If you can, spend time with friends. Play a game that makes you happy. Watch a movie or a TV show or whatever. Listen to some music you love. Spoil yourself with some "bad" food. Do whatever you need to do to give yourself some comfort.
Your despair is valid, but it won't make the problem go away. Take some time to rest and to grieve, but also do something to seek comfort. We have some time before he takes office -- rest up. You'll need your strength.
It is your duty to outlive him. We survived this once before -- we will again. Please, keep living. We're going to go through hell, but we WILL make it out the other side. And I want you to be here for it when we do.
suicide hotline info
You're not bad or selfish if you need this. You're not "taking resources away from other people." If you need it, PLEASE, contact them. And if you're not sure whether or not you do, contact them. Please. I want you to be around when we finally get through this hell.
