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established 23 / 01 / 23. extremely low activity & heavily headcanon based FFXIV centric multimuse of different medias, remembered by kiwi. please read law / dossier. legacy & beta text editor friendly !

dual muse blog / @nyantm ( active ) touchstarved sideblog / @eridias. WOL sideblog, shinobu caméline / @ardorsung. femme fatale oc sideblog, keiko / @fleshtorne. psd credit. art credit. interest checker.

post EW - 6.3 & spoilers tagged, but not spoiler friendly.

highest muses: nima, jiyu, sideblog muses. tester muses: jett, liu qingge, rei suwa.

hi i’m kiwi — 21, mixed, bisexual disaster, chaotic good ! i’m just here to have a fun time, not a long one, & yell about my fave scrunklies & 80s horror. feel free to im / ask about anything. <3

#𝒊. — ❛ 𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐃. / the white winged dove sings a song，an aria calamitous.#DO NOT INTERACT.

started thinking about jiyu again (wjen am i not)

beating myself with a rock. he's like standing man emoji. do u understand. the urge to make him helmetless (but blindfolded bc yk, eyes are the windows to the soul. a nod to his wanting to take a step toward being More open, not open in his entirety, but more than he was before by uncovering his face because it's a facet of being known for him--- the body snatch fiasco has Not left his mind yet, amid everything else, and yknow; it's taking that step into trusting the people he's starting to see as family, a hint of what he had before yk)

for like. the next arc of the story....... a lil makeover. but we'll see. also in fun news i learned red mage, that's not a class he'd ever explore lore wise, but i do think he looks so slay.

perceive him.

#𝒊. — ❛ 𝐎𝐎𝐂. / manderville’s on ur grave.#jiyu tag.#i cant be bothered to find his pretty tag i wont lie to u #also hello i did Not die #im like. weighing out whether i can actually manage #making another multi #if its low energy.... maybe.#but also i mean there's a muse ill be returning to sometime after christmas so like. u know NEVER TRULY GONE

so heartsteel got me thinkin abt my comeback

#𝒊. — ❛ 𝐎𝐎𝐂. / manderville’s on ur grave.#tbd.#oh wow tumblrs broken on chrome #ok anyways uh if i make heartsteel ezreal blog. well. it is what it is #neow im not ruling it out as a pawsibility! i just know he would be an itzy mamamoo block b fan #i wonder. he'd also like stray kids #i have many thoughts. if im coming back itll definitely be solo blog first lol i love this multi and wanna revive it #i just cant imagine having the energy to like. make a multi right out the gate #but anyways hi yall #things have been HAPPENING i moved to the UK and got 3 boyfriends so like. life is kind of going BGDJNSDKMDS #i miss writing tho i want to return so yeah if i do......... ezweale

G'RAHA TIA EATS A BIG FUCKING TACO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#𝒊. — ❛ 𝐎𝐎𝐂. / manderville’s on ur grave.#tbd.#THIS COULD BE THE VERY THING THAT BRINGS ME BACK #ask to tag /#IDK HOW TO TAG THIS #URHYRHGRGHUNERHNRENHUERH HES SO FUCKING CUTE #Y'SHTOLA IS SO CUTE #U BETTER NOT BE CUNTY PINEAPPLE URIANGER WHEN I GET THERE!!!!!!!!

OH I COMPLETELY FORGOT. 6.4 spoilerish but jiyu's tank fit makes him look SOOOOOOOOO baby girl

#patch 6.4 spoilers /#𝒊𝒊. — ❛ 𝐉𝐈𝐘𝐔. / unspoken prodigy rend 'twixt fate’s grasp，weathered spite to temper blade.#LIKE OHHHH THE LONG HAIR.........#he looks SO kissable. your muse SHOULD kiss him right now.#he's so pathetic and ooOOiUiuoUUOou #im telling u it is SO tempting to make him mask off for the post endwalker patches #like part of me is meh bc it takes away from the importance of his mask #BUT its so important #honestly atp might just make a side canon verse where he opts to keep his mask off post endwalker / toward the end #so there'll be a mask canon & an unmask canon #it doesnt rly make much of a difference for anyone else its just an important character theme for him #but anyways hes SO kissable

one day i will figure out how to put all of jiyu's deranged thoughts on paper and then u will all know

#𝒊. — ❛ 𝐎𝐎𝐂. / manderville’s on ur grave.#LIKE ITS THE TRAUMA #AND THE SUBDUED RAGE HE ALWAYS FEELS #AND ITS HIS GRIEF LIVING ON HIM. IN HIM ALWAYS #AND ITS THE AWKWARDNESS AND GRASPING FOR THAT WHICH HE CANT REACH #AND ITS THE HOLDING ON. HE IS A CRACKING SHIELD #AND ITS THE DEVOTION AND THE UNSPOKEN WORDS #HE FEARS TO SPEAK #EVEN WHEN HES FACED GODS AND MONSTERS AND EVERY ENTITY YOU CAN THINK OF #its. there are layers to him and when i can write that down. its over #IM JUST I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT HIM!!!!!!!!!! ALWAYS #HES SO PATHETIC AND WET MEOW MEOW

metoikhomai-deactivated20230707

"thoughts keep growing, words keep cutting you, and you ask yourself... who is this even for?"

( @eikons ) | lyrical starter call.

eikons

LIPS PART in silence, in consideration, and the weariness that crested bone deep would call out in reverent agreement. to what end were they fighting for ? and what he wouldn't give to give up the ghost, hadn't they bared their teeth and sacrificed enough ? but... ───

❝ ... for those whose tomorrows have yet to come. and in their tomorrows, we remember those whose never came. ❞

BARITONE HUMS and 'neath his helm do careful lilacs observe ardent, with worries cloying in throat, he speaks what care he can without choking.

❝ you can't save them all. but it's enough. ❞

#JIYU.#PAIN U SAY? OH BOY!#its jiyu's internal double whammy of 'oh boy dont i know it' and 'be normal. be normal.'

was talking 2 a friend abt stuff & i was saying how lahabrea lost himself to destruction, emet selch to his grief, & elidibus to his duty & its hrs later but damn tht shit still hurt fr

#𝒊. — ❛ 𝐎𝐎𝐂. / manderville’s on ur grave.#they all lost themselves to grief i think it's just far more evident in emet #anyways ouuuuuuu pain.

ardorsung

─── and there is beauty, where there is hope.

hi gamers, kiwi is back at it again with ANOTHER meow meow; meet shinobu caméline, dual warrior of light, & siren in the living flesh. lonely orphan with naught but a stolen chocobo and their sibling walk unto the light and with her songs does she hope to bring about a peace unrelenting; light bringer, god killer, novice florist ! this blog IS a sideblog & follows from eikons, but like / reblog if u wanna interact anyways <3

─── and there is beauty, where there is hope.

#thinking abt her again

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the capillaries in my eyes are bursting, if our love died, would that be the worst thing? for somebody i thought was my savior, you sure make me do a whole lot of labour. the calloused skin of my hands is cracking, if our love ends, would that be the worst thing? and the silence haunts our bed chamber, you make me do too much labour.

#nima tag.#𝒊𝒊. — ❛ 𝐉𝐈𝐘𝐔. / unspoken prodigy rend 'twixt fate’s grasp，weathered spite to temper blade.#this is Kind Of him insofar as constantly laboring for those he loves & becoming tired of it all

thinking abt nima and they carry their mother with them always, a wisp of who she was, a ghost they can't remember but they'll always carry her with them

& it's the way nima's life parallels their mothers towards the end of her life, the symbolism of how she lives in nima still even in spite of their memory loss. & it's how nima defies it still, a key facet of their personality--- nima has always defied the world & cuts the strings of fate that holds them.

in their mother, sacrifice carries strong, but like their father nothing could chain them for better or for worse.

& i'm just laying here like ouuuoouuuuu.....

#nima tag.#its that theme of 'your parents living inside you' & rising above them #also jiyu and nima handshake in carrying their mothers with them #albeit jiyu carries both of his parents with him #whereas nima only carries their mother but still #it's just....... it Makes Me Feel Things #how nima was tortured with the same grief & woes of sacrifice but she rises above it #always refusing to be locked in a situation that's not on their own terms #& it carries in their death; it was on their terms. they knew what they were doing #& took the plunge anyways

mirthridatism

Lyrics: Paris Paloma. “Labour” (2023) || Artemisia Gentileschi. Judith Slaying Holofernes (1614–1620) || Caravaggio. Judith Beheading Holofernes (1599–1602)

#nima tag.#blood /#decapitation /#GOD IM SO SAD there are layers to this.#specifically in relation to nima & their father #it's the way they both ran. avoidance & distance. but unlike her father #nima will always follow through in their commitments #but also. there's smth abt 'she'd meet the same cruel fate' & thats the loss of one you loved #in nima situation its much different but the effect is still the same

tragedykery

I ❤️ self-loathing characters, characters who struggle with monstrosity (either fearing or embracing it), characters who are so lonely, who have a gaping hole in their chest, who bottle up & repress their feelings, who claw their way up & have ambitions, who fall down & lose everything, who search for identity & purpose yet can’t see themselves outside of what others want from or expect of them, who are hurt & hurt others, who long & grieve, who lie & pretend. characters who are messy & flawed & human

#𝒊𝒊. — ❛ 𝐉𝐈𝐘𝐔. / unspoken prodigy rend 'twixt fate’s grasp，weathered spite to temper blade.#nima tag.#fandaniel tag.#shen jiu tag.

ewil

coping with the pain of living by being a little silly

#nima tag.

luthienne

Jack Gilbert, from Collected Poems; "Waking at Night"

#minfilia tag.#IF I SUFFER YOU WILL ALL SUFFER

OHHHHHHHHHHH MY GODDDDDDD

I LOVE ZERO SO FUCKING MUCH i need zero to interact with shinobu this is no longer optional. i need zero to interact with NIMA!!!!!! WLW NB4NB I NEED IT!!!!!!!

also fucking. man im OBSESSED WITH THIS PATCH. THE WAY JIYU STOPS AND GETS SOMBER AND THINKS ABOUT ZENOS AFTER THE HANDSHAKE LIKE AGASASNJASMNKAMASMSAMAS LITERALLY INSANE FOR IT

i also keep thinking abt drk jiyu being a canon thing. i also keep considering like.... after the events at the end of endwalker with him basically losing everyone he's ever loved for the Second Time & managing to come back from that, potentially, him showing his face might not be such a bad idea here. it's symbolic, there's a layer o like uhh... newfound meaning, he has a family to protect as it's always been, it's different but it's still family-- like that one post or poem, 'there's a reclamation that has to happen'

oh also his drk gear was absolutely designed by tataru, he is her designated model. he loves modeling for her tho he'll never tell her but they both know. tataru is one of the ppl he's most comfortable around i've decided

#patch 6.4 spoilers /#endwalker spoilers /#𝒊𝒊. — ❛ 𝐉𝐈𝐘𝐔. / unspoken prodigy rend 'twixt fate’s grasp，weathered spite to temper blade.#hello im not dead #i was actually supposed to hop on a few days ago #bc i was gonna make an nsfw post abt jiyu giving g'raha head #i keep thinking abt it #but this is more important SVBSMNSFDMSD

nyantm

─── REPENT MOTHERFUCKER !

hey-o ! it's ya bitch kiwi here w/ a blast from the past fr; everyone's favourite kitty goths stocking anarchy (PASWG) & ichimatsu matsuno (OSOSAN) here to curse ur dashboard with the free price of liking / reblogging this post bc u, too, love (me) embracing cringe in the year of our lord 2023 ! anyways, if u love foul meow meows (literal) interact w/ this post & join me in hell if ur brave enough, ty !

─── TRASH, VIRGIN, NEET !

#SUPPORT MY BRANDDDDDD #this new tagging system is ass #anyways ill be rbing this a few times until i #get round to making an actual promo gfx #but ill be here for a bit

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