Ember Phoenix🐦‍🔥

🫶🫂🔥🐦‍🔥 they/them and fi/fire/fireself physically and mentally disabled♿♾️🧑🏼‍🦽🩼 certified weird queer femme (with a sprinkle of butch) hipcrippunk 💅✨☮️ (hippie cripple punk) 17 (DANCING QUEEEEEEEEN, YOUNG AND SWEEEET) profile pic description: photoof dark grey ash with a few glowing red embers beneath it header description: painting of a massive wing attached to someone's body, with the wing coloured in a gradient from glowing yellow, to orange, to red, to cherry, to purple. the painting is called the guardian, artist unknown. photo creds to httyraptor PREVIOUS ACCOUNTS emberphoenixisgoingtolive and emberphoenixthesecond NOW INACTIVE ✨LESBIAN THESBIAN✨ and PROUD AROMANTIC 💚🤍🖤

[emberphoenixisgoingtolivee]

Intro post - the epic redo

HIIIIIII HIHIHI im BACK 🫶🫂🔥 third time's the charm, they say

my name is Ember Phoenix [name backstory here] :D

my pronouns are they/them/theirs/themself and fi/fire/fires [how to use my neopronouns!], and i'm a disabled, queer person who's a writer, musician, songwriter, and survivor (of multiple kinds of abuse and trauma). i'm also an avid fan of jurassic world camp cretaceous and chaos theory, and at the moment i'm known for my headcanons posts and fanfic

Scam story - PLEASE READ!!!!

i currently write fanfic on ao3 - DO NOT CALL ME EMBER PHOENIX OR MENTION MY TUMBLR ON AO3. my user is Double_Trouble_36.

basic DNI category, i block as i see fit. i am pro human rights in all contexts (pro Giving Everyone The Means To Survive Comfortably As A Social Priority, pro BLM, pro Palestine, pro Indigenous landback, pro choice, pro covid safety, pro masking, anti ice, etc)

i am not a good person. i am a person who does their best do good things as much as possible

i do not have the spoons or money to donate to fundraisers - please do not ask me to!

*everything i post is okay to reblog!*

get to know me better!

BOUNDARIES <- please read /gen

likes

dislikes

random quirks

i'm a hippie!

anything under the hashtag #ember phoenix

heads up/byf (not long enough to make its own post lol XD):

i'm physically and mentally disabled: this means my processing speed can be slow and i can have very little energy or concentration, so please be patient with me :']

i’m extremely physically affectionate so i often give my friends virtual hugs (but i will ofc respect your boundaries)

i am english so i call people “darling” and “love” as casual terms of endearment between friends/acquaintances

personal posts - #ember phoenix

my music posts - #ep's music #ep's piano #ep's violin #the phoenix sings

my music covers - #ep's covers

rambling/archiving my performance experience - #ep performs

my writing posts - #ep's writing

writing lessons - #ep's writing guides

posts i make and reblog specifically about thoughtfully creating disabled characters in media - #creating disabled characters

my poetry/free verse/spoken word - #the phoenix speaks #poetry #spilled ink

my original stories - #komorebi universe

my fanfic - #fanfic #fanfiction

politics posts - #politics

asks - #ep's inbox #inbox #asks #ama #ask me anything

polls - #poll #poll time

art - #ep's art #art #fanart (if applicable)

character headcanons - #character headcanons (in use for jwcc and jwct headcanons at the moment)

image description provided - #image description #image described #id in alt text

series focused on learning about different countries and cultures with easily digestable facts - #a country a day keeps the hatred away

my university journey (from choosing to - hopefully!! - graduation) - #ep uni posting

reblog - #reblog

(nick)names it's okay to call me:

Ember Phoenix <- full name

Bebe

Phoenix

Nix

Nixie

EP

anything @s4mmysc0wm1ttenz nicknames me. paw is creative on a level i have never encountered in my life /pos. bun has free license to give me any nickname she wants /gen

I will no longer be accepting messages from people I don't follow. If you want to message me, send me an ask and I will decide if I'll allow you to message me.

[imjunebitch]

i hate when ur arguing against age verification online and some asshole goes "oh so u want little kids to be watching PORN then huh" cuz like. no obviously I don't want that in the sense that yk. I'm not sitting around hoping a 12 year old is watching porn. I just remember not even knowing that something that had happened to me WAS sexual assault until I was like 13, because I had restricted internet access and my parents had given me a very vague unhelpful and evangelical description of sex. kids should know what sex is so in the worst case scenarios like what happened to me they can at least know what happened and what to do next. sorry.

[creatingblackcharacters]

my second submission for your character critique event!

(please could you hashtag unreality/mentions of unreality? this shouldn't be too bad, but i don't want to trigger anyone)

hope you have a lovely day! 🫶

Event Rules: HERE

How do you feel about this prompt and/or character description?

Black readers: Could currently use work (how?)

Black readers: Sounds cool so far!

Everyone else: Could currently use work (how?)

Everyone else: Sounds cool so far!

Remaining time: 2 days 20 hours

[ckret2]

getting scambot messages from random accounts that clearly used to be normal active blogs is sad enough. you know that there used to be a real person on that blog until they were tricked into handing their password to the digital fae.

but it's an entirely new level of tragic when somebody you've actually spoken to gets turned into a bot account. it's like peeking at a zombie apocalypse through the window and realizing one of the shambling corpses was your friend.

and then the zombie catches sight of you, lurches up to your window, and shouts through the glass that they accidentally reported your account to tumblr and you'll be deactivated unless you click this link.

RIP to the blog that used to DM me to tell me they liked my new chapters. Their last known words spoken before being turned, 17 hours ago: "Ggs!" They were praising someone's deadlift.

[ckret2]

the message they tried to get me with is probably the same message that got them, so for anybody who hasn't already been warned about the signs of a zombie account:

if you get something like this ↑ they're gonna follow up by instructing you to contact tumblr support on discord and give you contact info; or they're gonna link a website that looks sort of like tumblr support and say you have to email them; or any variety of "you must now contact tumblr, here is how you contact tumblr."

whatever they send you, it Does Not lead to tumblr. it leads to the master zombie that bit them and inducted them into the ranks of the undead, and will bite you the second they have your email and password. i might be confusing zombies and vampires. anyway,

it's easier to fall for these messages because the blog doesn't LOOK like a bot blog, because it ISN'T a bot blog. it's a normal person's blog that got accessed by a bot, meaning the blog's content CLEARLY looks like a real active user when you click on it. and yes—it might even be a blog you already know. sometimes bots like this go down a blog's DMs or reblogs and message people they've previously interacted with.

they got one of my treasured followers, and they can get you too. don't fall for their tricks. know the signs.

[emberphoenixisgoingtolivee]

Fic authors Artist self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics pieces that you've written drawn, then pass on to at least five other writers/artists. Let’s spread the self-love 💗(🌷<- for u)

hello my darling! 🫶🥰

🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷<- for u

i held off on posting this cos i KNEW i was hiding peak up my sleeve that wasn't quite finished, sooo ...

(Kenji doing the exact same pose in both pics..... omg my son NEVER change)

image descriptions to be added!!!

[emberphoenixisgoingtolivee]

what if we rewrote the stars?

yasammy lighting study ✨

been on an art kick recently ^^

lighting-less version under the cut

[assignedmale]

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but the doctor down the street who gives me my T shots in a clinic so small that it's just two rooms was excited for me when she said my voice had dropped yes, India made legal gender change impossible but the receptionist who could see that I was a man didn't bat an eyelash when I asked to see the gynecologist and called me sir when he asked how I wanted to pay yes, India made legal gender change impossible but the barber cuts my hair exactly how I want it and never gave me strange looks for being in a men's salon not even back when I didn't pass as one

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but my friends have always gendered me correctly and stick to it even when it confuses other people and my friend's little sibling calls me older brother in Kannada yes, India made legal gender change impossible but my dog learned my new name quicker than the humans and she runs to give me a kiss when she's told to without being confused about who's being referred to

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but I can feel the Adam's apple growing in my throat and my muscles getting stronger, and my smile more real and I'm growing a beard, and I talk more freely

yes, India made legal gender change impossible but I'm here, and I'm alive, and so are you and there are good people, people who care and don't let them make you forget that-- you are not alone.

[cocothesilkmothjellyfish]

Guys I kinda just came out to my 7-year-old sister by explaining to her what the LGBTQ community is. She just nodded in a very serious way while listening to me as a was showing her the queer flags. When I showed her the bisexual flag, I said "This is my flag. I like both girls and boys." And my sweetheart superhero of a sister just raised her hands to the sky, said "YAYYYYY!" and threw herself into my arms.

I love her so much 😭

I shall leave you to the wise words that my sister will write when I allowed her to take the IPad: 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💓💓💓💓💓💓💓😌💓💓💓💓💓💓💓🌌🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️😝😝😝😝👍👍😝🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🦄🦄🦄🦋🦋🦋🦄🦄🦄🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐆🐘🐘🐘🐘🐘🐘🐘🐘🐘🐘🦘🦘🦘🦘🦘🦘🌭🌭🌭🍔🍔🍔🍔

[tall]

[throneofrayllum]

The Ariana Grande thing is genuinely concerning.

(and not just her - all of Hollywood)

Little girls are watching this and thinking that its ok.

(Tw eating disorder/anorexia discussion under the cut. Some triggering stuff might be mentioned, please do not read if that will cause you distress.)

Do you know how many women posted about "not eating their popcorn in the theater when they saw Ariana's waist" THATS NOT OK. No one is blaming Ariana (or any of the malnourished female stars) for these women's weak senses of self esteem and confidence, that's their issue, but I don't really even give a shit about that. If a grown woman wants to starve herself, go ahead. It's her body. She can do that.

I'm worried about the little girls. Because once upon a time I was a teenage girl with an eating disorder. Thank god the ozempic epidemic wasn't happening when I was sick, I probably wouldn't have had half the desire to recover.

Like y'all I am so sure that in many ed facilities, the kids weren't allowed to watch wicked. Which sucks. It's a great film. But I know damn well that if I had a child with an eating disorder, there is no way I would let them watch wicked.

And the people who cry "body shaming" when people point out these concerns are full of shit, because they almost always respond with some form of "I bet you're a fat cow". I literally just saw someone say "I bet you're a fat whore." Which it should also be said that most of these women's defenders are in fact young girls, so that's not their fault. They're being influenced, and quite frankly brainwashed, by diet culture.

No, we shouldn't be commenting on women's bodies, but sometimes we do need to. This isn't a one person issue. It's a large issue, and not just in Hollywood. My friends ballet instructor from high school is a very petite woman. Barely ate as well. She went on ozempic and is now lighter than her 13 year old daughter. She brags about it too. That's not normal, that's sick. My sister told me a story of a young woman who had an ed, and convinced a med spa to put her on ozempic. She's 23 and now about 80 pounds. Not fucking normal.

(I'd also like to say that commenting on someone's body from a place of concern is sometimes needed, even if it hurts feelings. My sister would put me in my place when I used to brag about my thinness, and I needed it. One time she literally told me "You don't look good, you look like a little girl". Now, was that kind? No. Do I recommend saying something like that? No, I think a kinder and more gentle approach is needed. However, my sister not feeding into my delusion was so helpful, even if it hurt. I needed someone to get my head out of the clouds, and my friends sure as hell weren't doing that, and my mom was too scared.)

I'm a grown woman. I am comfortable in my adult body. I have no desire to look like a little girl, why would I want that? That would mean I wouldn't be able to defend myself well if needed. It would mean I have less energy to work and make money for myself and my future. I would have less mental clarity. I wouldn't be able to carry my nephews for extended periods of time.

But for some reason, society has convinced women (and girls) that it's ok to be fatigued, as long as you're skinny. Because all that matters is skinny, right?

Of course, I know that some women have medical issues that cause weight loss. They are not part of this conversation. Although....

It's hard to recognize when someone is sick now. Because everyone looks sick. That shouldn't be the norm.

And no one can tell me I'm crazy for saying this, because I've fucking been there. You think a recovered anorexic can't recognize the signs? Bones are a big thing for us sick girls. We fucking love bones. I used to lay down on my floor naked and fucking marvel at the way my hip bones jutted out from beneath my skin. I used to cry because my sternum and collar bones weren't visible enough. I felt giddy when someone looked at me with concern. I loved that I fit into little girls clothing. I loved that everyone thought I was four years younger than I actually was. So yeah, I know what the fuck I'm talking about.

It's a sickness. A mental sickness. And when you defend it you just normalize it. Anorexia should not be normalized. Women looking frail and like children should not be normalized.

Anorexia kills people. There are girls I went to treatment with that are now in the ground. Fuck everyone who defends this shit.

I'm not saying this to bash Ariana or any of the other female stars who are playing into the skinny trend. I genuinely love Ariana, she's one of my most played artists. I think she' seems sweet too. But the reality is that young girls are watching this. And young girls are also watching their moms, sisters, coaches, aunts, etc. I want those young girls to have good examples, I want them to be healthy. We all need to be better for the girls that are growing up in this generation.

(I'd also like to say that I know damn well that all genders can suffer from eating disorders, including men and boys. However, it is very prevalent among girls and women.)

And look, if I get heat for this so be it. I'm not sorry that I don't want people starving. I'm not sorry that I don't want girls to waste their teenage years in treatment centers. I'm not sorry that I don't want people to fucking die from an illness that is preventable.

(ALSO DW GUYS I AM FULLY RECOVERED NOW. I honestly don't even think about food its great. If anyone who's struggling has read this, just know that it can get better. I'm not gonna say it does get better, because for a lot of people it won't. But it can. You just have to want it for yourself. No one can make you recover, it's up to you. I hope you want that for yourself.)

[emberphoenixisgoingtolivee]

AMAZING POINTS ALL AROUND

as someone who's been in the gymnastics industry for 11 years, i would like to add my thoughts if that's okay /genq

aesthetic sports are a hotbed for abuse and eating disorder culture. many young gymnasts are taught to track their weight, discouraged from eating, and indoctrinated into a deeply disturbing obsession with their body's size and looks. i am so so glad not to have experienced this firsthand, because if i had, i would be a lot worse off mentally.

fundamentally, gymnast or celebrity, it's all the same. your wellbeing becomes secondary to what you can produce, what you can present, what you can sell. because that's what it is. you are selling a product - yourself. your body becomes a commodity they can shape to what the consumers (slash judges) want. if it is fashionable to have super muscly gymnasts, thats what they will train. if it is fashionable to have super tiny super wiry gymnasts, then thats what they will train. it's horrible but it's the reality of the industry

[siffrin-enthusiast-deactivated2]

which mutual am i? ask game

[sk3tchyaliway27]

@br00k1ynns-wif3 basil and mindaro

@eterniascent tangerine

@ieatmacbooks Viridian /pos

@emberphoenixisgoingtolivee azure and mindaro

@darilynnz azure and tangerine

ALL of you are invited to my dinosaur birthday party

Open tags!!!

[emberphoenixisgoingtolivee]

lovely Aliway is basil and mindaro ^^

@httyraptor azure and tangerine frfr, plus basil and seafoam

@gayyyboykissrr mindaro, azure (shoutout your fics!!!), orchid, tengerine

@lemedstudent2021 orchid as well hehe, tangerine (i remember being so starstruck when u followed me hello you are a MED STUDENT????)

@dylacola seafoam, azure

@vahleeairbus-a330neo mindaro hehe

@sparkshock viridian (your MIND diva /pos), azure

@darilynnz azure, seafoam

@s4mmysqu33rm1ttenz tangerine, mindaro, breeze

ALL of u are invited to my dinosaur birthday party and ALL of you are going to therapy!!

[puppydogwhitaker]

PSA to fic readers, it is so hard to freak a fic writer out with your comments. we are just as crazy about the fic as you are.

tell me you love it. tell me it made you slam your laptop shut. tell me you brought it up at your college lecture about kink. key smash in all caps. quote the passage that made you think. i promise, we’ll love it.

we spend hours thinking about it, writing it, editing it. there is no such thing as over enthusiasm when you’re talking about our fics to us. we are sooooo weird about them, i assure you. you are just matching my freak. the freak bar is already set so high. feel no anxiety about enjoying something and letting the creator know.

[emberphoenixisgoingtolivee]

oh, i'll just go to the library for one book, and that's IT. just one. like this book here! that looks very interesting. i will take out this b- oh, but this book, now this looks very good too. ... it's unfair of me to choose :( i will just take them both, i can always renew them. now time for me to go and study- oh! what's this? oooh what an enticing blurb! i like this book too. my darling you shall go on the pile. everyone belongs. i can always renew them. and while i'm here.. ... i was looking for a book about- yes! this book! this is perfect! ohh i am so glad im not dead. now i have so many wonderful books. this is plenty :) i don't need anym- oh! look! another book... ... ........ .. . i can always renew them......

[cock-holliday]

Queer people getting to be open and talk about their desire for sex is important in a world where queer people are prevented from being with the people they want

Asexual people getting to be open and talk about not wanting sex and never having sex is important in a world that tries constantly to sell sex to us as an inevitable activity

Disabled people fighting for the right to marry is important in a world that holds life-saving benefits hostage and prevents one from marrying

Women fighting for the right to divorce or to never marry is important in a world that pushes women into a subordinate role of "wife"

Ex-Religious people fighting for the right to leave a religion or not be forced to convert to a religion is important in a world that subjects everyone to predatory missionary work

Religious people fighting for the right to practice their religion and do so openly is important in a world that prioritized religions over one another--often Christianity but not always

And you could substitute many more things into this. Young people fight to not be infantilized by authority, but they also in some areas fight to not be adultified. Some people have to fight so hard for a variety of reasons to be able to grow out their hair. Some people have to fight so hard to be able to cut it. Some fight to be allowed to wear coverings, some fight to be allowed to wear nothing. Some fight to be left alone, some fight to get the care they need. Some fight to be able to leave, some fight to be able to stay.

None of these comparable fights are opposed to one another, because the fight isn't about the specific thing, it is all about the same thing: autonomy.

Someone's fight to wear a dress is someone's fight to wear pants is someone's fight to live alone is someone's fight to live with someone is someone's fight to be left alone by medical institutions is someone's fight to be able to medically alter their body.

It is the same fight. People who want the opposite for themselves that I want for me are my siblings. We want the exact same thing: the choice to be who we want, how we want, on our terms.

And I WANT that for everyone. I want people to be allowed to choose what I wouldn't, do what I wouldn't, because then I would be free to do what I want and need.

[emberphoenixisgoingtolivee]

vent

tw - non contact csa

i was thirteen. i was thirteen and shaking in the cold. and she made me fucking strip. down to my UNDERWEAR. so she could see my scars. i didn't want to. i said no. i fucking said no. there was no reason for her to do that. i said no. there were no doctors. the door was locked. she didn't have to do that. she didn't need to see. i know i lied that i had scars there but that doesnt make it okay. i said no. i was trapped. she made me. she made me. i said no. i said no. i said no. i said no

[standwithdaanes]

having a process for people who have done morally horrific things to make amends, rejoin community, and do right going forward is actually fundamentally crucial for the left. having a clear and accessible pathway for people to be socially (if not interpersonally) forgiven is how you get people radicalized against capitalism and imperialism and white supremacy and patriarchy. its how you turn "these people think i am a bad person" into "these people think something and someone coerced or forced me into doing bad things, and these people want to help me do something about that."

if you want more revolutionaries, you must have a system to turn guilty, traumatized, angry bystanders and collaborators into revolutionaries. and I say a system and process because its not "oh the drone operator said they were sorry and felt bad so its all good now :)" there is no shortcut here. but it is absolutely necessary. no revolution is comprised of morally pure people. in many cases, the most devoted revolutionaries are the ones who know exactly what it is like on the other side.