pls do a part two of almost confession when they meat again đ
Here to stay
Han jisung x f!reader
Synopsis: part 2 of this fic- part 1
A/n: im so sorry this took sooo long i honestly didnât know what to write, i donât normally write part 2âs of my angsty fics. But im so glad u requested this as it was so fun to write. Hope you enjoy my lovelies <33
Wc: 1,671
The whole journey back felt longer than it should have.
Every train announcement, every passing streetlight, every second she spent staring at her reflection in the window only gave her more time to think.
And thinking was dangerous.
What if he didnât feel the same anymore?
What if the confession had only meant something in the moment?
What if, while she had been away trying to sort her life out, Jisung had realised she wasnât worth waiting for?
She hated that thought most of all.
Her fingers tightened around the strap of her bag as the taxi pulled up near the dorm building. She didnât text him. She couldnât. The whole point was that it was meant to be a surprise.
But now that she was here, standing outside the place she had imagined returning to a hundred times, she felt frozen.
What if he opened the door and looked disappointed?
What if he didnât open it at all?
She swallowed hard, lifted her hand, and knocked.
A few seconds passed.
Then the door opened.
Lee Know stood there in a hoodie, his expression unreadable for half a second before his eyes softened.
âYouâre here,â he said.
She blinked, nerves making her voice small. âHi.â
He stepped aside immediately. âCome in.â
Her chest tightened as she walked past him. The dorm felt the same, warm and familiar, but there was something quieter about it. Like the usual chaos had been turned down.
She slipped off her shoes by the door, gripping her bag with both hands.
âDoes he know?â she asked.
Lee Know shook his head. âNo. I didnât tell him.â
âOh.â Her stomach twisted. âIs he⊠okay?â
Lee Know looked at her for a moment, and that was enough to make her heart sink.
âHeâs been better,â he said carefully.
Her throat went dry. âWhat do you mean?â
He leaned back against the wall, crossing his arms. âHeâs been acting like heâs fine. Which usually means he really isnât.â
Guilt settled heavily in her chest.
âI didnât mean to leave like that,â she whispered. âI mean, I had to, but⊠after he confessed, I justâeverything happened so fast. I thought maybe heâd regret it. Or forget about it. Or find someone else.â
Lee Know gave her a look.
She frowned. âWhat?â
âYouâre both idiots.â
Despite herself, a weak laugh escaped her.
âIâm serious,â he said, though his voice wasnât harsh. âHe hasnât found someone else. He hasnât even looked at anyone else. He barely talks about you because when he does, he gets this stupid look on his face and then goes quiet for the rest of the day.â
Her eyes burned.
Lee Knowâs expression softened a little more.
âHe missed you,â he said. âA lot.â
She looked down at the floor, blinking quickly. âI missed him too.â
âI know.â He nodded towards the hallway. âHeâs in his room.â
Her heart started beating so loudly she was sure Lee Know could hear it.
âDoes he want to see me?â she asked.
Lee Knowâs face shifted into something almost fond.
âHe always wants to see you.â
That was all it took.
She set her bag down near the sofa and walked towards the hallway. Each step felt heavier than the last. When she reached his door, she hesitated, her hand hovering over the handle.
For a moment, she remembered the last time she had seen him.
His nervous smile. His shaky voice. The way he had finally said the words he had almost said so many times before.
I like you.
No, I think Iâm in love with you.
And then her own awful timing.
Iâm leaving tomorrow morning.
She closed her eyes, breathed in, and knocked softly.
There was a pause.
Then his voice came from inside, tired and muffled.
âMinho-hyung, I said Iâm fine.â
Her heart cracked a little.
âItâs not Minho.â
Silence.
Then hurried movement.
The door opened so quickly she barely had time to prepare herself.
Jisung stood there in an oversized shirt, his hair messy, eyes wide like he wasnât sure she was real.
For a few seconds, neither of them said anything.
He just stared at her.
She tried to smile, but it trembled. âHi, Ji.â
His lips parted, but no sound came out.
Then his expression changed.
Not happiness. Not at first.
Hurt.
Confusion.
Disbelief.
âYouâre here,â he said quietly.
She nodded. âIâm here.â
His eyes searched her face like he was waiting for the catch. âFor how long?â
The question landed between them heavier than anything else could have.
She stepped closer, her voice soft. âThatâs what I came to tell you.â
He looked away, jaw tightening. âYou donât have to explain. I get it. You had to go. You have your own life. I shouldnât have said anything before you left. It was selfish.â
âNo.â She shook her head quickly. âJisung, no.â
He let out a humourless laugh, looking down. âI spent so long trying to say it, and when I finally did, you left the next morning. Kind of feels like the universe was telling me to shut up.â
Her eyes filled instantly.
âI didnât leave because of you.â
âI know,â he said, but he didnât sound like he believed it.
She stepped into his room, gently pushing the door mostly closed behind her.
âI need you to listen to me,â she said.
He went still.
She took a shaky breath. âI was scared the entire way here. I kept thinking youâd moved on. That youâd realised it was just the moment, or that missing me was too much trouble, or that youâd found someone easier to love.â
His eyes snapped back to hers.
âEasier?â he repeated, almost offended. âYou think I wanted easy?â
She swallowed.
He ran a hand through his hair, frustrated now, but not at her. âI didnât want someone else. I wanted you. I still want you.â
Her heart stuttered.
âEven after everything?â she whispered.
His face softened, the hurt slipping into something rawer.
âEspecially after everything.â
For a moment, she couldnât move.
Then she reached for him.
He froze when her fingers brushed his sleeve, like he was afraid that if he moved too quickly, sheâd disappear.
âI came back as soon as I could,â she said. âNot for a few days. Not just to visit.â
His brows pulled together.
She smiled through her tears.
âIâm here to stay.â
Jisung stared at her.
âWhat?â
âIâm staying,â she repeated, voice breaking slightly. âI sorted everything out. It took longer than I wanted, and Iâm sorry I couldnât tell you properly, but Iâm not leaving tomorrow. Iâm not leaving you again.â
For one breath, two, he didnât react.
Then his face crumpled.
Not dramatically. Just enough for her to see all the hope heâd been forcing himself not to have.
âYouâre serious?â he asked.
She nodded. âIâm serious.â
He let out a shaky breath and laughed, but it sounded dangerously close to a sob. âYouâre so mean.â
She blinked. âWhat?â
âYou let me think I was hallucinating.â His voice wobbled as he stepped closer. âYou walked in here looking like that and said âhi, Jiâ like I havenât been miserable for a month.â
A watery laugh escaped her. âLee Know told me.â
His eyes narrowed. âIâm going to throw him out of a window.â
âHe was worried about you.â
âI was not depressed,â Jisung muttered.
She raised an eyebrow.
He looked away. âMaybe a little.â
Her smile softened. âI missed you.â
That made him quiet.
All the teasing faded from his face.
âI missed you too,â he said. âSo much.â
Then he pulled her into his arms.
She melted immediately, burying her face against his chest as his arms wrapped around her tightly. Not gentle, not careful, but desperate in a way that made her realise Lee Know had been right.
He really had missed her.
Jisung held her like he was afraid she might change her mind.
âIâm here,â she whispered.
His grip tightened. âSay it again.â
âIâm here.â
âAgain.â
She smiled against him. âIâm here to stay.â
He exhaled, shaky and relieved, and pressed his face into her hair.
They stayed like that for a long time.
Eventually, she pulled back just enough to look at him.
His eyes were still glossy.
She lifted a hand to his cheek. âYou really still like me?â
Jisung gave her a look so soft it hurt.
âI donât think âlikeâ is the right word anymore.â
Her breath caught.
He leaned closer, his forehead resting against hers.
âI love you,â he whispered. âI loved you when I couldnât say it. I loved you when you left. I loved you every day you were gone.â
Her eyes fluttered shut.
âI love you too,â she whispered back.
The words had barely left her mouth before he kissed her.
It was soft at first, almost disbelieving, like he was asking if this was really okay. She answered by holding onto his shirt and kissing him back, and then he smiled against her mouth, small and shaky and full of relief.
When they pulled apart, he didnât go far.
âPlease donât surprise me like that again,â he murmured.
She laughed quietly. âYou didnât like it?â
âI loved it.â He brushed his thumb over her cheek. âI also think my soul left my body.â
From somewhere outside the door, Lee Knowâs voice called, âAre you both done âmaking upâ?â
Jisung groaned, dropping his forehead onto her shoulder.
She laughed properly this time, her arms wrapping around him again.
âNo,â Jisung called back. âGo away.â
Lee Know replied, âGladly. But dinnerâs in ten.â
Jisung lifted his head and looked at her, still holding her like letting go wasnât an option.
âYouâre really staying?â he asked again, softer this time.
She smiled, reaching up to fix a messy strand of his hair.
âIâm really staying.â
His smile slowly returned, bright and real and so completely Jisung that it made every mile, every fear, every second of doubt worth it.
đOUBLE TROUBLE tamer!minho x brats!jisung&&fem!reader êŁđŁżàŸàœČ when you and sungie are both testing minho's patience, you already know it won't end well ! (â ïœĄâ ïŸâ Ïâ â ïœĄâ ) warnings. oral sex, sex, minho helps reader ride jisung, hyung kink, idk im too lazy to add more but mdni obviously. and yes i half assed the end coz i got tired. only the first 2-4 paragraphs r proofread help
"uughh, come onn! you're always the one picking the movie!" you whined, trying to steal the remote from jisung. "nuh-uh!" he huffed and pushed you away from him, gripping the remote in his hands like it was a matter of life or death.
minho sighed. it was supposed to be a calm, fun movie night with all three of you, but he was starting to regret agreeing to it, seeing you two fight over the remote like spoiled brats. you two were clearly testing his patience.
"hyunngg!!! stop her! she's trying to steal the remote from me!" jisung continued his attempts to push you away from him, but clearly it didn't work. you grabbed the remote from his hands, stood up and held it up like a trophy. "aha! see? now i-" your words got caught up in your throat when suddenly..
minho wrapped his arms around your waist and pulled you down onto his lap, stealing the remote. "shut up. do you two seriously have to be this loud for a remote?"
"h-huh?! oppa, what the hell?! give me that!" you whined, squirming in his lap in an attempt to escape and get the remote back. meanwhile, jisung laid on the floor and stared up at minho with puppy eyes, acting as if he was helpless and vulnerable and that remote was his only hope in life.
"hyung! it's not fair! not fair, not fair.. not fair.. notfairnotfairnotfairnotfairnotfair!!!!" he yelled, throwing a tantrum on the floor like a fucking loser. he grabbed a pillow and buried his face in it, kicking his legs up. oh my fucking god.
you were both squirming and begging for the remote, movie night and popcorn on the coffee table now forgotten. it wasn't until a loud smack echoed across the room.
minho's hand harshly landed on your thigh, pausing before doing it again. "brats. both of you. wasn't your last punishment enough? now you two start going against your word about behaving and throwing tantrums over a remote?"
"'m sorry, oppa.." you whined, feeling his hand slap your thigh again. "i think you both need another punishment."
"n-no! we can be good! promise!" jisung sat up from the floor, placing his hands on his knees and looking up at minho with doe eyes. "after that? i don't think i can trust you two anymore.. always making promises about behaving then going and throwing tantrums the next day.."
minho spoke softly, combing your hair with his fingers. a few seconds later, he pulled on your hair roughly. he pressed his chin against your shoulder and looked at you with a mock of empathy as you felt a pool of warmth in between your legs. "'s been a while since you've been eaten out, hasn't it, kitten?"
"y-yes!!" you quickly nodded, letting out a whimper as minho's hand gently started rubbing you through your panties. "color?"
"g-green.. green.. please, i'm sorry for being a brat.."
"come here, jisung." minho patted your thigh.
jisung crawled till he was right in between your legs, staring up at the two of you with doe eyes. minho teared your panties apart. "h-huh- hey!" you squirmed in his lap.
"i'll buy you a new one soon, bunny." minho grabbed your hips and held you in place. meanwhile, jisung was staring at your pussy as if it was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. he quickly dove in, fucking you with his tongue without warning.
you gasped, holding onto his hair. he ate you out as if he hadn't eaten in days, sucking on your clit and slipping a finger inside of you. minho watched with a smirk on his face, holding you down so you wouldn't squirm around.
"n-nngh! s-sungie! 's too much..!" you whined, leaning your head back against minho's shoulder. jisung slipped in a second finger, his fat tongue licking the juices off of your clit. "a-aah..! i-i'm so close!"
minho suddenly pulled on jisung's hair, stopping him from eating you out. you both froze and stared at him in confusion. "h-hyung, please.." jisung begged.
"no," minho paused.
"how about we take this to the bedroom? wouldn't want to make a mess here, hm?" he added, pushing you off of his lap.
"h-hhaah... hyung.." jisung whined, his wrists tied together. you sat on top of him with minho guiding you. "need you to be a good girl and sit on sungie's dick, okay?"
"o-okay.." you mumbled, doing exactly as he said. jisungs hard dick slipped inside you easily, considering how wet you were. minho grabbed your hips and started guiding you again.
he bounced you on jisung's cock, watching the man whine and push his hips up. you gasped, feeling the hard material poke at your womb.
minho fucked you down onto jisung's cockâhis grip on your hip was almost enough to leave a bruise. jisung continued to whine and beg, staring at your tits bouncing in front of his face. "m-mmph.. y/n.. gon' cum.."
hearing that, minho grinned and increased the speed. you moaned, grabbing jisung's face and pulling him into a deep kiss. he kissed you back, letting minho get hard as he watched you two make out in front of him.
he watched as jisung nutted deep inside of you, his cum leaking out when you got off of him.
"you two 'are gonna behave from now on, right?" minho glanced at you.
Synopsis: After months of almost-confessions, Jisung finally tells you he loves you. But the happiness barely has time to settle before you confess youâre leaving the next morning, turning a long-awaited confession into an almost-goodbye.
a/n: this idea has been in my notes app for agesss iâm so glad i finally wrote it
Wc: 3,408
Part 2
The studio is quiet except for the soft hum of the computer and the tiny crackle of his speakers. Outside, Seoul is asleep, but inside the room, Jisung is wide awake, sitting cross-legged on the floor with his hoodie sleeves pulled over his hands.
Youâre on the sofa behind him, half-buried under his oversized jacket because you complained about the air conditioning twenty minutes ago. He had acted like giving it to you was no big deal, but he hasnât stopped glancing back at you since.
âYouâre staring again,â you mumble, eyes still closed.
Jisung jolts like heâs been caught stealing.
âIâm not.â
âYou are.â
âI was checking if you were alive.â
âAt three in the morning? Romantic.â
The word makes him freeze.
Only for a second.
Then he laughs too loudly and turns back to the screen, hiding the way his ears turn pink beneath his hair.
You sit up slowly, rubbing your tired eyes. âPlay it again.â
âYouâre falling asleep.â
âIâm listening.â
âYouâre drooling on my jacket.â
âI am not.â
âYou are. Itâs cute.â
This time, youâre the one who goes quiet.
Jisung realises what he said a second too late. His fingers hover uselessly over the keyboard. His heart is suddenly doing that awful thing again â the thing where it beats too fast around you, like itâs trying to escape his ribs and confess before he can stop it.
He turns around.
Youâre looking at him, soft and sleepy and wrapped in his jacket like you belong there.
He thinks, Now.
He thinks, Just say it.
He thinks, I love you.
Instead, the studio door opens.
Chan pokes his head in. âYou two still here?â
Jisung nearly falls off his chair.
You laugh.
And the moment disappears.
ౚà§
He almost tells you again in the car after practice.
Itâs raining lightly, little silver lines sliding down the windows as the city blurs past. Jisung is exhausted, his hair damp from sweat, his cheek pressed against the seatbelt as he tries very hard not to fall asleep on your shoulder.
He loses.
His head drops gently against you.
You donât move.
For a while, neither of you says anything. You just let him rest there, warm and heavy and trusting.
Then his voice comes out small.
âYouâre too nice to me.â
You look down. âThat sounds like a complaint.â
âIt is.â His eyes stay closed. âMakes it hard.â
âWhat does?â
He swallows.
Your shoulder rises beneath his cheek when you breathe in, and for some reason that tiny movement nearly ruins him.
âMakes it hard not toâŠâ He stops.
âNot to what?â
His lashes flutter open. He tilts his head just enough to look at you, and the car lights pass over his face in soft flashes â gold, red, blue, gold again.
He looks scared.
Not of you.
Of losing you.
âNot to get used to it,â he says finally.
Your expression changes. Softens. Hurts.
âYou can get used to me, Ji.â
His nickname in your voice almost finishes him.
He sits up slightly, hands twisting in the sleeves of his hoodie.
âI donât want to get used to you if youâre notââ
The car jerks to a stop.
The manager calls from the front, âWeâre here.â
Jisung closes his mouth.
You both get out into the rain pretending nothing happened.
But his hand brushes yours under the umbrella.
Neither of you pulls away.
ౚà§
The thunderstorm is worse.
It shakes the windows of the dorm so hard that you flinch, even though you try to hide it. Jisung notices immediately, because Jisung always notices you.
âYou okay?â he asks.
You nod too quickly. âYeah. Totally. Love thinking the sky is breaking.â
He grins, but it doesnât quite reach his eyes.
Another crack of thunder rolls overhead.
You jump.
Without saying anything, he reaches for your hand.
Itâs simple. Natural. Like heâs done it a thousand times, even though he hasnât. His fingers lace through yours and squeeze gently.
âBetter?â he asks.
You stare at your joined hands. âA little.â
âA little?â he repeats, offended. âIâm risking my reputation as a very cool, very fearless man here.â
âYou screamed when the toaster popped yesterday.â
âI was caught off guard,â he says quickly, cheeks pink.
You laugh, and there it is again â that feeling in his chest. The ache and the warmth. The impossible want.
He likes making you laugh.
He likes when you steal his food.
He likes when you send him stupid pictures with no context.
He likes when you fall asleep in the studio and pretend you were âjust resting your eyesâ.
He likes when you say his name softly, like it belongs somewhere safe.
He likes you so much it doesnât feel like liking anymore.
The lights flicker.
You shift closer without thinking, your shoulder pressing against his. Jisung looks down at your joined hands, then at you.
âYou know,â he says quietly, âwhen Iâm with you, I donât feel soâŠâ
You wait.
âSo what?â
Alone.
Scared.
Like I have to be funny to be loved.
Like Iâm only worth keeping when Iâm useful.
He canât say any of that.
Not yet.
So he says, âTired.â
Your thumb moves gently over the back of his hand.
âThen rest with me.â
And he does.
He rests his head against yours while the storm throws itself against the windows. You donât speak. You donât need to. For ten minutes, the world is just rain, thunder, and your hand in his.
Then his phone starts ringing.
One call. Then another.
Practice schedule. Messages. Reality forcing its way back in.
You let go first.
Jisung feels the loss all the way down to his bones.
ౚà§
The fourth time, he almost tells you because heâs too tired to stop himself.
Itâs after midnight, after rehearsal, after interviews, after laughing until his cheeks hurt even though his whole body feels made of static. You find him sitting on the floor outside the practice room, knees pulled to his chest, hood up, eyes lowered.
âJi?â
He looks up.
The smile he gives you is automatic. Tiny. Worn out.
âHey.â
You crouch in front of him. âYou disappeared.â
âIâm here.â
âThatâs not the same thing.â
His smile fades.
You sit beside him without asking, shoulder to shoulder in the empty hallway. Then you reach into your bag and pull out a packet of his favourite sweets.
He stares at them.
âYou carry those around?â
You shrug. âYou get cranky when youâre hungry.â
âI do not.â
âLast time you skipped dinner, you sulked for twenty minutes.â
âIt took my money.â
âIt was unplugged.â
He laughs then. Really laughs. The sound is quiet and tired, but itâs real, and you look so pleased with yourself that he wants to cry.
âYou always do that,â he says.
âWhat?â
âMake things lighter.â
You look away, suddenly shy. âYou make things lighter too.â
âNo.â His voice drops. âI hide things.â
The air changes.
You turn back to him.
Jisung is looking at the floor, thumb picking at a loose thread on his sleeve.
âI hide behind jokes. Behind songs. Behind being busy.â He lets out a shaky breath. âI keep thinking thereâll be a better time to say things, but then the time keeps passing, and Iâm still justâŠâ
He stops.
You wait for him, patient as ever.
That almost ruins him.
âStill just me,â he finishes quietly.
Your voice softens. âI like just you.â
His eyes lift to yours.
And there it is.
The moment.
No door opening.
No manager calling.
No thunder swallowing his courage.
No phone ringing at the worst possible second.
Just you.
Just him.
And every almost that came before this.
Jisungâs lips part, but for a second nothing comes out. His heart is beating so loudly heâs sure you must be able to hear it. He wipes his palms on his joggers, laughs once under his breath, and shakes his head.
âI had a plan,â he admits.
Your eyebrows lift. âA plan?â
âYeah.â His ears go red. âI was going to be cool about this.â
âYou?â
âDonât sound so surprised.â
âIâm not.â
âYou are literally smiling.â
âIâm fond.â
His eyes soften.
Fond.
The word sits inside him like something warm.
âI was going to write you something,â he says. âOr play you a song. Or wait until we were somewhere nice, not on the floor outside a practice room with my hair looking like I lost a fight.â
âYou look fine.â
âI look traumatised.â
âYou look like you.â
His breath catches.
There it is again.
You keep saying things that make it impossible for him not to love you.
Jisung looks at you for a long second, then gives up pretending he can survive another almost.
âI love you.â
The words fall out quietly.
No song.
No joke.
No careful timing.
Just the truth.
You go completely still.
For one terrifying second, Jisung thinks he has ruined everything.
Then your face changes.
It crumples so softly it breaks his heart before he even understands why. Your eyes shine, your lips part, and you look at him like he has just handed you something precious and unbearable.
âJiâŠâ
âI know,â he rushes out, panic rising. âI know this is probably terrible timing, and I know I should have said it earlier, and I know Iâm being weird right now, but I canât keep almost saying it. I canât keep swallowing it and pretending it doesnât hurt.â
Your eyes fill.
He keeps going because if he stops, heâll lose his nerve.
âI love you. I love you when you steal my hoodies and say youâre borrowing them even though I never get them back. I love you when you send me voice notes just to tell me the moon looks pretty. I love you when you fall asleep while Iâm working and still say youâre keeping me company.â
His voice cracks.
âI love you when things are easy. I love you when everything is awful. I love you when Iâm tired and scared and donât know how to be anyone except this messy version of myself.â
You cover your mouth with your hand.
Jisung smiles sadly.
âAnd you donât have to say anything. I just needed you to know. At least once.â
Silence.
Then you move.
You reach for him so suddenly he freezes, and then your arms are around him, tight and desperate. His breath leaves him all at once. For a second, he doesnât even hug you back, too stunned to understand that youâre holding him.
Then he folds into you.
His hands grip the back of your shirt. His face presses into your shoulder.
You smell like rain and fabric softener and the sweet drink you bought earlier but didnât finish. You feel real. Warm. Here.
âI love you too,â you whisper.
Jisung stops breathing.
You pull back just enough to look at him.
Your cheeks are wet now.
âI love you too,â you say again, voice trembling. âIâve loved you for so long.â
His face breaks open.
Not into a full smile. Not exactly.
Something smaller. Softer. More fragile.
âYou do?â
You let out a watery laugh. âYouâre not exactly easy to get over, Han Jisung.â
He laughs too, but it sounds like relief and heartbreak mixed together.
âI thought I was being subtle.â
âYou once gave me your jacket and then watched me wear it for twenty minutes with the expression of someone seeing heaven.â
His ears turn pink. âThat could have meant anything.â
âIt meant you were in love with me.â
âOkay, yeah. Maybe.â
You laugh again, and he does too, both of you crying a little now, both of you smiling like idiots on the hallway floor.
For one small, glowing second, it feels like the universe has finally done something kind.
Jisung reaches up and brushes a tear from your cheek with his sleeve.
âYou love me,â he says, like heâs testing the words.
You lean into his touch.
âI love you.â
His smile wobbles.
âSay it again.â
âI love you, Jisung.â
He closes his eyes.
The words settle inside him.
Then he opens them again, softer than before.
âCan I kiss you?â
Your answer is to move closer.
The kiss is gentle.
So gentle it hurts.
His hand cups your cheek like heâs afraid of holding too tightly, like this moment might bruise if he isnât careful. You hold onto the front of his hoodie, keeping him there, keeping him close, kissing him like youâve been waiting just as long as he has.
When you pull away, he follows without thinking.
You laugh against his mouth.
âNeedy.â
âYears of emotional repression will do that to a person.â
You smile, but it fades too quickly.
Jisung notices.
Of course he notices.
His thumb is still resting against your cheek. âWhat?â
You look down.
Something cold slips into the space between you.
âHey,â he whispers. âWhat is it?â
You donât answer straight away.
And that is when he feels it.
The change.
The way your hands tighten in his hoodie. The way your breathing becomes uneven. The way you look at him like you want to stay in this moment forever because the next one is going to ruin it.
His smile disappears.
âY/N?â
You close your eyes.
âI need to tell you something.â
His stomach drops.
He tries to make a joke. Itâs instinct. Defence. Fear.
âIf youâre secretly married, this is a very cruel time to mention it.â
You donât laugh.
That scares him more.
Your voice is barely above a whisper.
âIâm leaving.â
For a second, he doesnât understand.
The word is too small for what it does to him.
Leaving.
Leaving the hallway? Leaving the dorm? Leaving him sitting here with his heart wide open in his hands?
âWhat do you mean?â he asks.
You swallow.
âMy flight got moved.â
The silence after that is awful.
Jisung stares at you.
Your eyes are still wet from when you told him you loved him.
Only now they look guilty.
âWhen?â he asks, even though some part of him already knows.
Your lips tremble.
âTomorrow morning.â
Everything stops.
The hallway.
The rain outside.
The warmth of your hand still curled in his hoodie.
His own breathing.
Jisung slowly lets his hand fall from your cheek.
âTomorrow,â he repeats.
You nod, tears spilling over again. âI was going to tell you.â
âWhen?â
The word comes out sharper than he means it to.
You flinch.
He sees it and immediately hates himself.
âIâm sorry,â he whispers. âI didnât meanââ
âNo.â You shake your head quickly. âNo, youâre right. Youâre allowed to be upset.â
He laughs once, empty and disbelieving.
âI just told you I love you.â
âI know.â
âAnd you told me you love me.â
âI know.â
âAnd now youâre telling me youâre leaving tomorrow?â
Your face crumples. âI didnât know how to say it.â
Jisung stands because sitting there suddenly feels impossible. He turns away, hands going into his hair. For a second, he just breathes. Once. Twice. Badly.
Then he looks back at you.
âYou let me confess.â
Your expression twists with pain.
âI didnât mean to hurt you.â
âBut you knew.â
âI knew.â
His eyes shine.
âWhy didnât you stop me?â
That breaks you.
You stand too, wiping at your face even though the tears keep coming.
âBecause I wanted to hear it,â you admit, voice cracking. âBecause Iâm selfish, and I wanted one moment where it was real before I had to leave. I wanted to know what it felt like to have you love me out loud.â
Jisungâs anger collapses immediately.
There is no room for it.
Not when youâre looking at him like that.
Not when he understands too well.
Because hadnât he done the same thing? Waited and waited and waited because saying it felt impossible, because keeping the almost alive was easier than risking the after?
He presses his palms against his eyes.
âGod,â he whispers. âWeâre so stupid.â
A tiny, broken laugh leaves you. âYeah.â
âI had so many chances.â
âSo did I.â
âIn the studio.â
âIn the car.â
âDuring the storm.â
âWhen you gave me your jacket.â
âWhen you fell asleep on my shoulder.â
âWhen you looked at me like that and I pretended not to notice.â
He looks at you.
âYou noticed?â
You smile sadly. âI noticed everything.â
For some reason, that hurts most of all.
Jisung steps closer.
âSo what now?â
You stare at him, helpless.
âI donât know.â
His jaw tightens. He nods, looking down, trying to be brave and failing badly.
âRight.â
âJiâŠâ
âNo, itâs okay.â He smiles, but itâs shaky and wrong. âItâs okay. You have to go. You have your life, and I have schedules, and we both know love doesnât magically fix distance.â
You cry harder.
He immediately softens.
âDonât do that,â he whispers.
âI canât help it.â
âYouâre making it really hard to be mature and emotionally impressive.â
A laugh escapes you through your tears.
There. He did it again.
Made it lighter, even when he was breaking.
You step closer. âI donât want this to be goodbye.â
He looks at you for a long moment.
Then he reaches for your hand.
His fingers tremble around yours.
âIt doesnât have to be,â he says. âBut itâs still going to hurt.â
You nod.
âI know.â
He looks at your joined hands.
For once, he doesnât let go.
âCan I kiss you again?â
You answer before he finishes asking.
This kiss is different.
The first one was soft with relief.
This one aches.
This one knows thereâs a suitcase waiting somewhere. A passport. A boarding pass. A morning neither of you can stop. This one tastes like salt and almosts and all the time you wasted being afraid.
Jisung holds your face in both hands.
You hold onto his wrists like youâre scared heâll disappear first.
When you pull apart, your foreheads rest together.
His eyes stay closed.
âIf I had known,â he whispers, âI wouldâve told you sooner.â
You shake your head. âI think we both wouldâve found another reason to wait.â
He lets out a broken little laugh. âProbably.â
âIâm sorry.â
âI know.â
âI love you.â
His mouth trembles.
âDonât say it like that.â
âLike what?â
âLike youâre leaving.â
You close your eyes.
âI am leaving.â
The words hit him even though he already knew.
Jisung pulls you into his arms.
This time, he holds you tightly. No hesitation. No almost. His face tucks into your neck, and yours presses against his shoulder. You stand there in the empty hallway, wrapped around each other while the building hums quietly around you.
Everything feels normal and ruined at the same time.
He smells like laundry detergent and sweat and the sweets you gave him. His hoodie is soft under your fingers. His heartbeat is fast against yours.
You try to memorise all of it.
So does he.
Eventually, he whispers, âWhen do you have to be at the airport?â
âEarly.â
âHow early?â
âToo early.â
He nods against your shoulder.
âIâll come.â
âYou have practice.â
âIâll come.â
âJisungââ
âIâll come,â he says again, voice shaking. âDonât make me say goodbye here. Not in a hallway. Not after this.â
You pull back enough to see his face.
His eyes are red now, his cheeks damp, his expression trying so hard to be strong that it hurts to look at him.
âOkay,â you whisper.
He nods, swallowing hard.
âOkay.â
For a moment, neither of you moves.
Then, because he is Jisung, because he is heartbroken and terrified and still somehow himself, he says, âWhen you come backâŠâ
You blink through tears. âWhen I come back?â
His cheeks turn pink despite everything.
âWhen you come back,â he says more firmly, âIâm confessing properly.â
A tiny smile pulls at your mouth. âYou already confessed.â
âNo,â he says quietly. âI want to do it right next time.â
âIt was very you.â
âExactly. I can do better.â He sniffles, then tries to look serious. âFlowers. A song. Maybe a candle.â
âYouâre going to burn the dorm down.â
âOne candle,â he argues. âSupervised.â
You laugh, and he looks so relieved to hear it that your chest aches.
âAnd Iâll cry,â he adds. âBut in a cool way.â
âThereâs a cool way to cry?â
âIâll invent one.â
âYouâre ridiculous.â
âYou love me.â
Your smile wobbles.
âI do.â
Jisungâs hand finds yours again.
This time, he doesnât let go until he absolutely has to.
Synopsis: After years of quietly loving Seungmin from the sidelines, you finally realise that being his safest place is breaking your own heart. So you walk away - not because you stopped loving him, but because you needed to stop waiting. Months later, Seungmin returns with the confession you once dreamed of hearing, only to realise he learned to love you too late.
Cw: none! Just a little angsty
A/n: this is quite abit shorter than normal, im sorrryyy
Wc: 2,062
The first time you realised you loved Kim Seungmin, he was laughing at something that wasnât even funny.
It was late, too late for either of you to still be awake, but neither of you had ever been very good at leaving each other alone. He was sitting on your kitchen counter, swinging his legs like he belonged there, like your home had always had a place carved out for him. His hoodie sleeves covered half his hands. His hair was messy from the rain outside. His cheeks were pink from the cold.
And when he laughed, soft and breathless, you remember thinking:
Oh.
Not dramatic. Not earth-shattering. Not like the films said it would be.
Just oh.
Like your heart had finally found the name it had been trying to say for years.
You never told him.
Maybe that was where everything went wrong.
Or maybe everything had already gone wrong long before that â in every almost, every lingering glance, every night he called you first but introduced you to everyone as his best friend. His safest place. His person.
Never the person.
Just⊠his.
And for a while, that had been enough.
Until it wasnât.
âAre you listening?â Seungmin asks, nudging your shoe with his under the table.
You hate that he knows you just enough to notice when something is wrong, but never enough to understand that it has always been him.
âYeah,â you lie, wrapping both hands around your cup. âSorry. Iâm just tired.â
âYouâre always tired lately.â
Thereâs no accusation in his voice, only concern, and somehow that makes it worse.
You smile because it is easier than explaining. Easier than saying, Iâm tired of being in love with someone who only reaches for me when heâs lonely. Easier than saying, Iâm tired of being your almost.
Instead, you shrug. âWorkâs been busy.â
Seungmin hums, unconvinced. âYouâve been avoiding me.â
Your fingers tighten around the cup.
There it is.
The thing you both knew, but neither of you had said out loud.
You look out of the window, watching people hurry past beneath umbrellas, their shoulders brushing as they walk close enough to share warmth. âI havenât.â
âYou have.â
âMaybe youâre just not used to me having a life outside you.â
It comes out sharper than you mean it to.
Seungmin goes still.
For one awful second, you wish you could swallow the words back down. But then he looks at you â really looks at you â and something in his expression makes your chest ache.
Not anger.
Hurt.
Confusion.
Like he truly has no idea how long youâve been breaking beside him.
âWhat does that mean?â he asks quietly.
You laugh once, but there is no humour in it. âNothing.â
âNo.â His voice is firmer now. âDonât do that. Donât say something like that and then act like itâs nothing.â
You finally meet his eyes.
Bad idea.
Seungmin has always had eyes that make you weak. Not because they are soft all the time â they are not. He is blunt and teasing and sometimes so emotionally constipated it makes you want to scream. But his eyes have always given him away.
And right now, they are begging you to stay exactly where you are.
Exactly where he left you.
âI canât keep doing this,â you say.
The words are barely above a whisper, but they land between you like a dropped glass.
âThatâs the problem, Seungmin.â Your voice trembles, and you hate it. âYou never knew. I was right there. For years, I was right there.â
His lips part, but no sound comes out.
You look down before you start crying in front of him. You promised yourself you wouldnât. You promised yourself that when this moment came, you would be calm. Dignified. Untouchable.
But loving Seungmin has always made a liar out of you.
You stand before your courage can leave you.
Seungmin rises too quickly, his chair scraping against the floor. âDonât go.â
And God, you almost listen.
Because it is him.
Because it has always been him.
But that is exactly the problem.
For years, every part of you has bent towards him like a flower chasing sunlight, even when all it did was leave you cold. You have loved him through every mixed signal, every midnight call, every careless touch that meant everything to you and nothing to him.
You have loved him so quietly that he never had to notice.
And now, for the first time, you are tired of being quiet.
âI have to,â you say.
His face changes. âWhy?â
The question almost makes you laugh.
Not because it is funny.
Because it hurts that he still has to ask.
You look at him one last time â at the boy who knows your coffee order, your favourite songs, the exact tone of your voice when you are about to cry. The boy who knows everything about you except the one thing you have been begging him to see.
âBecause I canât keep being your safest place when youâre the reason I donât feel safe anymore.â
Seungmin freezes.
You see the words hit him. You see the confusion turn into something sharper, something closer to realisation.
But not close enough.
Still not enough.
He says your name, barely above a whisper.
You shake your head. âPlease donât.â
âIf I did somethingââ
âYou didnât do anything,â you say, and your voice finally breaks. âThatâs the problem. You never did anything. You never chose me. You never asked me to stay. You just kept leaving enough space for me to hope.â
Silence settles between you.
For once, Seungmin has nothing to say.
You wish that made it easier.
It doesnât.
âI loved you,â you admit.
The past tense makes him flinch.
And maybe that is cruel, but it is also true. Or at least, it is what you need to become true if you are ever going to survive this.
His lips part. âLoved?â
You smile, small and sad. âYeah.â
It is a lie.
Mostly.
But maybe healing starts with saying something enough times until your heart gets tired of arguing.
âIâm done waiting, Seungmin.â
He looks at you like you have just taken something from him.
Maybe you have.
Maybe, after years of handing him your heart without him ever asking for it, you are finally taking it back.
You pick up your coat.
This time, he does not stop you.
And this time, you do not turn around.
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Months later
The first thing Seungmin notices is that you look lighter.
Not happier, exactly.
That would have been easier to hate.
No, you look peaceful.
Like the world has stopped hurting you in places he never knew existed.
He sees you outside the small bookshop you used to love, the one tucked between the florist and the bakery on the corner. You are holding a paper bag in one hand and a drink in the other, your hair moving gently in the wind. Someone beside you says something, and you laugh.
Really laugh.
Seungmin forgets how to breathe.
For months, he has imagined this moment.
He thought seeing you again would feel like relief. Like coming home after being lost for too long.
Instead, it feels like standing outside a house that no longer has a door for him.
You notice him a second later.
Your smile fades, but not completely.
That hurts more than he expects.
Because you do not look angry.
You do not look like someone still waiting for an apology.
You just look surprised.
âSeungmin,â you say softly.
His name sounds different in your mouth now.
Less like a prayer.
More like a memory.
âHi,â he says.
It is pathetic. After all the things he has practised saying, that is what comes out.
Hi.
You glance at the person beside you, then back at him. âCan we have a minute?â
They nod, giving Seungmin a polite smile before stepping inside the bookshop.
He hates how easily they listen to you.
He hates that they know where to stand.
He hates that they seem to understand something he spent years missing.
You turn back to him. âHow have you been?â
The question is gentle.
Too gentle.
âI miss you,â he says.
Your expression shifts.
Not enough for anyone else to notice, maybe.
But Seungmin notices.
He notices everything now.
Too late.
You look down at the cup in your hands. âSeungminâŠâ
âI know,â he says quickly. âI know I donât have the right to say that.â
âYou donât.â
The words are not harsh.
That makes them worse.
He swallows, nodding once. âI know.â
A silence passes between you, filled with all the things he should have said months ago. Years ago.
âI didnât understand it then,â he says. âWhen you left. I thought I was losing my best friend, and I was so angry because I didnât know why it felt like more than that.â
Your eyes soften, but you do not move closer.
âI know now,â he continues, voice cracking. âI know what you were to me. What you always were.â
Your grip tightens around your drink.
His heart stumbles.
âI love you,â he says.
There.
The words are finally out.
The ones he should have given you when they still could have saved something.
For a moment, you say nothing.
And Seungmin lets himself hope.
Just for a second.
Then you close your eyes.
When you open them again, there are tears there, but they do not fall.
âI wanted that so badly once,â you whisper.
His chest aches.
âOnce?â
You smile, and it is the saddest thing he has ever seen.
âI waited years for you to say that.â
âI know.â
âNo,â you say gently. âI donât think you do.â
He looks at you, helpless.
You take a breath, shaky but steady. âI loved you until loving you started feeling like losing myself. And then I had to learn how to stop.â
Seungmin shakes his head. âYou donât have to stop.â
âBut I already did.â
The world goes quiet.
He hears people walking past. The soft bell of the bookshop door. The wind brushing through the street.
He hears everything except his own heart, because it feels like it has stopped.
âYou moved on,â he says.
You look at him with so much tenderness that it almost breaks him.
âI had to.â
His eyes burn. âIs there really no chance?â
You are quiet for a long moment.
Then you say it.
The sentence that will live inside him forever.
âYou only loved me when I stopped waiting for you to.â
Seungmin flinches.
Not because you are cruel.
Because you are right.
âIâm sorry,â he whispers.
You nod, blinking back tears. âI know.â
âI really do love you.â
Your smile trembles.
âI believe you.â
That hurts most of all.
Because you believe him.
And you are still leaving.
The bookshop door opens behind you. The person from before looks out, not interrupting, just checking. You turn slightly, and something in your face changes â softens in a way Seungmin remembers wanting for himself.
That is when he understands.
This is not a punishment.
You are not trying to hurt him.
You have simply built a life that no longer has space for the version of him who took too long to choose you.
âI hope youâre happy,â he says, even though it nearly kills him.
You look back at him.
âIâm trying to be.â
He nods.
There is nothing else to say.
So this time, Seungmin is the one who watches you walk away.
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Planning a surprise for Jisung was hard.
One reason is because hes shockingly observant when it comes to you, noticing the smallest differences in you, sweet but also annoying.
Another is because he always pulls out those stupid big brown eyes you're weak for, caving instantly.
Luckily for you, your boyfriend is across the country and unable to use those big brown eyes to his advantage, also too busy with his tour and the comeback to focus on the minuscule differences.
Like how when you suddenly told him you'd be unavailable for around 8 hours because of a work retreat, boy did he complain but didn't say anything because he believed you.
Foolish on his end honestly.
It was Felix's idea â well you knew you wanted to visit him on tour considering hes been gone for so long, but it was Felix who scored the tickets to their show, pit and barricade.
Of course you felt a bit bad when Jisung asked to call before the concert â sending you a selfie of him pouting, little did he know.
He doesn't notice you immediately, focused on preforming and doing whatever stupid fan service Minho told him to do â noticing you during his own solo, fully blanking on stage, having to quickly recover, a huge stupid grin plastered on his face.
Jisung who barely even left the right side of the stage, giving you extra special attention he knew Chan would scold him for later; even the stay next to you noticed â making a joke about you signing an NDA later, stopping yourself from laughing, just playing along.
When the concert ends security finds you â their security already well familiar with you, and Felix told them the situation.
As they usher you backstage undetected you can barely make it through the doors before Jisung is pulling you into a bear hug.
The moments after are a blur, tears were shed, so so many kisses, saying hi briefly to the other boys, who whistled as he rushed you back to the hotel.
The ride to the hotel you were being polite, not being too handsy in the car, not wanting the driver to be uncomfortable â Hannie on the other hand wasn't as polite.
"I missed you soso much â i cant believe you didn't tell me!" He whines, his chin hooked on your shoulder, buried into your neck, almost like hes trying to fuse to you.
Pushing him back gently only for him to pout and let out a whine bordering on a cry, you cup his jaw pressing a kiss to his cheek.
"I know Hannie â just wait till we get to the hotel, then im all yours, baby." You whisper into his ears, a shiver going down his spine, pulling back from you, his hands anxiously twitching on his thighs, leg bouncing in excitement.
The ride was quiet after that â the tension palpable in the car, the elevator no better, Jisung still itching to touch you but knowing better than to challenge you.
Jisung is quick to pull you into his hotel room â you honestly didn't bother booking one of your own, knowing you'd be spending the nights with Jisung anyways so why waste money.
Before the doors even locked hes on you, pulling you against him, his lips latching onto yours, shoving his tongue into your mouth, moaning desperately into your mouth.
His hands are all over you, not sure of which part of you to hold onto because hes half sure that this is a really realistic wet dream and hes about to wake up.
You only pull back when you physically had to breathe, of course oxygen was optional in Jisung's mind at the moment, trying to chase your lips â not nearly fulfilled as he needs to be.
Jisung is a ball of anxious energy, desperate to touch you, feel you â taste you.
His lips attach back to yours, one hand cupping your jaw, his other arm wrapped around your waist keeping you impossibly close. The months of quick phone calls, face times between your busy schedules.
He doesn't wanna waste a moment with you, your teeth clashing from how uncoordinated and desperate you both are, your hands snaking up his neck, fingers combing through his hair.
The kiss doesn't break, both of you moving â bumping into walls furniture, finally making it to the bed. You land by the pillows, Jisung hovering over you just admiring how perfect you look.
Your lips swollen and parted, trying to catch your breath. You prop yourself up slightly on your elbows to look at him, smiling sweetly, tilting your head to take in his appearance.
Still in his stage outfit â probably going to get in trouble but he doesn't care a bit, his brain is a one track mind only thinking of one thing, you â every thought he has is plagued by you, 'i wonder if she'd like this outfit' , 'oh i know she'd love this song.'
you take over every thought of his, you're all consuming â he would have it no other way.
"Hannie~" Your voice sweet, dripping with something that stirs something in him, focusing back on you, eyes wandering over him. "You wanna take care of me, Ji?" cooing at him, your voice dropping slightly.
Jisung immediately pounces on you without saying anything, his hands tug at your shirt pulling it over your head, revealing a cute red bra, a small whine escaping his lips from the sight alone. His hands splayed on your stomach, his cold hands against your warm skin making you twitch.
Jisung settles between your thighs like be belongs there, he does btw! His fingers tugging at your shorts pulling the off, tapping at your hips to lift a little.
Your panties are soaked through â a dark patch on the other half of the matching red set, Jisung fucking moans at it, the sight of the flimsy fabric clinging to your soaked cunt â nearly drooling, anticipating the taste of you â fuck he can smell you, hes so close.
His lips clasp around your clit over the panties, not even bothering taking them off â moaning at finally getting to taste you after months of separation. Jisung's fingers dig into the plush of your thighs, keeping you firm in place, his tongue dragging all over your covered pussy.
The sound of your sweet moans go straight through him, his cock twitching in the constraints of his pants, Jisung however could care less â so focused on your pussy he doesn't even register his hips grinding against the mattress.
Finally after what seems like forever he pushes your panties to the side with his teeth, his nose immediately bumping your throbbing clit as his tongue makes one long strip first.
After the initial strip he dives in like a mad man, sucking all over you, tongue prodding your hole clumsily, lapping up all of your slick, making more mess only to slurp up the mix of your wetness and his spit.
You're just laying there taking it all, your fingers curling into the silk sheets â tossing around under Jisung.
Jisung finally pays attention to your neglected clit, mumbling incoherently before wrapping his plush lips around the bundle of nerves, moaning into you.
At the sudden jolt, your legs instinctively try and shut around Jisung's head â this bastard only whimpers, his ears ringing, overwhelmingly consumed by you.
"Thats it Sungie â good boy, just like that.." You say between breathless moans, the praise only serving to make the boy whimper louder, his lips leaving your clit to have his tongue lap up all of the mess.
Jisung is close â unknowingly, so focused on you, the feeling of your thighs against him, his mindless humping against the mattress is too much.
"M'so close Ji â" you coo, your words barely processing to him, so drunk on your pussy â His own orgasm approaching rapidly but he cant just stop now.
His tongue circling your entrance pushes in, his tongue thrusting in for a moment before licking all over your cunt, his nose occasionally nudging your clit just enough to send you over the edge.
His movements only get sloppier, moaning desperately into your pussy as you cum on his face, The added sensitivity of your thighs nearly crushing his head â his own orgasm washes over him, cumming in his pants, grinding agaisnt the bed riding it out.
His tongue never leaves your cunt, lapping up your cum, moaning pathetically against your pussy, licking your through your orgasm, his own hips halting at risk of overstimulating himself unintentionally.
Jisung only pulls off you when you push him off weakly, smoothing out his hair as he looks up at you with those big eyes you're so weak for.
"Did so well for me Ji.." You trail off, your voice weak and shakey, Jisung removing himself from between your legs to kiss you, hovering over you.
Tasting yourself on his lips only makes you moan into the kiss, which he immediately swallows, whining as you pull back, your noses brushes as you open your eyes. Your focus trails down Jisung, noticing the dark patch over his jeans, looking back up at Jisung, his ears tinged pink, his cheeks matching.
"Oh Hannie~ you must have missed me huh?" You tease, your voice soft, Jisung buries himself into your neck, your fingers playing with the hair on the back of his head.
His lack of response only drones you on. "I guess that means we're done for the night hm â missed your cock so bad too Sungie.." You pout, feigning sadness. The mention of missing his cock only serves to make him whine, feeling him slightly grind against the inner of your thigh.
You only smile at him, the slight tug you give his hair only bringing him back to reality. Jisung pulls back from you, admiring how you look under him, not even able to say anything, a small pathetic moan leaving his lips.
Your eyes meet his, only to look down his body then at him, Jisung gets the what you're signalling, squirming around quickly to shed his clothes. His shirt landing aimlessly on the bedside tablet his pants and boxers at the end of the bed.
The sight above you is unreal, Jisung's hair is dishevelled, ears and cheeks tinged red, looking down at you with those big clueless eyes. Despite being together for ages hes still just as clumsy as the first time, his whole body basically vibrating from need.
Jisung finally pulls your panties off your frame, soaked from a mix of his spit and your release, his thumb brushing over your glistening cunt, holding back a moan. His hand holding his already half hard cock, his tip slicked with his previous orgasm.
Giving himself a few strokes, his thumb brushing over the slit only pulls out the most delicious whimpers, getting lost in his own pleasure before you nudge him, bringing him back to reality.
He brings your legs around his waist, anchoring himself between your thighs, sliding his cock against your wet folds, making you both moan.
Almost on accident he slips in, his tip catching your entrance, Jisung's knees buckle â burying his face into your neck again, his breathing ragged, his cock burying deeper in you until hes fully inside you.
Jisung is a wreck, trying not to blow his load by the second â your pussy sucking him in so good, the pretty sounds you're making â its too much.
"Hannie â feel so good f'me yeah? Gonna make me feel good again, sweet boy?" Your soft words only making him more desperate, his hips grinding against yours, only pulling out slightly to get a better angle.
His movements arent thrusts, hes grinding in your pussy, so embarrassingly close already â so pathetically needy for you, even just being in you is sending him into overdrive.
He knows you'll be okay if he comes again quickly â making a light hearted joke before smothering him in kisses but he cant do that to you.
His hand snakes down to between you, his fingers rubbing feverishly on your clit, a surprised moan escapes from you, arching into his touch, fingers gripping onto the sheets, your hips bucking to meet his shallow thrusts.
His lips leave a wet trail of kisses down your shoulder to your covered chest, not even bothering to move your bra, pressing open mouthed sloppy kisses over the lace, catching your nipple between his teeth through the lace.
Already sensitive from your previous orgasm, your second one builds dangerously fast â mixed with the overwhelming mix of his mindless humping into your cunt, his fingers working on your aching clit, its too much for you.
The rooms echoing both of your sounds, the wet sound of Jisung basically humping your pussy, using all your slick to massage the sensitive bud.
His teeth graze at your perked nipple through the drenched lace, the added friction of the fabric only adding to it.
Jisung's a whimpering mess, barely holding himself together, his shallow movements speeding up and growing sloppier, moaning incoherently into your chest.
"P-please â fuck need to â" You can barely understand him, his brain clouded by his impending orgasm, the feeling of your tight walls clenching around him like you're trying to keep him there.
"T-that's it Sungie, let go for me.. So good.." Your voice raising an octave. Jisung lets go with a moan bordering on a scream, high pitched whimpers following along, mumbling small barely audible 'thank you â thank yous'
Your orgasm follows quickly after, not as overwhelming as the first one but you still can barely think straight.
Jisung's movements grow slow, helping you ride out both of your orgasm, his lips barely kissing your skin, more spreading spit along your warm flesh.
Feeling Jisung grow soft inside you doesn't stop him, small shallow thrusts sending both of you into overstimulation, he just cant stop, so desperate to feel you around him.
"Jisung.." Only when he hears you mumble his name does he stop, his chin resting on your chest, looking at you with the sweetest look, as if he didn't break you â and himself.
Pulling his face to yours, you catch his lips in a messy kiss, your teeth clashing, moaning into his mouth as his finger grazes your nipple, feeling him twitch slightly inside you â
I think I've already requested this but since I'm not sure and you're back now I'll just ask again:
I would love it if you could write a readerĂSeungmin (or Felix (but if you think there's another member who suits better feel free to ignore my suggestion)) first love story where they both start having feelings for each other. But since it's her first time feeling like this she is super scared and backs away anytime he makes a move because she's scared it's not what she wants + she doubts whether she's even good enough for him.
Donât pull away
Seungmin x f!reader
Synopsis: Falling for Seungmin should feel easy, especially when heâs nothing but gentle, patient, and quietly devoted. But for the first time, your feelings are too real to ignore, and every soft glance or almost-touch sends you running before he can get too close. When Seungmin finally confronts you about pulling away, the truth comes spilling out: youâre scared youâre not good enough for him. But Seungmin isnât willing to let you believe that. Not when all he wants is to love you exactly as you are.
Cw: none just fluff!
a/n: haii im so sorry i didnât get to you request beforee. But i hope you enjoy it, this was super fun to write!!
wc: 2,034
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Seungmin had a way of caring that made it impossible to pretend he didnât.
He never announced it. Never made a show of it. He just remembered.
He remembered that you liked your coffee with more milk than coffee, that you always forgot your scarf even when the weather was cold enough to bite, that you hated walking too close to the road. Somehow, every time the pavement narrowed, he ended up on the outside without saying a word.
It should have been easy to ignore.
It was not.
âYouâre staring,â he said, glancing at you from the corner of his eye.
You blinked. âIâm not.â
âYou are.â
âIâm admiring the streetlights.â
âAt eye level?â
You rolled your eyes, fighting the smile already tugging at your mouth. âYouâre so annoying.â
Seungmin grinned at that, small and pleased. Not smug. Just warm enough to make your chest ache.
He held out the paper bag in his hand. âHere.â
You took it carefully. Inside was your favourite pastry from the convenience store, still warm.
Your heart did something stupid.
âYou didnât have to get this.â
âI know.â
âThen why did you?â
He shrugged, looking ahead again. âYou looked sad today.â
The words were simple. Gentle. Too gentle.
Your fingers tightened around the bag.
That was the problem with Kim Seungmin. He noticed too much. He noticed the silences you tried to hide inside jokes. He noticed when your smile came a second too late. He noticed when you were tired before you admitted it to yourself.
And lately, he had started noticing the way you pulled away.
You hated yourself for it.
Because you liked him.
You liked him so much it scared you.
It had started slowly, or maybe it had always been there and you had only recently become brave enough to name it. It was in the way your eyes found him first in a crowded room. In the way his laugh made everything feel lighter. In the way you saved things throughout the day just to tell him later, because somehow telling Seungmin made them matter more.
But whenever he got close, whenever it felt like he might feel the same, fear climbed into your throat and stole all the air from your lungs.
So you ran.
Not far. Never far enough to lose him.
Just enough to make sure he never got the chance to decide he regretted wanting you.
The first time, it had been during a film night.
You had been sitting on the sofa in his living room after everyone else had slowly disappeared, leaving only you and Seungmin under the dim yellow light. The film was still playing, though neither of you had been paying attention for at least twenty minutes.
Your shoulder had been pressed against his.
Then his hand had shifted.
Barely.
His pinky brushed yours, soft and tentative, like a question he was too careful to ask out loud.
Your entire body froze.
Seungmin noticed immediately. Of course he did.
âYou okay?â he asked quietly.
You nodded too fast. âYeah. Iâm just thirsty.â
You stood before he could say anything else, nearly tripping over the blanket tangled around your legs. You laughed it off, disappeared into the kitchen, and stayed there long enough for the moment to die.
When you came back, he had moved slightly away.
Not enough for anyone else to notice.
But you noticed.
The second time, he told you that you looked pretty.
It was raining, your hair was a mess, and you were wearing one of his hoodies because he had insisted youâd get sick walking home without it.
âYou look cute,â he said, voice soft, almost shy.
Your stomach flipped.
So you snorted and said, âYou need your eyes checked.â
His smile faded a little.
âI mean it,â he said.
You looked away. âDonât.â
You hadnât meant for it to come out so sharp.
Seungmin went quiet.
After that, he stopped saying things like that.
And now, walking beside him with the warm pastry in your hands and his jacket around your shoulders because he had given that to you too, the guilt pressed heavier than the cold.
âYouâve been quiet,â he said.
âIâm always quiet.â
âNo, youâre not.â He looked at you then. âNot with me.â
Your throat tightened.
There it was again. That softness. That careful honesty.
You forced a laugh. âMaybe Iâm tired.â
âMaybe,â he said, but he didnât sound convinced.
The walk back to your apartment was shorter than usual. Or maybe you were just too aware of him beside you. Too aware of the way his hand swung close to yours but never touched it. Too aware of the space he was leaving because you had taught him to leave it.
When you reached your building, you turned quickly.
âWell. Thanks for walking me back.â
Seungmin didnât answer right away.
He stood under the streetlight, hair slightly damp from the misty rain, hands tucked into his coat pockets. His expression was calm, but his eyes werenât. They were searching yours, patient and tired and a little hurt.
âCan we talk?â he asked.
Your pulse jumped.
âAbout what?â
He gave you a look. Not annoyed. Not angry. Just knowing.
You hated how gently he saw through you.
âAbout you running away from me,â he said.
The breath left your body.
âIâm notââ
âYou are.â
You looked down. âSeungminâŠâ
âIâm not trying to corner you.â His voice softened immediately. âI just need to understand. Because every time I think weâre getting somewhere, you disappear. And I keep wondering if I did something wrong.â
Your head snapped up. âNo. You didnât.â
âThen what is it?â
You opened your mouth.
Nothing came out.
Seungmin took half a step closer, then stopped, as if remembering. As if even now, he was giving you room to choose.
That almost broke you.
âI like you,â he said quietly.
Your heart stuttered.
His cheeks were pink, but he didnât look away.
âI thought maybe you liked me too,â he continued. âSometimes it feels like you do. And then I reach for you, and you pull back like Iâve scared you.â
Your eyes burned.
âYou do scare me,â you whispered.
Something flickered across his face.
You rushed to explain. âNot because of anything youâve done. Youâre not scary. Youâre⊠youâre the opposite, actually. Thatâs the problem.â
His brows pulled together. âHow is that a problem?â
âBecause youâre good to me.â
Your voice cracked on the last word, and suddenly there was no stopping it.
âYouâre so good to me, and I donât know what to do with it. I donât know how to just accept it without waiting for the moment it changes. Every time you look at me like that, I start thinking youâll realise you made a mistake.â
Seungminâs expression softened.
You wiped quickly at your cheek, embarrassed by the tears that had escaped.
âIâve never felt like this before,â you admitted. âNot properly. Not like this. And I keep thinking maybe Iâm not good enough for you. Maybe you just havenât noticed yet. So when you get close, I panic. I pull away before you can.â
There was a long silence.
Then Seungmin said your name so softly it hurt.
âCan I hold your hand?â
You looked at him through blurry eyes.
He waited.
No pressure. No teasing. No impatience.
Just Seungmin, standing in the rain, asking instead of taking.
You nodded.
He reached for your hand slowly, giving you every chance to change your mind. His fingers wrapped around yours, warm and steady, and you realised with a sharp ache in your chest that you had spent so long fearing this feeling you had forgotten you wanted it.
âYou donât get to decide that for me,â he said.
You blinked. âWhat?â
âYou donât get to decide youâre not good enough for me. Thatâs my choice.â
More tears slipped down your face.
âAnd I already chose,â he added.
Your lips trembled. âSeungminâŠâ
âI like you,â he said again, firmer this time. âNot some perfect version of you. Not the version you think you need to become before someone can love you. You. The person who overthinks everything. The person who pretends she isnât cold when sheâs shaking. The person who laughs at my jokes even when theyâre not funny.â
A wet laugh escaped you.
His mouth curved.
âTheyâre usually funny,â he said.
âTheyâre really not.â
âSee? Mean.â His thumb brushed carefully over your knuckles. âAnd I still like you.â
The laugh broke into something closer to a sob.
Seungminâs face softened again. âYou donât have to stop being scared all at once. Iâm not asking you to. Just⊠donât run without telling me why. Let me stay. Let me prove I mean it.â
Your chest ached so badly you pressed your free hand against it.
âWhat if I mess it up?â
âThen we talk.â
âWhat if I get scared again?â
âThen Iâll remind you.â
âWhat if you get tired of me?â
His eyes grew serious.
âI wonât.â
âYou donât know that.â
âI know myself,â he said. âAnd I know you.â
The certainty in his voice was quiet, but it settled over you like warmth.
He lifted his other hand, then paused. âCan I?â
You nodded again.
He touched your cheek gently, wiping away a tear with his thumb. The contact was so tender it made your eyes close.
âYouâre not hard to love,â he whispered.
That was the sentence that undid you.
For so long, you had carried the fear like a secret. That being wanted was temporary. That being known was dangerous. That if someone came close enough, they would find every uncertain, fragile part of you and decide it was too much.
But Seungmin was looking at you like he had already seen it.
And he was still here.
âIâm sorry,â you whispered.
âI know.â
âI didnât mean to hurt you.â
âI know that too.â
You opened your eyes. âI really do like you.â
His smile returned slowly, soft and beautiful. âGood.â
You stared at him. âGood?â
âI was hoping youâd say that.â
Your face warmed despite the tears. âYou confessed first.â
âI did. Very bravely, actually.â
You laughed again, and this time it came easier.
Seungmin squeezed your hand. âSo?â
âSo what?â
âWill you let me take you on a date?â
Your heart fluttered.
âA real one?â
âAs opposed to all the fake dates weâve apparently been going on?â
You frowned. âThose were not dates.â
He raised an eyebrow. âI bought you food, walked you home, gave you my jacket, and listened to you complain for an hour about your neighbourâs dog.â
âThat is friendship.â
âThat is devotion.â
You rolled your eyes, but your smile gave you away.
Seungmin looked pleased, then a little shy. âA real date,â he said. âNo running away. And if you get nervous, you tell me.â
You looked at your joined hands.
For once, the fear was still there, but it wasnât louder than everything else.
It wasnât louder than his warmth.
It wasnât louder than the way he waited.
It wasnât louder than the part of you that wanted, desperately, to stay.
âOkay,â you whispered.
His eyes lit up. âOkay?â
You nodded. âOkay. Iâll go on a date with you.â
Seungminâs smile widened, and it was so sweet, so openly happy, that you wondered how you had ever convinced yourself he was anything but sincere.
âCan I hug you?â he asked.
You stepped into him before you could overthink it.
His arms came around you carefully at first, then more securely when you melted against him. He was warm, solid, real. His chin rested lightly against the top of your head, and you felt him exhale like he had been holding his breath for days.
âIâm proud of you,â he murmured.
âFor crying in the middle of the street?â
âFor staying.â
You closed your eyes.
Your hands clutched the back of his coat.
âIâll try,â you whispered.
âThatâs enough.â
And maybe, for the first time, you believed him.
Because Seungmin didnât ask you to be fearless.
He only held you a little closer, right there under the streetlight, and made fear feel like something you didnât have to carry alone.
Your pussy is completely soaked now, Jisung's face shiny with your juices as he continues to eat you out. Minho reaches down and slaps Jisung's cheek, marking it with your own wetness. "Open your mouth,ji..."
Jisung instantly drops a sloppy kiss on your clit before opening his mouth wide, panting heavily with his tongue out, presenting himself completely to Minho. Your juices drip from his lips and chin, his entire face glistening with your arousal. Minho spits right onto his tongue, claiming him.
"That's it, good boy. Now go back to worshipping her pussy."
Jisung dives back between your thighs without hesitation, lapping hungrily at your swollen clit. His tongue flicks rapidly while two fingers push inside you, curling to find that sensitive spot.*
"Oh fuckâ" you gasp as Minho leans down, his lips brushing your ear. "Gonna make you cum on his face, sweetheart. You ready?"
Minho starts to guide your hips, making you grind your pussy harder against Jisung's eager mouth.* "Ride his fucking face, baby... use him like the pathetic boy he is. He loves having his mouth stuffed with your perfect pussy..."
You start to grind your hips, fucking Jisung's face with your juicy pussy. He moans loudly, his hands gripping your thighs as he eats you out like a man possessed. Minho watches with a smirk, his dark gaze making you even more turned on.
In my opinion, here are some deaths in the Stranger Things finale that should have occurred if they didnt all have crazy plot armor Firstly, Steve and Dustin should have died together. The number of times they say âyou die, I dieâ throughout the series, even in previous seasons, suggests that they should have met their end together. Secondly, Will should have died when Joyce killed Vecna because hes still technically connected to the hive mind. Just imagine Joyce killing Vecna only to find her son dead, realising she had technically killed him. Lastly, Eleven should have died when Hopper shot her instead of him being in a trance when he shot. If Hopper had actually shot her, they would have had to find another way to kill Vecna. - anyway i did actually really enjoy the finale i just felt it was a little unsatisfying and i think more people should have died
Synopsis: After years of loving Seungmin through comebacks and tours, you realise understanding his life doesnât make the waiting hurt lessâand you choose to let go, even though you both still love each other.
a/n: sorry i havenât posted in so longg ive been super busy but i should be back to posting regularly again
Cw: angst, no happy ending
Wc: 2,181
The months that are yours are always so good itâs almost cruel.
Theyâre the quiet stretches between the noiseâwhen the promotions slow down, when the flights stop stacking like dominoes, when his phone isnât vibrating every five minutes. Those months feel like youâre allowed to exhale again.
Seungmin cooks badly on purpose because he likes the way you laugh when he pretends it was âdefinitely meant to taste like thatâ. He falls asleep with his cheek pressed to your shoulder, arm heavy around your waist like heâs anchoring himself. He sends you voice notes just to say, âIâm walking home,â as if the fact heâs walking home to you is the most ordinary, precious thing in the world.
In those months, itâs easy to forget the other version of your relationship exists.
The one where you become patient by necessity.
The one where you love him through a screen.
The one where âIâll tryâ becomes a whole season of your life.
You donât think he does it because he doesnât care. Thatâs never been the issue.
If anything, Seungmin caring is part of the problemâbecause when heâs drowning, he tries to protect you from the chaos by shrinking himself down and going quiet. He doesnât turn cold. He turns guilty. He turns careful. He turns into someone whoâs trying so hard not to disappoint you that he disappears.
And youâve spent years learning how to miss him without making it his fault.
But missing someone you love still hurts like hell, even when you understand why.
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This time, itâs tour straight into comeback prep.
This time, itâs the same storyâbut youâre older now, and you canât pretend your chest doesnât ache the way it always does.
He texts when he can.
Seungmin: landed
Seungmin: sorry iâm late again
Seungmin: are you eating?
Seungmin: i miss you
And you believe him, every time.
You also notice the gaps getting easier for him. Or maybe youâre just noticing the pattern more clearly.
Because youâve done this dance for years.
A few golden months of normal.
Then weeks of him slipping through your fingers again.
Then you rebuilding your expectations down to something smaller so you donât break.
You keep telling yourself: This is what dating an idol looks like.
And maybe it is.
But youâre starting to wonder what it looks like to date someone and not feel like youâre living on borrowed time.
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When he gets back from tour, you donât rage. You donât send paragraphs at 2 a.m. You donât guilt him for being exhausted.
You wait until you can talk properly.
Thatâs what mature people do, you tell yourself.
So you wait.
And then comeback prep swallows him whole again, and it becomes another week of almosts. Another string of âIâll call laterâ that never lands. Another Sunday you keep free because he might have timeâuntil he doesnât.
Youâre not even surprised when you get:
Seungmin: schedule changed. iâm sorry. can we do another day?
You stare at the message with a calm you donât recognise at first.
Not numbness. Not bitterness.
Just⊠clarity.
You type back:
You: Can we talk in person? Iâm coming over after your rehearsal. If youâre too tired, Iâll leave.
Three dots.
Seungmin: no. please come. i want to see you.
That last part makes your throat tighten. Because of course he does. He always does.
Wanting has never been the problem.
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He opens the door with that familiar softness in his faceâeyes widening, relief flickering before worry catches up.
âHey,â he says quietly. âCome in.â
He looks like heâs running on fumes: hoodie, damp hair, tired eyes trying their best to stay gentle. He smiles anyway, small and real, like your presence is something his body recognises as safe.
âAre you okay?â he asks immediately, voice careful.
You nod. âYeah. I am.â
He searches your face. âThat sounded like a lie.â
âItâs not,â you say, and you mean it. âIâm just⊠serious.â
His shoulders dip like heâs bracing himself. âOkay.â
You sit together on the sofa. Not close enough to touch yet. Not far enough to feel like strangers. The space between you feels deliberate, respectfulâlike youâre both trying not to tip anything over.
He rubs his palms against his joggers, fidgeting. âIâm sorry Iâve been⊠absent.â
âI know youâre busy,â you say gently. âI know what this part of the year is like.â
He looks up, eyes shining already. âYou always say that.â
âBecause itâs true.â
He swallows. âThen why do you look like youâre about to break my heart?â
The honesty in his voice knocks the air out of you.
You exhale slowly. âBecause I think I have to.â
Seungmin goes still. Completely still. Like his body is trying to freeze time.
âNo,â he whispers. âPleaseâdonâtââ
You lift a hand, not to stop him, but to slow the moment down. âLet me talk. Please.â
He nods once, hard, throat bobbing. His eyes donât leave yours.
You speak carefully, like youâre carrying something fragile.
âThis isnât just about now,â you say. âItâs not just tour and this comeback.â
His face crumples a fraction. He knows.
âYouâve always had these stretches,â you continue, voice calm even as your eyes burn, âwhere I get you for a few monthsâproperlyâand itâs amazing. Iâm not pretending it isnât. Those months are⊠theyâre some of the happiest times of my life.â
Seungminâs breath stutters, like heâs relieved and devastated at the same time.
âAnd then,â you say softly, âit flips. Tour. Comeback. Tour. Promotions. And I become someone who waits.â
Seungmin shakes his head, small and broken. âI never want you to wait.â
âI know,â you say quickly. âI know you donât. And I know you love me. Youâre not cruel. Youâre not careless. Youâre trying your best.â
His eyes spill over. He scrubs his cheek with his sleeve like heâs embarrassed to cry, but he canât stop.
âI justââ he starts, voice cracking. âI donât know how to do it all.â
âAnd Iâm not asking you to,â you say, firmer now. âThatâs the point.â
He looks at you like he doesnât understand.
You swallow. âI canât keep being in a relationship where the hardest parts are normal. Where every intense schedule means Iâm back to counting messages and hoping for ten minutes.â
Seungminâs mouth opens. Closes. His hands curl tight in his lap.
âI donât want to make you choose,â you add, immediately, because you see panic bloom in his eyes. âIâm not here to say âpick me or your careerâ. That would be unfair, and itâs not who I am, and itâs not what I want.â
His voice comes out rough. âThen what do you want?â
You blink back tears. âI want a relationship where I donât feel like my role is to wait for it to start again.â
The silence is heavy, but it isnât angry. Itâs grief.
Seungmin whispers, âBut we have months. We do. When itâs calm, weâre good, right? Weâreââ He laughs once, broken. âWeâre really good.â
You nod. âWe are.â
Hope flickers on his face like a match.
âAnd thatâs why this is so hard,â you continue, voice shaking. âBecause the good months donât cancel out how I feel during the bad ones. They just⊠make the bad ones feel like falling from a higher place.â
His eyes squeeze shut. Another tear slips.
âI donât blame you,â you say softly. âI donât blame your job, either. I understand it. Iâve understood it the whole time. Iâve been proud of you the whole time.â
Seungmin looks up, devastated. âThen why canât you stay?â
You inhale, slow. âBecause understanding doesnât stop me being lonely.â
His breath catches, like the truth physically hurts him.
âI donât want to become resentful,â you say, voice gentle but steady. âI donât want to look at your schedule and feel dread. I donât want to hear âcomebackâ and feel my stomach drop. I donât want to start hating the thing you love because it keeps taking you away from me.â
Seungmin shakes his head quickly. âI can fix it. I canâ Iâll make time. Iâll talk toââ
âMin,â you interrupt softly.
He stops. His eyes are wide, pleading.
âYou shouldnât have to fight your life to make room for me,â you say. âAnd I shouldnât have to shrink myself to fit into whatever space is left.â
He looks like heâs been punched.
You reach out thenâcarefulâand take his hand. His fingers clutch yours instantly like heâs starving for it.
âI love you,â you say. âI love you so much. Thatâs not the question. The question is⊠is this good for me? Is it good for you?â
His lips tremble. âItâs good for me,â he whispers, desperate. âYouâreâyouâre my safe place.â
Your throat tightens. âAnd Iâve been trying to be that. I really have. But I canât be your safe place if Iâm falling apart quietly in the background.â
Seungmin makes a small sound, like heâs trying not to sob. âSo youâre leaving.â
You nod, tears finally spilling. âYeah.â
His hand grips yours harder, then loosens like he remembers he isnât allowed to hold you against your will.
He wipes at his face, breath shaking. âFuck,â he whispers. Itâs not anger. Itâs just pain.
âIâm sorry,â you say immediately.
He shakes his head, a little frantic. âDonâtâdonât be sorry. Youâre not doing anything wrong. I justââ His voice breaks completely. âI donât want this.â
âI donât either,â you whisper. âBut I think itâs the healthiest thing.â
He stares at you through tears. âHealthy,â he repeats, like the word doesnât belong here.
You squeeze his hand. âI want you to chase what you love without carrying the guilt of hurting me every time it gets intense. And I want to build a life where Iâm not constantly bracing for the next goodbye.â
His face crumples again. âI never meant to hurt you.â
âI know.â Your voice turns warmer, softer. âThatâs why Iâm not angry at you, Seungmin. Iâm angry at the situation. Iâm angry at time. Iâm angry at how often Iâve felt like Iâm dating your absence.â
He closes his eyes, tears tracking down his cheeks. âIâm so sorry.â
You let yourself look at him properlyâthis boy who loves you in every way he knows how, and still canât give you the one thing you need most: consistency.
âIâm proud of you,â you whisper. âIâm proud of how hard you work. Iâm proud of how kind you are even when youâre exhausted. Iâm proud of you for caring as much as you do.â
Seungminâs face twists, voice small. âIf youâre proud of me, why does it feel like Iâm losing everything?â
Because you are, you think. And so am I.
You say, instead: âBecause weâre human.â
He laughs once, wet and helpless. âThatâs a terrible reason.â
âI know,â you whisper, teary. âI wish love was enough.â
His gaze flickers over your face like heâs memorising you. âCan I⊠can I hold you? Just for a second?â
You nod.
He pulls you into him like heâs afraid youâll disappear, but heâs still gentleâalways gentleâarms wrapping around you carefully, shaking with quiet sobs. He presses his face into your hair and breathes like heâs trying to take you with him into his lungs.
âI love you,â he whispers, voice wrecked. âI love you so much.â
You hold him back, and it hurts, because this part has never been difficult. Loving him is the easiest thing youâve ever done.
âI love you too,â you whisper. âThatâs why Iâm doing this kindly. Not dramatically. Not cruelly. Just⊠honestly.â
He clings a little tighter, then slowly lets go.
When you pull back, his eyes are red, lashes wet, expression shattered.
He swallows hard. âCan weââ He canât even finish the sentence. His voice breaks again.
You squeeze his hand one last time. âI donât think we should do the in-between thing. Itâll just keep us stuck. Itâll keep me waiting, and itâll keep you guilty.â
He looks like he wants to argue. Like he wants to beg. Like he wants to promise you the impossible.
Instead, he whispers, âOkay.â
Itâs the most devastating kind of respect.
You stand. Your legs feel unsteady, but your decision doesnât.
At the door, you pause and look back.
Seungmin is sitting exactly where you left him, shoulders shaking, hands twisted together like he doesnât know what to do with them now. He looks up at you like heâs trying to be brave.
âIâm sorry,â he says again, small.
âI know,â you whisper. âAnd I forgive you.â
His face crumples at that, like forgiveness is somehow worse than anger.
You swallow your own tears. âBe happy, Min. Really. Be happy.â
He nods, crying. âYou too.â
You leave before either of you can say something that would make you stay.
Outside, the air is cold and sharp, and the world moves on like it always doesâcars passing, people laughing, time refusing to pause.
Could you write fluff Leeknow x best friend (or 9th member if you prefer) femreader headcannons with a mention or something of Leeknow saying that reader looks like if his cat soonie was a human. And that why he has a softer side to her
pure fluff/reader is implied to look like a cat/teasing
đĄđ¶đ»đź đ°đ”đźđ - I didn't think I would get a suggestion so quick omgh, but this is so cute so I'm gonna do it!!! And sorry if this is too short!!!
Bestfriend!Minho, who always likes to touch your face, caressing your face like he would with his cats.
Bestfriend!Minho would bring you to his house so he could take thousands of pics of his two babies playing and cuddling with each other.
Bestfriend!Minho would randomly bring up that you look like his cat as you lay on his couch; he would murmur quietly with a soft undertone in his voice. "You know...you really look like Soonie..." He would stare at you intently.
Bestfriend!Minho who would be pissed after practice, but always have soft tone whenever he talked with you, he didn't care how mad he was, he would never speak at you with angry.
Bestfriend!Minho would blush slightly as he watched you lie on his chest, nuzzling closer to him, just as his cats would.
Seungmin who buys you a ring after coming back from a tour and planned the proposal when he was in the plane, noticing that he truly couldn't live apart from you.