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crazy how i find myself thinking i've got a handle on it all finally and then i see the ways that other people tangle their lives together so easily and live so easily together with their friends and i feel like that girl at the top of the stairs painting by norman rockwell

mossy-cobble

i'll always be here

nevver

Glimmerati, Claudia Keep

rthwrms

TODAY I AM EXCITED ABOUT ESCAPING THE TORTURE LABYRINTH (& other affirmations)

cyeayt

Shout out to Characters who are shells of their former selves! You died and you’re not coming back! You don’t recognize yourself and neither does anyone else, and it’s anyone’s guess what the fuck you’re supposed to be now!

creekfiend

in general I find that "why did someone behave this way" is almost always answered by "behaving otherwise was too difficult and frightening for them at the time," and then you have to dig into why that is. people behave in ways that feel 1. easy for them (do not require much thought or effort) 2. accessible to them (patterns that have worked many times before) and 3. safe for them (apparently predictable outcome)

this is true even for behavior that is absolutely horrific and totally unacceptable. which can be a tough thing to accept, I think.

cardboardlife

Happy Valentine's day!

untitledorb

i feel like there could be better rewards for crawling out of the hole that resembles the grave but isnt. like maybe getting thrown a parade every time

livepasthope

moodboard for when you know that in order to receive the rewards of being loved you have to submit to the mortifying ordeal of being known except you've already submitted to the ordeal and got the rewards and yeah it was good but nothing lasts and honestly going through that fucking sucks so like you don't know if it's worth it anymore and you try to convince yourself you're okay and to stop yearning but you can't and you are lonely so you go on dating apps and try to put yourself out there and be vulnerable and cry in front of your friends again and shit bc even though you've hated every second of it, you've been working really hard at unlearning unhealthy coping mechanisms and honestly made some real progress

juney-blues

not an original sentiment by any means but "worrying that you're somehow not trans enough to count" isn't a very cis thing to do

juney-blues

"oh god what if i'm faking" that you're worried about that as a potential outcome is kinda proof otherwise. i think if you were truly cis you wouldn't feel any kind of dread or apprehension or any other negative emotion about the prospect of not getting to be trans.

juney-blues

"what if i'm faking" like yeah, what if. what would that entail. if it turned out you somehow *weren't* trans and were just faking the shit out of it. How would having to pack it all in and just live as your assigned gender at birth make you feel? oh? oh you'd feel bad about it? interesting!

guns-and-smoke

yuriartillery

hold on let me try to invent a version of myself who can get us out of this mess [holds really still for a minute and a half and then turns to you with a flat affect] we probably should have killed ourselves an hour ago

oafmeal

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aconstellationcollective

dehumanization as horror is great and all but what about humanization as horror. Being forced into a role that was not made for you. Being forced to fulfill expectations that you can never achieve. Being made to exist in a society that so cruelly expects you to act in a way that is against your nature.