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Work from home for real.

The SLS Way

#work from home #life insurance #work #online #100k per year

Buy me these, thanks.

#Diablo2 #resurrected #buy me this #gifts #gift ideas

I used to have a recurring dream from age ten to fifteen, I would wake up in the same position I fell asleep in except I was dreaming. I couldn’t move when I tried, it felt as if I were being held down, then suddenly I am released and can move. I run out of my room and once outside I notice it is raining white paint, I can feel the density between my toes. Then I am grabbed by something again, forced to look at myself through a window. Inside the window I see myself surrounded by flames, but sitting still. Then a voice speaks behind me and I break the window to wake myself up but I end up watching my hands bleed painlessly. Then I wake up. After I graduated high school there were a select few who showed to express their role in my up bringing, as customary with the graduate ceremony. The most prominent individual was an elderly LDS Mormon church member who assisted families with childcare. He spoke to my mother and she began to reintroduce me, as I had never met this person as an adult. After meeting him I felt incredibly off put but didn’t have a reason for the feeling. He said, “I taught you that the stove is hot, you wanted to climb on the oven so I turned it on, and put your hand on it to learn.” 🚩 I took dream psychology in high school, and had the recurring dream analyzed. The teacher was also a LDS church member. He told me the dream was incredibly bad, but never specifically said why. After 20 years of counseling, therapists, acupuncturists, and doctors. It is suggested that I have the evidence of sexual trauma. I spent two years studying Chinese medicine with a master, and one session he mentioned the recurring dream I had is common among people with sexual trauma. Children have the capacity to create simple metaphors in dreams with their limited language. After having the dream analyzed again fifteen years later there is a clearer story being told. In the dream I am held down first, then attempt to run away in which I am covered in “white paint”, which is sperm to the child creating a simple metaphor. Then I am taken to somewhere that is extremely hot as the created metaphor is surrounding fire. The babysitter knew exactly what he was doing by burning my hand to cover his sexual assault. I spent decades of my life being afraid of my own naked body but never knowing why, as my subconscious had repressed the event entirely. I am unable to press charges against him as he has fled the state and the lawyer I spoke to said the LDS church cannot be held responsible because it happened at his house. Moral of the story: Pay attention to the recurring dreams children have, there is a significant reason for them.

#sexual trauma #abuse #childhood ruined #child abuse #lds church #mormon #getting away with it

huffylemon

dreams-in-daylight

B A B Y

ooooo

TINY BABY

wheresanegg-blog

i’ve seen a lot of really messed up images in my time on the internet, weird fetish shit, even a few IRL gore images but nothing. NOTHING evokes such a deep seated, gut wrenching fear in me like this image of the fucking water slide from Action Park with the loop in it

beaft

hey what the fuck

e-pitom-e

GGGGGGGGG

#Nine G’s

#art #poet #entropy #syncronicity #poetry #ego #seasons

mytypeofdistraction

The White Stripes at MTV EMA’s 2003.

theshitpostcalligrapher

the curse of summer is buying and eating an inadvisable amount of fruit in single sittings.

amethystsoda

actuallytravis

Make sure to fall in love,

Tell someone about it, too.

When they have nothing else,

They can sell it back to you.

everythingfox

“A variety of wild animals visiting a water fountain”

(via)

alexisthenedd

Omg they’re all so small and thirsty and they know where to go to get a drink why am i crying

ryebreadgf

not going to lie guys i don’t think being employed is for me

prettyaveragewhiteshark

devastated to report that being unemployed is also terrible

rosalinastan

it's almost like we need to entirely restructure society or something

veralena-deactivated20240731

man this politics shit is easy

She said,

“break up with him in Paris, the city of love.”

#paris #love #art #photography #photoart

It is said that a friendship lasting seven years will likely last a lifetime… Well if that is true, then if I should forget about you in a year I might save myself from a duration of heartache, because knowing you is about as pleasant as an earthquake; when you’ve left something seems to feel moved out of place.

#art #poetry #friend #friendship