diet sprite

Cw: 128lbs | gw: 130 | ugw: 110 | hw: 189 | 5’8 | 20yrs

[depressedanorexic07]

double sewer slide anyone?

hahhhahahhaha just kidding

unless 👉👈 hahah jkjk 👀

[emptyschizoid]

Finding out people care about me is such an uncomfortable experience. Thanks, but you’re gonna be so disappointed when you find out what a selfish, empty, manipulative person i am

[justrllysadtbh]

ok so i only have 2 options:

1. spend the rest of my life going in and out of psychiatric facilities

2. die

[depressedanorexic07]

TRIGGER WARNING ED SHIT

Yall can pay to see my feet😗

BUT WHATTHE ACTUALL FUCK😱

i honestly think it’s my muscle mass tho🤔 because i haven’t been working out and have been restricting. And my body is ✨jiggly✨ sadly ☹️

im smaller then min yoongi and Levi tho😌✌️

[y-are-you-still-here]

Having to mentally talk myself into and out of suicide every day is exhausting

[wishing-for-deathx]

Things no one tells you about when you’ve been mentally ill for years and it won’t get better

— everyone will give up on you. Some will say it upfront, some will have indirect ways of showing it (you’re a lucky mf if you still have someone )

— your symptoms/ breakdowns/ panic attacks are cute for a few months. Everyone wants to help. Later on people find them annoying and inconvenient

— you will be blamed for not getting better. Doesn’t matter if you’re doing therapy, taking meds, exercising, eating well and sleeping. You can do all of it, some of it or none of it. They will find fault in your efforts.

— desensitization to your pain. This one isn’t their fault, it’s human nature. But it happens and yes it hurts cuz you would wish you were desensitized to your own pain but you have to feel it no matter what. Doesn’t matter if it’s the millionth time. It demands to be felt.

— people move on. But you can’t. You see people cope and get over things while you simply can’t. And it’s so much worse if you’ve been mentally ill for years. Even the smallest things break you and trigger you.

— you slowly realize this world isn’t made for mentally ill people in any way

— you’re tired / fatigued all the time. You have been for years now. You simply exist but you aren’t capable of living anymore. Your illnesses have taken everything that made you feel alive. You’re nothing but a shell. A body.

[depressedanorexic07]

[depressedanorexic07]

i just found out drinking red bulls on an empty stomach can cause seizures...

i am fine😀

[depressedanorexic07]

man my ED ruined my body. i never used to get cold sweats, and now i get them almost every night. (TMI->>) i can’t even poop without drinking a lot of coffee. I’m always cold, i can’t lose weight anymore unless im Constantly restricting . but im so fucked up, i convinced myself things will be better once I’m skinny even though i know it’s not going to :/

[depressedanorexic07]

me: I’ve got it under control

also me: y’all can catch these hands before u make me eat bread💀

[depressedanorexic07]

[depressedanorexic07]

i just want to be skin, bones, and organs.

wack shit T_T

[justa19yroldgirl]

here’s some of the things that motivate me !!

coming back school after loosing all that weight

never having to worry about if you’re skinny enough

no more crying over your body

wearing whatever you like

people picking you up easily

no more chaffing thighs in the summer

sweaters and hoodies make your legs look so tiny and fragile

beautiful skinny hands

being the skinnier sibling/cousin

all your clothes being too big for you.

these are just a few but they help me so much!!

[depressedanorexic07]

i like to have a cigarette after a sesh, but it’s always so risky when i fast lol. cause like am i gonna have a heart attack this time? or am i just going to faint? or will we be Gucci and make it back to my room? safely🤣

[depressedanorexic07]

i never realized how much people actually offer/get/make me food when im fasting. i always feel guilty, like “bitch get ur nice ass away from my mentally miserable ass, let me suffer in silence” 😭😭

[depressedanorexic07]

when i finish working out and don’t immediately lose weight:

[iwannabethinblr]

hello ed community

if you’re seeing this: - drink some water - go pee, for gods sake - straighten ur back/ stretch - take ur meds if u need - if it’s later than 2am at night please go to bed - try to get enough sleep - ily all - stay alive <3 - u r valid