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Hey! im Jen, 23, Masters student in Applied Behaviour Analysis. Been attempting this fit lifestyle for a while now but the ultimate goal is to make it stick :D I want to build muscle and loose some weight, follow me if you have similar goals ;)

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Growth is painful. Change is painful.But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.

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Im back

So i just wrote out this long blog, but then it got deleted :(

Long story short - im in a downward spiral of binging. My trigger point today was anothers post on instagram stating that they can only ever feel full after a binge, and since reading that all ive thought about all day is binging and wanting to experience that satisfaction of feeling full.

I googled excuses - my hormone levels could be out of whack which is why i can never feel full. yeah right. Im just making excuses for my behaviour. But in all honestly I acknowledged that I was going to binge, that i felt like binging, but made no attempt to stop myself or get out of the house so that I couldnt eat the food. I just let it happen and wash all over me.

Ive got some preventative strategies/goals to work on from here onwards - not eating while watching tv etc; im also going to do no binge september (even though ive failed today, nothing to say I cant do it for the rest of the month); since part of todays binge occured because I got home from work early and had nothing to do, Im going to ensure I take my gym stuff with me to work every day so that if i do finish early i can still just drive straight to the gym.

Another issue I have is that I get jealous of what other people can fit into their macros, while the obvious thing to do would be to delete instagram etc. I do also really enjoy looking at it..... on the fence about this one.

My birthday is at the end of this month and so is my graduation, and I want to look nice for both of those things. Im not happy the way I am now, i need to change that.

If anyone else has any other preventative strategies they find helpful, please feel free to share them. sorry this is a rather negative post, once i get over this binge ill make the effort to be more positive but for now i think i might just prep my lunch for tomorrow and crawl into bed to forget about it all.

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switching/changing/trend follower/sheep whatever you want to call me

which is a long winded way of saying ive jumped on the LCHF bandwagon. No im not going to call it keto becuase so far I have yet to go long enough without carbs to get into keto. I am aiming for that, but we shall see in the long run.

I havent been to the gym in about two weeks

I went for a zoo run yesterday which was super fun, basically like orienteering around the zoo finding answers to a list of questions. 31st place out of 49. but it was funnnn

I've started my new job 3 weeks ago and I now feel like I have zero time to relax. take today for example, I have booked a room at uni to use for the whole day. im talking 830am to 6pm. I am so tired all i wanted to do was sleep. but you can bet thats not gonna happen. [lets see how many double shot coffees i can fit into my day today]

two of my flatmates are moving out and i dont want to live with randoms, let alone share my fridge with them. Ive had the luxury of having a fridge to myself ever since i bought it, now i will share it with 4 others. oh joy.

I want to move out myself but i know i will never find anyone to fill the rooms

today is going to be very hard for me to stay away from carbs, will take a huge internal strugle, particularly because i decided this morning that none of my food was appealing so i came to uni with nothing [smart jen, real smart]

end rant? lol jokes, i could go on for years

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U r beautiful and ur gonna do great today

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#abs4xmas day 10

its all about the uni work today, have gone to the gym already this morning.

Yesterday i happened to eat sals pizza, and omg its massive. i cant believe how bit it was. one slice was like enough. so crazy!

I love mondays cause it always feels like a new start, i always feel so motivated on mondays :) Got a meeting this afternoon to sort out the hours for my new job which i start in a week. super nervous! i am gonna fake confidence it all the way! haha

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One year made all the difference (June 2011-June 2012). All I did was change my lifestyle to “clean” eating and lifting heavy/running/any other fun exercise! Little changes here and there add up to a big difference! Probably only about 5lbs difference in weight as well (less now).

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#abs4xmas day 8

Its the weekend! And I have a huge to-do list cause I want to have everything sorted for my new job to eliminate at least some of the stress... starting with a haircut in 10 mins. Goodbye long unruly locks, hello professional!!

Been to the gym already this morning and am going out to dinner for a friends birthday tonight at a new place called Orleans. Im so excited, apparently their food is amazing!

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#abs4xmas day 7

At work today till 3, but thanks to my prepped meals im all set. Its my rest day from the gym today, and ive got some naughty food cravings but I will resist! Ive got some sugar free lollies at home that I cant wait to eat when I get home ;)

And found a countdown widget so I can keep track of my goals!

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So I have my 24 hour shift at work now and I have all my food prepped and ready to go :)

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#abs4xmas day 6

Typing this at the gym = +fitblr cred ;)

Yesterday was cheat day but so fun! Out for a scrummy brunch then off out, stopped to get some delish cupcakes (oreo droolllll) then snackage for dinner as I studied :)

Today plans Doing cardio now Got some masters writing to do (cause did I mention I got the job and start real soon) Then work this arvo till tomorrow arvo. Friday rest day from gym ahhhhh

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#abs4xmas day 5

semi cheat day today cause its ma one year anniversary with my bf. Went out for a yummy as brunch :) mmmm eggs

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abs 4 xmas day 4 update

Going very well with hitting my macros so far today, its 4pm and im on point!

Dinner last night was so fun, so much fun that i had some foryo - it was great, though certainly didnt fit into my macros. ah well!

Tomorrow is me and the bf's 1 year anniversary, so you betcha theres gonna be some yum as food involved there :)

Oh! and went to the gym this morn for my 40 mins of cardio :)

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#abs4xmas day 3

Its midday here, and so far so good!

Went to the gym when I woke up, then went to buy a sodastream (omg so cool), then went to do some uni work.

Going to a dinner at an indian place tonight, so will sort out my macros and just eat whats left over during the day today