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I am deserving of the things I want out of life.

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Still

[nneilperry]

yellowstone national park, wyoming

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Light pink is the new yellow I think

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This is my second day on zoloft and I know it takes a few weeks to reach its full effect but I definitely feel different. I haven't been anxious today. It's been a very long time since that's been a truth. It's the first mental health related med I've ever been on and I feel really hopeful about it

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And I want to be a better person. For everyone around me, but mostly for my sweetie

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It's kinda weird to think of our "dating" period as being over, but I am overjoyed that our relationship has gone the "best case scenario" route

It's cool. And I'm so excited to be building a life together

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Being in a healthy relationship is really cool. I have another best friend, but I get to share literally everything with this one. We…

dream next to each other at night

share sips (or gulps) of our drinks

swap half of our meals at restaurants if we order different food

take care of each other when we’re sick

help with chores

always pick up the phone

share our bodies

travel to new places together

talk about our confusing lives every day

conserve water by showering all at once

alternate paying for every day things and special day things

brave family functions as a team

plan for the bright future

inspire hope in one another

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Also still very applicable

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The man who has:

introduced me to great music

laughed with me until our faces turned red

humbled me

challenged my patience

called me on my bullshit

made the future less intimidating

apologized when it’s warranted

always been concerned about my comfort and safety

gone along with my whack family

taught me that a best friend can (and should) also be a lover

actively wanted me to be more involved in his family

gladly debated life’s big questions

spawned weird inside jokes

helped hold my head above water

taken care of me in my sicknesses and bad decisions

created a space where I can be in the raw

opened up infinite possibilities I could never have foreseen two years ago

There are so many intimate pieces of our relationship I am thankful for. I could never list everything that makes our connection so incredible. I feel that many people go much of their lives hoping for something like this. How fortunate I am. We’re young and I’m ecstatic we get to spend the now together, but I still look forward to the later very much.

But now? Now is pretty good too. Sometimes I just need to step back and remember what makes the present so beautiful. Someday I will be reflecting on this time with heavy nostalgia. Someday soon. By Someday I will know deeply the possibilities I cannot foresee in this moment, in this year, in this time. And the cycle repeats. How fortunate I am.

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And now we're engaged. All of those bullets still hold. What a nice read

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I'm gonna be a wife

It's sweet. I'm at home. And I'm so fucking lucky.

[poboh]

Novemberspiegel / November mirror, 2004, Norbert Schwontkowski. Germany (1949 - 2013) - Mixed media -

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I've spent so much time wishing I was a tiny thing

I am whole

now

And I am overlooking my own existence

Is this the first step?

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Much sad.

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How do other people get through shit so gracefully? Please teach me how to do this magic

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All my coworkers just giggling and small talking and I'm like... I can't even engage with y'all. I cannot do the fake out rn

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I am so devastated by my work getting shut down again from covid. I've tried so hard to get to a better job all year and it's all been in vain. I'm sad. I feel helpless

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I feel so looooooost 🎶🎶🎶

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The Return

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