I started taking medication (risperdone, 2mg) for ocd and while theres no huge difference they’ve definitely helped!! Also I hated fluoxetine!!! The side effects sucked so bad and it didnt help like at all. I’m on escitalopram (20mg) and it has almost no side effects as far as I’m aware (it’s why I picked it). Sorry for this random ass ask but I started medication recently and I feel like it really helped and then I saw your post idk😊
oh yeah meds (when they work) are great, that whole thing didn't scare me away from them or anything. i took 2mg of aripiprazole and 150mg bupropion for a while afterward
duke is implied to be immortal. duke has umbrakinesis. duke amplifies others powers when they’re close to him. jason might as well be immortal with the amount of times he’s died and implied to be dead and subsequently revived. jason has the all-blades which is essentially soul magic. the all-caste is all about metaphorical (literal? hell if i know) shadow and light. duke is the literal shadow and light. duke and jason going on a magical bonding adventure. in this essay i will—
duke’s ability to amp up other meta’s powers is a background power and it’s fully unconscious. jason has an intrinsic affinity for soul magic but hasn’t been trained on it too much thanks to the general all-caste insanity. in tandem, their power combine and jason’s powers are boosted enough for him to accidentally link their souls. jason’s soul is fragmented and now it’s linked to duke’s and seeping energy away from duke. forced magical adventure bonding for them to figure out how to unlink their souls so jason doesn’t accidentally kill duke.
random focus points below:
first things first, the all-caste and all the magic associated with it would get a total revamp. it’s too “white boy discovers asian culture and is better than all of them after a short training period while it took the rest of them a life time” for my liking. why is this such a common trope in comics. boooo. anyway.
the all-caste is just the tip of the iceberg for soul magic. they exist because the fields of all whatever the hell it’s called i actually forgot oops. the fields of all is essentially a place where the link between the physical world and spiritual world is thin and that’s why there’s time dilation stuff going on.
there’s multiple of these spots scattered around the world. that’s right. jason training montage baby. he needs to get his ass kicked. he needs to struggle. THE BATS DON’T HAVE TO BE GOOD AT EVERYTHING DC PLEASE GOD LET THEM STRUGGLE
anywhoozle
the all-caste places a lot of significance on light and dark, good versus evil, but that’s stupid. grey is my favorite color and by god i will make dichotomies co-exist with the spaces in between. a fire will destroy a forest but without it the forest will destroy itself. life grows from the ash as long as no one comes by to salt it.
soul magic in itself is about balance. it destroys and takes as much as it vitalizes and gives. jason would struggle with the vitalization aspect.
duke, on the other hand, would thrive in the vitalization aspect. his whole thing is building community and doing good because he has the capability to do so. he’s also so intuitive with other people and can understand other’s psyche with ease.
jason? not so much.
they’re on this whole trip to separate their souls and heal the damage to duke’s soul. surface level, they’re complete opposites. do a bit of a deep dive and they’re pretty damn similar in so many aspects.
another bit i wanna explore is duke’s “sacrifice is selfish” vs jason’s “love me and i’ll sacrifice all i am for you”
basically just duke’s self-surety and jason’s complete lack of sense of self.
duke would thrive with the soul magic, if he was the one who had it. jason doesn’t thrive. he struggles. he lashes out. duke doesn’t take any shit.
forced bonding full of so much arguing and moments where they’re taken back from how much they actually get along and agree with each other.
duke would be so helpful for dealing with the untitled as well
jason “i’ll do this on my own” versus duke “you’re only as strong as your weakest link. teamwork makes the dream work”
duke and jason both being mama’s boys
two headstrong adrenaline junkies stuck together what will they do
Oh my god ok you’re a genius I love this idea so much.
The whole idea of Jason having these powers that to Duke seem so intuitive, but for Jason hes just STRUGGLING. And Duke just being like, “genuinely what is your problem.”
I can just imagine Duke getting SO frustrated with Jason, and then Jason getting frustrated in turn cause “ITS NOT THAT EASY DUKE!!”
And just the whole idea of these two teaming up. I love it so much, please do ramble more.
grabbing you by the shoulders and shaking you. you get it. you see my vision
jason’s soul magic is so prevalent on finding equilibrium within, and while on the surface, jason seems to be open with his emotions and connected to them, he’s really not. he’s a liar, not only to those around him, but to himself.
duke’s motivations are clear. he fell headfirst into this life for his parents. he helps people because that’s what his mom would do and that’s what she taught him. there’s no doubt in his mind about his placement because he has that self-confidence. he embraces it.
i don’t want this to become a jason morality struggle fic because i believe that’s the one thing he is sure about and that his use of capital punishment is essential to his character. don’t remember the exacts on duke’s morality but him and cass are self-proclaimed siblings so i would imagine it leans towards anti-killing. it’s something i’ll have to reread some comics before making any decisions on it
some points of bonding between them would be
one: their shared love of literature
two: their similar music tastes
duke is a poet and even writes his own, and it’s one of the few things he doesn’t really share about himself. and jason’s well-known love of classics
duke listens to metal while jason listens to punk (and metal as of newer comics)
i think they’d enjoy arguing literary thematics and when jason gets dramatic and starts quoting soliloquies or other dramatic readings, duke can finish the quotes and steal jason’s thunder (jason is secretly delighted about this)
anyway. jason’s lack of community—for all its various reasons—and duke who will build community with his bare hands dammit just fascinate me
i’m putting them in a jar and shaking them. they’re being spun around in my head
duke is implied to be immortal. duke has umbrakinesis. duke amplifies others powers when they’re close to him. jason might as well be immortal with the amount of times he’s died and implied to be dead and subsequently revived. jason has the all-blades which is essentially soul magic. the all-caste is all about metaphorical (literal? hell if i know) shadow and light. duke is the literal shadow and light. duke and jason going on a magical bonding adventure. in this essay i will—
the reason that wounds that break the skin hurt is because its always supposed to be dark inside your body and when your blood sees sunlight for the first time it gets scared. and that causes the pain. or maybe it doesnt
my senior english teacher told me that any scene with a woman in a cornfield in every piece of literature ever is about her journey to womanhood/pleasuring herself in the field and i just.... believed her
