be trans, throw hands

it/she. dx OSDD. [pro/neutral] endo/willo/tulpa DNI. antishippers/radqueers DNI. asks are open.

[zebra11235]

I love AO3 and all its wonderful, generous, gorgeous, hilarious writers.

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

I think ao3 is literally the only site where no censorship means no censorship. you can post the most vile things on there — things that will get taken down on any other platforms — and ao3 will protect you, your works, and your rights to create whatever you want, however you want.

and no, this isn’t me saying “write that messed up, disgusting thing” because while, yes, write it if it’s what you want (I myself enjoy writing dark fics, something I believe would be considered “vile” to a lot of people), this is me saying in a world of censorship and capitalism, ao3 really is a treasure.

everybody say thank you ao3

[hazedxg0]

I feel like I'm progressively losing my mind logging on to Tumblr and seeing people say things like "wow, I wish we knew how splitting and switching worked, too bad DID is so under researched :("

My friend. Respectfully. We know both of those things.

We know way more about DID than the internet would lead you to believe. We know how DID forms initially, how alters split afterwards, what happens on a psychological and neurobiological level when switching, we know what kinds of trauma will cause DID and what kind of trauma cause specific alter types, we know what leads to specific presentations of DID, we know how DID presents across the lifespan, so on and so forth.

Basically all of this stuff is covered in the theory of structural dissociation. You know, that scientific theory everyone loves to name drop but no-one actually reads? You should read it. Find a PDF of The Haunted Self or Coping With Trauma-Related Dissociation. You will find basically everything you want to know.

DID was first added to the DSM-III in 1980 (although under a different name). But we've been studying dissociative personality systems since the early 1900s, and even that was based on earlier work in related areas. The theory of structural dissociation is essentially a compilation of all the research on trauma and dissociation from the past century, and it has been continuously expanded upon and validated by modern day research involving things like neuroimaging techniques. The references section of The Haunted Self alone is 48 pages long.

There is so much research out there. There is so much information publicly shared by credible professionals that can educate you on this disorder. Don't just assume we don't know the answers to your questions if you haven't even checked if the answers are out there.

Of course we don't know everything. But DID is certainly not this completely mystical disorder that no-one understands.

[omensvessel]

yeah i use like twenty names with varying degrees of preference

yeah i use dozens upon dozens of pronouns

yeah my sexuality kinda changes on a daily basis

yeah i can’t remember what i did two hours ago but i can vividly remember very specific things from my past (but only in certain moments)

yeah my friends and family often note random changes in behaviour for no apparent reason

yeah i often disconnect from my body and can’t get back to it voluntarily

yeah i age regress involuntarily and it’s often triggered by traumatic events or memories of them

yeah im sure it’s all normal and typical of healthy and stable-minded people

oh i have DID

[coyoteguuurl]

"autogynephilia" is fucking hilarious to me bc like. i promise u i get more hot and heavy seeing myself looking sexy in a tight little dress than any trans woman does doing her estrogen shot and getting ready for work. every night i watch myself in my bedroom mirror as im getting undressed and into my pjs and stare at my tits and bounce my ass for my own perverted amusement.

[love-and-mercy]

me (and like a million other tgirls): I can't believe I think I look good today... wow... sexualizing myself.... im such an evil ugly moid... I dont deserve to be a woman...

Every other cis woman from time to time: dammmmnnnnnn Im fucking hotttttt

[coyoteguuurl]

like. the basis for "autogynephilia" is just the idea that there is something wrong with a woman (in the case of agp, specifically a trans woman) who loves herself and loves her own beauty without a man having to be involved.

its just "why do women look beautiful if they dont want men to catcall/grope them??" but adapted in a form which is specifically designed to harm trans women.

[guerrillatech]

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

[wanhyutji]

Actually I DO think twelve year olds should get hrt. That’s the normal age to start puberty, so why does it have to be different for trans kids?

[starsharts-blog]

If you think trans kids don’t deserve the right to a timely and correct puberty – the same way cis kids already get – you are transphobic.

[wre7ch]

if trans kids are too young to start puberty so are cis kids

[adhd-system-safe-place]

ADHD P-DID is originally thinking the dissociative amnesia was adhd forgetfulness . It was . Not . As it Turns out; adhd forgetfulness is NOT forgetting weeks-months-years of your life at a time … 💔💔

-🌈💫

this is adhdid!

we also. did this lmao

[foxgirlmindcrank]

Everyday was Sunday Monday morning

[cidadepequenasystem]

we get more anti-endo by day

wth do you mean by "wanting to be" a system?

we have been trying to survive, we are all desperate

our old host just spent 3 hours losing their shit

panic, anxiety, sleep paralysis, hallucinations, dissociating, passing out

we often have to remind them that we are safe, that the year is 2026, that we are loved and cared for now

dont get me wrong, im grateful for everyone, but it would be dishonest to say we never thought about NOT BEING a system

I DONT GIVE A SINGLE FUCK if you are lonely or what not

keep your obsession out our spaces

its already hard to get access to resources with all the ableism, WE DO NOT NEED your wishful thinking here

BEING ENDO IS NOT REAL

you CANT decide to be a system

being a system was the way our child self managed to survive

its not your roleplay show and tell oc competition

FUCK YOU

[dredgensam]

Is it weird that despite being diagnosed with OSDD, it still feels like I'm faking because I don't experience many overt outward symptoms? I know I shouldn't compare my experiences to a DID system (or any other system for that matter, since every system is different) but it often feels like I'm too "normal" (well, normal enough for someone that can't remember its childhood)

[dredgensam]

Digital drawing of Bast's shell with and without being repaired. I'm shit at shading so it looks very flat, especially with the black

[dredgensam]

Asks are open if there's anyone that has any questions about things I am able to answer

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

“you cannot ship these two fictional characters because—” actually I can because they are not real people. they are just toys I play with. you cannot apply real-world morality to fiction or how strangers play with their imaginary toys in their imaginary sandboxes.

you can, however, curate your own internet experience by minding your own business, muting/blocking/scrolling past what upsets you but does not hurt anyone in real life in any way, shape or form.

[writingblus]

i dont "go on walks," i dont "use character sheets" and i dont "plot before writing," i raw dog it, and if it doesnt flow, I FUCKING CRY.

[anti-willo-momo]

no, im not "traumagenic" i have a CDD