to wonderland.

"When I'm here, you have hope."

[dein-wille-geschehe]

What is trauma bonding?

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s having sex because you want to be used or abused or defiled. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

This sort of behavior is classified as “para-suicidal” It’s putting yourself in a situation of danger or destruction with the intention of risking your safety rather than a direct attempt on your life. Kind of, leaving it all to chance? Also doing things to harm yourself or your self worth because you feel you deserve to feel the outcome of those actions.

[abnormall]

i am tired. i am exhausted. from my head to my soul to my bones i am so fucking tired.

[depressing-insanity]

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[lonelywithadropofwine]

Some stuff you do hurts me a lot, even if you don’t realise it

[addictedtothe-thrill]

Flip your phone upside down

[starwarsgraphictee]

worth it

[trestyoselfchris-deactivated201]

I’m high rn and I just experienced pure joy

[tokillabutterfly]

[vermoeidetwintiger]

I refuse to tell anyone how bad it really got again.

Because i know they can’t handle it to go through this again. - //04.09.2015//11.52// (via emotioneelaangelegd)

[iwontgofarkid]

[anartfreak]

[asking-the-death]

You need a private talk? Just message me(send me an ask)

[little-happy-little-sad-deactiv]

Nobody really wants to hear about you being depressed, everyone gets tired of listening to you, and watch you mope around, not living your life to the “fullest” potential. It’s not worth telling anyone how you feel anymore because after time and time again, they’ll just automatically respond and it won’t make you feel any better than what you already feel, so you might as well be alone and feel alone.

No one can really fix you, even if you’re the slightest bit broken (via little-happy-little-sad)

[itsconsumingme-deactivated20210]

never is 

[letyourselfliveagain]

[kissandbe]

just in case , because promises are bullshit anyway right ?

[late-nights-and-daydreams]

If I die young Bury me in that favorite dress of mine on a sunny day It’s blue, remember? Has the tardis logo on it. Throw on my combat boots. The purple ones that were my favorite. Hair in curls, just like I’d like it. Cover my scars, I know there’s a lot, but I want them hidden Read from John Green. The quote I would of gotten as a tattoo if I was older. The one about never being hopeless. Don’t read anything I’ve got to say, it won’t matter anyway. I want there to be music from my childhood. Songs I remember. But not the one my dad would sing.anything but that. I want butterflies in my coffin. Not real, just painted. No need for any more deaths than my own. Let them pray, because even if I don’t believe this funeral is for the living after all Let them say good bye Give them a stone or something. Something for them to keep me with them If I die young Let me go peacefully into the sun Forgive me

(via late-nights-and-daydreams)

[late-nights-and-daydreams]

I don’t even have the energy to write my suicide note I guess it’s the proof that were nearing the end Because I’m finally running out of words

(via late-nights-and-daydreams)