Considering the place where yoojin was mentally at that time, i wouldnt be surprised if that was the case
Sorry to derail from the content of the original post (or if this is in poor taste), but this gave me an idea for a fanfic
Often, when fanfics portray yoohyun going back in time after having failed to save/protect yoojin, the context involves having failed to save him in the dungeon from lauchitas; h o w e v e r , i think itâd be really interesting to see a reality where yoojin actually did follow through in ending his life, as you described above with the train tracks, and see how things go as a result of that
Im thinking that this would occur sometime (maybe a few months?) after yoohyun refuses to give yoojin a potion to fix his leg
yoojins public image is in shambles due to the awakening broker incident and all the other incidents hes been a part of pre-regression; he has an enormous amount of survivors guilt for being the only survivor of several dungeon raids (the guilt only worsening cause he survived at the expense of his colleagues) and has been shown in the manhwa being locked in his room with bottles all over the floor as a result of a particularly painful loss; his only living relative wants nothing to do with him; hes at his lowest emotionally now that he and yoohyuns relationship has soured irreparably (due to yoohyun refusing to give yoojin a potion being the last straw for yoojin) and now physically, due to his injuries; hes struggling to support himself financially and now?
Hes reached a point where, when he looks at the train tracks, he lingers a little too long; hes bitter; hes upset; hes tired; and he doesnt see a reason to keep going so, in a moment of impulse, when he sees the train coming, he takes a step forward
I imagine that yoohyun wouldnt find out till later; hes busy running the guild: Koreaâs number one guild at this point in time; dungeons are popping up more frequently and their level of difficulty is increasing; and, even if the authorities confirm yoojins death, the call is both easy and difficult to make cause âeveryone knows those brothers are estrangedâ and âhe doesnt have any other relatives that we can notifyâ, so when yoohyun finds out, its because the authorities literally didnt have anyone else they could call about it
And it throws yoohyuns entire life down the drain; everything he had worked for and done (to protect yoojin) had become meaningless; the only thing that mattered, that made it all worth it, was taken from him
After taking time to despair about the whole thing, he would assume someone had done something to yoojin, cause, how else would he have died? yoohyun had enemies but yoojin was notorious for getting into trouble, so there had to have been someone with a grudge; however, learning, from his spies who hadnt been able to reach him when everything went down, that yoojin jumped of his own accord, that he was so dissatisfied? depressed? tired? done? with life that he ended it himself would have yoohyun despairing for an entirely new reason
There wouldnt be anyone for yoohyun to point at and blame for this, and, in his attempts to rationalize what is an impulsive decision made emotionally, hed turn the blame towards himself; hed start to believe hed pushed his brother too far; heâd seen the looks of resentment; the despair and hurt and betrayal in his hyungs face before; heâd Known he hurt yoojin but he never stopped to think about how yoojin would handle all of that hurt
He hadnt stopped to think if yoojin Could handle all of that
For the sake this being more than just a one-shot hurt-no-comfort fic that indirectly glorifies using suicide to get ârevengeâ on your loved ones for not noticing, im thinking that yoohyun gets to regress back to the point where he has the option to either give or deny yoojin that potion through the use of a certain âcontractâ made with a specific âlizardâ (that hasnât been mentioned in the manhwa yet) since the wish stone from defeating lauchitas wouldnt be a viable option cause, in this fanfic? au? that never happened (yoojin didnt live long enough for that to happen)
Also, being able to go back to the point where he can give/deny yoojin a potion allows him to be in a place where his guild has a strong foundation (but no longer number one? I could be wrong here) and, while his relationship with yoojin is sour, he hasnât pushed it past the point where its become irreparable; of course, in this timeline, yoohyun gives yoojin the potion
The fanfic would then explore yoohyuns contradictory actions (which stem from the anxiety of potentially loosing yoojin a second time; once was already more than he could bare), the co-dependency of the han brothers, the see-saw that is their current relationship, and how things change from this point on
Yoojin would definitely be confused about yoohyuns sudden change in behavior, surprised that yoojin actually responded to him, came to visit him in the hospital, and gave him the potion; things would be tense; yoojin would have a lot of bitterness and resentment to work through and a lack of trust towards yoohyun cause of how things have been up until this point cause yoojin wouldnt know Why yoohyun had been like that this whole time, and im not sure that yoohyun would suddenly want to explain himself and everything to yoojin
But yoohyun, as distant as hes being, is also going to be very Very clingy with yoojin; loosing his hyung had harmed him deeply, and he needs to know, to See that yoojin is safe and alive and well; he doesnt understand why he thought that being distant was the way to keep yoojin safe; he couldnt know if anything happened unless his hyung was right next to him; this time, hed protect them properly
He just needs yoojin to trust him (and, spoiler alert, yoojin doesnt trust yoohyun after everything yoohyuns been telling him; the whole âyoure a nuisanceâ stuff)
