oh no the dreaded whim

violet, 17, she/her. aspiring to many things

[dreadedwhim]

about me (2026 updates in bold!)

my big 4: she/her, bisexual, lactose intolerant, wasian

currently in the trenches w/college apps and hoping to be a musical theater major! a theater major at Big University !!

i have an ao3 account but don't really write there anymore... (i want to start again tbh!) it's underestimatedrubberduck if you care

obsessed with dead poets society/neil perry and The Implications his character arc has for me, a queer teen with a theater dream

obsessed with the 2016 revival of falsettos

reallllllly into the virgin suicides rn - movie and book

maisie peters is my favorite artist

also 2000s club music

taylor swift was #1 on my spotify wrapped which was unfortunate because i did not like ttpd or tloasg OR billionaires in general lmao (speak now + rep are my favorites)

IF I SAY "fuck you" or "what the fuck" or even "fuck off" I MEAN IT IN A SILLY WAY. I DO NOT HATE YOU AND I'M NOT ACTUALLY ANGRY. just prone to cursing.

working through some depression! the horrors are endless but we stay silly still true also anxiety and adhd woohoo. i try not to get overly/scarily negative on here

i write sketch and love improv now !!

talk to me if you want to get collegepilled it's not perfect over here but it's so much better than high school oh my god lmao

i'm super active on letterboxd rn - follow meeee

[dreadedwhim]

i think i'm legitimately in love with the girl who was the other fight captain for the show. (btw the scottish play ended yesterday and it went super well!!!)

but yeah like idk she's just amazing and smart and funny and kind and i think she had? has? a crush on me tbh.

and i have a boyfriend. so

anyways my medical leave from school started today who cheered

hopefully this will help me feel better!

[dreadedwhim]

WOAHHHHHHHH ??????? WHAT???????

i'm still with the boyfriend lmfao. that girl was very sweet but it was ultimately a case of severe mental illness and a lot of proximity i promise i'm not repressing anything !

i dearly love my guy and would choose him over and over 😎

[dreadedwhim]

nothing can take me out faster than a stomach ache on top of the everpresent dread

chronic stomach illness girls rise up. i am so so sick of feeling like this

[dreadedwhim]

hate that this hasn't changed it's literally occurring rn #flareup

[dreadedwhim]

just read my first stephen king and...

unfortunately it was good. also pretty unintentionally funny lmao. shoutout to The Sun Dog

[dreadedwhim]

sun dog i could fix you. you just need to decompress in a stable foster setting !

[dreadedwhim]

this NEVER could’ve worked today because kevin delevan would’ve just GOOGLED the sun dog back into into his NINTENDO SWITCH

[dreadedwhim]

i like to think the sun dog keeps coming back in new tech and eventually ends up on that smart fridge that that one arianator managed to tweet from

[dreadedwhim]

in the 2000s the sun dog ends up on an ipod touch and so it only plays who let the dogs out and every time you hit the next song button the dog gets closer to getting out

[dreadedwhim]

just read my first stephen king and...

unfortunately it was good. also pretty unintentionally funny lmao. shoutout to The Sun Dog

[dreadedwhim]

sun dog i could fix you. you just need to decompress in a stable foster setting !

[dreadedwhim]

this NEVER could’ve worked today because kevin delevan would’ve just GOOGLED the sun dog back into into his NINTENDO SWITCH

[dreadedwhim]

i like to think the sun dog keeps coming back in new tech and eventually ends up on that smart fridge that that one arianator managed to tweet from

[dreadedwhim]

just read my first stephen king and...

unfortunately it was good. also pretty unintentionally funny lmao. shoutout to The Sun Dog

[dreadedwhim]

sun dog i could fix you. you just need to decompress in a stable foster setting !

[dreadedwhim]

this NEVER could’ve worked today because kevin delevan would’ve just GOOGLED the sun dog back into into his NINTENDO SWITCH

[dreadedwhim]

hello i haven't been on here in so many months you'd think that meant i was getting out and doing stuff but kinda no

i missed everyone though. everyone's so nice here !!

[dreadedwhim]

IVE FORGOTTEN HOW EVEFYTHING WORKS

[dreadedwhim]

just read my first stephen king and...

unfortunately it was good. also pretty unintentionally funny lmao. shoutout to The Sun Dog

[dreadedwhim]

sun dog i could fix you. you just need to decompress in a stable foster setting !

[dreadedwhim]

just read my first stephen king and...

unfortunately it was good. also pretty unintentionally funny lmao. shoutout to The Sun Dog

[dreadedwhim]

hello i haven't been on here in so many months you'd think that meant i was getting out and doing stuff but kinda no

i missed everyone though. everyone's so nice here !!

[her-stars]

i like clingy. i like double texts. i like random calls. i like paragraphs. I love being excited to talk <3

[goodnightbirdy]

It’s quite possible that Top Gun is the gayest thing that has ever graced my tv screen and i watched all 15 seasons of supernatural. I watch dps like once a month. i’ve seen all 8 seasons of house like 6 times.

Iceman and Maverick are like GAY GAY. they are QUEER. they are serving cunt and pussay all day everyday. volleyball in nothing but your jeans and dog tags- oh my god stand up you homosexual.

[dreadedwhim]

hell yeah

[dreadedwhim]

i think i'm legitimately in love with the girl who was the other fight captain for the show. (btw the scottish play ended yesterday and it went super well!!!)

but yeah like idk she's just amazing and smart and funny and kind and i think she had? has? a crush on me tbh.

and i have a boyfriend. so

anyways my medical leave from school started today who cheered

hopefully this will help me feel better!

[dreadedwhim]

i got to do STAGE COMBAT today and wield TWO DAGGERS and FAKE KILL FOUR PEOPLE and SHOUT and DIE DRAMATICALLY.

there are highs and lows to every day (lows not in this post. this is a happy post). i also showed my english teacher some of my recent art! and he really liked it (he maybe was just being nice)!

[dreadedwhim]

nothing can take me out faster than a stomach ache on top of the everpresent dread

chronic stomach illness girls rise up. i am so so sick of feeling like this

[dreadedwhim]

oh you thought it was senioritis???? oh just senioritis??? WRONG. depression.

guys i'm supposed to be starting my meds but i'm perpetually afraid of change i fear. even though it will probably make things better. i just worry it'll cement a reputation of a teetotaler loser just like. Diagnosed Mentally Ill. like that's never happened before.

anyways i know it's irrational and boring. there's something that's been internalized here i think. hmmm

[ddeck]

id be unstoppable if it wasn't for the evil brain disorder

[dreadedwhim]

real and true