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lokeshtuli

Last night I almost killed myself.

I looked at my sister's face, knowing I would leave her behind in a cruel world that was kind to no one.

I looked at my mom who was crying over being burdened.

I looked at my dad who had no idea, fighting battles he wouldn't tell.

I looked at the brand new books I haven't read,

The unfinished Sting I had no appetite to drink,

The music I couldn't listen to,

The future I could've had...

The letter was written.

the pills were in my hands.

Yet...I just couldn't get myself to do it

Because something deep inside of me,

didn't want to let go.

Something inside of me

Wanted to see London

And take long walks in the fog,

Experience snow for the first time

And read all the books I could.

Something in me

Wanted to go to more cafés and eat more cakes

And discover and listen to more songs

And laugh with my sister more over stupid things...

Something deep inside of me...

wanted to live.

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tannisroute

isn't it crazy that a woman being gender nonconforming literally just requires her to exist in her own body without making any changes whatsoever. why does the fact that i don't wear makeup and i don't shave and i don't wear a bra have to be some political act. why can't i just fucking exist

Motivation to study: Mary Wollstonecraft's (the woman who fought for my right to study) giant portrait over my table in front of me.

#books #books and reading #classic literature #autism #mary wollstonecraft #radical feminist community #radical feminist theory #feminism #womens rights #equal rights #equality #education #study motivation

Thank you mother Mary Wollstonecraft for fighting for women's rights

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Can you recognize them? 😉

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ilikegreedraw

i feel like when dazais zoned out he looks like a corpse and everyones like ‘is he alive??’ - yes dont worry he’s just deep in thought

My heartbeat is its own language...and it's incomprehensible to me.

Every beat a mystery, every action enigmatic

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I woke up from a horrible nightmare and I don't want to think about it, yet it's all I can think about.

#mentally fucked #tw nightmares #actually mentally ill #mentally unstable #mental illness #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit

The woman who birthed me, my mother herself (in soul)

#mary wollstonecraft #philosopher #philo #philosophy #classic literature #literature #feminism #radical feminist community #radical feminist theory #equal rights #education #women #victorian #victorian women #mary shelley

Can't sleep, so more philosophy

#philosophy #philosopher #philo #books and reading #books #classic literature #literature

Hi, I actually don't want to experience love if it's just going to end painfully, and no I don't want it "for the experience" if it's just going to end and hurt. Thanksss

If you're not gonna stay, get the fuck away from me

#love