I Always Do This

A kind of vague insight to the depressing cycle of unrequited love, that is my life.

[factly]

[doneandflustered]

I can give you everything and more.

[erupted]

[factly]

[timbllr]

[teenagecrush]

[doneandflustered]

You give me butterflies.

[reinacm]

be warned: you may fall in love.   you may fall in love and it will hurt like lightning has struck your skeleton, and you heart will crumble into sand, and your lungs will collapse in as if they can not longer grasp oxygen because someone special has stolen all the air in the room.    you may fall in love and you will never recover. heartbreaks don’t heal until you fall in love again, and god knows, nothing will be the same.    hold their name on your tongue like honey, taste the syllables and savor them. your thoughts are candy, so sweet, and they cover someone in salty beauty and you have fallen in love.   and it hurts like lightning. but it also illuminates the night sky in a silhouette of shadows that spread across the horizon in a future that you have never seen before. it also wakes you up as if you had never lived before, as if you had never seen the sun.    someone burns you as if they are the sun and you are a scorched venus, and oh darling, you have fallen in love with the pain.   be warned: falling in love will kill you.

warnings || r.m. || 5.16.17 (via reinacm)

[teenagecrush]

[gusty]

[gusty]

[sin-of-omission]

[censwh0re-deactivated20220827]

[vaginalice]

[blakelivey-deactivated20211026]

[whitenes-s]

[imthelesbian-archive-deactivate]

[em-ma-ro-se]

[doneandflustered]

I want to intertwine my fingers with yours. I want to have to let go because our hands are getting too clammy, but then try again 5 minutes later, just because I want to feel your touch. I want you to lean your head on my shoulder and tell me things you’ve never told anyone. I want you to kiss me long and slowly, and actually mean it. I want you to wear my oversized jumpers and t-shirts - I want to get them back and smell you on them. I want you and everything about you, and I know I shouldn't.