A.M thoughts March 13

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Can I have them all? I have 3 dollars....😍

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Why don’t you focus on where you’re going and less on where you came from?

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Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?

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Leonardo DiCaprio getting his Oscar engraved and making a Leo joke™ (x)

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Me facing chronic illness every day:

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It is rather hard to be alone in a feeling in this world. Chances are someone, somewhere is feeling it, or has felt it at sometime or another. I am not talking about basic emotions. I am talking about the stomach-curdling, heart-wrenching, mind-boggling, we-need-a-therapist-to-figure-out emotions. The ones that we feel completely alone in, and completely surrounded by. The greatest thing is, to realized that somewhere out there someone has at sometime felt this same feeling, and that you are not alone. That is the key. You are not alone.

delightfully-dizzylizzy 1:40 a.m March 1st 2016

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