Dying From The Inside Out

I'm a girl in her late twenties. I have PTSD, DID, and a generalized anxiety disorder. Most people don't see that side of me, so this is a place where I can be a little more free.

[resonance-of-libra]

This is the Lucky Ace. Reblog to recieve a wad of cash that is oddly specific to your current needs.

[jukaidream]

I reblogged this shit two days ago y’all… what kinda sorcery is this. Oddly specific too …. I’ll take it tho 🤯

[thisisasinkingship]

I think I did it wrong

[comic-girl2234-deactivated20240]

Uh I reblogged this like 3 days ago and I start my new job on Monday??? Like idk how you accidentally find a job but I did.

[caprifreak]

I need to get paid asap so pls ace help

[caprifreak]

I GOT PAID I GOT PAID!!!!!! MUCH MORE THAN I EXPECTED AAAAAAAAAAAA THANK YOU ACE

[musinvenusian]

I legit have a specific amount i want in my head rn it better come true 😭

[riyerose]

I ALSO HAVE A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF MONEY I WOULD LIKE TO ACQUIRE, PLEASE HELP

[autumn-new-moon]

This has worked before, so why not again?

[sushinfood]

you can have more notes just please give me money

[dorky-is-tired]

so there’s some things I wanna get like blease

[dying-fromtheinsideout]

Worth a shot. Need to pay some bills 🤞

[undeadhousewife]

Just a heads up to anyone with Facebook and the actual level of their fuckery - definitely recommend checking and see what data they saved on you

[infpisme]

[unwelcome-ozian]

[kaleighfratkins]

Trauma often messes with one’s ability to say “no”. 

You either consciously or subconsciously think, “I don’t want to hurt this person’s feelings” or “If I say no, then they’ll hurt me” or “It won’t really be that bad” or “I can handle this” or “I need to do this to prove myself” or “I deserve this”, or you forget that “no” is even an option.

It’s still not your fault if you didn’t say “no”, even if you think maybe you could have. It’s still not your fault. You didn’t deserve what happened to you and you didn’t bring it upon yourself. It was never your fault.

[harperhug]

I just cried when I read this. Thank you.

[dying-fromtheinsideout]

😰😭

[meetzemonsta]

sometimes i wonder what kind of person i’d be if i’d had a better childhood. i can’t remember a time before the abuse, before the trauma. it’s woven into my earliest memories. the abuse never stole my childhood–it was my childhood. there’s nothing to recover from, because there’s no “better before” for me to go back too. this is all i’ve got. this is all the fuck i am.

[unwelcome-ozian]

[dying-fromtheinsideout]

This.

[dying-fromtheinsideout]

Everyone is just now realizing that for the first time in over 3 years we won’t see our therapist for 3 weeks. The panic is beginning to set in, there’s some huge stuff going on, and some big things are being put into motion. Stuff that will really help in the long run but are incredibly stress, and fear inducing. We are talking about some really difficult topics, and addressing some huge failings of the justice system and trying to bring about some change. This has heightened everyone’s anxiety and fear, which in turn has triggered some really wicked nightmares. Trying to hold it all together. This is week one without our therapist.... 1 down, 2 to go.

[wolfteethe]

People always ask if your trauma changed you but I was young, I don’t know who I was before my trauma. I don’t know who I would’ve been without it and I never will know.

[dying-fromtheinsideout]

This is a hard thing for us to even sit down and discuss. It has come up a few times and it brings on almost a grief reaction. Like an internal crumbling feeling. Complete and utter sadness.

[anestforpoetry]

my hands go numb. no, not numb. i can feel them, but they belong to someone else. my vision blurs, wavy around the edges, like i’m watching another life. a life that doesn’t belong to me. my hearing fails. i hear muffled sounds. someone is speaking to me but i can’t respond. my self disappears, replaced by someone new. someone who has never been me and never will be.

“diss o ci a tive”, me. (via anestforpoetry)

[br-o-ken-poetry]

Anyone else even procrastinate sleeping

[dying-fromtheinsideout]

Every. Damn. Night. Can’t have nightmares if you don’t close your eyes.

[unwelcome-ozian]

[axolotlsinatrenchcoat]

When people tell me how much they loved ‘Split’

[dying-fromtheinsideout]

For real though. I will internally combust.

[unwelcome-ozian]

[dying-fromtheinsideout]

This. Medication is the absolute worst for us. It makes everything way worse. I know it helps some people with DID, but not us.

[unspokengrief]

im so scared the rest of my life is gonna feel like this

[closetlights]

lil shout out to the abuse victims who’s abusers where females

lil shout out to abuse victims who’s abusers where supposed to be their best friend

lil shout out to abuse victims who have been told they where insane and that they made what happened up

lil shout out to lgbt abuse victims who where asked if they just weren’t gay and that’s why what happened made them so uncomfortable

You are loved

You are valid.

What happened to you was vile, and cruel. You’re experience matters.

I believe you.

I’m so sorry this has to happen to you. You deserve better than that.

[thetrippytrip]

epic thread

[dying-fromtheinsideout]

Why is it that this is what seems absurd to some people but to those same people when ‘stab’ is replaced with ‘rape’ it’s not absolutely insane and clear?