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General Hux x Reader ~ Clinging To You
(This was a request, if you follow my account you probably know this already.
I hope it is good enough for you guys!!)
He didn’t think it would go this way. The constant arguing had switched to one-sided instructions. That oaf Ren had torn apart his plan, ruined everything he had built up for himself. But still, he hoped that something would topple the Force-user down. Leaving him to take control, to wipe out the rest of those who opposed him. Now, as he lay, chest shaking with every inhale, he could barely believe that he had once thought he could rule with such a feeble body. His father, the cruel man that he was, knew of his weakness from the beginning, taunted him with it.
How typical for him to die in the same way that his father had taunted him with.
Millicent padded over, her plush paws pushing into his side, mewing weakly. He curled, gloved hands curling around her head in an attempt to console her. He let out a bark of laughter, how reversed these roles were. The one dying is the one consoling. He coughed, body shaking as he cringed into a ball, the pain in his abdomen reminding him of the fit he had sent Kylo into. He should have known that trying to reason with the man would get him hurt. He just never thought it would leave him dying in his own room, cold and unable to get help. His datapad was too far away, his voice too weak to try to command the controls.
It seemed everything was against him.
Millicent nudged him, his lips curling into a sad smile as he run his shaking hands through her orange coat. His cat, one of the things that kept him sane through the long nights, was now the only thing here to keep him stable as his eyes slipped.
“Sir?” A muffled voice came from the other side of the door, and a spark of hope flickered in his chest before it died out as he grit his teeth, hissing as the pain made him writhe.
“General?” His cat, sensing the sudden change, flung over him, pawing at the door, howling loudly in an attempt to call the stranger in. He almost wished she didn’t.
The door swung open, and there was a pause and then he heard the clicking of heels that banged around in his head mockingly. Soon, he was being engulfed in a warm embrace, head resting on a chest that rose and fell in panic. He forced his vision back to him, squinting as he tried to recognize the terrified face above him. He almost screamed in a fit of rage when those heart-melting eyes peered down at him. The ones that had been closing in an attempt to hide their frustrated tears just hours ago. He had yelled, screamed, even thrown something in his rage when she only wanted to help. His one companion that only tried to help had been thrown to the winds by his own hands.
Now, she cradled him in her arms, worrying over him when she should have spat on him and wished him luck.
“You’re going to be okay. I’m going to get help.” She tried to move but he had enough strength to grab her. She looked down at him, eyes filled with tears. He couldn’t hold back the gargle of a sob that choked him if he tried.
“Don’t.” He managed to push out the word, trying not to let the tears that were now welling to run. He was so weak. He was what his father had mocked him with.
Weak. Frail. It was the only thing he would ever be.
“Sir! I have to get-”
“No. Just…” He paused, hacking as his insides burned in warning. “Just send a message to the medical bay.”
The horrified look that passed her face made him cringe. He had hoped he would never see such a distressed look from her again, and yet, here it was, being presented to him as plain as the pain in his chest.
“They won’t check! They won’t make it! You’ll…” Her voice cracked, and the tears started to run down her face as realization kicked in.
“Don’t leave. That’s…. an order.” He choked out the words, curling into her warmth. Millicent curled under one of his arms, tail resting on his arm.
If he died like this… Maybe it wouldn’t be too bad. Being next to the two companions that were the only ones to ever show him compassion was enough to comfort him. His lover and his cat. He wished he had the strength to kiss her on the lips. She sobbed, her body shaking as she pulled him closer, forehead pressing into his disheveled hair. He felt his hair dip with each tear that fell from her eyes. He nudged her slightly and she pulled back, looking at him. As soon as she saw the lone tear that traitorously slipped from his eye she wiped her face, bending down to kiss him.
Her lips pressing against his numbed him for a moment, brought back the times she had calmed him. The times she smiled as he started to fall asleep over his work. The times she loved him even when he seemed unlovable. How he wished he could take back all his harsh words and shower her with affection instead. But he couldn’t change anything now, couldn’t stop her from pulling away from him to sob once more. Her warm breath puffed against his cold, clammy skin, and only then did he notice the extent of this process. His body was slumping deeper into his clothes, body shaking in tremors he hadn’t even noticed, cold sweat making his clothes cling to him.
He felt disgusting.
“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have gotten mad. I should have come straight back and apologized. This wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t been selfish.” She was blubbering out excuses, her head shaking back and forth as she tried to push the blame onto herself. He only shook his head slowly, the action making him feel dizzy.
“No…” He croaked out the word, wincing at the sound of his own voice. “You did… your best.” He smiled weakly, lips shaking at the strength needed to make the gesture.
“No! I didn’t! I could have…” She paused, fingers clawing at his uniform, rucking up the material. “I… I could have loved you better.” She whispered the words, resting her forehead against his as she tried not to focus on his pale skin.
Suddenly, before she could have anticipated. He went slack.
You paused, breath hitching.
No… No. No! Nonononononononononononono-
You let out a strangled cry, pulling up to look at his distant eyes that once held galaxies. Now, they only held the shell of a man that should have been so much more.
“Armitage! Armitage no!” You screamed his name, hoping that somehow he would jolt awake. But he didn’t, glassy eyes no longer looking at anything.
“You shouldn’t…” You let out another sob, tears choking your words. Millicent, howled, sensing the lack of response from her masters body and the reaction made you pull the man closer.
The limp movements made you stuff your face into his chest, body curling around his own as Millicent clawed at you. The pain of her claws digging into you did nothing to deter you from the sudden rocking of your body as you clung to Hux.
This should never had happened.
You should have been here sooner. You should have gotten over yourself and come back to apologize before this happened.
Now, you clung to a man that regretted everything he had ever decided to keep close to him.
Except… for you.
HI! Is it ok if you do a Hux x dead!Reader? Or vice versa? Or maybe both in different fics? I dunno haha, up to you! 😃
I'm so excited! I was already thinking about doing one! And you just inspired me to actually do it!The one I'm doing is a little altered, but I hope it will satisfy!It should be up in a few.
Armitage Hux x Reader ~ See You Soon - Modern AU
(This is an AU where Hux is the leader of a gang. Enjoy.)
The stench of sweat clung to the air, bodies pressing against each other in a way to forget something or live out unimaginable fantasies. Such things were only found here, in the abandoned back alleyways of the lost and forgotten, of those who could do nothing but settle here to find refuge. Whether the refuge was from your own mind or the outside world was always left up to the patron. Drinks, girls, drugs, men and sex. All were factors that played parts in the scene, mingling together flashing lights that could send a drunk man spiraling onto the dance floor in a stupor. Hux wasn’t fond of these places, and neither was Kylo, but these places, no matter how stingy and desperate, were always filled with information.
Want to find someone who’s been gone for years?
They know where they are. Whether that’s dead in an alley or sneaking out of the country depends on who you’re asking for.
“Booth for…” Hux paused, glancing at the uncomfortable Kylo behind him. Kylo seemed to notice his non-verbal question and quickly shook his head, disgusted by even the prospect of it. “..one."
The woman behind the counter paused for a moment, glancing between the two of them and then sent him a smile. Always polite, no matter how lecherous they really are. "Number 24. It’s down the second hallway on the left. Just follow down there, it should be on the right.” She paused and her eyes lit up in that glint that Hux had seen down here too many times. “Do enjoy your time, sir.” She purred the words and then stayed there, waiting for the next bill-filled customer.
Hux gave a curt nod before following her instructions to a tee, dodging clinging bodies that tried to lure him into the crowd of the delirious and solemn. He couldn’t get caught up here, doing such a thing would be dangerous and could set him in a warehouse with a gun pressed to his head. Information spread fast here, and that meant information about him too. No one was safe here, not even those who ruled these areas. Dodging past a leering woman who started to press against Kylo he slipped into room 24. As soon as he was in nicotine assaulted his nose, stinging his eyes and leaving a bitter taste in his mouth. He didn’t mind though, instead enjoying the soothing atmosphere that drowned out the bass of that desperate music.
“Please, come in.” The sultry voice spoke through the fog and he followed, walking up the stairs to find himself in front of a dimly lit booth. An ash tray sat proudly in the middle of the mahogany table, countless buds of cigarettes left in a colored tray. The cushions were a deep red, the material seeming to be almost velvet. He slid in politely, hands supporting himself as he set himself across the disfigured person in front of him. She was definitely a woman though, the voice giving it away.
Hux didn’t care about gender though, he only needed information.
“So, what are you here for?” You didn’t move and Hux squinted slightly, trying to get a better picture of you. You noticed his curiosity, laughter ringing through the area as you waved your hand to dissipate the smoke surrounding the both of you. It worked, just enough for him to see the smirking lips and glinting eyes that watched his every movement. You seemed to be looking him up and down, assessing him like a cheetah would a wounded gazelle.
“Information.” There was a slight pause as he answered and you put the cigarette wound in your fingers up to your lips, taking a long drag before releasing it. You had the courtesy to tilt away and up a bit, making sure not to hit him. Generous and careful despite searching for prey, quite the woman you were. Slowly, you released the smoke.
“Everyone looks for information. It just depends on what kind you’re looking for.” Cryptic but not quite so at the same time. Hux paused, such a response usually only came from those who were ready to set down a deal. He had to tread carefully here.
“Well, I heard from a regular around here that this place was the best for information that fueled wars between dangerous parties.” There was a pause again and you were staring at him again.
“I see…” You glanced a chance at the door and smirked upon seeing Kylo stationed there, back as stiff as a board as he settled himself at the front of the entryway. “You have a very… interesting bodyguard.” You quickly switched the conversation, avoiding the inevitable.
“Yes, I guess you could say that.” Hux paused again, taking a glance at Kylo, smirking when he noticed that desperate woman slowly inching towards him again. It seemed that he hadn’t completely shaken her. “But, I suppose we should get down to business.” You turned to him again, lips pulling down in a frown as you sighed, stubbing out your cigarette.
“Before we get there… Cigarette?” You pushed one out of your box, raising a brow at him in questioning. Hux shrugged, rolling his eyes in reluctant agreement. Might as well relax for now.
You smirked the slightest bit, pushing out two cigarettes. You slid them out, holding one out for Hux. He took it, pressing the cigarette to his lips, waiting patiently as you brought out your lighter. You set your own cig in your parted lips, letting it settle there as you lean forward, holding the lighter out between the two of you. You pause and wait for him, and Hux raises an eyebrow but eventually meets you halfway, the cigarette in his mouth only centimeters away from yours. You smile, the cigarette in your mouth lifting as you stare at him from under your lashes. You quickly flick your eyes back down to the cigarettes and flick the metal on the lighter, producing a flame that makes heat caress the bottom of his jaw in warning. You lift the flame, pressing it between the two cigarettes, disappearing when the cigarettes start to smoke and light up.
“What gang are you wanting to…” You pause, eyes running over his suit and tie. “…corrupt?” Hux almost raised an eyebrow at your choice of words but refrained from doing so, knowing your slight accusation was correct.
“The Resistance. Particularly a few choice individuals.” His words started to lower and you pressed forward to make sure you could still hear him. Your eyebrows twitched and Hux shifted, moving farther from the door. “Poe Dameron,” You straightened up. “Rey and Finn. Their last names are unknown at this moment but I’m sure you know as to who I’m referring.” You lean back, neck laying on the top of the cushion.
“You’re into some really deep shit aren’t you?” Your head slowly lolled back, narrowed eyes zoning in on him. “Those three names are really starting to circulate around here. Poe is actually a regular, settling down for drinks and eager women.” Hux couldn’t help but to think about how he could catch the man here and drag him away. You noticed this quickly though, shooting down his wandering thoughts. “I wouldn’t recommend going after him here though. You and whatever party you could bring would be thrown out so quick you wouldn’t even be able to spit in Poe’s direction.”
Hux nods slowly, having a hard time pushing the idea completely away. It’s always a possibility, no matter what warnings he receives beforehand. You watch him suspiciously, but eventually go back to talking.
“Rey and Finn… Those two have started a type of rebellion around in these parts, bringing out the best and worst in some of our patrons. They’re not usually around here though. Maybe they think they’re too good for these places, or maybe they just aren’t that desperate yet.” Your eyes were holding onto his in a type of silent judging and Hux sneered slightly. “I do hear that they tend to hang around the local repair shops though. The girl is into some major mechanics and Finn just follows her around nervously. If you really want them I suggest you-”
“I don’t need your suggestions.” Hux barely pulls his cigarette out in time to sneer, hissing out the words like they’ve left a bitter taste in his mouth. You raise an eyebrow at his prideful figure that is looking down at you like you’re nothing more than another parasite.
The accusation isn’t far off.
“Well, even if you don’t need them, you might want them for future reference.” In frustration you stub out your barely-used cigarette, eyes narrowing down to glare at him. “I’ve seen these things go down so many times I know what I’m talking about.” Hux doesn’t care about your justification though. He stubs out his cigarette too.
“And I also know what I’m doing. I don’t need a ‘woman of the night’ to give me instructions like a child learning how to walk. I’ve been doing this long enough to know what to do even in the most urgent of situations.” Hux glances to the door, as if pondering whether he should leave or not. You sneer at him, fingers holding onto the table tightly in a way to quell your anger.
To call a woman that here was belittling them and indicating you thought yourself superior.
Nobody here was more important than another. Not in this broke down building.
“I would watch your tongue if I was you. Word might get to those who won’t hesitate to rip your gang apart.” You hiss the words, watching as Hux turns to face you, eyebrows raised as an amused smirk plays on his lips.
“Is that a threat?” Hux challenges, taunting almost.
“Yes. It is.” He pauses at your bold words but he still seems amused, almost in a sort of unsettling way.
“I see.” The words are purred and suddenly the air has changed from hostile to a more suffocating atmosphere. “Then please, go ahead and suggest what I might do to catch those two.” His head slowly rises the slightest bit. You pause, relaxing a bit in your chair as your hands release their tight grip on the table, falling into your lap.
“What is your name?” The question surprises him and his head falls just barely, eyes watching you cautiously.
“Hux.” He drawls the word out slowly, still watching you suspiciously.
“Hux.” You let his name slide of your tongue and his eyes narrow even more. You smirk, looking directly at him. “Well, Hux, I would say to befriend or get a hold of the bosses of repair shops they usually visit. Then, convince the bosses to capture the two of them. Maybe even send in undercover, but armed, men of yours just in case something happens.” You huff out a small laugh.
Silence hangs in the after your words have been spoken. Hux seems to be evaluating them and eventually gives a stiff nod, sliding out of the booth quickly. You raise a brow and he heads to the door, watching as Kylo shoves the woman on him away in disgust. Suddenly, before you can stop yourself, you speak again.
“(Y/n).” Hux pauses in his stride and turns to look at you, his eyebrows raised in question. “If you ever need more information ask for (Y/n).”
There’s another tense pause and he smirks a bit, staring at you intensely. “And why should I do that?” You smirk.
“You’re interested in me and I’m interested in you. Plus I have the information you need. Quite the win-win would you agree?” Hux bypasses the information part as if you hadn’t even said it.
“And who said I was interested in you?” You laugh at his obvious question, your amusement bouncing off the walls and causing him to furrow his brows. Hux knows the people here never laugh so… So… Whole-heartedly. It was unnerving.
“You did.” Your words obviously confuse him as his lips purse and his nose scrunches the slightest bit.
He never fully understood these people. But, when he looks you up and down, seeing the almost mischievous glint in your eyes he knows he doesn’t have to. Besides, it wasn’t like anyone understood him either.
He gives another curt nod and keeps walking to the door, when shoulder-to-shoulder with Kylo he speaks out a few words that have you smirking once again.
“See you soon (Y/n).”
General Hux x Reader ~ Trinkets
(The reader is a resistance spy setting up and getting ready for the Destruction of Starkiller.
That’s all I’ll say. So, enjoy.)
“General Organa, I am honored to be a part of this mission. I hope, that in days time, I will finally be able to come back to you and my friends.” You smile as you say the words, leaning back farther into your chair as you fiddle with the necklace on your neck. You feel a pang of guilt for what you’ve been doing but wash it away.
You will not get attached to the First Order and their corrupt ways.
“We are all very generous of you being the one to take on this strenuous mission. We all thank you (Y/n). And please, just call me Leia, you’ve most definitely earned it.” You can hear the gratitude in her voice and you chuckle, releasing the necklace from your sweaty palm. You shouldn’t be this nervous. You were fine before you had to talk to Leia, why were you just now shaking in your chair and working so hard to keep the waver out of your voice?
“Well, Leia, I hope to see you again in a few days. See you soon.” You try to keep your bubbly voice, try to keep the warmth in your tone but it’s hard when your body feels like it’s freezing.
“See you soon.” And then the comm clicks, beeping to signify the conversation has ended.
For a few moments there’s nothing but the beeping but you finally relax, slumping in your chair as you breathe a sigh of relief. As soon as you do though you feel guilt finally crash upon your shoulder, weighing you down as you move to get a drink. Why? Why were you feeling so guilty talking to your comrade? Your friend? This was just another mission, yes, one that harbored much more risk than many others you had been on, but it was a mission nonetheless. You weren’t supposed to feel like the traitor here, you were supposed to feel like you were doing the right thing. Because… You were. Right? There was no way you weren’t. And yet, you almost felt like you would throw up when Leia started to warm up to you, started to thank you.
You poured the brandy, gulping it down almost immediately. You regretted it though, coughing when it burned its way down your throat.
“Damn…” You set the glass down, slowly stripping off your jacket. Your First Order jacket. You shook your head. It didn’t matter what kind of jacket it was, you were just taking it off.
Come on (Y/n). You can’t start rethinking things now. It’s almost over. Just… Just a few more days…
And even though it was supposed to help you, to help stuff the guilt away… It only worsened your mood…
As you sighed, settling yourself on your desk your door beeped and then opened. Startled, you start to push up but when you see Hux you relax back down, groaning as you throw your head back. “Hux, your men are going to kill me.”
“They’re only doing their jobs, you know this.” And even though his words aren’t the most comforting his hands settle on both of yours and you pull your head back down, smiling at him. He doesn’t smile back with his mouth but his eyes shine.
You hum, leaning forward, bumping your forehead against his. “Yeah, I know. It’s just stressful sometimes. Though I’m sure it’s nothing compared to what you deal with.”
And what you will have to deal with.
You feel the guilt bubble up again at your thought but you push it away, needing to stay the person you’ve portrayed yourself as. But it comes back and you sigh, pulling away from his forehead and instead resting your head on his shoulder. Usually you wouldn’t do this, you wouldn’t be able to, but Hux stays put and allows you this. This rare act of kindness just makes you feel even more melancholy, more guilty. But instead of speaking about it you just stuff your face further into his uniform, just taking him in. Because who knows when the last time will be. Maybe now, maybe right before his whole life’s work falls apart in front of him.
“Hey… Hux?” You slowly pull back, twisting your hands around so you can intertwine his fingers with yours. He allows you.
“Yes?” He’s staring, and you swear he looks worried for a moment and you try to tone down your own worry, try to switch the mood around and become your ‘usual self’.
“Join me in bed.” You smile and slide off the desk, brushing against his body as you go. Hux raises an eyebrow at you and you slide past him, tugging him to your bedroom.
“You know I can’t.” It’s his only answer and his fingers start to slide from your grasp and you panic, thinking about how this could be it. This is how you both could split. The thought has you tightening your grip and whispering a single plea.
“Please…” You barely whisper it, dropping your head to the floor as you wait for him to repeat himself and leave.
Instead of him leaving he steps forward and presses his nose in your hair. “Only tonight.”
You nod. “Only tonight…”
~*~
“General Organa!” You yell it over the destruction. “I will be outside deck three waiting.” You turn the communication off and turn to go but when you turn you aren’t only met with destruction you’re met with eyes. Betrayed hurting eyes.
“H-Hux… I…” You don’t know what to say. What can you? He knows that all of this revolved around a person he trusted now. What could you possibly say against that?
“How could you?” He barely speaks it, and even though there’s so much loud noise around you it’s the only thing you hear.
“I have nothing to lose.” You smile sadly, tears welling in yours eyes.
It was true. Your parents had long ago been murdered by the First Order and you were always a background character, just following duties like a good soldier. And that’s probably all you would have ever been. But when rumors started to go around that they might send someone to spy on the First Order it was your only chance to go out and prove yourself, to show you weren’t just a nobody. Show you were something more than just a soldier who followed instructions and rules.
“What about me?” The question almost broke you, and the tears in your eyes fell, cascading down your face.
“You can’t lose what you never had.” Your voice broke halfway through and you wiped your tears away, shaking in place. You look back at Hux, but his face has fallen back to that emotionless mask you had seen one to many times.
“Hux, I’m so sorry. I’m sorry. I.. I just… Please I-” You move forward but he shifts back and looks down on you. You feel your stomach drop and you freeze.
“Just go.” His words stab and you blink a few times, tears still falling.
“What?” Your voice is wavering.
“I said go.” He turns slightly and when you step forward he flinches back, as if you moving towards him has burned him. “Go! You’re lucky I haven’t killed you already.” His words send you stepping back, eyes widening as you register his words.
“Hux… I…” You pause and swallow roughly as your head drops to the floor. “Thank you…” You take off, brushing past him as you head to deck three.
But as your finally out of view Hux delves his head into his hands, tugging at his hair as he tries to swallow down the screams that try to tear through his throat. Everything is gone. Everything he had worked so hard for. His work, his life, his… His love. And his frustration brings tears to his eyes that he forces away. And, in a last attempt to collect himself he pulls out a small box from the inside of his pocket. And despite his heart and mind telling him not to he opens it, staring at the ring that sits inside. A ring that will never be worn. The thought has him hurtling the box down the hall as he stomps off, leaving it behind to be destroyed with the rest of his life.
It was time to start new. And trinkets of things that were never to be would only hold him down.
Truth or Dare ~ Chapter Five
(Guess who’s back after exams and a cold? ME. I honestly had so many ideas as to how this chapter could have gone but this was the outcome. And wait a minute *squints* is that a kiss or my imagination? ;)
*evil laughter*
@fangirl570 - You said you wanted to be tagged so here you go! :3
Enjoy!)
Pressing harder into the warm sheets you tried to convince yourself there would be no consequences if you stayed there.
Yeah right.
Groaning you rolled up in the sheets and pulled yourself off the bed, the scratchy cloth still wrapped tightly around you. It helped to keep the warmth in but the frigid temperature of the floor hitting your bare feet was enough to send a shock rolling up your spine. Scuttling quickly to grab your datapad off your desk you practically hopped back into your bed when it was in your hand. While turning it on you wiggled around to get everything but your two hands and your head under the blankets. When you finally managed to envelope yourself completely is when the datapad was on and beeping off little notifications that you quickly clicked on to dismiss.
The only thing you were worried about right now was the new schedule you were getting from the General.
Opening the message from him you almost groan but hold it in. For the next few days your schedule is full of training. After going back to work it just switches back and forth. There seems to be no break and you can already feel your body cramp up in protest at the prospect of so much work. You want to just curl up and act like you’re sick just to not go but when you take a second glance at your schedule you notice you only have an hour until training starts. Your thoughts of acting sick go out the window and you get up, quickly maneuvering around your room to ready yourself. You throw on work-out clothes after taking a quick shower in the refresher and all but run out of your room to be on time.
When you reach the training room you’re already panting and you blame your daily job for your slacking off in your physical traits. You straighten up, catching your breath before walking in, praying to the force that your ‘trainer’ is lenient and lets your late-but-not-really appearance slide. But as your eyes connect your stomach drops and your cheeks tinge a light pink.
General Hux.
Kill me now.
“Late on the first day? I do hope your tardiness was just a slight mistake on your part.” As he moves close you take note of the lack of clothes he has on. Well, it’s not really a lack of clothes, but it is compared to what you’re used to seeing him wearing.
Instead of his usual uniform he has on a tanktop and pants that slightly resemble sweats? You’re not sure, but his outfit has your eyes immediatly glued to his face in case he calls you out for your wandering eyes. But goodness do you want to keep looking because seeing him in such casual clothing is not something that ever happens… And he looks really good. If anyone else were to come in and see him… You could already imagine the comments about how you two aren’t just 'training’. Oh no. Praying, you just hope that no one comes in to see the both of you decked out in just workout wear. This ship might be full of trained soldiers but they gossip like a bunch of academy girls who just found out somebody in their group messed around with a taken guy.
“Sorry, sir. I didn’t look at the schedule you sent me until late. I won’t be tardy again.” Your last sentence is probably a lie but you’re not going to tell him that.
“I do hope so.” He’s stopped in front of you now, and you swear you can feel his breath puffing against your face. “I wouldn’t want you to face repercussions because of little mistakes.” His eyes have that smug little tint to them and you nod timidly, not sure what else to do. Seemingly pleased with your answer he turns away, stalking away to the side of the room. When he stops and turns around you make your way over to him, as soon as your beside him he waits and you watch him, waiting for something. He gestures out to the desolate area and you raise an eyebrow. He sighs, annoyed.
“Run.”
Oh.
You do so, with some reluctance. Running isn’t exactly your forte, combat was where your high scores were but it’s not like you can say anything against his orders so you run, you run until your panting, cursing everything in the galaxy that you were sick the day of your tests. The general, after seeing your heaving chest pass him once again calls you over. And as soon as you’re in front of him embarrassment floods you. You’ve barely done anything yet you already feel like dropping on the floor and giving up! The General, taking pity on you it seems, doesn’t comment but instead gestures to the ground. You slowly descend and when you’re sitting on the floor, looking up at him he sighs.
“Do I have to explain everything Lieutenant?” At his comment you bite back the response bubbling in the back of your throat.
You haven’t really explained anything! You pointed to the floor! That could mean at least five different things!
You’re practically biting your tongue when he slowly pulls himself down to the floor, setting himself up in the push-up position. Your heart stops. When he starts to actually do the push-ups you almost run out of the room. You watch, mouth dropping open, and when he glances over, stopping momentarily your heart jumps up your throat and you try to blubber out an excuse but he stops you.
“Why haven’t you started already Lieutenant?” He growls out the words, but the little smirk tugging at the edge of his lips sends a different message.
Somebody save me.
You drop, doing the push-ups as fast as you can, embarrassment fueling you to go faster, but when you glance to your side Hux is staring you down, lips curling in displeasure. Confusion makes your eyebrows crease and right when you’re ready to ask 'why’ he reaches over, one hand keeping him up while the other lands on your lower back, pressing down hard. In surprise your body complies, pressing down.
“Your ass shouldn’t be up in the air Lieutenant.” Slowly his hand pulls back, but you suppress a shiver when his fingers drag, leaving a scorching trail burning across your skin.
“Yes, sir. Sorry, sir.” The words come out quick and you whip your face back down, trying to not show off the obvious shade of red your face has developed. The man either has no idea what he was doing or he knew exactly what he was doing. You wanted to bet your money on the second but you didn’t think the General would ever show any romantic interest in any of his employees.
A silence falls over the both of you and your eyes keep glancing over as time progresses. Of course the work-out is tiring but wow is there incentive to keep going.
“I want you to do ten more and then we will move on.” Slowly he gets up, and when he’s finally standing in front of you, does exhaustion finally smack you in the face. But you keep going despite this, pushing yourself until your muscles burn and you want to roll over and pass out. When you reach ten mark you pull yourself up, trying to hide the shaking of your limbs as you straighten yourself out in front of him.
As soon as you’re to your full height he checks you up and down before sharply turning, walking over to the mat in the middle of the room. You follow him, raising an eyebrow as he sets himself up on one side. As soon as it clicks you jog to the other side of the mat pulling yourself into a offensive position, waiting for his move. You can’t help but to feel a sense of pride as you watch him. This was one of your best scores, and you firmly believed that even if you couldn’t take him down you could impress him the slightest bit.
But as soon as he starts to move that idea is thrown out.
It’s like a predator has caught sight of its prey. He moves with a type of grace that has you stepping back into a more defensive position. No, you weren’t going to be on the offensive during this fight, that much was obvious now.
Slowly he brings himself to you, and with each step your heart becomes easier to hear and your lungs burn from the lack of oxygen. He lunges, and you duck, jumping forward to avoid him, but before you even land on the ground you’re yanked back, a hand wrapped tightly around your ankle. As soon as your body collides with the floor you’re twisting around, grabbing his arm as leverage as you pull yourself towards him, bringing your foot up to his face. He barely dodges the kick, moving his face just enough to miss the full impact but you still catch the side of his face, shoe scraping along his jaw and ear. His other hand grabs your other ankle and throws your leg down, making your body twist away from him.
With his hands on both your ankles you’re quick to let go of him as your body flattens out, chest pressed to the mat, and before he can even try anything you’re rolling, trying to bring him with you if he’s naïve enough to hold on. He lets go quickly, and you take this chance to pull yourself back up, pulling away from him at the same time. As you pull yourself up you try your best to keep your eyes on him and move away accordingly, but right when your eyes are off his figure something knocks into the back of your knees. You stumble, falling to your knees. But you’re quick to recover, swerving around and pulling at his legs. He collides with the floor, elbows taking the brute of the fall.
Before you can pull him close and get him in the crotch he kicks one leg out, smacking you right in the shoulder. You groan but keep a firm grip on him as you try to pull him closer but he keeps his foot on your shoulder, using your body to push himself back. As you try to push his foot off he pulls himself up, one hand reaching out and grabbing at your shirt. He tugs and his foot slips from your shoulder, allowing your body to shoot forward. You fall on his chest, hands on either side of him as you quickly try to pull yourself from him. But he’s faster, rolling off to the side and taking you with him. His spread legs are soon locking you down, hands kept to his sides triumphantly.
You growl, throwing a punch at his neck. His eyes widen in surprise but he manages to smack your hand off-course, the hit missing his throat and instead catching him in the shoulder. He flinches a bit but smirks, watching your hand fall. You take in a deep breath, collecting yourself as both your hands grab at his thighs, pushing up to get him off. At first he just watches, amusement shining in his eyes. But when he feels the slight move of his body being pulled off your own he’s grabbing at your hands, ripping them off himself and caging them above your head with just one hand. His other hand grabs at your throat. He doesn’t apply any pressure, just holds it there as a warning. You back off, panting under him.
“You’re actually adequate in this area.” The words are mumbled and you close your eyes, trying to collect yourself and cool off.
“Thank you, sir.” As soon as the words are past your lips you expect to feel the weight moved from your body but instead the weight shifts, pressing more on the front of your body than the back now. Your eyes fly open in question.
He’s leaning forward, eyes half-lidded as he watches you intently. Your throat goes dry and your heart starts to pound in your ears. His eyes flick down to your lips and you unconciously part them.
“(Y/n)…” It’s so quiet you almost don’t hear it.
“Sir…?” You don’t get a verbal response, instead his lips brush against yours.
His hand that was settled on your throat releases its hold and brushes up, fingers dancing up your jaw, finally stopping to cup the side of your face. You let out the smallest of sighs and close your eyes in anticipation. His lips, still brushing press down the slightest bit and your fingers curl, unable to reach up and pull him close because he has them trapped. But it’s fine, as long as those soft lips actually press against yours in a full kiss you’ll be happy enough to keep them there with no complaint.
And when his lips start to press down in that kiss you have longed for the pressure on your body leaves and your hands aren’t trapped anymore. You shiver, both from the cold and the ghost of the feelings of his lips brushing against your own. Your eyes flutter open and you’re stunned, still trapped on the mat, unable to move as you try to process what exactly just happened. When everything finally registers you pull yourself up and look at Hux. The man is walking away, not even glancing back as he picks up a towel and throws it around his neck. You pull yourself off the floor and almost stumble over to him but his voice stops you halfway.
“Today’s session is over. You’re dismissed.” The words throw you for such a loop that you dare to talk back.
“Sir? What do you mean? We still have at least another-”
“I said dismissed!” He roars the words, whipping around to face you with such a ferocious glare it makes you take a step back. You want to talk back, say something but you just nod, trying to blink back the emotions that are undoubtedly filling your eyes.
“Yes, sir.”
And with that you leave, conflicting emotions brewing inside your mind.
Truth or Dare ~ Chapter Four
(Ay, sorry it took me a while to get this out. I had the idea for a long time but never had the time to write it. I hope you like this chapter, and series. But, enjoy! P.S.: Next chapter. Yes.)
After yesterday it was hard to get out of bed.
Even if you did have the day off you knew you should still get up and do something, but the overwhelming urge to stay in bed and do nothing was barreling its way over what should be done. After the inner turmoil sizzling down to a low buzz you reach to the dresser at your bedside, blindly searching for your datapad. If you’re going to stay in bed all day you’re going to at least entertain yourself while you do so.
Unlocking the thing you’re eyes land to the icon in the corner beeping incessantly as it tells you that two new messages have been sent to you. Sighing you press on the icon, sending it to the database where you collect all your work. Pressing on the first message your eyes lazily trail over the print. The message is telling you that you have at least three days of leave. It’s only an estimated number so the time off given to you may elongate depending on the situation and if all goes well. Closing and deleting that message you yawn lazily, shifting to your side as you open the second message.
General Hux,
Get over here. Now.
Scrambling up you ripped of your clothes, barely even managing to get all your clothes off before you got to your closet area. Swinging the doors open you blindly grabbed a uniform, setting out the task to put it on as quickly and efficiently as you could. After managing to get the clothes on you hastily threw your hair into a regulation bun as you ran into the bathroom. Taking care of daily necessities and making sure you looked presentable enough not to get yelled at you checked your datapad again. You already knew you were late, you just wanted to know how late. As soon as you checked the time of sending you almost stopped from going there entirely.
0200 hours.
You almost threw yourself back in your warm bed. Did he really expect you to be up at that time? And even if he did would that really be a good time to go to his place? It didn't seem very practical and you weren't sure that if you had been awake that you would have been willing to go to him. But, you still felt obligated, and with that fueling you your feet carried you out of your room and down multiple halls, datapad stuffed in the pocket inside your jacket. You weren't running, you couldn't. To do so would ruin any reputation you had. Even though there was few on the base at the moment rumors spread even faster because of it. There would either be two typs of these rumors. One, something had gone horribly wrong. Two... well, that one contained more explicit language and ideas.
Despite your paced walking you made it to his room quickly. Taking the time to straighten yourself out you pressed a button on the side of his door. Knowing from experience that he would be quick to appear you stood at attention, ready for him to appear. But, it took longer than anticipated, and by the time the door did swing open you were starting to slouch over. The General looked like a grouchy mess. A cute grouchy mess. But a grouchy mess nonetheless. His normal slicked back hair was falling out of place and his uniform was crumpled up, some buttons undone. His normally straight figure was slouched, his hands pressed up against both sides of his door as he leaned to the right, managing to balance himself on one leg as he crossed the other in mid-air. His eyes were slit in lack of sleep and his lips were parted just slightly.
You gulped.
"U-uh... Um... sir?" The words were hard to get out, throat clamping up and refusing to speak the words properly. The General, not even noticing your slip-up, raises an eyebrow, looking thoroughly confused.
"What are you doing here Lieutenant?" Though it seems he's trying to put a powerful snarl behind his voice it doesn't work. Instead it comes out husky and almost gravelly. You clenched your hands in an attempt to remind yourself that he's your superior. A mean, rude, beautiful - ...dammit.
"You... You messaged me to come straight here, sir." The General straightens himself out, both legs finally touching the floor as he rises to his full height. You shrink the slightest bit, knowing that something is definitely wrong. The man looks annoyed, confused even, and you have no idea why. Your eyes lift to his own, and when noticing the slight glare there, dart down to his shoes. They still shine, and you lean forward just a bit, curious if you could actually see your own reflection if you got close enough. But, before even making it further than a few inches a hand sets itself in front of your body, waiting there as you come back to your senses. Confused, you look back up at him. He sighs, and closes his eyes for a moment, as if collecting himself.
"Give me your datapad Lieutenant." Oh. That makes sense. You fumble around, having a hard time trying to pull the datapad from the pocket in your jacket. Hearing another loud sigh you pull out the datapad as quickly as you can and set it in his hand to not further embarrass yourself. He brings the device up to a appropriate place in front of him an turns it on. You completely forgot to put in the password! Right when you're about to suggest it he tapped in a password, and much to your horror - and amazement - it let him in.
He didn't linger - thank goodness - and went straight to your e-mails, clicking on the one that had his name on it. His eyes skittered over the message and you watched him. Despite the words confirming your statement and most likely confusing him more his facial expression didn't change. But, after a few seconds, when he should've already been done and handed back your datapad, he still held it there, burning holes into the message. You felt awkward, and almost asked him what was wrong but quickly strayed from that idea. Yeah, no.
"Well..." The word was drawn out. "It seems I did, in fact, send you a message requesting your immediate presence." You nodded lightly and waited for him. Slowly he handed back your datapad and you felt relieved when it was back in your hands. Quickly you stuffed it back in your jacket pocket, but after doing so you waited. Waited for something, anything really. He still hadn't done anything. After a few seconds you decided to take the initiative.
"Would you like me to leave, sir?" He finally looked up at you and shook his head, stepping to the side as he gestured for you to come in. You hesitated.
"Please,-" The word sounded so weird rolling of his tongue. "I need to speak with you. I would like it if you could come in while I discuss this matter with you." You awkwardly shuffled in, brushing past him as you looked around.
The last time you were here you didn't really look around, you were more worried about getting out of the room instead of staying in it. The place wasn't exactly warm, lacking any personal items except things that were made and used by the first order. The whole place could be considered plain if you were a family person, but everything seemed so expensive. You were almost scared to touch something, afraid that it would break and you would lose your credits for at least a year trying to pay it off.
The General, as if used to this behavior, brushed past you and walked over to the kitchen area that was set up in the corner. You were slightly jealous, you knew he probably didn't really cook anything in there, much too busy with his job to worry about such frivilous things. If he did cook, well, you could only hope he was good at it.
"Sit." You looked at him, startled, as he poured himself a drink of water. But, you followed the order, sitting on a couch that had your eyes rolling into the back of your head as soon as you sat. It was so comfy and practically sucked you in. If the General wasn't here you probably would have nodded off to sleep in that very moment.
"Comfortable?" You straightened up and looked at the General. His lips were upturned in a slight smirk of amusement, but his lips fell back down when taking a sip of the water in his cup. Unconciously your eyes darted to his lips. They looked soft and what you wouldn't do to- a chuckle fell from those lips. Your eyes went to his eyes, embarrassed to find he was staring straight at you and definitely knew what you had just been doing. You wished the couch would swallow you whole.
"Lieutenant (L/n)." He sat across from you, setting down his drink as he grabbed the datapad sitting on the table next to him. He turned it on and scrolled through some things as you waited, anxious.
"After yesterdays... misdemeanor... I took it upon myself to look up your test scores." As soon as he said the words your heart drops and you feel a cold sweat run down the back of your neck.
I was sick those days. I can only imagine how horrible they are.
"And I have found out your scores are..." He glances up for a moment and almost grins at the look of sheer terror crossing your face. "appalling."
Please just get the torture over with already. Send me off and leave me in peace.
"Your physical attributes are on par with a janitors and your intelligence just barely passes you for a Lieutenant." The sneer on his lips had you deflating.
"I'm sorry sir, I-"
"No. There's no need for that." You try to swallow down the lump stuck in your throat but it stays. "You will be going through training. Both physical and mental starting tomorrow. Any questions?" The General was raising an eyebrow, as if actually asking but the glint in his eye was daring you to.
"No, sir." His lips pull into a fake smile.
"Good. Your schedule will be sent to you soon. You are dismissed." He waves one of his hands to complement the command.
You pause, for just one moment, and General Hux looks at you, waiting. You nod and walk out respectively. But as soon as you're from his hall you pull your jacket up to muffle the frustrated scream leaving your lips.
Hello there! So I read your post responding to my question and I would still DEFINITELY be in to reading more chapters of Truth or Dare if it wasn't fluffy and happy. I really like when stories get angsty and moody and it's just a rollercoaster of emotions haha! If you don't want to continue it, I totally understand but I did want to say that if you were even slightly considering continuing, it you definitely have an eager reader waiting right here! 😄
(Honestly your support got me so happy I wrote another part because WHY NOT. I think I’ll try to make it a series. But if it sucks I am sorry. Anyway, this chapter is getting me really hyped up to write another chapter right now because of the way it ended.
Truth or Dare Part 3)
Reconditioning work wasn’t fun.
It was like being put in a box and escorting people to their deaths but instead of them dying they just lost whatever spark in their life they had. Of course you had never been thrown into reconditioning - you were thanking every star out there now that you saw what it did to people - but just seeing what it did sent shivers up your spine and you almost felt bad everytime you escorted another person inside. Almost. You were just more relieved it wasn’t you being escorted in.
Even though you were relieved though, you were very lonely. Where you used to work - on the bridge - there was a lot of interaction, even if it was just work related you still got to talk to people. Now though it was just a simple ‘hello’ and ‘please come this way’. Sometimes they didn’t even talk back! Besides, Phasma was too busy to come around so you were left staring off into the distance, left to think. Which eventually led to replaying every interaction you and General Hux ever had with each other. Which also led to you freaking out internally and spacing out while working. Which led to you ignoring everything around you. Which led to General Hux calling your name a few times before catching your attention.
“Lieutenant (L/n)!” You jumped in your seat and snapped your head up to look at your superior. He had that look on his face again. The one where he looks disappointed at everything. And at this moment it seemed that disappointment was mainly from you.
“S-sir!” It seemed like stuttering around him was apparently a thing now.
“I’m pretty sure in the job description I sent you it didn’t include spacing out.” His lips pulled up into a scowl at the words he was having to push off his tongue. You were shrinking, trying to hide behind anything, but the space was open and it would be too awkward and unprofessional to dive under the small desk that had come with the job. Yeah, this place was really open, not a soul came down these halls unless they were sent for - Wait. Why is the General even here? He has no reason to be here.
“Sir?” You were pretty sure you shouldn’t speak without being spoken to but you were just too curious to brush off the fact that General Hux was standing here, datapad in hand and nobody else around him. If anything you would expect at least some sort of stormtrooper by his side, whether they be a guard or somebody sent to be ‘repurposed’ as you’d come to say over the past few hours. The General - it seemed he was being generous - raised an eyebrow at you.
“Yes, Lieutenant?” Suddenly you were at a loss for words. What would you even say? ‘Hey, so what are you doing here General?’ No, he practically owns this place so he needs no reason to be here. ‘Are you here because you wanted to know how I was doing after that weird encounter?’ Yeah, the airlock seemed like a better option. 'Am I doing my job right?’ That one was just plain stupid. Definitely after how he caught you dazing off into space.
“Do you need me?” What. What. Why. Why would you even spew such a question. It could be taken so many ways and maybe hiding under your desk wasn’t such a bad option anymore. But the General seemed taken aback, unable to find a proper response. Then, his cold exterior was back up, his scowl back on his face and his glare fixed on you.
“I hope you aren’t implying that I came here to see you.” Now that. That hurt. For some reason the words slammed a screwdriver through your heart and twisted the tool just because it could. But, you had to stay professional.
“No, sir. I’m very sorry for the inconvenience. I was merely asking if there is anything I could help you with. I don’t think you would come here for no reason, sir.” The words came out precise, almost sounding as if they were programmed into your brain. The academy did things to the brain when it came to respecting your superiors.
The General, after a moments time, accepted your answer and straightened himself out. “Yes, well, I needed to see Jaxar for the details on the troopers that have come through here today. He hasn’t sent me any details yet and is not answering the e-mails I have sent.” Then, he glanced to the back door, his terrifying glare becoming chilling as he talked about the man. “He’d better have a good reason as to why he isn’t. Because if not…” His voice trailed off and a shiver went down your spine. You subtly noted in the back of your mind to never ignore one of the General’s messages in fear for what might happen to your position in the First Order.
“Would you like me to escort you to him, sir?” Goodness, it was like you were a merchant sucking up to a customer now. Honestly though, you just kinda wanted to get this ordeal over with. You had already embarrassed yourself more than once in the little amount of time you had spent with him.
The General turned his eyes back to you, his eyes softening the slightest bit. For a moment you felt relieved, almost happy, but he still kept his glare. “Yes, I think that would be for the best. I do not wish to waste time looking for him.” You almost hesitated. You didn’t actually expect for him to accept. Instead you thought he would just walk into the rooms behind you like he owned the place (technically he kind of did) and find Jaxar by himself. But instead of pondering over this you turned around and went to the doors, opening them to make your way through the maze of metal to find the control room Jaxar operated. Wordlessly the General followed you, his boots making almost no sound compared to the standard heels you had to wear. Finally, after a few minutes of awkward silence you opened the door to Jaxar’s room. Instead of finding him there operating the panels that were blinking with random colors you were met with nothing. Suddenly, the room felt much smaller.
“Jaxar?” Your voice was meek, and you swallowed heavily. You did not like the almost penetrating gaze you could feel glaring into the back of your skull. Oh how you wished you could take back your suggestion of escorting him.
“Jaxar the General is here to see you.” You hoped that Jaxar was behind one of the two doors in the control room. One was a refresher, the other a broom closet. Why there was even a broom closet in here you had no idea but when Jaxar had introduced you to the control room he didn’t allow you in that room. You just hoped that he had some family heirloom in there that he didn’t want others to see.
“Jaxar?” You repeated his name again, voice becoming an octave higher out of fear.
Please Jaxar, just come out.
“Lieutenant (L/n), where is he?” The growl through the words make you crumple in on yourself slightly. You didn’t want to turn around and look at him. You were positive if you did your knees would give out and you would crawl from him just to get away from the glare you could feel.
“I don’t know, sir.” You couldn’t turn to look at him so you just kept your gaze forward, moving your eyes around as if trying in vain to find the man in question.
“Look at your superiors when they talk to you (L/n).” Kriff, he was mad. Building up courage you slowly turned around. His face was pulled into one of the most terrifying glares you’ve ever seen from him. You didn’t know if the glare was merely because of Jaxar’s dissapearance or your refusal to look at him when addressing him. You hoped it was the former, but when he walked forward, eyes trained on you, his form hunched over almost like he was a predator you knew it didn’t matter what he was angry for. All that mattered is he was about to take it out on you.
“S-sir, I-”
“Did I say you could speak?” He hissed out the words and your mouth clamped shut. Slowly he reached your figure and he was glaring down at you over his nose. Somehow the action made you feel smaller, almost insignificant.
“You know (L/n)…” He started lowly. “I’ve been having a very hard time trying to convince myself that you are fit to work on the Finalizer.” Your mouth went dry and you could feel your heart drop to your stomach. “I decided a while ago you weren’t.” You felt like throwing up, but doing so would ensure you would never make it back into the First Order. “Do you want to know how long ago I decided that?” You stayed silent, didn’t move a muscle. You didn’t want to know, and you also knew he wasn’t really asking you. “I decided that two days after you had made it on board. And yet, you have been here for longer than two months.” Your eyes widened unconciously. Why were you even still here then?
His hand, still covered in those leather gloves, cupped your chin and tilted your head up even farther than it already was. His eyes, those peircing blue eyes, weren’t really glaring anymore, but instead they had a glint. A glint that sent shivers down you spine. You couldn’t tell if your shivers were from fear anymore and you weren’t sure if you wanted to know. Slowly his thumb brushed up and settled on your lower lip, just brushing against the skin there. Suddenly everything felt much more intense, and then beeping of the controls fell on deaf ears. All that you could hear in this moment was your own breath mixing with his. It was almost intimate, but it was most definitely scary. Scary because you didn’t know what was going to happen next, you weren’t even sure if you wanted to know what would come next. He had just threatened your job, but then at the same time kept you here. Now though, his thumb was brushing against your bottom lip as his own parted. He look like he wanted something, someone. You weren’t sure if you wanted to be that someone. But at the same time the coiling in your belly and the heat in your cheeks was telling you to go for it, take the jump and allow whatever was going to happen to happen.
“I must tell you something (L/n)…” Instead of his eyes being trained on yours his gaze was falling to the thumb brushing your lips. He applied pressure and your lips parted from his action. “I have become quite taken-”
His words were interrupted with a loud snore. Both your heads snapped to the sound. And when you started to look back to the General he was already making his way to the broom closet. He seemed furious, but he almost always seemed like that so you weren’t surprised when he whipped the door open, the handle slamming into the metal wall. The sound was so loud the sleeping Jaxar jumped and dropped the bottle in his hand. Walking closer you looked at the item.
Whiskey.
Very expensive and very illegal whiskey.
Now you knew why he wanted you to stay away from that room. He wouldn’t want anyone reporting contraband to a higher-up and lose his job. It made sense that he would put it here too. Rooms were inspected for those things but places like these weren’t. It would’ve been smart if he hadn’t drank on duty.
“Ah, Jaxar. Finally coming back to us I see.” You glanced at the General. He had such a mocking and sardonic smirk on his face you almost shrinked away for Jaxar.
Jaxar, being still woozy, and most likely feeling the full after effects of his mistake, could only answer with, “Uh… What'cha doing here General?” The words were so unprofessional you cringed and prayed he would only be knocked down to work in a lesser position even though you knew that the contraband itself would be sending him packing.
“Well, you see…” The General pulled his datapad from a pocket in his greatcoat. You hadn’t even noticed he put it away. He must have done so when you were escorting him. “I hadn’t got any information on the people sent here, and after sending a few messages I gladly took the time out of my day to come here and find out the reason why. I thought maybe you had died.” He emphasized the word with such a mocking tone you knew the General thought it would’ve been better for the man if he actually was dead.
Jaxar, sleepily nodded, not even processing the full context of the General’s words. “Sorry 'bout that General. I got off track.” He casually gestured to the illegal bottle of whiskey that lay on the floor.
The General, done with Jaxar’s nonsense it seemed, turned away from the man slightly, and looked at you. Your heart stopped, you didn’t know what he would do. He changed exteriors so quickly. “I want you to take the contraband from this room and put it on your desk. You will wait for stormtroopers to take the contraband and Jaxar. When the man comes to I will talk to him. After that ordeal I will see what needs to be done here, so you will be off work for a few days.” His eyes narrow the slightest bit. “If you’re lucky you might get back to work as a proper Lieutenant sooner because of Jaxar’s mistakes.” The words stung but at the same time you were happy. You wanted to get back to the bridge as soon as possible. Maybe you could even speak to Mitaka and Phasma when you got back.
The General, even though it seemed he was done speaking, stood there for a few moments, just watching you before turning away and leaving. As soon as the door closed behind him you could feel a weight lift off yours shoulders and you stumbled into the wall, knees wobbling. Taking in deep breaths your hand slowly came up to your chest, clutching at the clothing there.
Man did he really give mixed messages.
Omg I really enjoyed reading Truth or Dare parts 1 and 2!!! They were so well written and just so fun to read. Is there any way you'd consider writing another chapter or turning it into a series?
Okay, I am SO sorry this took so long for me to answer. I was thrown for such a loop when I read this and I still haven’t been able to decide whether or not I want to write a part three to the story.
I love the support I get for it and I love that you guys love it. But at the same time I don’t want to put out something that would disappoint any of you.
The reason I say that I don’t want to disappoint you is when I write something that’s more than one part after a part two (or even after part one sometimes) the story just starts to get thrown down a gutter or gets so deep and intertwined with different emotions it isn’t even the same story anymore.
If I did write a third part it would take a while and even then I would be very reluctant to put it up because I would feel like it’s good in the moment and then as soon as I throw it out to the world I’ll notice how atrocious the writing is and suck into myself.
If it turns out to be good I’d feel like I would need to put out another part.
(I’m so sorry I’m ranting a little now. So sorry.)
And on the series point.
If I did make it a series I would have you know it would not be all fluffy and happiness like the beginning was. Because I can’t make a series on just fluff and happiness. Others may be able to but it’s almost impossible for me. I tend to write on a deeper scope and if I just wrote fluff I would probably go insane, and my story would turn out to be a complete disaster.
So, if you do want a series of ‘Truth or Dare’ be warned it won’t be super happy the whole time. It might mostly be it but I’ll throw in loops and jagged roads.
If you still do want a series after this then please, ask me again because I won’t know if you are still asking after this rant.
And, even though I’ve mostly pointed out the bad points on this rant (still so sorry) I would absolutely LOVE to write more. It would just take a while and you’ll have to be patient with me because I am a very indecisive person.
(P.S.: I also literally would not know where I would go with it so I would have to wing it 24/7 unless I make an outline for it if you really want me to make a series for it.)
General Hux x Reader ~ The Hologram
(I cried a little when I made this. So fair warning, it may be sad.)
It had been a week. A week Hux waited for the gaping hole to heal. But each time it somebody started to force him to close it he ripped it back open. He would pull out his brandy and sit in his chair, allowing this to be the one time he would let his emotions spiral him down a whirlpool of regret. He didn't regret what he did, he regretted what he didn't do.
She was dead.
Yes, his stupid mistakes had caused his fiancé to topple and be labeled another casualty of war. He could've done something about it. He should have. Yet here he was, gulping down expensive brandy without any other thought than the ones that he hoped to wash away with the promising drink in his hand.
It was a mistake, a big one. He had relied too much on Kylo Ren at the moment, too caught up in the fact that he was trying to save Starkiller. He should've sent troopers and not trusted the Force User when he said he would get his fiancé. He was desperate and frantic, that was the only reason he even trusted that thing to bring his fiancé back unharmed. He should have known that the Force using girl would have clouded Ren's view. But no, he panicked and now he paid the price, stroking at the ring on his finger that was now nothing more than an object that reminded him of the throat clenching sorrow that had him drowning everything away.
"Hux, please, come out. You're being unreasonable. It was just a small mistake. You can fix it. I know you can because that's the kind of person you are. That's the person I'm marrying. I'm not wrong am I?"
He could hear her careless and free laugh even when she wasn't here anymore.
A knock sounded at his door and Hux didn't answer, instead opting to ignore the sound. He didn't want to deal with anybody. Well, anything really.
"General?" He didn't answer.
The soldier tried again, but was once again met with silence.
"Fn-1476, go back to your station. I'll take care of this." The voice made Hux take a bigger swig of his drink and left an almost sickening burning sensation ripping down his throat.
His door opened and Hux didn't even look. He already knew who it was.
The man who left his fiancé for a fight.
He didn't kill her though. That was his own fault.
"I would say to stop wallowing but I want to watch you break under yourself for just a day."
Ren.
"And what business do you have here Ren? Shouldn't you be running after that Scavenger Girl that beat you in that fight?" Hux's eyes lazily traveled over to the man whose clothes draped him in darkness. "Does that wound hurt?"
Usually Hux wouldn't bring up the wound the girl gave him but he didn't care.
At least if the man killed him he might even have the slightest chance to see his fiancé again. Though it was highly doubtful. He had done too many horrible things and she was light and happiness even after the death of millions had tainted his hands.
"I would watch yourself General. We both know you would never reach your fiancé even after death with what you have done."
The truth in the words stung. The General drowned the sting out with pained laughter and another swig of his drink. He was almost out of it again. He might as well just grab the whole bottle.
Deciding to take his mind off the alcohol he allowed Kylo's dark presence to swim around him and fuel his curiosity.
"As I asked before, what are you doing here?" The urge to take another drink swelled up but he pushed it down with a rough swallow.
"Well, I wanted to watch you wallow in your own misery. That's the only real reason I'm here." The Knight looked around, almost as if he was bored. He probably was.
"Well, you got what you wanted. Now leave." Hux's voice had taken that clipped tone again. The Knight was annoying him and after what had happened- What he allowed to happen, he couldn't stand being in the same room with him. It made him nauseous.
"But, there is another reason as to why I'm here." Ren took a step closer, looking down at Hux as if he was nothing more than a bug. But that's because that's all Hux really was in this moment. A bug.
"Well, go on. I'm sure neither of us wants to be in the presence of the other longer than we have to be." Hux wasn't wrong with that statement and Ren knew it.
With that Ren threw a little chip into Hux's lap and left the room. The heavy weight of the air was still there but it wasn't as thick as before. Hux stared at the chip, a sense of dread filling the bottom of his stomach and pushing the alcohol in his stomach up and into his throat. He felt sick. Something about this chip wasn't right and made him want to let the tears that had refused to come out over the past few days fall.
Slowly, very slowly, Hux got up and inserted the chip into a datapad he had left just a few hours ago. It took a few moments, and as Hux waited, rolling on the balls of his heels, he almost took out the chip. The bile rising up in the back of his throat was overwhelming.
But when the image slowly came to and the audio turned from a static to the sounds of his lifes work being destroyed he almost broke down right there. Almost allowed his knees to give out and slam him to the floor.
She was right here. Eyes staring at him with so much life he almost it was another hallucination. Another hopeless dream.
"Hux..." He had never felt so happy and sick at the same time. She was here. But, she wasn't.
She smiled, and the sight alone had his hands shaking and his knees wobbling to the point he actually grabbed onto the desk for support. His chest heaving up and down and as he tried to stop himself he retched, eyes stinging and nose crumpling at the smell that invaded his nose. He almost couldn't believe he had actually thrown up at just the sight of her. Was he really that weak now? Did the sight of his dead Fiance reduce him to nothing more than a mess?
Yes. Yes she did.
"I want you to know that before we even start.. this,-" She emphasized the word with a wave of her hand. "that I love you."
Those three words alone caused him to dry heave. It seemed that even his stomach refused him of release just like his eyes did.
They rarely ever spoke those words. Well, he rarely did. He could never set it down in stone, never allow such a frivilous emotion to hinder his position. To allow himself to love would be allowing the enemy to hang something over his head.
Only now did he really realise that saying the words wouldn't have set it down in stone. But that was because they were already set in stone. He already loved her. He was just allowing his mind and devotion to the First Order cloud his vision and refuse him the right of making himself happy. His fiancé happy.
"This isn't your fault."
Yes, it is.
"I can't handle being the one that brings you to your knees. Well, other than when you got on your knee to ask for my hand in marriage but that's not what I mean." She made an amused hum in the back of her throat at her own words. "I don't want to be your downfall. I want to be the memory that holds you up and reminds you of why you're there, reminds you that what you're doing is right and this is why." She takes a deep, shaky, breath. "I guess I've been trying to avoid it, but I'm sure you already know what is going on. Everything is being destroyed, and... well, I'm caught in the middle of it. I suspect I won't last long." That smile is painting her features again. She's so calm.
"So, I wanted to get everything off my chest. Everything I could. Besides, there's really nothing else I can do in this situation." Her eyes got that sad little shine, and even through the hologram he could tell she was trying not to cry. "I want to say it again. I love you." His knees buckled for a moment but he managed to regain his strength and keep himself upright.
"You're stubborn, you're horrifying, you're gentle, you're mean, you're generous, you're cruel, you're intelligent, you're.. so dumb in some situations, and you're... you." She said it all with a look of pure love and he could feel the tears building up in the back of his throat. "I love you so much." Her voice cracked, and tears were building up in her eyes.
"I love you so much, and as brave as I look, I don't want to die. I want to be beside you, clinging onto your body all night long and thanking whatever forces out there that I'm lucky enough to have even met you." She swallowed, but the tears started to flow out.
"I don't want this hologram to be the last time you remember seeing me. I don't want the words here to be the last ones that you hear. I want to be able to touch you, to feel you right here with me without death crawling up my back. But I can't. All I can do is hope this gets to you. Hope that these words are enough for the both of us even though I know they won't be. They can't be." She paused for a moment, hands wiping at the reckless tears that paved roads down the sides of her face. And she took in another breath, calming herself enough to make sure her next words didn't come out garbled and choked.
"I know it's selfish of me... But promise me you won't move on from me. I know it's selfish and I shouldn't even ask you this. But please. If not for our marriage allow me to believe in these last moments that you'll stay loyal to me forever even when I'm not there." The sad smile that followed these words caused him to choke on the swelling tears at the back of his throat that refused to collect in his eyes.
"I promise (Y/n)... I promise..." He repeated the words over and over as his voice cracked and he crumpled up. The floor becoming his only comfort. Even his badge and position couldn't help him now.
She smiled again, and a humorless laugh left her lips. She looked so hopeless. The sight made him curl up on himself, arms wrapping around his chest, trying to calm the pain that throbbed there. She was staring up now, a distant look covering her features. And then, she looked back at him again, eyes finding him even though he could barely even see her. She brought her hand up to her lips, and he noticed the ring that he had given to her that day. The ring she accepted. She pressed a light kiss there, eyes closing before opening once again, staring him down. "Goodbye Hux. I love you."
The hologram fizzled and dissapated. Hux watched desperately. He wanted her to pop back up, smile at him and apologize for the horrible joke. He wouldn't even care if she came back up and demanded a divorce. He just wanted her alive wanted to know she was still breathing.
But she didn't pop back up, and she most definitely wasn't alive.
Hux then broke.
The tears that had choked him earlier were now slipping down his cheeks in shaking sobs. His hands were digging painfully into his sides. But it didn't hurt as much as the pain in his chest. It would never hurt that bad. His knees were pulling up into his chest and he didn't even try to stop himself when he screamed. Didn't stop when his throat was raw and the sounds didn't even sound human anymore. He sounded like he was dying. Maybe he was.
He eventually fell asleep.
His dreams consisted of rain and two graves. One small, the other a regular size. Woman and infant. Mother and child. And he stood over the both of them, his umbrella dropped at his side.
Ok, ok, you won a follower! 👏👏👏👏 Please, can you write a sequence for Truth or Dare? I loved so much!
(Sorry it took so long but here it is. I usually don’t do second parts but I kinda saw that I could go somewhere with it so I decided ‘why not?’ and here it is. It’s mostly just funny more than anything but whatever.
Part 2 for Truth or dare.)
Waking up wasn’t pleasant.
You didn’t have to go to work - thank goodness too because you weren’t even sure if you would be able to function properly - but that wasn’t the problem. The problem was that when waking up the bed was too nice. The kind of nice a lieutenant doesn’t have. Your first instinct was to panic. Which led to you wound tightly in silk bedsheets and wiggling desperately to get out of them. After a few minutes of fruitless struggle you gave up, slumping into the blanket burrito bundle of death.
As a headache came on full force you groaned, rolling around as if the action would cause the pounding to in your head to cease. The only thing the rolling was useful for was forcing you off the bed and onto the cold metal floor. As you groaned a ball of orange was barely peaking through the slightly ajar door on the other side of the room. Before you could even take a good look the ball was running towards you. Big blue eyes staring into your own, a pink nose and twitching whiskers.
A cat?
The cat, purring, rubbed its face into your own causing you to pull back. As much as you loved cats having a ball of fur suffocate you while being trapped in blankets wasn’t a fun experience. The cat didn’t seem to notice your struggle and instead let out a ‘mew’ and started rubbing against you even more before becoming bored. It jumped up, paws pressing down into the side of your neck and ear. You struggled slightly but relaxed when the cat laid down, paws still pushing into the cheek of your face, trying to gain your attention.
“Millicent.” The cat immediatly stopped in its movements and jumped off you, walking to the door that was opening and letting in way too much light. The headache came back fullforce and you groaned, attempting to roll just enough to get the light out of your eyes.
“Lieutenant (Y/n).” You paused and rolled back over, eyes first landing on the tabby that was rubbing against pristine boots. And when you said pristine you meant pristine. You might even be able to see your reflection in them if you checked. Then your eyes traveled to the pants. Not a crease though the cat was changing that. Your eyes landed on the jacket and rimrod straight back and as your eyes landed on those cold blue eyes and firey red hair you cringed into your bundle of blankets. You might’ve been drinking but you didn’t think you drank that much.
“What do you think you’re doing?” That cold tone in his voice had you retreaing even further in the blanket, trying to conserve any warmth you could get at the moment.
“Well you see sir… I.. Uh…” You had no idea what you were actually doing. This wasn’t your bedroom. A cat was here. The General was staring down at you and at the same time had a affectionate cat begging for his attention. What was going on? “I have no idea, sir.” You decided to be honest. He might cut you some slack, though it was highly doubtful.
It took him a second, but he sighed and pressed two fingers to both of his temples, rubbing in circles as if getting rid a headache. That was your job but whatever.
“You have no idea as to why your here?” You shook your head as best you could without increasing the pounding in your head. He took in a deep breath, closing his eyes while doing so before letting it out as slow as he let it in. When he opened his eyes again you cringed, holding back a pained groan from leaving your lips at the disappointment in his eyes.
“Well, let me refresh your memory Lieutenant.” You weren’t sure you wanted to remember when he hissed out your title like he was talking about a resistance member. “Last night you went drinking with Captain Phasma, correct?” You nodded. Yeah, you remembered that. But after it kinda got fuzzy… Kriff, did you do something while drunk? That had to be it. There was no other explaination as to why this whole situation was unraveling the way it was. “Well, you two decided it was a good idea to start a game between the two of you.” Kriff. “I believe it was called truth or dare.” Kriff.
If the panic wasn’t there now it came smacking you in the face now. General Hux noticed your pale face but made no move to reassure you. Instead he just smacked the rest on you with no remorse. Just like him… “You both decided it was a good idea to cuddle with me. So you did.”
Goodbye First Order. Goodbye Phasma. Goodbye annoying stormtroopers. Goodbye funny technicians. Goodbye Mitaka the sweet bastard. You wondered if you could give him a parting card. Goodbye planets you have and haven’t seen. Goodbye annoying and terrifying baby-man called Kylo Ren. Goodbye Life.
“So, in turn for your inappropriate actions you will be punished accordingly.” You really wished he would just get to the point and throw you out of the airlock already. “Your punishment will be to work with the reconditioning department. You will not be going into recreational, just working. I wouldn’t give you that much of a luxury, and I don’t want this ships reputation ruined because of your idiotic actions.”
Wow. Thanks for the boost of confidence there General.
“Yes, sir.” You catch yourself just enough to not huff at the end of your words, but he still glares, as if knowing what would have happened if you hadn’t stopped yourself.
“Your new schedule will be sent to you later today. I expect to see you out of my chambers in five minutes and no more.” With that he turns to leave but your mind reels and halts to a stop. Wait, wait, wait. These were his bed chambers? What happened? Why would he even carry you here? Why didn’t he get Phasma to just take you back? Wouldn’t that be less of a hassle for the both of you? While all these thoughts ran through your head you decided it was best to get out like the General had commanded you to. But when you attempted to pick yourself off the ground the blanket reminded you of where you were.
I’m stuck.
After struggling a lot more than before you panicked. Kriff. What were you supposed to do if you couldn’t get out of the blankets? At first this trap wasn’t too bad but now it’s deadly.
Sucking up your pride - what little was left anyway - you called out for the General. In a matter of seconds he was at the doorway, a scowl present on his face. It almost made you want to take back calling out his name. Almost. You would rather live than die because you were stuck in some kriffin blankets.
“What is it Lieutenant?” His lips were hissing out the words and you shrank a bit before gathering your courage.
“I’m stuck, sir.” He paused, the glare melting away on his face to a look of pure confusion and slight annoyance. A few moments of silence passed when before the information sinked fully into his brain.
“Lieutenant, I hope you know that if you’re joking your punishment will become even more severe.” His lips were slowly molding into that scowl again. But you couldn’t let that wash away your attempts to let him know that this was an actual problem.
“Sir, I am not joking. The blankets are wound too tightly around me to move or wiggle free.” You say this with as much confidence as you can but it honestly sounds so silly that you almost don’t believe it.
With a sigh, and relaxing face he walks over to you, kneeling down to help you. His leather-clad gloved fingers are working with the sheets and pulling them just enough to start getting them loose. But for some reason you don’t move right away. His eyes are staring intently at the sheets, lips pursed in concentration and yet he looks so relaxed at the same time. After a few moments he stills and pulls back. You think nothing of it, just watch his face.
“Lieutenant (Y/n)?” You snap back to reality and watch as the General raises one of his eyebrows. It looks like he’s waiting for an explanation but you get up hastily instead of complying to his wordless command. You’re not sure either of you would want to hear the truth to such a question.
“Sorry General, sir. I got lost in thought.” He looks like he wants to say something, wants to speak up and ask about it but decides against it. You almost sigh in relief. You don’t think you could handle telling him the truth about you staring at his face just thinking about him. It would be… inappropriate.
“Well then Lieutenant, I suggest you get out of here. Your five minute time limit is almost up.” You nod, and salute to him as best you can with your headache acting up again.
You start to leave, but before you can leave fully your name and title stops you. You turn, giving the General a questioning look. His face is more relaxed and eyes softer than when he had been reprimanding you. But as he walks closer to you his relaxed face does nothing but have you tense up and stand at attention. He leans forward, breath brushing against your collarbone as one of his hands glides across your uniformed shoulder. You barely manage to surpress a shiver.
He pulls back just slightly and reveals a strand of orange hair to you. Too short to be the General’s. Most definitely his cats. But he’s still too close, pulled back just enough so you can see his face but still leaning forward as his eyes are covered behind his eyelashes. As much as you hate to admit it the General is attractive.
“I would recommend having your uniform cleaned as soon as possible. Maybe even buy something for the next time you’re here.” His breath is brushing against your neck and collarbone, and he seems completely unphased. But your eyes flicker up to his ears out of pure curiosity and you see the slight tinge of pink there. It doesn’t help you.
“Y-yes, sir.” You almost scream at yourself for the stutter but instead opt to run away out of his room and corridor as fast as you can. Only when you’re far enough away to be panting do you fully register his words.
Next time?!
General Hux x Reader ~ Truth or Dare
(Captain Phasma and you have gone drinking. Being irresponsible you both get drunk which leads to a game of Truth or Dare. This leads to an embarrassing encounter with a certain General. The Commander mocks him the whole time for the situation while you stay obliviously, and happily, drunk.)
Phasma set her drink down, pushing her hair out of her face as she gave you a grin. Maybe you both had too much to drink, but the grave was already made and now it was waiting for a body.
"Truth or Dare?" Her voice slurred out the words, a lopsided grin appeared on her face. Her elbow was settled on the table, slipping from time to time before she could stop herself. You giggled, the alcohol fuzzing your mind and would lead to your excuse in the future as to why you ever made such a sound.
"Dare." You practically purred out the word, challenge and determination slipping from your tongue. Phasma grinned, a glint lighting up in those glossy eyes.
"I dare you to sit yourself on the General's lap and then try to cuddle with him." Phasma's lopsided grin only seemed to grow as she slurred out the words, taking a swig of her drink as she finished. As soon as the words slipped from her mouth though you almost choked. Even in your haze something in your gut screamed in protest. But that happy feeling filled your senses once again and you shrugged, smiling.
"I've done worse for dares. I guess I'll do it." With those words you downed your drink - you honestly couldn't even remember what the drink actually was anymore - and shot Phasma an exaggerated wink.
Getting out of your chair was a struggle, and walking was like waging war. Your steps were wobbly and uncoordinated. You stopped for a moment, to both try to find the General and balance yourself. Thankfully you managed to find the General, but your moment of pause to stabilize yourself did nothing as you tried to make your way to Hux as efficiently as possible. He definitely didn't make it any easier, seating himself all the way in the corner with Commander Ren sitting across from him. The corner was covered in a dark cloud, but your lips only produced a giggle at the sight. The General was scowling and the poor Commander was holding onto his arms as if it would be his saving grace.
"So adorable..." The comment was made under your breath, and you couldn't remember whether it was because of the scowl on the General's face or the childish pout that kept Commander Ren's arms crossed.
Unfortunately your uncoordinated and determined stature had caused attention and whispers started to float around. It almost made you dizzy, but you managed to push the feeling away. But the whispers had not only caught your attention it had caught the attention of the man you were seeking out. Your eyes connected and before he could stop you one of your legs was swinging over his chair. Your loss of a leg though made you sway and you landed in Hux's lap hard to try to stop yourself from falling over completely. You swore for a moment you saw the man wince.
"Lieutenant (L/n)-" His voice was so full of a rage that, if you weren't drunk, you would have run to the airlocks for release. But, in your drunken stupor your arms wrapped around his mid-section, causing his sentence to stop as you cuddled yourself into his chest. A silence fell over the bar, everyone waiting stiffly, some even mentally praying for your safety. But all you could pay attention to was the erratic beating of a heart that was in the chest you had your head rested on.
The Commander, Kylo, snorted. "What? Are you not going to throw her off?" The mocking tone in his voice caused the General to grab your arms and pry them off of him. It took a bit of effort on his side much to his surprise.
Being pulled off him didn't sit well with you and weak protests were mumbled from your mouth but when you went to scowl at your General something made you stop. Despite his eyes glaring down at you a flush was creeping up his neck and the tips of his ears were stained red. The sight made you giggle, and your hands blindly tried to reach out for his ears until the General tightened his grip, ensuring your hands wouldn't make it any farther.
"Cute..." That was the only thing you muttered in your daze and you sent him a small happy smile with the words. The flush on his neck started to reach his cheeks now.
Before he could even get a word out - and he was trying very hard to - you leaned your head on right arm, closing your eyes. He was just so warm...
"Lieutenant, get off of me right now." Hux practically growled out these words, and only after a few moments of silence he finally took a closer look at your face. Despite what was happening your face was relaxed, the regular lines of stress indented in your forehead had disappeared and your chest was rising and falling at a steady pace. Then something clicked in his mind.
You were asleep.
He had to bite his tongue to silence his groan.
"Want me to carry her?" Kylo spoke up from across the table, the teasing voice laced with mockery made the General scowl.
Without responding the General slowly stood up, grabbing hold of you and swung you over his shoulder. Oddly enough you only shifted.
Despite lying to himself that he didn't enjoy having you so close - plus your ass was right there - he would make sure you would regret this in the morning.
And regret it you did.