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i say that i dont want to fast and count calories because it will trigger my ed but the truth is i dont have the same willpower to do it anymore and i cant stop eating….

im on keto and i binge on things with carbs that i know i shouldnt and its hard because ive been working so hard to keep this up but my body just wants carbs and I don’t know why it got hard all of a sudden if ive been doing fine for the past months

im exercising but i havent lost weight in 3 weeks and im unhappy with myswlf because of the lack of control i have with food and i wish i had the same abilities as i used to to starve myself just like my friend is doing right now where she eats at noon and doesnt eat until the next morning i wish i could do that but i just cant control myself when im hungry… if i was able to skip dinner like that, I would be losing weight rapidly.

i keep thinking that I NEED to go vegan again to be healthy like i used to because im really hating my body right now and I don’t know if this keto thing is going to work out im really struggling

i hate this stupid relationship i have with food i wish i could lose my taste so i could stop eating and be a thin 100lb skeleton