✨Please let me sleep✨

Valy | 27 | They/He | DnD enthusiast | Artist with chronic pain

[dyplopias-art]

COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!! ✨ i finally finished some important work that took me a lot of time, but i'm finally ready to take commissions! don't hesitate to contact me if you have any inquiries 💖

[dyplopias-art]

couldn't find an apprenticeship (bc i'm "too old" and would cost too much) so I've applied to get a student loan at my bank. i feared getting some papers was going to take long but the school staff has been so kind and quick to help me

i'm actually doing the thing!! it still feels weird and foreign. i've spent two years stuck in early grief when my mom was still alive. sad to say that now that she's gone and i don't have to dread for the news of her passing anymore, i finally took hold of my life again

[dyplopias-art]

COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!! ✨ i finally finished some important work that took me a lot of time, but i'm finally ready to take commissions! don't hesitate to contact me if you have any inquiries 💖

[dyplopias-art]

bumping this up, i'm gonna have a few medical bills to pay at the end of the month + i'll start cosmetology school in september, for this reason i'd like to save up some money! for the time being my commissions are 50% off for at least a month

[itastelikesand]

[emortal-l-deactivated20250308]

[ID: a screenshot of a comic speech bubble. The black text in it reads "No matter how open-minded, socially conscious, anti-racist I think I am, I still have old learned hidden biases that I need to examine. It is my responsibility to check myself daily for my stereotypes, prejudices and, ultimately, discrimination." /ID end]

[anarchistmemedistro]

[pupucino]

antiracism is a constant process. i was raised in a racist village and it's not easy to get rid of it. i moved away over 10 years ago but those ideas are still haunting me.

[genderkoolaid]

also keep in mind that shame + guilt are not conducive to growing as a person. when it comes to "checking yourself" it should be a non-judgemental process. it's not about flagellating yourself for every bad thought or trying to purify your mind of all corruption. it's only when acknowledging your own racist thoughts doesn't fill you with dread that you can really progress past the white guilt of it all.

radical self-acceptance & genuine self-critique are not opposites. they need each other. do not let obsessive-compulsive behaviors colonize your desire to grow as a person.

[dyplopias-art]

happy pride to everyone 💖🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ have my strahd team's queer shenanigans. be proud, be loud, we're gonna fight to keep our rights worldwide

my commissions are open

[t00thpasteface]

i was talking about this on my server earlier but i really think "cozy" is one of the worst genre labels out there in the gaming space. like people dunk on the terms "metroidvania" and "first person shooter" a lot for being uncreative or limiting but at least those are like... falsifiable descriptors. you can look at a game and go "yeah this game's mechanics and core gameplay loop generally operate like metroid/castlevania" or "yeah this game primarily uses a first person camera paired with some sort of projectile weapon" so i don't think they're completely useless. but "cozy" is just nonsense. fully subjective. i see a lot of games popularly labeled as "cozy" that share almost zero mechanical features between them and don't even always match in tone or aesthetic. hearing a game described as "cozy" doesn't tell you anything about what to expect as a player beyond maybe giving you a sort of forewarning about the fanbase and their discomfort tolerance. "cozy" is not a quantifiable metric. like imagine if someone offered to buy you takeout and asked you what kind of food you'd like and you told them fully unironically, and with no further elaboration, "i want to get yummy food." that's what hearing "cozy games" sounds like to me

[dyplopias-art]

i have so many responsibilities and i'm so bad at all of them. i just want to sleep through everything

[dyplopias-art]

barely managed to do anything, and my master's thesis tutor ghosted me anyway

going through eight years of uni with barely any help for my chronic pain and possible neurodivergence was... something

now i have to get a job, but at least i'm finally free from school

[dyplopias-art]

so little update

i might actually go back to school! to learn hair styling! couldn't find a job in my field anyway and i might be able to do a work-study program to pay school + have a salary

i have an appointment tomorrow with the school, it's only ten minutes away from home by tram

i just want people to come into my chair and be happy with themselves by the time they get out. might try to specialize in color. and i also really want to give people gender affirming haircuts

[dyplopias-art]

excellent news: the school accepted me right away! now i "only" have to find a salon wanting to hire me, which honestly is the toughest part but aaaah, it's great news still! i'm glad

[dyplopias-art]

i have so many responsibilities and i'm so bad at all of them. i just want to sleep through everything

[dyplopias-art]

barely managed to do anything, and my master's thesis tutor ghosted me anyway

going through eight years of uni with barely any help for my chronic pain and possible neurodivergence was... something

now i have to get a job, but at least i'm finally free from school

[dyplopias-art]

so little update

i might actually go back to school! to learn hair styling! couldn't find a job in my field anyway and i might be able to do a work-study program to pay school + have a salary

i have an appointment tomorrow with the school, it's only ten minutes away from home by tram

i just want people to come into my chair and be happy with themselves by the time they get out. might try to specialize in color. and i also really want to give people gender affirming haircuts

[curlytrek1701]

K so not to be dramatic or anything, but there's a free vintage French pattern book available on antiquepatternlibrary so if you like to crochet/weave/make pixel art/tie epic friendship bracelets don't walk- RUN.

It has scenes from aesop's fables! Cherubs doing things! Beheadings! Greek muses! Little farm people! Intricate floral pattern! Goth stained-glass window like patterns! Fun little corner pieces! Eeeeeeeeeeeeee

https://www.antiquepatternlibrary.org/html/warm/C-TT008-180.htm

[arollingriver]

🥚 Art commissions: PROMO from May 18 to June 1

Help me recoup from a health expense! My commissions are 20% off for 2 weeks.

-> DM only (tumblr & Bluesky)/PayPal only -> Please visit my blog to view more examples of my art! -> Reblogs & likes are greatly appreciated!

[dyplopias-art]

my partners and my best friend suggested we spend mother's day together. it's the first one since mom died and i'm glad to have them with me to face it. i'm so lucky to have them

[dyplopias-art]

COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!! ✨ i finally finished some important work that took me a lot of time, but i'm finally ready to take commissions! don't hesitate to contact me if you have any inquiries 💖

[dyplopias-art]

Full size version of the illustration I made of my cover of Alice!

the character is my PC Espérance whom I'm playing in a Curse of Strahd campaign 🥺💖💖

My commissions are open!

[orcboxer]

it's meee I'm your guardian angel hiiiiii 😇 okay🙏 so. in about six months, you're gonna die of starvation. 🥺 and if I don't protect you, I will get: #fired! 🫢 and that is No Good 🙅‍♀️ hahaaa So. 🙏 I looked into causes of starvation, and it turns out: Your death is totally preventable! 😯 Uh oh! 😆 There's more than enough food to sustain you without interfering with anyone else's survival, but you're not allowed to have it! 🤨 Whaaat? 🤷‍♀️ Apparently, your death is premeditated by thousands of things called "shareholders." So. 🙏 I've been killing people,

[arroscnleche]

soy yooo tu ángel de la guarda holiiiiii 😇 okay🙏 bueno. en como seis meses, vas a morir de hambre. 🥺 y si no te protejo, me van a: #¡despedir! 🫢 y eso No esta Chido 🙅‍♀️jajaaa Entonces. 🙏investigue acerca del tema y resulta que: ¡puedo prevenir tu muerte al 100%! 😯 ¡Uh oh! 😆 Hay más que suficiente comida para que sobrevivas sin que interfieras con la supervivencia de los demás, ¡pero no puedes teneral! 🤨 ¿Queeeé? 🤷‍♀️ Al parecer, tu muerte fue premeditada por miles de cosas llamadas "accionistas." Y bueno. 🙏 empeze a matar personas,

[tracing-rivers]

c'est moooi ton ange gardien coucooou 😇 bon 🙏 alors. dans genre six mois, tu vas mourir de faim. 🥺 et si je te protège pas, je vais me faire: #virer ! 🫢 et ça c'est pas Pas Super 🙅‍♀️ hahaaa Donc. 🙏 j'ai fait mes recherches sur les causes de famine et devine quoi: Ta mort est 100% évitable ! 😯 Oh-oh ! 😆 Il y a largement assez de ressources pour te nourrir sans interférer avec la survie d'autrui, mais tu n'y as pas accès ! 🤨 Quoooi ? 🤷‍♀️ Apparemment ta mort a été préméditée par des milliers de trucs appelées des "actionnaires". Du coup.🙏 j'ai tué pas mal de monde,

[clockworkspider]

hiiiiii 😇 我是亲的守护小天使！okay🙏 嗯。您在差不多半年会饿死哈🥺 若我不能救您我会被#炒鱿鱼！🫢 那可不行哦🙅‍♀️ 哈哈。所以昵🙏我查了一下人类饿死的原因，然后发现：诶呀呀😯亲的死是可以避免哒！😆 这世上有足够食物给亲吃，一点儿也不需要影响别人的生存率哒！但不给亲！🤨 怎么会这样昵？ 🤷‍♀️ 原来，亲的死是被一帮叫“股东”的东西计算好滴！ 所以昵🙏 我杀了一些人，

[orcboxer]

y'all are doing some rosetta stone shit to me

[dyplopias-art]

cover of Alice i made for our Curse of Strahd campaign, from the point of view of my character Espérance 🥺💖

[dyplopias-art]

cw: grief and death

my mom is probably gonna die soon. i am not ready even tho i've been preparing myself for this eventuality for two years. fuck she deserved better. she deserved a better child. i should have visited more, i should have been more present.

there was so much i wanted her to show me, i wanted to show her so many things i could create. she just spread her brother's ashes! she shouldn't die yet.

i was such a coward. i'm gonna bury her as helpless as i was when we learned she was ill. i wanted to be better when she died, i wanted her to know she could rest easy. i feel so useless

[little-grey-dowitcher]

So many people never learned to live with harmless discomfort at any point in their lives and holy fuck does it show

[little-grey-dowitcher]

“But I wanna know!” You’re gonna have to learn to be ok with not knowing some things, especially when those things involve personal details about strangers that they’re not comfortable sharing.

“But it’s confusing!” If you take the time to educate yourself it’ll no longer be confusing. Otherwise you’re just gonna have to learn to be ok with being confused.

“But it’s weird!” You probably do weird things all the time. Everyone does weird things sometimes. Life goes on.

“But it scares me!” Is it hurting you? No? You’ll be fine. Being scared and being harmed are not always the same thing. Learn to tell the difference and then act accordingly.

“But I want it!” And I want a million dollars. You can’t always get what you want.

[little-grey-dowitcher]

A lot of people were also never told “no” as children and the consequences of that manifest in similar ways. Learn to be ok with being told “no.” You’re not gonna die if you don’t get your way in every single situation ever.