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[driedrosessys]

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[blondeaxolotl]

why do you draw Azul as a black man?

Cause I want to, and I think he's pretty 💜, also it's a headcanon lol

[driedrosessys]

reminds me of that one thing I did a while ago

[imjustapoorwayfaringgeek]

sometimes an assassin named the angel of death is just a very traumatized 18 year old boy running from one abusive relationship to another while all he needs is therapy

(please click on it oh my god tumblr absolutely destroyed the quality)

slightly warmer toned version below 👇 this one is more shoujo filtered (unintentionally)

[itsthatlake]

Yue Qingyuan's shidi.

as always, thoughts on each page under the cut:

yue qingyuan recognizes that fan. it's one he gifted to his xiao jiu that shen qingqiu never used, one of many gifts from him that were refused or thrown away. seeing this fan is what prompts him to finally ask a question he already suspects the answer of.

there is no real outward sign when the system is speaking with shen qingqiu but i like to think that his eyes would drift to where the system screen is for just a moment. of course, yue qingyuan is way too observant to not take notice, even though he doesn't know what it means.

shen qingqiu has a great (if thin) poker face in canon, but yue qingyuan has been studying his body's expressions for decades at this point so he likely can spot shen qingqiu's nervousness where most wouldn't. since this comic is from his POV, i wanted to show that.

I wanted to end it in the same panel it started in to show that nothing truly has changed. there is nothing that yue qingyuan can do about this confirmation. just knowing won't change the facts: xiao jiu is gone and only this new shen qingqiu remains. but it's been long enough, and he has suspected for enough time, that he can live with the truth, even if he'll never know what truly happened.

[blondeaxolotl]

I've been introduced to a new leona headcanon and I've never had more of a joyous time drawing him so much, YIPPEE

bonus leona doodles I did as a warm up

[oh-hopeless-heart]

Someone made an ai chat bot of my beloved oc AND IS IMPERSONATING ME

Please if you know how to get it taken down please help

[loycos]

alrighty, after my previous analysis-es, I want to take a look at Vi and Caitlyn's interactions, specifically their dialog, throughout the show. precisely because it actually is very different than their touch language, in particular on Caitlyn's end.

I think no one would be surprised to learn that Vi is a very openly emotional person. Not only does she allow herself to be consumed by her feelings unabashedly

but she's also in touch enough with herself to effectively verbally communicate how she feels.

That last part throws a lot of people off- because Vi does have some walls she put up for proterction, in particular in front of strangers. I think her aggressive attitude and tendency to run away make people mistakenly assume she's a closed off person, but she most definitely isn't. People who are close to Vi get to see her be vulnerable- Caitlyn, Jinx, Ekko, Vander, and ever Loris. When Vi feels an emotion, she doesn't try to bury or hide it- she let's it come to the surface.

Cut to her Very emotionally repressed girlfriend, who not only buries her emotions on the regular, but also is completely clueless on how to voice them. when Caitlyn wants to express how she feels, she usually talks about the matter-of-fact, the dry details, to imply what she actually wants to say. that's why analyzing Caitlyn feels like decoding a cryptid message.

I think a lot of people miss this detail, because both Caitlyn and Vi are direct and honest people. the difference is, Vi is direct and honest through and through- whether the subject matter is casual or extremely sensetive to her. Caitlyn's directness comes in her matter of fact-ness. when it comes to subjects that are about her own emotions, she doesn't lie- but she often talks indirectly, or chooses to not speak at all.

and that's why Caitvi work so well- because Vi absolutely gets what Caitlyn is trying to say. she is a master at decoding Caitlyn's indirect backhanded language. and that's a big reason why Caitlyn feels so seen by Vi.

Just like ther touch language, the way each girl expresses herself verbally has direct ties to how they were raised.

Let's start by examining Caitlyn and her dad. Supposedly, according to the fandom, Cait's dad is the parent who gets her the most. well, maybe when the competition is Cassandra Kiramman, this isn't such a high praise. I'd argue neither one of Caitlyn's parents truly get her. In general, the Kirammans seem to not quite be able to communicate in a vulnerable way, despite clearly loving each other.

in this scene, Caitlyn is trying to express a very clear message to her dad.

translation: I feel guilty for Mother's death.

you'll notice she states a fact ("I had the shot") instead of openly expressing how she feels.

in return, her dad either 1. doesn't get that subtext from what she's saying, or 2. agrees with the subtext and decides not to challenge it. because I don't think Tobias is a bad parent, i'll go with the first option. But it still leaves Caitlyn feeling misunderstood, and her emotional needs unmet. it's not entirely Tobias' fault- he's grieving too, and his daughter isn't exactly spelling it out for him. But if anything, this scene shows you exactly how the Kirammans operate an emotionally raw situation- that is to say. they don't.

(Caitlyn also has no idea how to comfort her father)

compare this to the environment Vi grew up in.

Vi was always an open person- we see it in the way she openly grieves her parents in the very first scene in the show.

She was later raised by Vander, who himself was an honest man. Here's young Vi talking to her dad:

during their conversations, both Vi and Vander are communicating openly. Vi feels like she can be vulnerable around Vander, and he in turn takes her seriously, doesn't try to hide things from her just because they might hurt. that is the complete opposite to how Caitlyn was raised- she was protected, but also coddled. Vi expreienced the harsh reality growing up, but she had a mentor who was honest with her and gave her a place she could emotionally express herself. Caitlyn grew up being kept away from any pain or danger- away from the "real world"- but in return her mentors were much less emotionally available, and prioritized composure over vulnerabilty.

here's what happens when these 2 very different upbrinings clash.

Caitlyn is delivering one of her most vulnerable dialogs on screen, yet she keeps it to the facts; on the surface, she is talking about the literal vacuum her mother left, that she's now expected to fill- the legacy and responsibilty she enherited. however, the subtext here is Caitlyn trying to express the sadness, the loss and the grief she feels. Vi, who is used to open communication, sees through the first layer and addresses the subtext head on.

and so, Caitlyn feels seen, understood, despite never actually saying anything directly. Vi meets her at her own level, and Vi knows how to effectively comfort her.

most of Vi and Cait's scenes together are ruled by this dynamic seen above. Vi is the open one, leading most of their dialog. she will bring up things that hurt. she will say the quiet part out loud. she will confront the problem head on. on the other hand, Caitlyn is usually on the back foot of the dialog, replying rather than initiating. her words are short and indirect. more often than not, she stays silent.

let's look at some more examples.

im this scene, Vi, as usual, wears her heart on her sleeve. she expresses her biggest fear to Caitlyn- "everyone in my life has changed", and clearly communicates what she needs- "promise me you won't change". right before this scene, she apologizes to Caitlyn for her loss, relating to her pain- "I'm so sorry about your mother, I'm sorry I can't bring her back".

Caitlyn, uhh, well...

she starts the scene in her dry, militant way, and as Vi gets more emotional, she gets quieter and quieter. this gif is the last time she speaks in this scene, before her infamously cryptic "I won't". her words are unclear or sticking to facts, making her almost come across as cold. and the thing is, Caitlyn knows this. She knows her words don't offer comfort- and that's why, in this moment, she uses her touch to comfort Vi. because Caitlyn struggles when it comes to verbally expressing emotions, but her touch is always soft and warm.

here's another example.

Vi comes in this scene and just bombards Caitlyn with accusations. notice how she addresses all of her issues directly: Caitlyn being "ungrateful" to Jinx, her distrust in Caitlyn, her disappointment in Caitlyn's professional affair with Ambessa.

as for Caitlyn- she's on the back foot, as she often is when it's a dialog heavy Caitvi scene. notice how she doesn't state what she thinks directly, instead she's being the queen of passive aggressive sass.

what she says are the facts. You didn't let me in on the plan, you had Jinx there because of a contigency. the translation: "i'm hurt that you didn't trust me." but Caitlyn can't just admit that openly like Vi does.

The only time Caitlyn drops her defenses in this scene is when she admits her awareness of her wrongdoings.

"I know!"

this is the only direct admition we get, and it came cause Vi pushed her all the way against the wall and provoked her, which is something Vi is notoriously good at.

the second time she admits it is here, and she's back to her nondirect, vague language.

she's referncing a mysterious "collective", to avoid talking about herself directly... where else have I seen this?

translation: I can't erase my mistakes / i'm just like you. but Caitlyn doesn't make it personal. this phrasing makes the things she says, that are technically more subjective, sound grounded and objective.

Vi, of course, is as direct and personal as ever. and again it kind of looks like she answers Caitlyn's subtext rather than what she's saying on the surface, though this isn't as clear in this example.

Lets circle all the way back to this scene.

I think in the overall excitement of the fandom upon recieving this scene, plus the memeification that it went through, we all forgot that this is an objectively unromantic and strange thing to say. On the surface, it's a dry fact about a military operation. But after reading through this entire analysis, isnt this just the most Caitlyn line ever? And of course, the subtext here is abundant.

Translation: i knew you would go look for your sister, and I've decided to put my hate for her behind for you. I understand you will forever love your family and I'm not asking you to choose between us anymore. And more generally, I'm sorry and I love you, at the same time.

And the best thing? Vi gets it. Because she understands Caitlyn's indirect language more than anyone else.

So, in conclusion. Why all this matters? Well, truthfully, I'm just sick of the constant "Caitlyn didn't apologize" takes, that for some reason expected Caitlyn to sit down and directly say "I'm sorry" to the camera. I hope I explained why making this claim, or worse, trying to "fix it fic" is absurdly out of character. If youre a Caitlyn enjoyer, why erase her unique characterization for the sake of simplicity?

Not only is it out of character for Caitlyn, it's also out of character for Vi to ever demand that of her. Vi loves Caitlyn and underatands her cues. Just because an invisible audience needs things spelled out for them, doesn't mean the characters need it too. Vi gets what Caitlyn is saying regardless of whether she says it directly or not- that's part of the charm of their dynamic. That "imbalance" in how they express themselves isn't something that HAS to be solved- they clearly know how to work around it. And to me, that makes their relstionship feel more realistic and fleshed out.

Now that we addressed the fans- doesn't this also explain why so many people seem to get drastically different readings on Cait? Unlike Vi, whether you pick up on Caitlyn's subtext and body language or not, you'll get a whole different character. I suspect a lot of people who hate Caitlyn only read her at face value, based on what she says alone. By doing that, they get a much drier, angrier character than she actually is. and of course, Vi's devotion and attraction to her makes no sense if that's the only thing you see.

[loycos]

Are you still thinking of doing a caitvi touch analysis? Cause the way I would DEVOUR that. Love ur work!! 💖💖

it all started from a post i saw somewhere, that expressed surprise that the same girls we saw in this scene

are the ones we see in this scene

'how can Vi be so meek and skittish, while Caitlyn is the confident one? it was the opposite before!"

and like, of course characters can change (like people do), but it i think this is a misreading of whats going on here. or at least, a surface level understanding. and the more i thought about it, the more i realized how much body language matters in Caitvi's scenes, and how the way they touch is extremely consistent and relevant to their relationship and identities.

to explain what i mean, let's start with Vi. Vi's touch is brash and confident. in the beginning of their relationship, Vi was the one pushing herself into Caitlyn's space, like we've seen in the brother scene, but also in small moments like shoulder checking Caitlyn after her very sensitive remark about The Last Drop, or her grabbing Caitlyn while they were escaping Silco.

i don't think Vi is intentionally being rougher with Caitlyn, as she touches other people (Jinx, Ekko) in a very similar manner. but to Caitlyn, this is a big deal- the fact Vi doesn't coddle her, and doesn't give her "special treatment"- is something Caitlyn has been craving her whole life.

Vi shows no hesitation before reaching out. its very unapologetic. You'd think they're already dating by the confidence Vi exudes when she's touching Cait.,

Vi tends to almost maneuver Caitlyn around. it's not an aggressive thing, it's gentle- but her touch is more assertive. i don't want to call it possessive, but something about it shows she feels like she has access to Caitlyn from a surprisingly early stage in their relationship.

now, look at how Caitlyn touches Vi. it's almost the complete opposite. her touch is feather light and careful, almost like she's unsure whether she's even allowed.

Caitlyn's touch is less assertive and more guiding. even in positions where you'd think she should be using some force, she finds the most gentle, non-intrusive way to go about it.

where Vi's touch is claiming, Caitlyn's touch is asking. you can see it every single time Caitlyn reaches out to Vi. she's slow in her approach, a little hesitant before she commits, incredibly delicate and soft.

as to why this is, i suspect their upbringing is at play. Vi is used to taking whatever she can get her hands on, because she never had enough growing up. Caitlyn is extremely aware of her privilege and is concerned with "taking too much". This approach is what makes Caitlyn come across as humble.

now, back to the kiss.

looking at it from this lens, are we sure that "Caitlyn is the confident party while Vi is meek" is the correct reading here? cause the way i see it,

Caitlyn takes her usual 5 million years to approach, because she's essentially non-verbally asking Vi for consent the entire way through. very on brand. Vi, however, seems to lack her usual confidence, and i've seen people attribute it to shock. i think it's somewhat related, but not because she's surprised Caitlyn is making a move on her, or that it's finally happening- come on, Vi knows Caitlyn is down bad for her. all the points i brought up, about the way Vi touched her up until this point- it's clear Vi knows that her touch is wanted. that's why she's so confident basically from that brothel scene. i suspect that if her sister hadn't murdered her mom, Vi would be making this exact move on Caitlyn in episode 1 of this season. the only thing holding her back is guilt.

no, the reason Vi is shocked is because Caitlyn is back. right after she begged her to not change, the girl she loves, and thought she was losing, came back. what do i mean she came back? in the scene before this one, this is the Caitlyn we see

Vi is clearly distraught by this aggressive, dominating version of Caitlyn. she doesn't recognize her. That's not who Caitlyn is. there's a reason they keep showing us this specific memory through Vi's eyes

this Caitlyn, attentive, gentle, asking, is the girl she fell for, in all her dorky glory. Vi asked Caitlyn to not change, and in this kiss, with that soft touch, Caitlyn proves Vi that she hadn't- not entirely, at least- that her girl is still in there. Vi is almost stunned in relief to see her again, especially after we saw how desperately she was clinging onto the memory of her.

and it's when she recognizes her, that non-apologetic grabby Vi is back.

(it was too good to be true, sadly. i think you can see a level of hesitancy in vi's body language here, like she can sense something is a little off.)

so, what about that sex scene, you probably wonder. why i havent mentioned it so far, seeing as this is the most intimate scene they have together. well, it's because if you've been following along what i said, nothing in it should surprise you.

so we have-

brash, grabby, assertive Vi

who tends to maneuver Caitlyn around

Caitlyn is being slow and soft in her approach

with feather light touches,

(like seriously every time caitlyn touches vi its almost floaty, so gentle its barely there. You can see there's no force behind it whatsoever. She licherally doesn't want to use her power on Vi.)

and of course, most importantly, we have Vi recognizing Caitlyn, the girl she fell for, 3 times in this scene. every time she does, she reacts with a surge of passion and joy.

first time is what kickstarted this whole scene

Caitlyn was making a grand gesture of selfless trust, just like she had all the way back when they first met and she chose to release Vi from prison based on trust alone.

second time is here

Caitlyn putting honesty above all else, choosing to not keep Vi in the dark, and looking like a nervous mess while doing it- very s1 Caitlyn of her.

third time is here

again, the soft, slow touch, asking for permission (and forgiveness).

Now, why does any of it matters? well, for Vi, i think that failing to recognize the body language just leaves out a layer of her character that adds to her personality. that brash, confident way she touches really lacks in some fan interpretations of her.

for Caitlyn, however... if you can't read her body language you can come out with a completely different reading of her character, one i'd consider a misinterpretation. Caitlyn's words are much more calculated and closed off than her touch. She uses her Big Scary Sheriff tone to make herself seem respectable, but her true self, the gentle, sweet side of her, only comes through her touch and actions. Like, if you only take Caitlyn at face value, based on what she says alone... let's just say, the amount of people who think Caitlyn is an evil manipulator who abuses her power starts to make sense now, doesn't it?

Tl;dr: Caitlyn's touch is like "can i touch you?" And Vi's touch is like "i am touching you". Failing to recognize this usually results in misinterpreting the characters' dynamics and even the messages and themes of show itself.

[hugosaegf]

this is so fucking disgusting. rin would never do this btw

guys please report and block this person. this behavior is absolutely gross and disgusting. it's so gross to think that this person thinks it's okay to write this type of stuff.

they write all sorts of stuff of bllk characters raping, abusing, drugging, etc. the reader. i usually try to mind my business when it comes to dark content, but this is just too far.

[phosphorus-noodles]

Reblog to let your followers know that despite your current obsession your previous obsessions still exist and are simply lying dormant until they awaken and strike again

[fangirlingpuggle]

Another silly SVSSS AU where mushroom bodies have a little problem... they're not human size they're mushroom size.

SQQ wakes up in mushroom body only he's tiny. SQH finds him and freaks the fuck out, poor cucumber pro is small as cucumber

(Neither read the fine print n book that mentioned actual size of bodies)

SQH can't stay away form long and can't leave bro anywhere so SQQ is just chilling in pocket... listening to LBH freaking out and 'why are you keeping the scum villains body Binghe? what is going on??'

Things get more confusing when LBH dream powers connect to SQQ and he knows his Shizun is alive he lives! He has to find him.

Meanwhile SQH is in the corner with said Shizun in his pocket trying not to look suspicious.

LBH shizun senses keep going off and he has no idea why he's looking around frantically.

Alternative SQH can't hide him and sect ends up finding out...

LBH is confused when LQG stops tuning up to fight him... and then he hears about Qing Jing peak lord? he can't get because of wards and he can't see anything?

JHis dream powers connect to Shziun though and he knows he's alive. But he can't get in and can't see with his spying.

What the fuck is going on?

Meanwhile YQY is commissioning tiny furniture for his tiny shidi and LQG has taken to carrying SQQ around in pocket to keep him safe

[haley-harrison]

As a Shen Jiu apologist, I get the appeal of saying 'Shen Jiu did nothing wrong' for the meme, but I also think it's important to recognize he did many things wrong, and that's exactly what makes him human. He's a product of shitty life circumstances and bad personal choices, and that makes him relatable.

In contrast, Shen Yuan (bless his sweet little heart) has many fine qualities, and is relatable in a different way, but the bottom line is, he grew up as a sheltered rich kid. So he doesn't have the same bitter anger at the world, one that comes from years of being gifted and yet looked down on by fools with more money than sense. It's one thing to see injustice and want to stop it - it's a very different thing to have to live with it, day by day, for years, powerless to do anything but plot the future. It's a particularly raw hurt that gets sublimated into fuel, into drive and ambition and resentment at the unfairness of the world.

Shen Jiu is a great example of simultaneous superiority and inferiority complex - because of course you're smarter than these morons, you work so much harder, and you deserve all they have and take for granted. But at the same time, you know you'll never really fit into their world - it's always a conscious act for you, a performace that needs effort - while for them it's the only way to exist, simple as breathing, and you never stop feeling like you're one slip-up away from losing everything you've toiled to build.

So of course you get defensive, you get mean at the slightest threat to that charade you have wrapped around yourself like a shield. Any challange to the perfect image you're projecting directly endangers your existance, and a cornered wounded animal is the most dangerous one.

Point is, Shen Jiu is tragic in a complex yet heartbreakingly real way. He's clawed his way to the top and keeps clawing to stay there, not realizing that's exactly what's spelling his downfall. So yeah, ignoring the wrong things he's done is like erasing half of the appeal - that's the meat on the bones of his story.

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk.

[driedrosessys]

before reading svsss I knew it was an I sekai novel but I thought whoever was the transmigrator ended up being luo binghe, so for me the story was that luo binghe (the transmigrator) would use his protagonist charms to seduce the scum villlain and turn him into a better person

so when I started reading the book I was with sy in the "SHEN QINGQIU????" bc "wasn't he going to lbh????😭😭" idk I think I associated people calling lbh the protagonist with thinking he was the protagonist of svsss not pidw

so yeah every time I saw bingyuan content I thought lbh was sy and I thought that sy!sqq was sj!sqq- so basically in my head svsss was like:

sy!sqq is actually the original sqq (aka sj doesn't exist) lbh is a transmigrator who, in his previous life, had sqq as his fav, so when he transmigrates into lbh he goes all over sqq trying to get into his heart, and ofc sqq being the scum villain, won't fall for the protagonist that easy, but they somehow do end up together in the end

since I didnt know anything else about the story, I didnt knew how they would end up together, but that was svsss for me before I started to actually read it 😭 I dont have any big idea to write anything about this but if someone sees this and decides to do so (even if just add anything else) go for it and tag me or send me a link ^^

edit: I wouldn't really consider this jiuyuan, it's more like a reversed roles bingyuan

[summerdoddles]

I'm tired of good parent Shen Jiu, give me BAD PARENT SHEN JIU

Not everything is resolved with suddenly having a baby.

I want an au where Shen Yuan is ignored at best and humiliated at worst, and in comparison Luo Binghe is treated more fairly instead.

Leading this to Shen Yuan going voluntarily to the abyss instead of LBH, being the breaking point to Shen Jiu realize he fucked up at the point of no return, and all that he has left is taking care of his son sweetheart and try to learn more about his kid with the things SY left behind.

I'm tired of fluff give me drama

[syscultureis]

sys culture is

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[rockshitty]

I have a confession to make. Sometimes I scroll tumblrs fyp. The algorithm is pretty fucking bad and mostly bases what you see next on a single post you spent a couple extra seconds on. And sometimes that post was the last one that loaded before the feed had to buffer for a lot longer than anyone needs to read two sentences about otters, but the algorithm saw me look at those two sentences for 35 continuous seconds so now I’m getting a ton of otters I guess.

It also. This is bad. It also considers blocking and reporting to be active engagement with a subject. So if you’re on the fyp and you block a Grinch Shipping Blog the algorithm will notice you clicked three entire times on a Grinch Shipping Blog and gain the understanding that you engage more closely with grinch ships than anything else. And guess what. Guess what it does then.

[driedrosessys]

also hate how I want when I want to see content of one media and go to the tag of said media to like stuff of said media, tumblr seems to think "I guess u want to see stuff of said media, so here's a few of it" but when Im on my fyp and like ONE stuff of a different tag I was not liking before, suddenly everything that I was seeing is GONE and now I only see stuff from what i just liked

like,,,,, cant I have a little bit of everything????? why does my fyp needs to be only ONE single thing 😭😭😭

[jadesmushroomcollection]

If you call Azul fat and make fun of his ED/body image issues then I am assuming you've never talked with a single person with an ED before and that your understanding of mental health disorders comes from TikTok btw