gravity is matter’s response to loneliness

sanz/ari disabled desi dyke | he/they | 26 sahn•zer•ee

[diasphoriaaa]

orange, abundance, 2023

one of my favorite poems on top of a painting i made with my best friends <3

[b0nkcreat]

eyes emoji was the perfect invention for nosy people. like 👀 whats going on over here 👀👀 i just wanna know #LetMeKnow 👀👀👀

[decamarks]

Cordyceps emoji I made this morning. It's already become very useful in conversation with friends, so please feel free to use it.

Intended usage(s): Denoting actions made as a result of "possession"; feeling of occupying force directing one's behavior; need for relocation

[loreleywrites]

you solve the mystery of what to have for dinner one night and you think "hell yeah case closed forever" WRONG there is a dinner mystery the next night too

[loreleywrites]

ok so many people in the notes are talking about meal planning and leftovers and no. thats not what this is about.

leftovers and meal plans dont matter

dinner mystery isn't "i dont have food" its "what will my brain and/or body allow me to eat rn?" and thats a much more complex mystery than either lefties or planning can solve

[rabdoidal]

I’ve been thinking about episode 7 of City Council of Darkness and about Lavonte reacting the way he did to Maya assuming he and HJ were a couple.

Lavonte and HJ represent exact tropes of homosexuality and vampirism of the 1980s; by the 80s, vampires had shifted from countryside landed gentry hiding away in musty castles to urbanised capitalists - the setting changes, but they still benefit from the toil of others as the bourgeoisie against the proletariat (Morrissette, 2013). At the same time, people moving to cities during the industrial revolution to work formed proletariat communities of their own, including homosexuals that left their homes in search of a better life; the city was different than their small-knit towns where everyone knew everyone, and gave them freedom. By the 80s HIV/AIDs crisis, horror had synthesised vampires and homosexuality to be intertwined urban concepts; for members of these groups (homosexuals/vampires), there is an element of hunting or pursuing a partner (cruising/finding a victim), exchanging fluids (cum/blood), and those fluids put you at risk of sickness or death (AIDs/vampirism) (Clark, 2022). There is, further, the idea of “turning someone” - this is framed as a bad thing by out-members, but contains nuance within the community. They are both seductive. They are both abnormal. You should warn your children about (homosexuals/vampires), do not let your daughter move to the city, or she will become a (homosexual/vampire). Within horror, vampires began to be queer coded; Daughters of Darkness (1971), The Hunger (1983), Fright Night (1985), The Lost Boys (1987).

HJ is the exemplar of the 80s vampire - he is a businessman with immense power, he is slick, he is clean shaven and well dressed, he is a confirmed bachelor. He is coded as (homosexual/vampire), and it’s interesting to think about whether Lavonte pursued HJ because he was a vampire, or because HJ was a man. It is risky for either of those factors to be what makes him appealing, but the desire alongside the disorder is what makes it a (homosexual/vampire) love story - it would be horrifying to want someone while also being terrified of what they can do to you. It completely makes sense to me that Lavonte, even though Lou played it as a joke, would have reservations about people thinking he was gay. Being gay in the 80s meant being dirty, meant being sick, meant being less masculine or respected, meant being the “other,” regardless of if he’s gay or not (Clark, 2022). Even though I see Lavonte as being totally accepting, being gay himself would be an admission of guilt in some way. Lavonte is focused, charismatic, and doesn’t like hearing “no” - if someone implied he seduced HJ to gain vampirism, I think that would be his nightmare.

Truly, even though none of their 80s-gay-vampirism coding was intentional, and even though Lou and Ally were playing up the miscommunication as a joke, I think it's interesting to see how character moments make logical sense within meta-horror. It’s been a great season so far.

Clark, Ian (2022) "Infectious Queers: HIV/AIDS and the Vampiric Body in Interview with the Vampire (1994)," Journal of Dracula Studies: Vol. 24: No. 1, Article 4. DOI: 10.70013/n1p5h7g4 Available at: https://research.library.kutztown.edu/dracula-studies/vol24/iss1/4

Fullilove MT, Wiley J, Fullilove RE 3rd, Golden E, Catania J, Peterson J, Garrett K, Siegel D, Marin B, Kegeles S, et al. Risk for AIDS in multiethnic neighborhoods in San Francisco, California. The population-based AMEN Study. West J Med. 1992 Jul;157(1):32-40. PMID: 1413740; PMCID: PMC1021901. 

Heller J. Rumors and Realities: Making Sense of HIV/AIDS Conspiracy Narratives and Contemporary Legends. Am J Public Health. 2015 Jan;105(1):e43-e50. doi: 10.2105/AJPH.2014.302284. PMID: 25393166; PMCID: PMC4265931.

Morrissette, J. J. (2013). Marxferatu: The Vampire Metaphor as a Tool for Teaching Marx’s Critique of Capitalism. PS: Political Science & Politics, 46(3), 637–642. doi:10.1017/S1049096513000607 

[brennan-lee-mother]

Simply cannot stop thinking about the fact that HJ and LaVonte are Sire and Childe and yet seem to have no hierarchy between them at all. HJ unquestionably treats LaVonte as his equal and LaVonte feels perfectly comfortable yelling at and physically assaulting HJ, both of which are kind of unthinkable under the social rules of the Camarilla. It’s LaVonte’s name first in Worthy and Wingstreet Industries. They are Sire and Childe but more importantly they are partners.

[asymptotic-rage]

Imagine being Tyler.

Your bosses are super toxic. They pay for your grandpa to leave his terrible housing. They tell you to work 17 hours a day. They immediately give you a promotion. You've never seen them in the daytime and they think lunch happens at 8pm.

[exhaustedlyqueer]

Their one friend who's always wearing a denim vest with no shirt and suddenly has a horse following him around at all times has a weird vendetta against you for seemingly no reason

[ifyouknowmeirlgoaway]

They've given you two antique Rolexes.

[not-a-smartass-just-a-nerd]

you are not allowed to cry. their hot, french friend points out that you need to wear a tie. at one point, they ask you to spend several hours driving multiple buses to an empty lot. you will never not be wearing a tie ever again.

[ifyouknowmeirlgoaway]

You now have a commercial driving license.

[hyumjim]

Starting a collection

[hyumjim]

[garaks-padded-bra]

i made up Star Trek to trick you guys

[digital-morganism-deactivated20]

so now I'm gay for nothing?

[garaks-padded-bra]

now youre gay for nothing.

[dailywomen]

OLIVIA RODRIGO the cure (Official Music Video)

[rhytmrocket]

shoutout ppl w tooth gaps btw. or overbites. or underbites. or crossbites. or uneven teeth. or other dental conditions. and also ppl who don’t want to/can’t afford to get that stuff changed/"fixed". ily

additive edit from rbs n replies: also ppl with discolored teeth, and broken/damaged/decaying teeth, and missing/no teeth

and i'll probably keep adding stuff as i think of it. just know i love ur teeth and/or lack thereof. ur cool n ily

[itwoodbeprefect]

bruce springsteen narrating kitchen safety instructions from the perspective of a frying pan:

[ellewantsrevenge]

aadam jacobs's archive

[icancirieclearlynowthegameison]

GIVE HER AN EXTRA 900,000 JUST CUZ

[connemor]

idk if i can ever top this piece tbh. i need this on a tshirt.

[nosimpincurly]

You’re not depressed. You just need $250,000 in your bank account.

[catherinebunnington]

Reblog to materialize $250,000 in prev's bank account

[greenlikethesea]

yes, of course, 1000%, support and protect trans kids. but also, when we grow up, please help us out. a lot of trans communities worldwide are passing around the same $20 on cashapp or venmo or paypal or their country's equivalent amongst each other because cis people will slap an infographic on their social media and call it a day. we are disproportionately uninsured, underemployed, denied housing, denied medical care, vulnerable to violence -- and more. (i can only speak as a white person experiencing these, but it goes twofold and often threefold for adult trans people of color.)

the truth -- or at least, what i feel to be accurate -- is that the average cis person is much more likely to know a trans adult than they are to know a trans kid. for the past decade, i've been working with kids across multiple school districts in a very populated and liberal city in the usa and i've met less than ten out kids. in a decade. however, i know far more trans adults, and was encountering trans adults for a long time before i was even conscious of transness!

"protect trans kids" is, and i cannot stress this enough, an incredible movement and i'm so glad it exists. that being said, it's also easier than "protect trans people" because kids lack agency in most societies and it's more of an amorphous concept. a cisgender parent can be lauded as a hero for speaking on behalf of their trans kid, but they could just as easily be weird to a trans woman who doesn't perfectly pass at the supermarket. and trans adults have the agency to talk back. we have the agency to not accept scraps and to be pissed off at minimal effort.

protect all trans people. the young kids who are still coming into themselves, our elders who weathered the storm for decades, and the adults who need your support now more than ever.