My cousins wedding was held a couple hours from my home, and we're spending the night at a pretty nice hotel, everyone looked great. The bride was beautiful, my cousin didn't feint when he saw her, the country club where the reception was held was stunning. The dj started playing the dance music, and the bridal party dances were done, everything done without a hitch. Then the public dancing started: Awesome songs that I always dance to in my room. My sisters and cousin went up to dance like the sheltered children they used to be, barely moving and awkward shuffling while those who drink became more and more boisterous. The room was split in two, one half tables, the other, the dance floor. The room had built in wooden room dividers that I was standing by, awkwardly watching the dancing people and enjoying the music that was way, way too loud. I wanted to join in and dance, but I don't know how. I'm too awkward to just walk up and join, or ask if I can join them. My great aunt noticed me and told my sister to go pull me to the dance floor. I was terrified and resisted, but my leather sole dress shoes don't provide enough traction to give any real resistance. I stood there awkwardly and bounced around to the beat, but I kept my arms at stomach level at all times, stiff as a board. I was even awkward during the Cupid Shuffle, which, I mean, come on; anyone can do the Cupid Shuffle. I tried to get away as much as possible to avoid the complete and utter gut-wrenching horror. After three hours of this, we went back to the hotel. I waited to be last in the bathroom, then just stood in the shower and cried. My ears are still ringing from the music. Nothing is worse than that feeling of worthlessness I felt. I want to dance, and I want to have fun doing it, but the anxiety has made me feel like puking. I'm not usually the anxious type but any sort of loud, crowded social situation makes me feel like that. Does anyone out there have any advice for a socially inept young dude? I'd like to dance at my future wedding, but anything like that would ruin the day for me.
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