choose your own hell

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[drethanramslay]

Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x F!MC (Dr. Leah Garcia)

Word count: 350

Masterlist

Author's note: heheheh hi! * Gives small wave * well I know I have been awol for quite a while and I haven't really put up content in almost 7-9 months cuz ya girl is killing it in med school (not literally pls)

I had written the poem when oph b3 had ended but I never got around posting it since I was ✨ insecure ✨ (still am about my writing but whatever, the fandom is dead anyways)

I took part in @choicesseptemberchallenge21 and the theme is thunderstorm, which literally is a stroke of luck lmao

Hope you like it, I really tried to stick to the rhyming scheme but this is more abstract than that hehe

Forgive me if I make any mistakes, ily❤️

Warnings: none, it's just angst and an alternative ending of oph b3

Songs: Moonchild by the f16s

An overcast sky, a distinct chill

The kind that hits like cupid's arrows at your chest 

A sunless sky, a complete joy-kill

The kind that makes you wonder, will this storm be the vilest?

The attendant and the intern, a romance that isn't a run of the mill

The kind that makes your heart full and wishes them the very best

Honey eyes that have so much mirth, that can bring a world to a standstill

Gleaming sapphires with currents of emotion that seem to wrest 

The gentle breeze suddenly a powerful gale, causing a shrill

They huddle together, arms around each other, enjoying their own lovefest 

But good things don't last, it's what's there in god's will

"What have you decided?" he asked with hope and affection, though his voice was the lowest 

Silence prolonged, the words spoken were nil

Anxiety rose as his heart thundered like a stampede of wildebeest 

Eyes filled with tears threatened to spill 

"I am leaving Ethan... this is the end of our bequest"

And suddenly his life went downhill

Anger, sorrow, shock and pain flashed, neither emotion pausing to rest 

So many thoughts, but no words, he was stuck in a moment that was paradoxical 

"New beginnings" the word he experienced with her, he began to detest

As a sign, it immediately started to pour, masking the tears like a veil

His entire reality shattered, oh how wrong was he to think their love was the strongest 

He wanted to hurt her the way those words hurt him, but he couldn't get himself to will 

For love is a funny thing, its more painful to thyself than the one upon which you best 

A sad smile, that threatened to make him ill

"Get out there and change the world, Leah." she sucked a breath at his behest 

"Maybe one day, if there is a chance-" He stopped her before she could complete the rest 

"I will be here, waiting. Go attain the destiny, you were meant to fulfil." 

 A spark of hope in their eyes, oh! What a beautiful cruel test

~

Tagging: seperately

[brzatto]

the original got deleted but i finally managed to find a screenshot of the tweet that’s been living in my mind since july of last year

[macbethheadband]

[bedknees]

[trashy-greyjoy]

really love dynamics that are like 'it honestly doesn't matter if you view them as romantic or platonic, the point is that they love each other. the type of love is inconsequential, all that matters is that it's there'. gotta be one of my favorite genders.

[ciaomarie]

Gorgeous edit! This is just a snippet of their parallels/links. I can't handle it. It will never ever be okay if they aren't endgame. I want at least 1 whole episode of them openly acknowledging their feelings, basking in the freedom of the truth, and mutual affection. However, I think I'd settle for 3 minutes before the closing credits just to know WE ARE NOT CRAZY!!!

[bluecinephile]

was it casual when i made your pregnant sister an omelette? was it casual when you said i made you better at your passion in life? was it casual when you thought about me to get out of a panic attack? was it casual when you gifted me a chef’s coat like yours? was it casual when you said you wouldn’t even want to open your restaurant without me? was it casual when you promised to never leave me alone again? was it casual when you made dishes inspired in my scarves? was it casual when your story started the day you met me?

[pastelxdelusions]

Red eyes in erased make me feral

Gif Set

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[damnikindadontcare]

S3 needs to get here NOW

[pebble-of-gold]

WOO 2023

Lets talk about my top 10 films that came out in 2022! I watched a lot of films last year!

1. Everything everywhere all at once

I could write essays on this movie but putting it simply I watched this film in theatres 5 times. There was nothing in this movie that dissapointed me. Its an incredible example of nihilism vs existentialism and I cried 3/5 times i saw it. I now own it on dvd.

2. Bullet train

Bullet train I saw ever so slightly less coming in at 4 cinema visits! Fantastic visuals and soundtrack. Wonderful casting and a fabulously written script! One of my favourite examples of a film that is just fun to watch. I'll be honest on the 3rd and 4th time I was a bit bored but theres not as much going on to rewatch as EEAAO.

3. Black panther: Wakanda forever

I started crying and I dont know if I stopped? An incredibly touching tribute to Chadwick Boseman and a heartbreaking reminder of who we've lost. I think this is the best marvel movie since endgame honestly.

4. The unbearable weight of massive talent

Nick Cage is unironically one of my favourite actors and him and pedro pascal have created an amazing piece of media here. It is so funny and thats all it needs to be! Its just 2 guys getting to know eachother. Fair enough theres some action and spy shit going on but with that removed it is just pure fun.

5. NOPE

A slightly controversial one I know, However, I will never get over the wacky inflatable arm tube men. Im not even joking. They are what made me want to see the film in the first place! No but an excellent example of terror vs fear and a perfect film to discuss questions like "how far should you go for the shot" and issues like exploitation of animals.

6. Three thousand years of longing.

First and foremost its Tilda Swinton and Idris Elba enough said. This movie is gorgeous. The cinematography is beautiful and the costumes the makeup the set design the props my word they did not dissapoint! The message of the film is largely isolation but also behind that theres a sense of love is eternal and how much would you do for love. I couldn't recommend this film more.

7. Matilda

Ok this one is the music and choreography for me. It's a fun film and i loce the set design for it. The costume for mrs wormwood is to die for and I want it all. Theres not a huge moral like the others on the list its a good example of what goes around comes around and good prevails. The camerawork is amazing too.

8. The Menu

Everyone in this film is an awful person EXCEPT Anya Taylor Joy's Character and I live for it. The pacing is wonderful, the camerawork again fantastic and the characterisation!!! There is so much tension and it keeps building until you reach the climax its a wonderful. I like to think the film is about anti capitalism and the death of creatives due to the preassure of critics.

9. The banshees of inisherin

My favourite type of media is where nothing happens but SO MUCH happens. (Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are dead is a wonderful example of this) and Banshees is an amazing example of that. At its core its about loss and lobelyness. Plus It has a RELATIVELY ACCURATE autistic character and thats my favourite part.

10. Don't worry darling

DON'T BOO ME DON'T YOU DARE. OK I ENJOYED IT. SOMEONE HAD TO! HARRY'S ACTING WASN'T EVEN THAT BAD YES IT COULD HAVE BEEN BETTER BUT THERE WAS SO MUCH SHIT GOING ON CAN YOU BLAME HIM! plus I was living for the drama of DWD and no it was not at all about feminism or the female orgasm but it was about control and it was a fantastic film to showcase that.

Honorable mentions go to:

Where the crawdads sing, Batman, The bad guys, Sing 2, violent night, JJK:0, Multiverse of madness.

Thor does not get an honorable mention and I will not see avatar 2 because I want it to flop.

[psychicequalizer-deactivated202]

this fucking paper is gonna kill me

[piratewithvigor]

[http-lo-deactivated20231025]

God damn it... I just slapped myself to focus and now I'm wet...

[frodo-baggins]

not to go all cringe on main but fictional characters have genuinely helped me through some of the worst shit in my life n i’ll forever be grateful to fiction for giving me comfort when i’ve needed it most

[secondbeatsongs]

“Never Gonna Give You Up” with every second beat removed

[toastpotent-deactivated20250619]

give you up

let you down

run desert you

make you cry

say good bye

tell lie

HURT YOU

[thyrell]

sometimes when my roommate is using my bluetooth speaker upstairs ill connect to it and interrupt his music to play this and its like a thousand times more effective than a normal rickroll

[nickwiseman]

absolutely no one asked for riverdale quotes inflicted onto the ilitw cast but i had a vision and needed to share it

[bakwaaas]

Euripides (Tr. Anne Carson) / @wholeheartedsuggestions / Jenny Slate / Euripides again

[pyaarse]

desi bisexual culture was not being able to choose between deepika, ranveer and priyanka 😔