[diluviium]

# 𝐃𝐈𝐋𝐔𝐕𝐈𝐈𝐔𝐌    ;     A private, low activity 𝙁𝙪𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙖 𝙙𝙚 𝙁𝙤𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙞𝙣𝙚 from hoyoverse's genshin impact.   This blog is headcanon based and does not associate with the fandom at large.   If you wish to interact then please make sure to read my guidelines thoroughly so that nothing is missed.   Loved and written by Quinn 

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[kalopsia-hub]

A numb sense of finality settles within you,  undeniable and unavoidable,  as the last dredges of consciousness slip:     you are dead.     Memories,  regrets,  contentment        —        it all dissolves in the inevitable,  a slow sensation of cold and nothingness.     Then,  a presence;     then,  a touch;     then,  being adrift on gentle waters while the current pulls you in.     Fight,     the body demands.     Rebel,     the mind objects.     Live,     the soul pleas.     Even as land grows farther,  into a small speck on the horizon,  you feel warmth bubbling.     You are coming home.

“We have acknowledged the ache inside you,”     a distant whisper,     “and will guide you to where you must be.”

KALOPSIA is an invitation-only, multi-fandom group hosted on Discord. In short bursts, we will be opening additional slots to the tumblr RP community and accept small batches at a time. ( ~10-15 maximum ). If interested, please thoroughly review our information. JULY'S INVITE PROCESS WILL CLOSE JULY 25TH.

premise ✧ masterlist ✧ guidelines ✧ application ✧ mobnavi

[kalopsia-hub]

A numb sense of finality settles within you,  undeniable and unavoidable,  as the last dredges of consciousness slip:     you are dead.     Memories,  regrets,  contentment        —        it all dissolves in the inevitable,  a slow sensation of cold and nothingness.     Then,  a presence;     then,  a touch;     then,  being adrift on gentle waters while the current pulls you in.     Fight,     the body demands.     Rebel,     the mind objects.     Live,     the soul pleas.     Even as land grows farther,  into a small speck on the horizon,  you feel warmth bubbling.     You are coming home.

“We have acknowledged the ache inside you,”     a distant whisper,     “and will guide you to where you must be.”

KALOPSIA is an invitation-only, multi-fandom group hosted on Discord. In short bursts, we will be opening additional slots to the tumblr RP community and accept small batches at a time. ( ~10-15 maximum ). If interested, please thoroughly review our information. JULY'S INVITE PROCESS WILL CLOSE JULY 25TH.

premise ✧ masterlist ✧ guidelines ✧ application ✧ mobnavi

[bananakeiky]

Choose your fighter

instagram | carrd

[scalllions]

may i present...!

[contractdealt]

“I became good at pretending. I became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. And sometimes, when I did a really good job of pretending, I even fooled myself.”

— Ruta Sepetys (via quotemadness)

[natsonice]

have u heard of the prophecy?

[inuhiime]

:: 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 ! ──── ⪩⪨ 𝐎𝐌𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑'𝐒 𝐕𝐈𝐄𝐖𝐏𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐓

' if you want my bones, i shall give them to you. if you want my heart, then i will gladly hand it over '

' so you want the right over my life and death? '

' even if you manage to save the world, you still won't be saved '

' you will live to the end and be happy '

' i am used to the pain. similarly, i am familiar with death. don't you already know this? '

' every story has a value. it is a story that is interesting to some people and salvation for others '

' what if all this was nothing more than a sweet lie? '

' i only liked the people i liked and saved the people i cared about '

' can't you change your repertoire of greetings already? i almost died for real this time, you know? '

' from the beginning till the end, i was always the one being saved '

' the hurt we inflicted on each other would not be erased '

' so many misfortunes exist in this world, so is there a reason to feel sorrow for every single one of them? '

' even if you do save one world, every other world you have forsaken will drag you down to hell '

' i don't want to be a monster '

' to someone who even lost the traces of loss, no such things as 'loss' existed '

' you know this too, right? the last one to laugh is the winner '

' it's been a while. you are still ugly '

' from the beginning, it was definitely dogshit '

' there is no magic that will heal all wounds just because someone else has a deep wound as well '

' we are life and death companions '

' i have no thoughts of saving you '

' i can kill all of them if i want. therefore, i can save all of them if i want '

' we promised. you forgot? '

' my death isn't a part of your plan '

' if there is no sense of death then the value of life also disappears '

' you want to save this world? it's the same for me, too '

' will i ever get to meet you again? '

' i like you. so don't die '

' i couldn't rage when i wanted to rage. i couldn't be sad when i wanted to grieve '

' you don't know anything so shut up '

' we'll be happy after this, right? '

' maybe, just maybe, i could've endured it '

' i wanted to live longer, even if i was a bit less happy. that's why i was a slave to capitalism '

' it seems to be that you actually enjoy dying or getting kidnapped '

' we can save the world. don't you know? '

' by the way, are you a couple? '

' the one who can save the world... it might be you, not me '

' someone was left and someone was leaving. no matter what was chosen, everyone would always reach their end '

' i'll definitely save you, too '

' do the ones that can't remember anything also forget about their sorrow, too? '

' i don't need a person like you '

' if i forget about everything... i won't feel this pain anymore, right? '

' can you promise not to give up on that goal, no matter what? '

' why, why is it not me, but you? '

' i shall pray that you may continue to exist somewhere, too '

' i remember the first time i was about to finish a book. it was like being deprived of the world '

' none of you will return alive '

' if i couldn't believe in him, who could i believe in the first place? '

' why did you die for us over and over? '

' just because i am a murderer doesn't mean i want to keep killing '

[diluviium]

I need to update like all of my stuff, but I am sick with c*vid so I am just staring at a wall for hours instead

[diluviium]

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙡 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚?

a field of painted flowers; Furina

You are the gentle sigh of spring and summer. You are full of beautiful life. You were always meant to bloom in your own time, and your time has come. You were never meant to be a wallflower, but the center of the bouquet. But you would readily trade anything for another’s sake. You would give up your place beneath the sun so another may feel the light. A peacemaker, a diplomat at heart. Conflict is the bane of your existence, as a weed amongst your garden. Your greatest challenge is to learn to confront it, to face your fears and your doubts and approach your ambitions with confidence, lest the weeds slowly overtake you. And do not think it selfish of yourself to ask to be seen, to be admired amongst your fellow flowers. You are worthy of praise. You do not have to kill what is special about yourself to fit in.

a shadowed figure within a void; Focalors

You are the flickering shape in the darkness. The echo of something lost. Are you even there at all, really? Does anyone see what you are beyond the darkness that surrounds you? You were the first to lose yourself. You stumbled in the dark, and in trying to find who you are, you picked up all the wrong pieces of broken things. Can you still say that you are you, if you have torn yourself apart and stitched yourself together with every monstrous replacement you could find? What is it that you think will make you whole again? Do you think that your teeth and claws can protect you? There is no monster trying to harm you. There is only you, and nothing can protect you from yourself if you insist upon your own self-destruction. You are the villain of your own story. There is no one you have harmed more than yourself.

tagged by: @arcanti tagging: @lightsmartyr (specifically wander + albedo), @zanvat (whoever suites your fancy, you have so many muses this would be fun for), @lovaend (all of them /hj), and however else wants to do it, i haven't been on tumblr in so long i'm a little nervous guy

[noahsresources]

IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW

for muses who need to share some intimate thoughts with one another. can be platonic, romantic, familial ... works with any kind of dynamic really. feel free to change pronouns, descriptor words, whatever you may need!

❝ you know i love and care about you, right? ❞ ❝ ... i guess i'm just scared of losing you. ❞ ❝ i don't like most people, but you're an exception. ❞ ❝ you're not alone. you'll never be alone. not as long as i'm here. ❞ ❝ by your side is where i'm meant to be. ❞ ❝ not one person is more important to me than you. ❞ ❝ i don't know what it is about you, but, you just ... you're the only one who can make me feel like this. ❞ ❝ you're amazing, you know that? ❞ ❝ who has the greatest (friend/brother/sister/sibling/parent/etc) in the world? me, that's who! ❞ ❝ i'm only managing to stand here on my two feet because of you. i made it because of you. ❞ ❝ i don't know how i'm ever going to be able to repay you. ❞ ❝ i know for a fact that you're special. i can feel it. ❞ ❝ you've actually made me feel like a person again, like i'm ... normal. ... thank you. ❞ ❝ i used to think that everyone else was just evil and cynical, guided by their own self-interest. that is, until i met you. ❞ ❝ you truly are too good for this world. ❞ ❝ i'm always blown away by just how talented you are. ❞ ❝ you deserve so much more than what you were given. ❞ ❝ nobody i've ever met has been more gifted than you. ❞ ❝ if you ever need a place to stay, let me know, okay? ❞ ❝ you always feel really comfortable and safe to be around. ❞ ❝ i think i have a new purpose in my life. to be with you. ❞ ❝ you have a kind heart. i know you don't believe me, and you try to hide it behind a facade, but i know for a fact that you do, deep down. ❞ ❝ i think you're probably the only one who understands me. ❞ ❝ you're safe here with me. nobody's going to harm you ever again. ❞ ❝ i don't deserve someone as amazing as you. ❞ ❝ i was kind to you because you looked like you needed a friend. ❞ ❝ i'm never leaving you. you're stuck with me. ❞

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝑭𝑬𝑨𝑹 / 𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑹𝑶𝑹 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  nothing's going to happen to us, right?  ❜ ❛  i'm ... scared.  ❜ ❛  i don't like where this is going.  ❜ ❛  did i ever tell you i'm actually terrified of [the dark / heights / spiders / etc.]?  ❜ ❛  you hear me? we're not going to die today!  ❜ ❛  did you hear that? it sounded like screams.  ❜ ❛  i really, really don't like this.  ❜ ❛  we're completely alone here, nothing's going to happen to us.  ❜ ❛  this place has been abandoned for centuries.  ❜ ❛  whatever happens, keep the lights on.  ❜ ❛  you're not scared, are you?  ❜ ❛  this is like straight out of my worst nightmare.  ❜ ❛  do you believe in ghosts?  ❜ ❛  what are you afraid?  ❜ ❛  what was that?!  ❜ ❛  see, i told you there's nothing to be afraid of.  ❜ ❛  go on, no one will hear your screams.  ❜ ❛  it was a foolish idea to come here alone.  ❜ ❛  no one is going to save you now.  ❜ ❛  don't be afraid, i'm not going to hurt you.  ❜ ❛  you really think you can run from me?  ❜ ❛  it's a shame i'll have to kill you when we're done with this.  ❜ ❛  want to make a deal with the devil?  ❜ ❛  i'm not afraid of you. not anymore.  ❜ ❛  there are figures hiding in the shadows, waiting to strike.  ❜ ❛  this wasn't so bad now, was it?  ❜ ❛  what could possibly go wrong - it's just an old abandoned meaning, it doesn't mean it's haunted, right?  ❜ ❛  face it, we won't make it out of here alive.  ❜ ❛  i'll even give you a choice - it's either you or them. who's going to die tonight?  ❜ ❛  i will haunt you for the rest of your days.  ❜ ❛  don't scream, it will only make this worse.  ❜ ❛  you look so pretty when you're scared of me.  ❜ ❛  i won't kill you ... yet.  ❜ ❛  ghosts and monsters aren't real.  ❜ ❛  i'm not afraid of anything!  ❜ ❛  you! you're sick! you sent me here to die, didn't you?  ❜ ❛  close your eyes. it'll make it easier if you don't see it coming.  ❜ ❛  no matter where you hide, i'll always find you. so you better give up now.  ❜ ❛  i promise i'm gonna be your worst nightmare.  ❜ ❛  it's only over when i say it is.  ❜

[diluviium]

@lovaend spoke to the court: ❛ i won't kill you … yet. ❜ / beast!zai for furina ( please hear me out :bunnocent: furina leaving solasta to find him again because he remembers him always and is sent to a world where that memory isn't reciprocated )

"You won't kill me" That is a bold statement! Especially towards a man you know is perfectly capable of it. It's always been how he carries himself. He'll cut the strings off of anyone that he's formed if it means being less weighted down. However, the was something that you knew he would weigh his options with; Information. You have a lot of information, both good and bad! An unsettling idea that someone you don't know knows so much about you to the point they could get to this point. A point close enough that you feel the need to threatened, yet not pull the trigger. You can't deny that there is more then likely some fear in him, even if he doesn't know it. Anxiety that would swell up in anyone that suddenly appears, able to know exactly who you are in a deeply intimate manner. "I know you and I have so much I could tell you... It'd be a waste to kill me at any point."

Only because once you told him all there was to know, he'd be in too deep. He thinks his heart is something that is locked away, without any in, but you did it once, twice, probably more times, honestly. You don't know each time you have, but you have full faith in yourself to do the same now. If you die trying, then so be it. "I didn't come here to die, anyways. I knew I could, but..." You trail off for a second, debating if this is what you want to say. "It is a risk I am willing to take if it means seeing you again." and you know he doesn't understand why you want to see him again. The look in his eye, the way he seems almost repulsed by the mere thought that there is someone alive who wants to see him in any positive manner. Someone like that can't exist to him.

And yet, here you stand.

"Instead of talking about death, and killing, and all of that really not fun stuff, I could simply talk to you instead. Tell you bits and pieces of why I wish to see you." Ah, there is that look again. "You know, it's really rude to look so disgusted when someone is willing to just talk to you... Though, it's not at all shocking from you."

[diluviium]

@lovaend spoke to the court: ❛ i won't kill you … yet. ❜ / lyney (for focalors; my take on lyney specifically)

"This again..." You don't know if he reminds you of it consistently to attempt to frighten you (or Furina), or if he does it to remind himself of what he is meant to do. He has done plenty that would leave plenty frightened for their lives, it certainly has shaken Furina up who struggles to not feel meek and threatened in his presence, but at this point you just think of him like a petulant child that is desperately trying to prove that he can do something to make his parents proud. It is debatable if killing another person would make more parents proud or not. (The jury is out on that one still /sarcasm) Still, you feel incredibly annoyed by it today.

'Fulfill the prophecy and I'll take your gnosis in the end.' 'Once this is over I'll kill you.' 'You don't have it in you to let everyone die.'

What a confident boy. A misplaced confidence when it's with you. You were created to protect Furina. Protection comes in many different types. If death is the easiest way to protect Furina then it would not be outside the realm of possibility to simply let everyone die if it meant that Furina wouldn't die alone.

'Then enjoy drowning with your citizens' 'You foolish boy, Do you think all of teyvet wouldn't flood?'

He had no instant answer. Almost jarred by the fact you would even propose the idea, much less have thought that far ahead. That Teyvet would flood. The curse on Fontaine has never, and will never only be Fontaine's curse. It is a cruel curse passed down by the gods that could drown all of Teyvet. Was it a short sighted curse handed down by Celestia? One that should have only had those baring the sins of Egeria falling to the waters? Even if those "sins" were turn you into nothing but water, humans simply can't survive in a world made of nothing but the seas from the depths. Yet, when he did fire back he said you didn't have it in you to let them all drown.

(Well, to you, to them, to everyone... I am nothing more then a god. Why would a god care?)

"Do you find comfort in reminding yourself this will be over?" You tilt your head, That eerie sincerity that you always pose towards him. A question without a hint of malice. You are not speaking down to him, though many may see it that way. No, you are genuine. A genuine question towards a boy who claims to be your executioner. "Yet, will that end actually come? The ending you want. The prophecy averted, my blood on your hands, the country of Fontaine... simply left behind in your wake. Afterall, it is only important to you in the moments the prophecy hangs in the air. After that they may as well fend for themselves."

You giggle after you say that "I'm sure you think "Oh, but Sir Neuvillette will keep the peace", which is a fools errand. He has only stood by Fontaine because of me. Then your next thought would be "Well, that's not my business then." because this isn't your home." You take a step towards him. He is barely taller then you... A fact you think of frequently. Has he not finished growing? Or is he technically an adult who never grew? "But if you think there won't be people who don't try to strike your "home" for ruining their home- Well, I suppose you'll just have to get more blood on your hands. Some of those who you'd face would be those same kids you once saw on the streets... I suppose family is only those that align with your morals."

Afterall, you are a "god". What do you understand about family? You never had one, you'll never have one. You don't want a family. Not if this is how a family should function. Surely the Fatui is simply a poor example, but you have heard far to many horror stories of how families function.

"Lyney, Surely you can answer this for me. Afterall, I have no concept of family" Your hand comes to rest on his cheek, your eyes narrowing once more. "If one of your siblings decided that they wanted to side with me, would you kill them after me? Or before me? Would you make a display of them for betraying your family? I never quite know how families like yours function, yet it's the only ones I am able to familiarize myself with."

[diluviium]

@lovaend spoke to the court: ❛ it's a shame i'll have to kill you when we're done with this. ❜ / lyney

"Is it the wait that excites you more or the eventual kill you are searching for?" You ask him with a boredom in your eyes. Speaking so openly of how you may or may not kill someone is a trait that supposedly comes from those that are brave. You think it comes from the inexperienced. Those that are haughty in their belief that they can do it, yet words are just words. They can cut you figuratively, leave you shaking, crying, without comfort. They can also bring a smile to your face, a giggle to leave your mouth, and a gleeful glint in your eye... Yet, the "you" of now is not the "you" that would be left shivering from such words while trying to maintain "your own" haughty act.

No, you are Focalors, not Furina. A woman who can look at the boy in front of you as you nearly stare through him. "Killing is a cowards way out, really. A show that you have to kill what may come back to haunt you... A show that if you don't kill me, I may lurk over your shoulder one day... The unspoken thought that those you kill could stab you in the back if you don't strike first." Not all inherently true, yet not untrue either. It is why, in your eyes, the act of killing is entirely pointless. A claim to a life you do not desire to be ending prematurely, yet even prosecuting such crimes... It doesn't bring the dead back and it only brings some comfort to the living that someone "dangerous" is now contained.

(But why do you even need to kill?)

"Do you think you can actually kill me, Lyney?" You allow your question to hang in the air for a moment, "You are perfectly capable of killing. I do not doubt the blood you've already stained your hands with. I'm not asking about if you are capable." You cant your head to the side, a smile slowly spreading across your lips. "I'm asking if you really think I am capable of dying. Surely you think "Even gods can die!" to such a thing, right?" It's written all over his face, the Fatui have surely thought it would be easier to kill the "archon of justice" rather then trying to peacefully take that gnosis. A thing you don't even have... Convincing you that the "right thing" to do is hand it over peacefully is simply unobtainable in their mind.

"Yet, If I am disposable to you- Disposable enough that once you find the gnosis, of course, what makes you sure that you aren't equally as disposable? Your "father" may not allow you to easily be thrown away, claiming you skilled, claiming that you still have a purpose." Your eyes narrow. "Yet, that is all you are. A weapon. A tool. A means to an end." Just like you are a means to an end, as well. A creation to protect the country of Fontaine while they will inevitably turn their back on you. "Once that end is met..." It's unspoken, but surely he can infer.

"Really, I would thank you for killing me. An end to the suffering. Yet, in my final breath I would simply tell you that I pity you. Blood is hard to swallow and surely you will drown in it."

[noahsresources]

IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW

for muses who need to share some intimate thoughts with one another. can be platonic, romantic, familial ... works with any kind of dynamic really. feel free to change pronouns, descriptor words, whatever you may need!

❝ you know i love and care about you, right? ❞ ❝ ... i guess i'm just scared of losing you. ❞ ❝ i don't like most people, but you're an exception. ❞ ❝ you're not alone. you'll never be alone. not as long as i'm here. ❞ ❝ by your side is where i'm meant to be. ❞ ❝ not one person is more important to me than you. ❞ ❝ i don't know what it is about you, but, you just ... you're the only one who can make me feel like this. ❞ ❝ you're amazing, you know that? ❞ ❝ who has the greatest (friend/brother/sister/sibling/parent/etc) in the world? me, that's who! ❞ ❝ i'm only managing to stand here on my two feet because of you. i made it because of you. ❞ ❝ i don't know how i'm ever going to be able to repay you. ❞ ❝ i know for a fact that you're special. i can feel it. ❞ ❝ you've actually made me feel like a person again, like i'm ... normal. ... thank you. ❞ ❝ i used to think that everyone else was just evil and cynical, guided by their own self-interest. that is, until i met you. ❞ ❝ you truly are too good for this world. ❞ ❝ i'm always blown away by just how talented you are. ❞ ❝ you deserve so much more than what you were given. ❞ ❝ nobody i've ever met has been more gifted than you. ❞ ❝ if you ever need a place to stay, let me know, okay? ❞ ❝ you always feel really comfortable and safe to be around. ❞ ❝ i think i have a new purpose in my life. to be with you. ❞ ❝ you have a kind heart. i know you don't believe me, and you try to hide it behind a facade, but i know for a fact that you do, deep down. ❞ ❝ i think you're probably the only one who understands me. ❞ ❝ you're safe here with me. nobody's going to harm you ever again. ❞ ❝ i don't deserve someone as amazing as you. ❞ ❝ i was kind to you because you looked like you needed a friend. ❞ ❝ i'm never leaving you. you're stuck with me. ❞

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝑭𝑬𝑨𝑹 / 𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑹𝑶𝑹 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  nothing's going to happen to us, right?  ❜ ❛  i'm ... scared.  ❜ ❛  i don't like where this is going.  ❜ ❛  did i ever tell you i'm actually terrified of [the dark / heights / spiders / etc.]?  ❜ ❛  you hear me? we're not going to die today!  ❜ ❛  did you hear that? it sounded like screams.  ❜ ❛  i really, really don't like this.  ❜ ❛  we're completely alone here, nothing's going to happen to us.  ❜ ❛  this place has been abandoned for centuries.  ❜ ❛  whatever happens, keep the lights on.  ❜ ❛  you're not scared, are you?  ❜ ❛  this is like straight out of my worst nightmare.  ❜ ❛  do you believe in ghosts?  ❜ ❛  what are you afraid?  ❜ ❛  what was that?!  ❜ ❛  see, i told you there's nothing to be afraid of.  ❜ ❛  go on, no one will hear your screams.  ❜ ❛  it was a foolish idea to come here alone.  ❜ ❛  no one is going to save you now.  ❜ ❛  don't be afraid, i'm not going to hurt you.  ❜ ❛  you really think you can run from me?  ❜ ❛  it's a shame i'll have to kill you when we're done with this.  ❜ ❛  want to make a deal with the devil?  ❜ ❛  i'm not afraid of you. not anymore.  ❜ ❛  there are figures hiding in the shadows, waiting to strike.  ❜ ❛  this wasn't so bad now, was it?  ❜ ❛  what could possibly go wrong - it's just an old abandoned meaning, it doesn't mean it's haunted, right?  ❜ ❛  face it, we won't make it out of here alive.  ❜ ❛  i'll even give you a choice - it's either you or them. who's going to die tonight?  ❜ ❛  i will haunt you for the rest of your days.  ❜ ❛  don't scream, it will only make this worse.  ❜ ❛  you look so pretty when you're scared of me.  ❜ ❛  i won't kill you ... yet.  ❜ ❛  ghosts and monsters aren't real.  ❜ ❛  i'm not afraid of anything!  ❜ ❛  you! you're sick! you sent me here to die, didn't you?  ❜ ❛  close your eyes. it'll make it easier if you don't see it coming.  ❜ ❛  no matter where you hide, i'll always find you. so you better give up now.  ❜ ❛  i promise i'm gonna be your worst nightmare.  ❜ ❛  it's only over when i say it is.  ❜