fuck me up shawty

trauma dump blog. he/him, 21

[lilyflxwers]

i. The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, Sylvia Plath / ii. As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks 1964-1980, Susan Sontag / iii. Suddenly, It's December, Margaux Paul / iv. Waiting for This Story to End Before I Begin Another, Jan Heller Levi / v. The Picture of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde / vi. The Letters of Gustave Flaubert: 1830-1857, Gustave Flaubert / vii. unknown / viii. @inanotherunivrse / ix. @violentcherries / x. Heaven, Mieko Kawakami (thank u @aworsening for attaching the sources)

[cheesy-cheddar-sadness]

text could never portray the scream i wish i could let out

[riversidekid]

[fragmented-artist]

X

Blaine

[amygdalae]

I can beat my avoidant tendencies I just have to stay away from any situation in which I might become avoidant. Problem solved

[surviving-out-of-spite]

surviving csa is constantly learning different ways of how you were betrayed & violated

like having a casual conversation and someone says something that makes you go "wait... that's not okay???" and then you have flashbacks for the next 3-5 business days

what do you MEAN this normal and common occurance in my childhood was actually a severe crime?? why are my friends more upset about it than me???

nemesis out

[ghostsabound]

being an adult system is so annoying because we actually have shit to do. it's an endless loop of hey jim would you mind giving me my memory back i need that for my adult job. and he just steals more memories. dickwad

[diditself]

"real people with DID wish fakers would stop faking"

girl there are people in my head who don't like me and my memory resets every 2½ hours. I promise you I have better things to fucking worry about.

[electricbloodflow]

DID is simultaneously the most subtle, ambiguous disorder while also being the most intense, all-encompassing, extremely-personal-because-it-affects-fundamental-perceptions-like-memory-and-identity-at-all-hours-of-the-day disorder of all time.

[e-november]

There is something I hate with DID, and it’s having this vague but intense fear of some situations with no explanation in sight because of the amnesia. My brain feels like a puzzle I must put back to have the complete image of my past and heal.

[xenodelic]

[only-knives]

i dont think people realize how painful it is to constantly live in survival mode. like fight/flight/freeze/etc. is reserved for when you're close to fucking dying. people weren't made to live entire lives in that state. can you imagine the damage that does?

[ang3ltearsxo]

me 8 years old hoping something bad happens to me so that i'll finally get attention not realizing something bad in fact did happen to me but no one noticed lol

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Constant battle of “okay wow that thing I went through is actually way worse than I realize” and “what I went through isn’t even that bad”

[psychocitysblog]

I wake up everyday just waiting to go back to bed.

[sadallthedamntime-blog]

[bpdohwhatajoy]