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Melpomene! 22,Gemini Sun/Moon with Cancer ascendant. Witchy stuff, Hellenic stuff, and personal rants. I'm just trying to figure things out

[eclipsedlives]

Alright so listen vague details here but I had a VERY vivid and strange dream where I was in a swampy area and I took a nap in the sunlight and my body felt so heavy but my heart was racing and my mind felt hazy and sedated it was so so strange and the only thing I knew for sure was that there was some kind of magic involved and the thing that came to mind was uhhhhh the fae and listen I woke up with my heart rate thru the roof and my body in like, fight or flight and I’m kinda FREAKING OUT HERE I have never ONCE contacted or sought out or even really believe in the fae but I am feeling a really strong pull right now so uhhhh if anyone has any thoughts HELP THANKS LMAO

[intimatum]

Virginia Woolf, The Years

[radiqueer]

one fairly common experience of gifted children is wishing for pain. wishing you had some great big horrible thing in your past so that you can justify the pain you’re in, and so that you’ll deserve help. it’s exhausting and it fucks you up and to anyone out there who feels like they haven’t suffered enough to get help: you’re allowed to want help. you’re in enough pain. you deserve to feel better

[rexieboii]

holy shit yeah

[homoslovenc]

[skiinny-bird]

is this one of those things that everyone actually does?? i just assumed i was a shitty person

[sir-ghost-the-green]

Wait that’s normal?

[star-anise]

It’s not “normal” as in “everybody feels this way so suck it up and quit whining”.

It’s “normal” as in “many people experience pain, loneliness, anxiety, self-hatred, and other symptoms of mental illness that feel like they ‘don’t count’ because there’s no real Thing they can point to to explain it, but their pain and suffering are real and ought to be taken seriously.”

However, when I say “many people” I actually mean “less than a quarter of the population”. The vast majority of people aren’t in massive internal pain most of the time. If this post resonates with you, I super recommend you look into mental health resources, because nobody deserves to feel this way, and there’s a very real hope that information, understanding, therapy, and/or medication can work together to help you feel better.

[star-anise]

Fantasizing about being hurt or dying in some way so that everyone realizes how much pain you’re in isn’t a sign that you’re a terrible person. It’s a sign that YOU’RE IN A LOT OF PAIN. Pain that deserves help and that CAN be helped.

The notes on this post today make me wanna CRY.

[snackwizard]

a fools guide to not wanting to die anymore

by me, a fool who doesnt wanna die anymore 

never make a suicide joke again. yes this includes “i wanna die” as a figure of speech. swear off of it. actually make an effort to change how you think about things.

find something to compliment someone for at least 4 times a day. notice the little things about the world that make you happy, and use that to make other people happy.

talk to people. initiate conversation as often as you possibly can. keep your mind busy and you wont have to worry anymore

picture the bad intrusive thoughts in youe head as an edgy 13 year old and tell them to go be emo somewhere else

if someone makes you feel bad most of the time, stop talking to them. making yourself hang out with people who drain you is self harm. stop it.

[wildlyannoyingdoofus]

… 8|

That’s some pretty good advice. I don’t know what’s left of my humor after ‘guess I’ll just die’ jokes but it’s worth a shot.

[snackwizard]

Personally i went from “guess I’ll die” jokes to “IF I HAVE TO BE HERE FOR 5 MORE MINUTES I PROMISE YOU I WILL BUY JUST, AN ARRAY OF CLOTHES.” and other wild hyperbolic stuff. Just replace the death part with something ridiculous and off topic. Its very entertaining

[808lien]

This also works with calling myself things like stupid, worthless, trash, etc. Even if you do this jokingly to yourself, your brain still believes it, and keeps up the cycle. Seriously, I found that when I stopped saying these things about myself, even jokingly, it made a massive difference.

[maramahan]

Here’s a tip I picked up from a friend that’s helped me a lot — replace self deprecating jokes with ironically self aggrandizing jokes

Like every time I trip and fall, instead of saying “l’m just a disaster human” I say “I’m the epitome of grace and beauty”

Or like, when I draw a picture I’m not 100% happy with, instead of saying “my art is trash” I say something like “you know I think it’s time we replaced the Mona Lisa”

When you do that you get to make a joke, but you’re ALSO getting practice building yourself up, y’know?

And eventually it becomes a reflex and you get so used to it that you can say nice stuff about yourself even when you AREN’T joking

[jkl-fff]

[scottjate]

This is so important

[cattatoniic]

i stopped saying “i wanna die” and I’ve instead been going “I DEMAND to FLOURISH” and like. it helps actually.

[factory]

Just because the past didn’t turn out like you wanted it to, doesn’t mean your future can’t be better than you ever imagined.

[eclipsedlives]

I’m not okay and I don’t know what to do about it I’m just not good and I can’t go to anyone cause I do y want my mom to worry and my person is distancing because of the other night I think and it’s not okay I need someone right now I’m not okay I can’t wait until Tuesday for therapy I need something now and there’s no way I’ll be able to work this weekend if I’m like this and I just can’t handle this right now god I’m not okay I’m not I’m not I haven’t been this bad in years and I can’t do this I feel like I’m gonna throw up oh my god

[eclipsedlives]

I am not o fucking k.

[eclipsedlives]

Realized something fun tonight! Only two people have ever sought out my friendship! The first being my best friend and the second being my other friend but she and I only became friends because we had a mutual friend. Every other person I had in my life was only my friend because I was a package deal with my best friend and no one since high school has ever wanted to be my friend (: no wonder I’m so bad with people and relationships on a personal level! It’s because only two people in my whole life thought I was worth knowing! But they both had lives outside of me now! And I still only have them! So while they move on I’m stuck here completely unable to form new relationships and I have no one else! It’s just me! Yay!

[eclipsedlives]

I continue to be too much

[eclipsedlives]

Breaking news! I continue to be a piece of shit (:

[unclefather]

[kittydesade]

Spooky Shopkeeper: The price may be more than you expect to pay.

Me: Yes, I know how US taxes work, too.

[del3141]

Shopkeeper, increasingly exasperated: I’m trying to tell you that I’m evil and offering these wares with no regard for the harm they will do!

Me, also increasingly exasperated: I know what capitalism is too goddammit

[june-egbert-official]

The shopkeeper, annoyed: I'M TELLING YOU IT WILL COST YOUR SOUL.

Me, equally annoyed: AND I'M TELLING YOU I UNDERSTAND "NO ETHICAL CONSUMPTION UNDER CAPITALISM"

[eclipsedlives]

I feel the most intense, deep, heart wrenching longing. This deep pull inside my chest that tells me there’s something, some /one/ out there right now, at this second. They’re waiting for me. I know it. I just have to find them. But I think they’re far away. I don’t know who they are, or what they’ll be to me. But I need them- I feel it in my soul like it’s a fact. In the same way I need air. I can feel them calling for me too. Who are you? Where are you? I want to meet you. I need you. I know you need me too.

I can’t wait to find you again.

[orriculum]

Infused Water Magic

perhaps it’s a bit too warm for coffee potions, or hot chocolate magic, or even tea spells, but you still want to work a little magic into your day. infused waters! here’s just a couple of suggestions with fruit and even herbs, and their correspondences.

for all recipes, chop, cube, or slice all fresh ingredients. let them sit in a bottle of cool water for a few hours. the longer it waits, the more flavor infuses. afterwards, you can eat the fruit or infuse it again!

Honeydew Melon and Raspberry   🍈 🍇

for fertility, love, beauty, protection, abundance, and lunar magic

Strawberry, Lime, and Cucumber  🍓 🍊  🍠

for love, chastity, fertility, healing, fortune, peace and protection.

Raspberry, Rose Petal, and Vanilla  🍇  🌹  🍃

for love, protection, divination, healing, psychic abilities. happiness, and lust.

Citrus and Cucumber 🍊  🍠

for purification, protection, beauty, divination, purification, and wealth.

Rosemary and Grapefruit 🍃 🍈

for exorcism, healing, love, lust, protection, purification, spirituality and energy

Watermelon and Mint  🍉  🍃

for purification, new beginnings, exorcism, healing, protection, and wealth.

Strawberry, Lemon, and Basil  🍓 🍊  🍃

for courage, exorcism, protection, friendship, purification and love.

Orange and Blueberry  🍊  🍇

for protection, beauty, divination, fortune, love, purification, and wealth

[lhommetimide]

When you start dating somebody and they make a post sayin “Physical attractiveness is not important to me. Its whats inside that counts “

[death-witch-envy]

“Soul Gem” Pop Culture Glamor Spell

A glamor spell to fill the gaps in my life created by seeing no Madoka Magica spells, and also for never being as cute as Madoka Kaname.

This spell gives you a “soul gem”, an item that will make you feel glamorous and special every time you keep it on your person. In other words, you get to experience your own “magical girl transformation”, although anyone of any gender can use this spell.

You will need:

An item you often keep on your person–jewelry, keys, even a shoelace

A stone of your favorite color (if you’re having trouble choosing, I recommend choosing a warm or metallic color, like red or gold)

A clothing, bag or piece of cloth of the same color

Your phone or a flashlight

Dried rose petals

(optional) Glamor Salt

Your favorite outfit

Directions:

1.   Put on your favorite outfit. It can be anything–a suit, a bathing suit, a cosplay, pajamas, your favorite underwear (it does not have to be the same color as your cloth or stone). It doesn’t matter so much what it is as it does how you feel while wearing the outfit. Changing into the outfit puts you into a confident, self-loving mindset, and gives you ideas of how you want to appear to others.

2.   Take your item of choice and either put it in the glamor salt. If you do not have the glamor salt on you, OR if your item will get damaged by sitting in the salt, place it in a pile of rose petals instead.

3.   Scatter a ring of rose petals around the item.

4.   Place your stone nearby the item (NOT in the salt, as salt damages certain stones). The setup should look something like this:

5.   While your item is charging, think of a word that summarizes how you want others to perceive you. It could be “androgynous”, “badass”, “cute”, “masculine”, “confident”–whatever makes you feel best about yourself. Got it? Keep it in your head, and imagine someone looking at you and immediately thinking that word. Embrace how confident that makes you feel.

6.   Turn on your flashlight or the flashlight app on your phone, and place it inside the bag/cloth. Turn out the lights. You should see a lamp-like glow of your favorite color lighting the space.

7.   Take your item out of the roses/salt, and place it on the glowing cloth. Hold your hands over it and think, “I am _______!” (whatever your chosen word is). Repeat it to yourself. Remember how you felt when you imagined someone perceiving you that way? Feel that, and allow it to flow through your arms and into your chosen item. The glow of the cloth will help you. Try to dump all of your confident, self-loving feelings into the item.

8.   When you feel you have adequately charging the item, turn on the lights and wash the item off. You’re done! You’ve created your very own soul gem. If you ever feel the need to recharge it, you can shine a light beneath the cloth again, and let the item sit for a while to charge.

I hope this spell helps people feel beautiful, strong and confident. Thank you for reading. Have a beautiful day ahead!! (^ー^)/’`*:;,．★

[violetwitchcraft-deactivated202]

Grimoire Prompts

Here’s a few ideas if you’re stuck on what you want to do!

Pendulum board

Crystal grid

Your favourite song, turned into a spell

Pressed flowers

Photographs of nature

Your handprint, with all the things that make you ‘you’ written inside

Pouch to hold incense 

Black mirror page (Using some reflective black material)

Create your own alphabet

A letter to yourself in the future or in the past

Create an altar in your grimoire

Smells of witchcraft you love

Magical moments in your life

Dream diary

Drawings of places you have seen in meditation/ astral travel

Photos of your pets

List of reasons why you are glad to be a witch

Write a letter to a deity, or if you don’t believe in deity, to an ancestor 

Colour palette tabs found from paint shops

A pie chart of significant things in your practise

Unorthodox correspondences; (examples: Socks for protection and comfort, Blue tack for creativity, doritos for enjoyment)

What would your followers leave as offerings for you if you were a deity?

Make a tarot card out of old newspaper pictures 

Write a spell using the most ridiculous objects you can think off

Create a mythical creature that would be your familiar

[eclipsedlives]

I swear my plans are always cancelled, like I wonder what it’s like to know people who follow through on things 😪